Feels like going back to school after winter break. Feels so great, the excitement of seeing all my friends. We were nominated for some Golden Globe awards, so I was excited for that also. Today we were working with Zach our choreographer and then at night heading over to People's choice awards. I walked into our dance studio so ready to begin working ahead, it was nice to be off but I missed all of this. I greeted everyone. Just like me they were all excited to come back. He wasn't there. I discretely asked about him, no one had heard from him all winter break. They knew as much as I knew from the tweets he would send. We were getting ready to start rehearsal when he walked in. He looked nice, wearing his puma black shirt, blue gym shorts and a black hat.
'Hey sorry I know I'm late Zach, Sorry I was stuck talking to Ryan, you can ask him if you want." he said as he walked in hugging everyone on his way in.
"We haven't started, Cory so you are still ok, if not I would punish you making you dance by yourself." Zach told him as he walked over to greet him. "Alright everyone lets stretch out first before we start working on this new dance."
I began stretching when he came over to greet me. "Hey beautiful I missed you." he said as he embraced me in a big hug. All this time apart and he still made me tremble. He smelled so good. He released our hug but stood there just smiling at me. He had not shaved so he looked so rugged, love that look. He gave me his beautiful smile.
"Stop looking at me like that" I told him as I took his baseball cap. "What does this "B" stand for anyway?" I asked him as I pointed to the black B on the front of his hat.
"I'm just wondering why you are trying to look like Pippi Longstockings today" he said as he grabbed one of my braids. I just laughed. He took his hat and put it on me. "There perfect, it looks great on you".
"Thanks. I think we should begin stretching don't you think." I told him as I began stretching once more. He smiled and started stretching next to me.
It was great to be back in rehearsal, we all had so much energy from being off for a few days. With the Golden Globe nominations we had even more drive to finish our season. I just couldn't believe I was nominated I felt so honored. We only practiced our new number for a few hours because tonight we had to get ready to attend the People's choice award which we were nominated for also!
Later that night….
I love and hate walking the red carpet. People are always screaming at you to look one way, to do a specific pose. It gets a little exhausting at times but its part of this new business so I have to do it. Once I was done with the red carpet I went in the Nokia Theater to find my seat. I noticed that I was sitting on a row alone with Cory behind the entire cast. A big smiled filled my face. At that same moment Amber and Jenna came up behind me.
"Well look at this Jenna, something looks planned to me" Amber told Jenna with a smile.
"Yes it sure does to me too, did you do it Lea? Did you arrange it for you and Cory to sit together?" she said with a laugh.
"What? No of course not I just got here and I just found my seat." I told them both.
"Well I think she did it" Mark said as he came up to us walking in with Dianna, Kevin and Chris.
"Whatever you guys, I will switch seats with any of you. Here Amber I will sit by Chris and you can sit with Cory." I started walking over to sit at Amber's seat when I saw Cory coming towards us.
"Hey guys" he said as he greeted everyone with a hug. "I figured if you guys were here already it would be easier for me to find my seat"
"Yea, here we are" Mark said as he started to walk over to his seat. "Lea and you sit behind us, Come on Jenna, Dianna your seats are over here." They all took their seats, including Amber and Chris.
"Lea, you want to sit by the aisle?" he asked as he motioned towards our seats.
"Well how about we take turns half of the show I will sit by the aisle and the other half you do?' I told him.
"Sure" he first went to take his seat as I took the seat next to the aisle. He looked so good today wearing a black suite with a dark gray button up shirt underneath, his natural style no tie. He caught me staring at him and gave me his tender smile.
"Here Cory let me take a picture of you, so I can show how well you clean up." I told him as I took out my cell phone from my pocket. He grabbed his ticket and put it up and gave me one of his "hey" faces. I couldn't help but laugh a little. I sent the picture so everyone could see how good he was looking. I looked at the responses of our fans, I couldn't help but smile they loved him. We all shared the same fascination for him.
"What are you giggling at Lea?" Cory asked as he saw me still reading the comments.
"Oh nothing, just great to know all these girls out there want you Cory, its amazing you are still single." I told him as I put my cell phone away.
"Oh, yea the fans are amazing. I do love them all, without them I couldn't do what I love to do."
I was about to ask him again as to why he was still single but the show began. The show was amazing! We got to meet so many amazing people. Best of all we won for Best New comedy. It felt so unreal when they said the shows name. I wanted to jump up my seat and hug Cory but I contained myself. He waited for me to get out of my seat, I think he wanted to walk next to me because I felt his hand on my back but I knew if I stayed near him I would end up embracing him in a hug so to contain myself I walked over and took Kevin's and Marks arms. We went upstage to accept our award and we had prepared a surprise for everyone. We gave them all pizza, I think they all thought we were joking until they saw the pizza coming out. After the acceptance of our award we went backstage for a few interviews. Cory came over and grabbed me in a hug. It felt so great. He released the hug but still held me from my waist, he smiled down at me. I was getting lost in his smile while they took us out to the press room for a few questions. Cory decided to take a picture of all us while we waited for the press to start with the questions. They asked to take a picture of Cory and myself only. He grabbed me from the waist and we began posing for pictures. It was so natural with him. After we were done with the pictures he grabbed my hand and walked me out to the backstage area.
"Lea can you believe we won" he said as he took me in his arms again.
"I know right so unbelievable" I really couldn't say much, I felt like I couldn't breathe from his tight embrace. "Um hey Cory, you are kind of holding me a little bit tight"
He released his hold but held on to me from my waist once again "Oh I'm sorry Lea guess I'm just so excited for all of this." He took his right hand and touched my cheek. He bend down and kissed my cheek. "You look amazing tonight, you look so beautiful." he said as he kissed my cheek again very gently. I placed my hand over his hand still on my cheek.
"Thank you Cory, your making me blush" I told him as I looked down towards the floor. He took his left hand and with his index finger brought my face back up to look up at him.
"Don't look away, let me just look at you a little longer." he began to bend his face closer to mine, I knew what was coming. I closed my eyes. I could feel his warm breather closer, maybe an inch or so away. Before his lips could touch mine my cell phone started ringing. I opened my eyes and saw Cory as frustrated as I felt.
"Sorry Cory" I said as I took the phone out of my pocket, it was Theo. I didn't know what to do. I just stared at my cell phone.
"Go ahead pick up, its ok. I'll talk to you later Lea" he said as he walked away.
I decided to answer the phone, Theo was just calling to congratulate me on the show's win. After I was done speaking with him I went to finish a few other interviews. I could see Cory was doing the same. Some he did on his own and some he did with a member of the cast. Before the night was over I wanted to be able to talk to him, I wasn't sure what I wanted to talk to him about but I know I wanted to just be near him. Who am I kidding of course I wanted him to finish what he had started, I did look for him but I could not find him.
"Hey Lea wait up" Dianna came up to me as I was walking towards my limo.
"Oh hey Di, you look beautiful. My feet are killing me I just want to get home and take this off."
"I know what you mean I am so tired, can you believe we have to do this again in a few weeks for the golden globes?"
"Yea I know, I am actually excited for those" I told her as we both got into the limo. "I couldn't find anyone else from the cast, do you know if they all left already"
"Yea they did, I think Cory was the only one that was still there" Dianna said.
"Cory? Are you sure? Because I didn't see him." I did search everywhere and I did not find him.
"Well the last time I saw him was like a minute or two before I came looking for you."
"Did you tell him you were leaving? Where was he?" I asked her well almost demanding it from her.
"Um, well I didn't tell him exactly I was leaving, I just waved at him from a few feet away. He did see me and waved bye, I really didn't want to interrupt him."
"Wait what, what was he doing that you didn't want to interrupt?"
"Oh well he was just sitting in a table in the corner talking to Taylor, and well Mark had told me that Cory was considering asking her out that I just felt like I didn't want Taylor to get the wrong idea of me coming up to Cory."
"Mark said Cory was going to ask her out?" I asked her not wanting to believe what I had just heard.
"Yea, Mark said something about Cory looking pretty down tonight. He didn't really want to say what was going on with Cory but that I guess he was tired of something, and he saw Taylor so Mark made Cory start a conversation with her, I don't know those guys always have their own things going on." she said as she removed her heels. "I think it's great for Cory, its about time he finds someone, Taylor is a beautiful girl and is good for him, don't you think."
"NO!" I shouted.
"What? Why not?" Dianna asked confused.
"I mean that yea she is a great girl but I don't know if she is the right girl for him, I mean I think he needs someone a little closer to his age."
"Lea, age has nothing to do with it. I think if he likes her and she likes him then its about time."
"Yea I guess, you are right" I told her.
When we reached our apartment, I went straight into my room. I removed my shoes and put on my PJs. I went into my bed and just curled up holding my pillow. I couldn't blame him from moving on, but why did it hurt so much.