A/N ...I feel bad apologizing right now because then you'll guys think I'm full of crap because I always y I'll update sooner and its been like a month. I TRIED! IM SORRY BUT I TRIED AND ITS HARD! I ask for your forgiveness and patience because this will take a while. Anyway proceed on and I hope you like it.

Chapter 7

"How could you?!" I shouted into the phone. "Why didn't you tell me?! Do you realize what you've done? You've left me at the mercy of my worst enemy!" I shouted again into the phone, not giving Alice a chance to respond. "He could literally just jump over his balcony and into mine and bam! Good bye Bella! You do realize he hates my guts so that was not an exaggeration!"

"Bella I am aware of the situation but remember that I didn't like the idea of you there for this very same reason. But Carlisle and Charlie insisted you go there remember!? I-i-i don't know what to tell you Bella. I'm sorry that's things are like this but there's really nothing I can do." She apologized and sounded sincere, bit that only angered me more. Charlie wanted me here, did he expect Edward to kill me? Was this his way of getting rid of me without lifting a finger? I hung up and grabbed the motorcycles keys and ran out into the hall.

I slammed the door behind me and met face to face with Edward. "What do you want?" I spat through gritted teeth.

"I want you out of my life, away from here!" He growled.

"Believe me, I want to be here just as much as you want me here." I said glaring at him. He was blocking my way so I shoved past him and made my way down to the garage and hopped on the bike. Once I arrived at the head quarters, I made my way to Charlie's office. I knocked on the door with a lot more force than required for a polite knock. I heard a calm "come in." And I entered.

"Why the hell would you have me living under the same roof as that asshole!? Is it because you want him to kill me? Is that it? You don't want me here? Just say the word and I'm gone, and if its your stupid agency you're worried about don't worry, I'll make sure to forget to pack my parachute when I jump off the plane!" I shouted at him. I was shaking in place from anger, and he just stared calmly at me from his seat. "Say something!" I shouted, exasperated.

"I will answer any questions you have, but those answers will vary depending as who you come, Isabella Swan trainee, or Bella Swan daughter. Also I will wait until you have completely calmed down in order to begin, that way you'll be more reasonable and be capable of listening to me." He said taking a drink of his coffee. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, it came out shaky but under control.

"Isabella Swan requesting permission to retire for the moment and speak with her father." I said slowly, still not opening my eyes.

"Granted. Now take a seat." He said. I opened my eyes and slowly sank into a chair across from him at his desk.

"Now how can I be of assistance?" He asked calmly.

"Why?" I uttered after a moment of silence.

"Keeping you two apart would be no good, Edward is stubborn and encouraging distance between you two would do nobody any good. So Carlisle simultaneously agreed that having you two in each others constant presence would help you two accommodate to one another faster." He explained.

"But don't yo-"

"I do realize that there is a certain danger in this situation, but even though Edward is stubborn he is not unreasonable. You have nothing to worry about...actually you have plenty to worry about but Edward isn't one of them." He said with a chuckle.

"Well gee thanks for making feel better aye. Way to ease my mind." I muttered sarcastically.

"I'm just trying to be honest here, besides if you haven't noticed I haven't had lots of practice dealing with daughters." Well he could have fooled me. I closed my eyes and leaned my head back resting on the fluffy part of the top of the chair.

"What happened? Why...why is everything such a mess? What happened to his parents and my mother?" I said opening my eyes and sitting up.

He took in a deep breath and sighed, " Renee Dwyer was division one's field agent, and Carlisle's partner. Carlisle was the leader, I was the leader of the combat team, and Elizabeth, Edward (Sr.), and Esme were my main team. Naturally you can assume who fell for who." I nodded and waited for him took continue, he sighed again and proceeded. "Well we were all very close friends, until we were assigned the Donovan case. Things started going wrong, we would all fight with one another constantly, the Donovan clan was messing with our minds, and turning us all against each other. What was worse is that there seemed to be a leak in our system, meaning we had a spy within our agency. Renee had been acting strange recently, and that raised an alarm on her. She swore she had nothing to do with the Donovan's and we being her team believed her, but everybody else didn't. Baby Edward was born and everything calmed down for a bit, the Donovan clan disappeared from the radar and we continued on to other cases. Then when Edward was about 11 months old, he was kidnapped, his parents were frantic and a rescue plan was being organized. Carlisle gave everybody their instructions, but when he looked for Renee she was no where to be found, when they finally did find her she was acting suspicious. She was given her instructions, and we set out. Edward was found in a nearby warehouse surrounded by guards, everything went smoothly up until the last part, which was escaping. Carlisle had Edward with him, and I was covering him. Renee was covering Elizabeth and Edward (Sr.). As we were about to leave we heard a struggle from a nearby hallway, then shots were fired. Carlisle left with the baby, trying to get him to safety. I ran to the hallway and found Elizabeth and Edward on the floor both dead with a bullet wound in their back. Next to them on the floor was Renee's gun, I could never mistake that gun, it was the one I gave her for our 1st anniversary. I checked it and sure enough two bullets were missing. I called for back up and took Elizabeth's and Edwards bodies out of there. One of the other agents found Renee outside of the warehouse and arrested her." He stopped for breath and I closed my eyes and rested my head in my hands, propped on my knees. I could tell where this story was heading, and it did not have a happy ending.

"Continue please." I whispered.

"She was accused of being a spy, of trying to sabotage the agency, and of the deaths of Elizabeth and Edward Cullen. She was sentenced to death, and I was assigned as the executioner. I walked over where she was being held and escorted her to the roof to be executed."

"The roof?" I interrupted confused.

"I didn't want an audience, and there are eyes everywhere here." He explained. I nodded and motioned for him to continue.

"Well once up there I had the gun loaded and pointed at her. She looked at me with tears in her eyes and she swore she didn't do it. I told her the evidence was too strong and she said that she was set up. I said I was sorry about this and then proceeded to pull the trigger." He paused and I looked at him through tears in my eyes.

"But you didn't shoot her." I stated and he shook his head.

"I couldn't. I couldn't kill the woman I loved. I shot into the air. And then I told her she was dead, and left the roof. Before I entered the stairs I saw her jump from the building, and that's the last I saw of her. She was falling into nothing. Carlisle met me in my office and he told me I had done the right thing. I knew he wasn't talking about killing her. We both silently agreed never to speak of it and that's that." He finished.

"But- but what about your boss? What happened when they found out you let her go?" I questioned wanting to know more.

"By that time Carlisle had taken charge, he stated that Renee had taken her own life, and we should all try to move on from this black spot in our lives. And we did..." He seemed like he wanted to add something on to his sentence and I knew exactly what it was.

"Until now." I stated and he nodded. He rubbed his face and seemed years older than when I had first seen him. Like reliving the past had chewed him up and spit him out older.

"I'm sorry." I whispered.

"Sorry for what?" He asked confused, as if it weren't obvious. "For causing this, for coming here." I explained.

"Bella." He said and it was the first time I had heard him speak my name with such affection. It startled me, and I looked at him surprised. "You didn't cause any of this, its all due to our actions in the past, you just happened to be caught in the middle of it. And I'M sorry for that, but I'm glad you're here. My daughter, my baby girl. I may not know what to do, but I'm glad to have this chance. You're the only family I have left, why would I want to get rid of you?" He questioned. I wiped away the tears falling from my eyes. I could see why Edward would be so angry at someone who reminded him of what happened to his parents, but there's nothing I could do about that, he'd have to learn to look past it because I wasn't going anywhere.

Later that night I stirred in bed, tired as heck but unable to sleep. I tossed and turned trying to drift away but my thoughts kept me awake. My mother was the reason of my existence but she was also the reason for my misery. I sat up in bed and rested my head against my knees. Why does life have to be so dang exhausting? What's the point? How could somebody else's decisions affect one so immensely?! It makes no sense! Shouldn't your mistakes only affect you?! I kicked off my cover frustrated and walked out to the balcony of the bedroom. When I stepped outside the cold hit me and snapped me even more awake.

"Holy crow." I breathed and I could see my breath in the cold air.

"You get used to it." Said a voice beside me startling me and just about giving me a heart attack.

"Jeez do you mind?!" I asked clutching my heart. "What the hell are you doing out here?!" I asked crossed. He was sitting on a chair next to a small wooden table, with what appeared to be a cup of coffee on top.

"Um I live here, and I couldn't sleep so I decided to come out here and enjoy the city buzz. What re you doing out here?" He questioned in the same annoyed tone I had. I stayed quiet and studied his side. There was a 3 feet gap between our cement rails, he was sitting on the side closer to my own. And I had my bean bag set up on the side closest to him. So it was relatively easy for him to reach over and kill me, yet I still went and sat in my huge bean bag (I didn't have a chair that would survive this weather yet so I just threw my bean bag out here) and stared at him cautiously.

"I couldn't sleep. Too much on my mind." I answered after settling in the bag. I wrapped my fuzzy robe tighter on me and tucked my feet into the excess of my sweats.

We both sat there quietly, watching the tiny lights below us speed by, hearing the chatter of people walking somewhere with someone.

"What's it like?" I heard after a while. I looked at him confused and then turned back to facing forward.

" To have too much on your mind? Like texting five people or more at a time, but individually not a group chat. Its confusing, exhausting, and gives you a major headache." I said.

"That's not what I meant...but nice analogy." I heard the slightest of a smile in his voice, but I didn't look to confirm it.

"Then you're going to have to be more specific." I answered.

"School, high school, what's it like being out there?" He elaborated.

"Its hell. Its not about who you are but about what you are. Every decision isn't about you its about them. Its about and for everybody else. You aren't a companion you're follower. And if you refuse to be a follower then by default you're an outcast. And then theirs the teachers who say that they know what you're going through and thats why they go easy on you, but the truth is that every generation is different and they have no idea what we go through because now it isn't just about the people around you, its about everybody everywhere, thanks to the social media, every move is based off the competition you have with the rest of the world. And honestly its to much so I forfeited." I said rubbing my temples.

"I can't be that bad, at least you'll be interacting with others, instead of getting yelled at 24/7 . Instead of sore muscles, you'll be emotionally tired from all the excitement. You'd be normal." He whispered the last bit.

"Depends what your view is. If you would have been a jock, and believe me you would have, you'd still be tired and sore. And yes being in high school does make you emotionally tired but not like you'd think. Its exhausting trying to be somebody you're not, its exhausting enduring a day full of lies. Slowly your walls start to break down, and your sanity crumbles. At least here, you know exactly where you stand and where everybody else stands." I stated tucking my knees under my chin and hugging my legs.

A sudden gust of wind hit me and I shivered, feeling the cold down to my bones.

"Would...would you like some coffee?" He asked hesitant. I turned to look at him suspiciously. He sighed and rolled his eyes. "I swear I didn't put anything in it. Look see?" He grabbed his coffee and took a large gulp.

I too rolled my eyes, "I wasnt questioning the state of your coffee." I retorted.

"Then why'd you look at me like that?" He asked confused.

"I was questioning why you would give me coffee." I explained.

"That's the same thing." He said frowning.

"Not really." I said disagreeing. He sighed and shook his head. "Do you want some yes or no?"

I considered it, "No thanks, I'm going to give sleep a second chance." I stood up and beaded back inside.

"Isabella?" He asked hesitantly.

"Mm?" I stopped at the door.

"Can I have a second chance?" He mumbled very quietly, I almost didn't hear it. I bit my lip and looked down, it could be some kid of trick. I sighed.

"Only if you call me Bella."

"Good night Bella." I heard as I closed the doors to the balcony.

A/N Tada! There's a little explanation from the past. Next chapter will contain a time skip. I'm still unsureof how long so well see. Anyway if you've decided to stick with me thank you. Don't forget to tell me what you think or if you have any suggestions I'm all ears. Anyways thanks and I'll update when I can.