Callie's POV

Callie turned her back on Arizona and started the coffee. She checked her watch and saw that she had plenty of time for a coffee with Arizona before her date. That thought still felt so weird. Going on a date with someone that wasn't Arizona. They were 'divorced' for almost 2 years, so she had no reason to feel guilty but a small part of her did, and probably always would. Herself and Arizona were meant to be together. She had been convinced of that. They had been so happy.

Their unorthodox family were finally at a place where they were all getting along- Herself, Arizona , Mark and Sofia. Arizona and Mark had managed to put their differences aside and happily co-existed even sharing a love of cooking, of all things. She smiled at the memory as she grabbed two mugs and started to pour the coffee.

Her smile faded as she remembered the catalyst that destroyed their marriage- that fucking plane crash. Taking Mark, her best friend, sweet, funny , annoying Mark who adored his daughter. She tried to speak of him every day to Sofia, even just t a casual look at his photo beside her bed. She should remember she had a father who loved her. She knew Arizona did the same and kept a photo of him in Sofia's room at her home.

She turned back to Arizona with the coffee and handed her a mug before sitting across from her at the kitchen table.

"Thank you" Arizona gratefully smiled and Callie smiled back in acknowledgement

"Actually, do you mind if I use the bathroom real quick?" Arizona asked.

Callie nodded "of course" and frowned. It still felt wrong for Arizona to ask permission to use the bathroom in what used to be her home, their home. She watched Arizona leave the room and noticed the slight limp. She knew Arizona had had a pretty hectic day, back to back surgeries. On those kinds of days, her prosthetic caused such discomfort that revealed itself in the form of a limp, which gradually worsened the longer she was on her feet. She sensed Arizona's need for the bathroom was a ruse to tend to her leg, to try and ease the discomfort. There was a time, granted it was a long time after the amputation, that Callie used to ease that discomfort, helping Arizona soak in the bath and then massage her residual limb. Now she wondered if her ex had anyone else to do that for her.

That thought did not sit comfortably with her. Someone else looking after Arizona, especially knowing how uncomfortable Arizona felt showing any weakness in front of people. Had she met someone that she was comfortable sharing that level of intimacy with? To her knowledge Arizona was not seeing anyone. To her relief she hadn't heard of Arizona dating anyone since their separation. She speculated that she may have returned to her pre marriage ways of casual flings or one night stands (which were also part of her marriage days she thought bitterly ) before shaking her head. She wasn't going to think about that now but it only steeled her resolve not to feel guilty for moving on.

At that thought Sofia arrived into the room pulling her little travel case behind her.

"Well mija, have you everything you need for mama's? She asked

Sofia nodded and climbed onto Callie's lap snuggling in.

She raised her head when Arizona arrived back into the room. Callie noticed her limp was not as obvious. Arizona sipped her coffee, closing her eyes, savouring the taste.

"Mama can Mami come stay with us?" Sofia asked hopefully.

Arizona's startled eyes met Callie's.

"Uh, no sweetie, Mami's staying here and you'll stay with me for a few days. You can see Mami tomorrow at daycare" she offered trying to reassure Sofia. They did their best to explain the separate living arrangements to Sofia when they broke up but she was just that little bit too young to fully understand. Every now and then she asked if they could all stay together. It broke their hearts to see the hope in her eyes turn to disappointment at each refusal.

She snuggled back into Callie. Arizona shrugged her shoulders helplessly at Callie. Callie smoothed her hand over Sofia's hair "Mama's right baby, I'll meet you for lunch tomorrow after school and tonight you get to stay in your awesome new room. Remember you told me about the drawing on Anna and Elsa and Olaf on your wall"?

At the mention of her favourite characters Sofia sat up nodding " And on my bed cover and pillows Mami" she said enthusiastically. Arizona had surprised Callie by renting a two bedroom apartment near the hospital and about a 15 minute drive from Callie's. Callie had thought Arizona would continue to stay with Alex and Jo, they seemed to have settled into a routine and it was always handy to have built in babysitters when Arizona was on call. The truth was that she was happy Arizona had someone looking out for her.

She knew the separation had devastated her and worried briefly about setting Arizona back in her recovery from all her losses post the plane crash. She seemed to have adjusted to the amputation and loss of Mark eventually but Callie felt Arizona had never grieved properly over the loss of her friend Nick, she had never mentioned him even after getting word from a mutual friend that he had passed away. And of course the miscarriage that neither of them spoke about. Arizona had thrown herself into her work with Nicole Herman and after Nicole had left, Arizona's work load had increased significantly with pregnant patients travelling from all over the west coast to be seen by Doctor Robbins or if they weren't allowed to fly, Doctor Robbins would come to them. But only when she didn't have Sofia, she always scheduled appointments away from home when Callie had Sofia. Professionally she was thriving.

Callie couldn't help but wonder about her personal life. At least when she was in Alex's Callie had snippets of what Arizona's life was like. She would hear Alex or Jo talking about the three of them or their friends playing games or having dinner parties or going out to the movies or for drinks. And of course the nights Sofia stayed she would report back on what she and her mama had gotten up to. In all this, there was no mention of Arizona seeing anybody. Now though that she had moved into her own apartment Callie had no idea what she got up to when she didn't have Sofia with her. Alex or Jo or April would talk about them occasionally getting together outside of work but still Callie did not know what else she was doing and her gut told her Arizona was finally testing the dating waters again. And much to her chagrin, that thought pissed her off. She knew it was hypocritical given her own dating life but she did not want Arizona seeing anyone else even though she had told her she should.

Sofia hopped from her Mami's lap and grabbed her suitcase " Come on Mama,let's go" the little girl now eager to see her room that she had forgotten about, and now remembering the toys she had in that room.

"Okay, okay" Arizona laughed quickly finishing her coffee, grateful for her interrupting the silence that had descended on the room, Callie seemingly lost in thought.

Callie stood up and walked them to the door. As Arizona helped Sofia into her car seat she couldn't help but ask "So you have a date huh?"

Callie nodded "Yes, we're going for dinner" not mentioning the name of her date leaving Arizona to wonder if it was with a man or a woman.

"I hope he's taking you somewhere nice" Arizona smiled, though her dimples didn't show and the smile didn't reach her eyes.

"He is, that new Thai restaurant on 6th" Callie confirmed not noticing the hurt flashing in Arizona's eyes.

"Have a good night then, see you tomorrow at work?" Arizona asked, sitting into the driver's seat and shutting the door.

Callie nodded and waved to her and then Sofia. She stood watching them drive off wondering what Arizona would do if she knew that the reason Callie was only dating a man was because she believed it was her only way of moving on. She had tried dating women but soon realised that Arizona Robbins was the only woman she would and could ever love.