Why should I cry?

James looked out the window, it was a rainy day on the now muddy sand beach. The window was stained with water and blurred but you could still see the mud beach. Steven was beside him as Amethyst walked by and gave the two boys an odd look. "What'chya doing?" She cocked her head to the side walking closer to them. Silence was shared between the three.

"Do you think we'll be able to get Sapphire's gem shard back soon?" Steven sighed.

"Look Steven," James sighed. "we don't know where exactly my dad is right now, how are we even going to find him!" he waved his hands up as Steven was as quick as he could to dodge his flying arms. Steven stood up slowly looking at the scarf nest. It was ice covered and had even frozen a bit of the counter of the waffles. Pearl had taken Ruby on a morning practice mission to help her get into the swing of things without Sapphire or Garnet and to get her used to using only one gauntlet instead of two like usual.

"What if we can't find her gem piece?" Steven asked, in his mind he was still very hopeful that they would find the missing piece, but something told him that he should always consider the worst of what night just happen. It was still sad to think about being completely honest. This was his mom, although she was a mom he sort of didn't really know well. That was the one single problem with Garnet being a fusion, he still didn't really know Ruby or Sapphire all that well. To think that they were both his mom, but he didn't know them at all.

Steven sighed thinking. "We'll have a funeral for her." James said solemnly, Amethyst and Steven looked shocked at him. His eyes darted from person to crystal gem biting his bottom lip hard. "Don't tell Ruby."

Steven and Amethyst nodded looking at each, the three had to agree. "Yeah" "Okay." "That's fair." they all just shrugged to themselves.

"Pearl and Ruby should be back soon." Steven said looking at the clock. Pearl was always very precise when it came to her schedule, why would this time be any different?

Pearl looked down at Ruby, she was still rather angry, but this was still a good way for her to try and let out some of that rage on the inside. Unfortunately nothing could really ever let it all out with the whole thing with Sapphire's gemstone. Light flashed before the two as she saw that they were all back inside the house, there were flowers and a marker drawing of Sapphire and Steven had found his black sweaters for all of them to wear.

Pearl covered her mouth and Ruby's mouth and eyes went totally agape. "Steven, what's this!" she blurted out loud, they all turned their heads to the confused red gem.

"We're practicing, I mean what if, um." he was nervous. Don't tell Ruby, well that was out of the water by now. You see, Steven had never really been to a funeral before so he just wanted to practice what it'd be like for if they ever really had to. At this point Amethyst was laughing a little with a covered mouth, not to be rude but the face Ruby was right now wearing was just way too priceless to stay silent at. James just felt really awkward at the moment, this wasn't going to end well for him was it. He didn't know why but he still felt as though Ruby was still holding that grudge against him, it was still his fault in his mind.

"What if we don't find it ever! Then what do we do?!" he shouted out. Ruby looked at him, Pearl read the room and stepped down placing a hand on each of the boy's shoulder.

"Steven James," oh boy she was really doing it she thought to herself! She was acting like Garnet! "we're going to find the piece, this is just a bit of a delay. We just need to keep working to find where it is then we'll get it back, you don't need to worry about having a funeral."

"Yes though it is was a lovely idea to pay your respects like this, it would've been nice to do something like this for Rose, she was so wonderful, a-and lovely, and-" she was getting lost in her memories.

"Enough!" Steven shouted running outside the house barely even closing the door. They were all shocked, this wasn't anything like Steven to do something like this. Pearl was starting to the door Ruby slid in front of her. "I should be the one to talk to him." she turned to the door and at this point no one stopping her from going outside.

Steven sat on the mud in the slightly lighter rain as Ruby looked down at him. It must be hard she thought shivering in the cold wet rain, it's not just you Steven buddy. She walked down the steps to him sighing as she sat down, she wished she hadn't picked a form with shorts at the moment. The mud was disgusting on her thighs. "Hey buddy."

He merely sniffed in response. "It's not your fault, the funeral-" she choked on saying that word. "it was a nice idea for you to do something like that." be like Sapphire, would she be smiling, was this what she'd say to do if she were here?

"It's not that," he looked at her soaked as he could be. "it's just that I can't cry. Everyone we knew was so wonderful, but I can't cry because I don't know them. My mom, and now Sapphire. I just want to be able to cry like the rest of you guys."

Ruby had no idea it was like this. He always felt like? She sighed. "Steven that's why we cry, I know you didn't know them, but you knew they were wonderful people and that's what make them sad." there were tears in both of their eyes. They both gave each other a weak smile.

"Really?" he starred into her eyes.

"Really, now let's get you back inside before you catch a cold or something."