Chapter two: Your best chance
Dear Lilith,
Hi, I'm your mom, or well I'm your birth mom, and I'm writing this because it's something I wish my parent would have done. They never told me why they left me so I spent my whole life believing they just didn't want me, but trust me if I had the chance to keep both you and your brother and have both of you have a good childhood I would have kept you in a heartbeat, I love you please don't ever doubt that but I need to give you your best chance, and that's not with me as your mother.
As you know I gave you a camera alone with this letter, it is for one purpose and one purpose only to keep a record of your life, I want you to take pitchers of everything in your life and I have put in the letter I wrote to the people who adopt you to do it for you and your brother until you are old enough. The reason I want you to do this is because I believe that one day we will meet again and I want to know everything I missed.
I love you so much sweetie, you will always be my little princess and I'm am so glad that I got the chance to raise you for two years.
All the love in the world,
Your birth mom. (p.s: look after your little brother)
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Dear people/person/family that adopt my kids…...?
Um, I'm mostly writing this to let you know that even though I know I asked for a closed adoption, I do hope that one day I will meet my children again when I get my life together, now please don't get me wrong, I won't just show up grab them and leave, but one day I do want to be a part of their life.
Also please treat them like the little angles they are, don't ever let them believe that I left them because I didn't want them, because trust me I have been in that boat and it's a good way to help them close themselves off to the world and it's hard to knock down walls that have been growing someone's heart their whole life.
And lastly as you can tell I have left a camera with Lilith(Lilly) because I want them to record their whole life, please help out with that, as not only would it be amazing for me to see when I see them again but also you can look at those photos and videos and see the amazing people you raised.
Thank you for adopting my little Prince and Princess,
Emma Swan.
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Dear Baby boy,
I'm sorry I have to call you baby boy but that is all I know about you; I didn't have two years to raise you and get to know you like I did with your sister, I didn't even hold you after you were born because I knew I couldn't risk not being able to let you go.
I really don't know anything about you so writing this is hard, but what I do know is that you have a big sister that will do everything in her power to make sure you are always happy and safe, I also know that you are going to spend a lot of time wondering, 'How could anyone just give me up? Did they love me? Was I simply not wanted?' So please let me explain,
I do love you, and though this may be hard to believe but that is why I had to give you two up. I can't give you your best chance, I can't insure your happiness, I've messed my life up too much to be able to raise you properly and you deserve a better life than one that I lived and you surely would have.
I have hope that one day I will meet you and your sister again one day, and when we do meet again I will want to know EVERYTHING about the life you have lived so as you already know I left a camera with your sister, take photos of your life, every big moment, every small moment, just everything.
All the love in the world,
Your birth mom