This chapter is shorter. I apologize for that, but I wanted to end it a certain way and the only way I can is to make it shorter. I didn't want to add too much and take away from the ending, so I kept it shorter.

I apologize for taking so long to update, but I want to thank everyone who reviewed and all of the favorites and follows. Y'all are awesome!

This song is such an amazing song. It really makes me think of how Bonnie and Caroline must feel about Kol and Liz.

Well I will stop talking now.

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Chapter 5: The World Spins Madly On

Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
I thought of you and where you'd gone
and let the world spin madly on

"I'm strong, Kol. I can save you," Bonnie smiled at the man she loved. She thought he would be happy. Of course he had questioned her over the last few months but, at the end of the day if she was strong enough, he would be just as gung-ho at being released from this hell hole as she was.

"I know you could, love, but I need you to be strong for yourself."

He could feel her—her warmth radiated against his fingers—it showcased how strong she really was. The first time she managed to come to the other side she looked like a hologram flicking in and out of view. Now she was real. And he knew if given the chance she could take him out of here, but Kai was here, too. He might not have his magic, but he was sneaky enough to make it through without being noticed. And he would go after Bonnie for her magic.

Bonnie tightened her grip around his hand. "I am not ready to lose you."

"It is time for you to grieve for me and forget about me." Kol cupped her cheek. For once, he needed to be selfless. For her.

"Why won't you let me save you? I am so close," Bonnie's eyes had glazed over in agony. She couldn't accept she and Kol didn't get to be together again. She needed him.

"You do not know how bad this could get if I am not only person who gets out. This could end badly. You could die. Caroline—could die."

"But I can protect us," Bonnie countered.

"Not from this. Don't come over here anymore, Bonnie. You need to forget about me and this plan to save me."

Bonnie gasped as though a ghost had ransacked her stomach. She knew he was trying to protect her, but all he did was protect her. He died for her. She had to save him.

"But I love you."

"And I love you, my witch. I always have, and I promise I always will, but it is time to let me go." Kol gave her one last kiss so faint only a ghost could create. Before Bonnie could object, she was thrust back into the real world. One without Kol.

"Bonnie! I am home," Bonnie heard Caroline call out.

She looked around getting a hold of her surroundings. She pushed the hair out of her eyes and took a deep breath to stop the tears. "I will be out in a minute."

She could hear Caroline rummaging through the kitchen. Bonnie walked into the Jack and Jill bathroom connecting the girls' bedrooms and turned the faucet on. She looked at herself in the mirror. Her face pale from the energy she had put into the spell, her eyes sunken back from her not sleeping in days.

She cupped the cold water and splashed it on her face. She took a few more inhales of air before inspecting herself once more. She needed to be strong. Kol was right, she needed to see things clearly.

She stepped out of the bathroom and made her way to the kitchen to find Caroline taking a sponge to the stove, bright yellow gloves on both of her hands. "Whatcha doing?"

"I am stressed, so I am cleaning," Caroline replied like it was the most normal thing. For Caroline Forbes, cleaning when stressed was the most normal thing about her.

"Everything okay?" Caroline had yet to look at her best friend—more interested in the stain on the stove refusing to come up.

"Yeah, just having a hard time in this class and—are you okay?" Caroline had turned midsentence shocked to find quivering lip Bonnie leaning against the doorway.

Bonnie looked at her shoes and nodded. Shoes Kol had thought were ugly but bought them for her anyway.

"No, you aren't. What happened?" Caroline ripped away her gloves and made her way to her best friend.

"Kol told me I needed to forget about him," she whispered.

"Bon," Caroline sighed, wrapping her arms around her best friend. Bonnie fell into her crying.

"I thought I could get him to agree. I need to save him. He shouldn't be over there."

"I know." Caroline consoled.

"How do I get passed this?"

"Well, you cry and then you wake up and see that you are still breathing even if it hurts. We do this every day." Caroline advised. She felt Bonnie nod against her shoulder. "How about I call Elena, and we have a girl's night?"

"Okay," Bonnie whispered.

"It is gonna be okay. I promise."

Caroline heard a knock at the door and slid across the hardwood in her stripe fuzzy socks. She turned the four locks barricading the door. The previous tenant had a crazy ex who liked to give her a few bruises when she didn't cook the right dinner. Caroline wanted to take them out because they did not really need them, but Enzo felt safer knowing they had it. Enzo could be so strange some times. He knew full well Caroline, being a vampire, could take down any intruder, and Bonnie could use her magic, but he still became over protective and all brotherly.

Caroline pulled the door open revealing not a petite Elena but a peeved Enzo.

"Um, hey, bro," her lips pulled back to form a real smile. One that reached her eyes not knowing Enzo had become annoyed.

"Don't hey bro, me." Enzo's accent became sharper whenever he was annoyed. He pushed the door ajar, slamming her shoulder—if she was not a vampire would definitely bruised her like an old apple. "Bonnie here?"

"Yeah, she is—"

"Bonnie!" Enzo's raised voice made Caroline become alert. One never wanted to be on the wrong side of a mad Enzo.

"What?" Bonnie closed her bedroom door behind her, hiding the mess of candles scattered around. She stepped toward Enzo cautiously.

"You are not bringing Kol back," Enzo snapped.

"I thought you said it was okay?" Caroline crossed her arms tight over her chest.

"Well that was before. Before a little birdie explained Kai would not just run into the sunset but come after you, Bonnie."

Caroline's eyebrow raised. "Why?"

"Because he is not like normal witches. He feeds off power, and Bonnie is the strongest witch around, and he will take all her power away and kill her."

"So that is why Kol is telling me no," Bonnie muttered. Kol had not given her the specifics when he said Kai could kill her, but now it was all starting to make sense.

"Wait, Kol told you not to do it?" Enzo's voice rang shocked, never believing a Mikaelson could do something so selfless.

"He said Kai could hurt me—he didn't say how."

"Well for once I agree with him. You will not be doing any more other side magic."

"You can't tell me what to do, Enzo." Bonnie loved Enzo, she did. He had taken her under his wing as much as he had Caroline. Surprisingly, his wife had softened him over the years, and when they had come to town Bonnie formed a close bond with Enzo's wife. After she had passed and Enzo came back from his killing spree—he swore to always protect Caroline and Bonnie.

But, she was a grown woman and could make her own decisions.

"Watch me." With that, Enzo stormed back out of the apartment.

"And he wonders why I am dramatic. Look at him, just swoops in here all macho, yells, then leaves. No how are you? Or anything," Caroline rambled, trying to lighten the mood only to have Bonnie, as always, slam a door in her face.

Great, Enzo pissed off Bonnie and Caroline was left alone.

Just like old times.

"Your brother sounds extremely intimidating." Elena popped a piece of popcorn into her mouth.

"Not really, he is just protective. So when we do something he doesn't like, he just gets mad," Bonnie explained awkwardly. Leaving out important parts of their fight made Enzo sound overbearing and strict when in reality he doesn't want Bonnie to be killed.

"That's what brothers are supposed to do."

"If you don't mind me asking, how long ago did your brother die?" Caroline asked.

"Ten years ago. He was just in the wrong place at the wrong time."

It never got easier to talk about Jeremy. He was her little brother. She was supposed to protect him. When she first turned, he was still human, but he was in a car accident because of Katherine Pierce—may she not rest in peace—and thankfully Damon had slipped him some blood beforehand (Jeremy was training with Damon and had broken a limb in the process) and he had turned. Neither were happy for him to be a vampire because he was supposed to have the normal life, but as time progressed he came to accept what he was.

During the battle with Kai, some lives were lost—Jeremy being one of them. She felt like she had been staked through the heart when he fell to the ground lifeless. The one person she swore to protect she let down—again.

"So you were young when he died?" Bonnie asked.

Elena stilled completely forgetting that to any human she was only nine or ten, ten years ago. "Yup, not a day goes by that I don't think of him."

"Life can be so screwed up," Bonnie muttered.

"Sounds silly, but it does get better."

"I am waiting for the day I wake up and don't dread it," Bonnie voice was soft with grief.

"That takes a while. Trust me, but one day you wake up, and you smile, and it isn't fake. When your laugh doesn't feel strange and when your happiness doesn't feel heavy from the guilt."

"At least we have each other, right?" Caroline grasped Bonnie as well as Elena's hands.

"Right." Bonnie and Elena agreed.

Caroline stepped outside into the cold air after Bonnie and Elena had fallen asleep. Her mind was reeling about thoughts of her mom. Her birthday was coming up—Caroline was not ready for her mother's birthday to be here. It was the first one since her mom died, and Caroline feared the depression would pull her under when the day finally came.

"You must be cold." Caroline looked up to see Enzo walking up the steps.

"You're back."

"Well, in my haste to yell at Bonnie—I didn't get to check on you. A little anticlimactic if I tell her what to do and not walk out." Enzo pulled his jacket closer as he sat down next to Caroline.

"I'm okay. You will be happy to know that Stefan broke it off."

"You being sad doesn't make me happy Caroline. I just don't want you getting into a situation where you could get hurt."

Caroline laid her head on his shoulder. "Sometimes we need to get hurt. It helps us grow."

"You have hurt enough. You need to take a break from the hurting."

"I don't even know how to be happy anymore. I am so tired of being sad." Tears welled up in her eyes, threatening to fall like a storm about to break an ominous cloud.

"I—I don't know what to say to comfort you. Maggie was always the comforting one."

"I miss her."

"Maggie?" Enzo's face softened at the thought of his love.

"Yeah, you're right. She was a lot better than you at this." Caroline teased, poking him in the side.

Enzo chuckled before his face sobered into a grim look.

"The life of a vampire is plagued with death. At some point you must accept that, Caroline. When you do, it becomes easier to say goodbye to the ones gone."

Caroline nodded, "I know."

They stayed silent for a good few minutes. It was a peaceful silence—one that wasn't plagued with things the other wants to say. But then the moment passed and the world became real again. "I have to go away for a while." Enzo sighed. "I need to find Rebekah—tell her about what is going on."

"Why can't Klaus go? Or Elijah?"

"I didn't ask. They just can't. I have nothing to hold me down. You and Bonnie have each other. I am hoping Bonnie does not go through with her suicide mission, and I hope you find closure in all this."

Caroline was used to Enzo going in and out of her life. He never stayed in one place too long—made him start thinking too much about Maggie. If he kept himself occupied then he could distract himself from the thought of her.

"I understand. Please be careful." Caroline turned on the bench to give Enzo a long hug.

"I always am. Take care of each other."

Bonnie needed to say goodbye. She deserved that. If she was going to move on she needed to see him one more time. She needed to feel his calloused hands in her soft ones one more time. She needed him one more time.

So she was going to get it. This was going to be one of the hardest things she had ever done—saying goodbye to Kol. She remembered when they first met she thought he was a monster. She believed he had no redeeming qualities. They began to get to know each other under circumstance. Klaus needed help, and Caroline wanted to be a good friend. Bonnie and Kol were thrust together multiple times and at some point their bickering matches weren't out of hate but out of fondness. Their glares turned into looks of longing and before she knew it she wanted to spend every single moment with him. She saw all of his good attributes start to peek through his anger like the sun straining to shine through the clouds.

She never would think saying goodbye to Kol Mikaelson would make her breath catch and become a hiccup of sadness. She stuttered the spell—shocked it even worked— and before she knew it the cold enveloped her. and she was on the other side.

"Bonnie Bennett. I have been waiting for you."

Bonnie gasped. Fear took over her body when she felt a hand clutch her shaky arm. She was about to die. She was going to lose all of her magic to Kai and she would be dead. Even worse, she and Kol would be dead and yet not together. She wasn't ready to die. She didn't want to be killed.

She didn't even get to say goodbye.

To Kol.

To Enzo.

To Caroline.

She couldn't die yet. She just couldn't. She needed it to get better. She wanted to get better. She didn't want to die this way. Not with all of this sadness and anger. She wanted to die with peace.

Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
I thought of you and where you'd gone
and let the world spin madly on

Everything that I said I'd do
Like make the world brand new
And take the time for you
I just got lost and slept right through the dawn
And the world spins madly on

I let the day go by
I always say goodbye
I watch the stars from my window sill
The whole world is moving and I'm standing still

Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
The night is here and the day is gone
And the world spins madly on

I thought of you and where you'd gone
And the world spins madly on.

By: The Weepies.

So there it is. Once again, I apologize for taking so long to update. I was having a hard time finding a time to write in between work and school. I will try to be better, but I do not wanting to make any promises just in case I can't keep them.

I hope y'all enjoyed the chapter. Sorry about the cliffhanger. I originally had more, but decided against it and I will add it to the beginning of next chapter.