Over the next two months Jacob and I spent pretty much every waking moment together, either at my house or on the reservation. Thankfully, he hadn't tried to make up for the graduation party yet and I was glad. I wasn't sure I was ready to try again. It had been hard to close off the part of my heart that ached for Edward. But I was taking it one day at a time and most days I was successful. It was harder than I expected to give up my journal, but I needed to give my new life with Jacob a real chance.

One unusually sunny Saturday morning I laid in bed making a mental list of books I wanted to look for at my favorite book store. Jacob and I had decided to make the short trip to Port Angeles to do some shopping and catch an early movie. Without warning I was overwhelmed by an intense dizzy spell and then my stomach lurched dangerously. I threw back the covers and ran for the bathroom. I hadn't eaten anything yet so thankfully there wasn't much in my stomach. I sat on the cold bathroom floor waiting for the dizziness and nausea to pass. When it felt safe to move I brushed my teeth and went back to my room. I threw on my favorite blue plaid shirt and a pair of jeans before making my bed.

I thought back to what I had eaten for dinner the night before. I had made Charlie and I fried chicken, green beans and a salad. Maybe the chicken had been bad. It had looked and smelled fine when I was frying it up. I went downstairs to see if Charlie was sick too. He was sitting at the table reading the newspaper while eating a bowl of oatmeal.

"How are you this morning Dad?"

Charlie looked up from the newspaper. "Im good. Just about to head down the station. I heard you in the bathroom. You coming down with something?"

"Im not sure. I thought maybe it was food poisoning but you aren't sick and we had the same thing for dinner last night."

Charlie shrugged and got up to take his bowl to the kitchen. As he passed by me the smell from his oatmeal caused my stomach to lurch again. I swallowed several times trying to get rid of the urge to make another run for the bathroom. I forced a smile as Charlie walked out the front door. I sat down at the kitchen table and put my head in my hands. When my stomach was settled I got up and made myself some toast.

While I waited on my toast I grabbed a glass from the cupboard and opened the fridge to get the orange juice, the smell of the left over chicken filled my nose. I slapped my hand over my mouth and ran up the stairs to the bathroom. Jacob found me kneeling over the toilet.

"Bella? Are you okay?"

"Ugh Jake, go back downstairs. You don't need to see this."

I heard him walk down the stairs but then he came right back up with a glass of water. I leaned against the tub and gratefully took the glass of water from her. I slowly sipped at the water. Jacob sat down just outside the bathroom door.

"I thought maybe it was food poisoning from the fried chicken I made for dinner last night but Charlie isn't sick. I really don't want to have the flu now at the end of summer vacation."

"Do you have a fever or any other symptoms?"

"I don't think I have a fever. I don't have the chills or anything. I was dizzy earlier but thats about it."

"Do you want to try and eat something? Just to see if maybe that will settle your stomach?"

"I started making toast before I had to run up here. Thats about the only thing that sounds good."

I carefully stood up and brushed my teeth again. Jacob stayed by my side as we went back down the stairs and into the kitchen. I grabbed my toast from the toaster and sat down at the table. I took small bites and chewed slowly.

"Maybe we should postpone our Port Angeles trip." Jacob watched me with concern.

"No way! I have been looking forward to this trip for weeks. I am feeling better now that I have eaten." I smiled trying to reassure him that I was feeling better.

"Are you sure? Maybe we should hang around here so you can take it easy."

"I want to go, I need books and some clothes. Apparently laying around all summer is causing me to gain weight. Some of my clothes don't fit anymore."

Jacob looked at me with an expression I couldn't read but before I could ask him about it he smiled. "Fine, lets go."

The toast did seem to help and I felt a little better. Jacob drove us in his Rabbit to Port Angeles. We stopped at the bookstore first and I was able to find a couple of the books I wanted. While I went clothes shopping Jacob said he needed to run an errand for Billy. We met up at our favorite Thai food restaurant for lunch. I was so hungry that I felt like I could have eaten my lunch and Jacob's. After lunch we loaded our shopping bags in the trunk of his car before heading to the movie theater.

I fell asleep halfway through the movie, my head nestled against Jacob's shoulder as his arm was wrapped around me. He was unusually quiet as he drove us back to Fork.

"Sorry I fell asleep during the movie. I just couldn't keep my eyes open."

"Are you having trouble sleeping again?" Jacob kept his eyes on the road.

He knew all about the nightmares I had started having after Edward left. I watched his face for a minute before answering. "I haven't had one of the nightmares in a month. I actually slept quite peacefully last night. Maybe I am coming down with something. But I feel fine now, not like this morning."

Jacob finally turned his head and looked at me. He carefully reached behind my seat and pulled a plastic drug store bag into the front seat. He handed it to me.

"What's this for?"

"I think that will give us an idea about what caused you to be sick."

Confused I looked at him. I opened the bag and peaked inside. My heart flip-flopped in my chest and I looked back at Jacob. "I… No.. What?"

"The night of the graduation party we weren't exactly careful." He looked at me apologetically.

We hadn't used a condom and I wasn't on any birth control. I tried to remember my last period, it had been before my graduation. The dizziness, throwing up, sensitivity to food odor and the fact that my clothes were becoming snug enough to be uncomfortable. "Oh God… Charlie is going to kill me." My head turned slowly towards Jacob, my eyes opened wide in fear. "Charlie is going to kill you."

Jacob grimaced. "We don't know for sure Bella. Maybe you have some weird sort of summer flu." He sounded like he was trying to convince himself as much as he was trying to convince me.

"What are we going to do if I am?" My voice quivered as I fought back the tears.

"I love you Bella and while this isn't the best timing I have known I want to spend my life with you since you came back to Forks to live with your dad. This doesn't change that, but lets wait until we know for sure before we start making those plans."

I nodded and pulled the pregnancy test out of the bag. There were 2 tests in the box. The instructions said it was best to test in the morning but I knew I wouldn't be able to wait. Charlie wasn't home yet when we got to my house. Jacob helped me bring in my shopping bags and then sat on the sofa waiting for me to take one of the tests.

My hands shook as I pulled the test out of the box and unwrapped it. I fought back a panic attack as I impatiently waited the 5 minutes for the test to finish. The timer on my phone vibrated and I walked over to the counter to look down at my future. I closed my eyes and took several deep breathes. When I opened my eyes and looked at the small digital screen I nearly passed out. I had to hold on to the counter to keep from falling. I read the words over and over thinking maybe I was not seeing them correctly. "Pregnant 2-3 months"

I didn't realize I was crying until I looked into the mirror above the sink. I was going to be a mother. I didn't look like anyones mother. I kept staring at my reflection in the mirror trying to imagine me as the mother of the little baby that was growing inside me. I looked down at my stomach, pulling my shirt up to look at the spot where he or she would be. There was a slight bump there, nobody but me would have noticed it. I ran my hand over the small hard bump. I felt a mix of wonder, love, and fear.

I knew Jacob was waiting downstairs and I wanted to be able to tell him before Charlie got home. I wiped the tears off my face, gathered up all evidence of pregnancy tests and hid them in my dresser. I took a deep breath and went downstairs to deliver the news. Jacob was sitting on the sofa, his leg bouncing as he tried to concentrate on some infomercial on tv. When I walked into the room he looked up at me. I tried to smile but I started crying. He pulled me into his lap and held me.

"It will be okay Bella. We will face this together."

"Im scared Jake. You haven't finished high school yet and I am supposed to start college in a month. How are we going to support a baby?"

"It wont be easy Bells, but we will figure it out."

I nodded and held onto him tighter.

"Bella…"

"yeah?"

"I wanted to do this so much more romantically…"

I sat up and looked at him. He smiled.

"Bella, marry me?"