I DO NOT OWN THE VAMPIRE DIARIES OR THE CHARACTERS.
Music Credit: "Until The End" – Breaking Benjamin
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'So clever, whatever, I'm done with these endeavors.
Alone – I'll walk the winding way – here I stay.
It's over – no longer I feel it growing stronger.
I live to die another day, until I fade away.
Why give up? Why give in? It's not enough – it never is.
So, I will go on, until the end.
We've become desolate. It's not enough – it never is.
But I will go on, until the end…'
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Chapter Nineteen:
My heart sank, as soon as the envelope was in my hands. I don't have to open it to know that it's nothing good. I was shaking, as I ripped it open. I tried not to focus on the fact that everyone's attention was now on me. I clutched the envelope, before reaching inside. Pictures fell out and I was left with a letter in my hand. Kol and Elijah bent down to retrieve the pictures. Klaus' eyes were glued to the letter in my hand. I know that handwriting. It's Damon's. He's escalating. I knew in my gut that he would, but that doesn't mean that I wasn't hoping against hope that he wouldn't. I took a deep breath and felt Klaus' hand brush mine. I looked down and took his hand tightly in mine. I can't even pretend like I'm not completely petrified.
'Dearest Bonnie,
It's adorable that you think that you've gotten away from me. I'll be seeing you much sooner than you know. Don't worry. I'll make sure that this trip is a memorable one. I wouldn't want you forgetting about me – would I? It'll be my pleasure to remind you who you belong to. You can play house with Klaus and the Mikaelson family as long as you like, but that doesn't change the fact that you'll always be mine. Don't you remember all the fun we used to have together? It's going to be just like old times. There's nothing sexier, than hearing you scream and watching you break under my fingers. You've always looked so beautiful painted with blood. Don't worry. You'll grow to like it. Ask Klaus how he and his brothers are enjoying my leftovers. First Katherine, then Rebekah and now you. I let them get away from me, but not you. You're special, Bon Bon. You were made for me and I was made to break you.
I'll be watching you.
All my love,
Damon'
I let the letter fall to the floor, after I finished reading it. I felt my knees begin to buckle underneath me, but I willed them not to. Klaus was fuming as he picked up the letter and read it. Kol and Esther reacted first. They walked me to the stairs and helped me sit down. I couldn't stop shaking. I couldn't focus on what they're saying.
"I…" I tried to speak up, but my voice died in my throat. "I just need…" I tried again, but failed.
"What darling?" Kol asked. I tried to slow my breathing.
"To shower. Can I shower? Please? I just need to… I can't… I'm sorry." I managed to get to my feet and I fled upstairs. I sank to the floor in my bathroom. I didn't even turn on the water, before I started to breakdown. The letter kept replaying in my mind. When is he coming? Why can't he just let me go?
"Bonnie," Rebekah walked into the bathroom. I looked up at her with a tear-streaked face. "We're going to face him together, you and I. We're going to make it through this. I promise." She assured me. I nodded. "Come on. Let's have a bath. We'll add bubbles and listen to happy music. Kol went out for chocolate ice cream. We're going to start with dessert and then finish with dinner. How does that sound? Katherine is picking out comedies for us all to watch afterwards. I told them that you and I needed a bit of girl time first. How does that sound?" She asked me, gently. I sniffled and wiped at my face.
"Perfect." I knew that in that moment, Rebekah may not actually be my sister, but she's as good as. She's always here for me, when I need her and she knew exactly what to do today, so I would slide back into my gnawing hole of despair.
I did my best to focus on the distractions at hand. They were nice. The bath helped. The ice cream definitely helped. The food-fight that Kol started by flinging a handful of mashed potatoes at Marcel's face definitely helped.
I settled in between Klaus and Rebekah. Kol put in Spy. Katherine assured me that it's one of the funniest movies she's ever seen. This, though, this is something Damon can't take away from me. What I feel here, isn't just because of some guy. It's not just because of Klaus. It's because of all of them. It's acceptance. It's family.
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'Surround me – it's easy to fall apart completely.
I feel you creeping up again, in my head.
It's over – no longer I feel it growing colder.
I knew this day would come to end. So, let this life begin.
Why give up? Why give in? It's not enough – it never is.
So, I will go on, until the end.
We've become desolate. It's not enough – it never is.
But, I will go on, until the end…
I've lost the way. I've lost the way,
But I will go on, until the end.
Living is hard enough, without you fucking it up.'
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