So I can totally explain. Until today, I did not have internet at my house. While I was in school, I was able to update. Well, I have been out of school since my last update, so though I have had this ready for about two and half weeks, I had no way to update it. Until now! So I am so sorry about the fact that I couldn't update, but now I can!
Chapter 7: Monster
If I told you what I was,
Would you turn your back on me?
And if I seem dangerous,
Would you be scared?
I get the feeling just because
Everything I touch isn't dark enough
That this problem lies in me
At three o' clock in the morning, Caroline was awoken by the sound of someone walking up her front steps. Instantly, she pushed her covers back, grabbed her robe, and sped through her room to the front door. Not wanting to wake Bonnie up, she decided to investigate on her own. She swung the door open only to come face to face with her old flame, Klaus Mikaelson.
"Klaus?" Caroline wrapped her thin robe tight around her body. Though not keeping her warm from the cold, it shielded her body hidden from the prying eyes of the big bad original.
"Caroline," Her name rolling off his tongue, accented at the right places, no longer made a shiver run down her spine like it once did. His smirk no longer made her eyes flash with desire. She didn't hide her feelings anymore. She felt completely indifferent to the man in front of her.
At one time, she believed she loved the broken man in front of her. She wanted to change him, fix what a thousand years of hatred had created. After months of denying her feelings, she allowed herself to be with him. Only to run off, humiliated by her actions. He would never change for her. He would always be a killer with no remorse.
He is nothing like Stefan.
Kind, loyal.
No, Klaus could never compare to Stefan.
"What are you doing here?"
"Aren't you going to invite me in?" He smirked at her.
"No." She simply said knowing that he could not step through the door without Bonnie inviting him in. Something the witch would never think to do.
Klaus leaned against her door frame deciding to cut to the reason he stood in Mystic Falls. "I heard she can bring him back and you won't allow it."
"Well your little birdie is wrong. It isn't my decision if she brings him back."
"But you advised her not to do it." His anger was beginning to rise and even after years of knowing him she felt herself become scared. Nothing would stop him from killing her if she stood in his way.
He had tried before.
"Do I think it is a terrible idea? Yes, Klaus I do. But it isn't me stopping her, it is him."
Klaus huffed. "Of course. Little brother decided to worry about someone other than himself."
"About time one of you Mikaelson boys did."
"She will bring him back." He glared at her insinuating the pain he will cause if she stood in his way.
"Don't threaten me, Klaus. I'm no longer in love with you. You can't use your manipulation on me anymore."
Klaus looked at her—regret flashed through his eyes. "You're in love with another."
Caroline bit her lip closing the door slightly to guard herself from him. "Leave, Klaus. You aren't welcome here."
"That wasn't a no, love."
"Again I say, leave."
"He's human, isn't he?" At Caroline's stutter, he grinned. "Well that makes things extremely interesting for me. I could always torture him until you convince—"
"How can I convince her if she is already wanting to do it? It isn't my fault Kol doesn't want to come back." Her voice held the tone of steel, not wanting her emotions to give anything away. He couldn't know about Stefan. Klaus would kill him and she would never forgive herself.
"Don't get defensive, love."
"Don't call me that."
His eyes hardened on her—jealously evident in his fear. "Does he call you that?"
"No, he doesn't, but you saying it makes my skin crawl, so I going to say it one more time Klaus—leave." She watched as his angry façade faltered and she knew she had broken through his train of thought. She knew Klaus Mikaelson and she knew when he set his mind on something it would take a great deal of effort to pull him out of it.
"She will save him."
With that, he sped away—leaving Caroline cold and frightened.
Her mind filled with thoughts of Stefan being tortured by Klaus and she felt her chest tightened and her slow, thudding heart beat, stopped. Did she love Stefan? Well, she didn't know. She never allowed herself to delve deep into those thoughts because she didn't want to get hurt. But, the thought of Stefan lying lifeless on the ground—his blood smeared across Klaus' lips gave her enough of a fright for her not to get anymore sleep for the rest of the night.
The next morning Caroline's felt sluggish. She needed to feed. She had been so wrapped up in Stefan and now Klaus she had truly been slacking on taking care of herself. Deciding she needed a day to herself, she took a long hot shower trying not to think about Klaus. Every time she let her mind slip into thoughts about their encounter she felt tears prick at the corner of her eyes. She couldn't allow Stefan to be hurt.
She stepped out of the shower wiping the fog away from the mirror. Feeling herself jump when nothing stared back at her. Part of her feared Klaus would be in her reflection just to scare her.
Not caring too much about her appearance, she pulled her still wet hair into high bun deciding to forgo make up for the day. Pulling on a t-shirt and yoga pants, she slipped on her ballet flats and exited her room.
"You look awful." The accent made her breath hitch.
"Enzo," She sighed—thankful it was someone who only meant her good.
"Of course, Enzo. Who else would be sitting in your living room at six o clock in the morning?" He grinned shutting off the TV and turning on the sofa to lounge.
"Silly me."
Enzo noticed her soft, broken voice and stood slowly. "Did someone hurt you?"
"Klaus stopped by."
Enzo eye's darkened as he stepped in front of the girl he swore to always protect. "What?"
"Last night. Threatened Stefan hoping I would tell Bonnie to bring Kol back." She felt her emotions start to swill around her. Having Enzo in front of her made her walls start to crumble as the tears welled in her eyes.
"It's okay. He's gone." Enzo wrapped his arms around Caroline as she fell into him.
"Please don't let him hurt Stefan," She cried knowing not wearing make up was a good idea.
"I won't."
And that is how they stayed for quite some time. Caroline continued to cry and Enzo comforted the broken girl.
"Have you fed recently?" He finally asked when her cries began to soften.
"No. Why?" She sniffed.
"You get overemotional when you don't. Come on, I snatched some blood bags for you." He grinned pulling her towards the kitchen, trying his best to calm her down.
Enzo had effectively calmed and fed Caroline by the time she needed to start getting ready for school. Seeing Stefan walking around campus made her emotions begin to get worked up again—terrified of Klaus hurting him.
She tried to keep herself occupied and the annoying alerts on her phone seemed to be doing it for her.
"How do I get this to go away?" Caroline asked shoving her phone at Elena. She was tired of her phone asking for passwords she didn't know. It literally made her want to crumble it in her hands
"Oh! This is happened to Damon a few months back. It ended up being like the last password your phone was programmed as,"
Caroline couldn't believe it was that simple. She typed in the only password she had ever had and sure enough she got a new voicemail. It was from telemarketer dated a year ago. "Wow, that easy,"
She walked into math class fifteen minutes early and took a seat next to Elena, "Shit, I forgot my homework in the car. I will be right back," Elena jumped up and ran out of the classroom.
Caroline chuckled slightly and sat by herself. She felt her phone buzz and looked down to see a voicemail from a number that made her heart stop. She had deleted her police station out of her phone, no longer needing it but she remember the numbed by heart. She looked around and figured it didn't hurt to listen to it.
Her breath hitched when her mom's voice hit her ears.
"Caroline, I know you are mad at me."
Caroline's lip quivered, "I know you think your blood could cure me, but even Enzo said it is a risk. I don't want to live the rest of my days sitting around waiting for it to work and if it doesn't then I have wasted my last days waiting instead of with you. I'm sorry if this hurts you, sweetheart. I don't want to die either. I want to see you graduate college and get married, but we need to prepare ourselves. I love you so much."
Caroline felt the tears start to fall. She couldn't help it. She had been doing so well without her mom and then she gets this. She couldn't move. She just felt numb.
"Caroline?" The voice made her let out a small sob. She didn't want him to see her like this. She didn't want anyone to see her like this. She was stronger than that. She could get passed this.
"Come here," He pulled her out of the desk. She did not struggle against him, but instead allowed him to wrap her tight in his arms. Her small hands held onto the front of his shirt as she cried.
"Let's get out of here," He whispered and she shook her head. "Why not?"
"Cause you-have a—girlfriend," She whimpered through sobs.
"I know,"
"What's wrong?" Stefan looked over to see Elena standing in the doorway. Stefan wasn't sure how to respond. He wanted to take care of Caroline. He didn't want to have Elena take care of her. It was selfish of him. He did have a girlfriend, but Caroline needed him. He wasn't there all those times before when she needed him, but he was here now.
She wouldn't let him though.
"Will you go with Elena?" He whispered in her hair and she nodded. He sighed, kissing her head and picking up her bag. He took her homework out knowing Caroline Forbes was not one to forget assignments before he placed the bag across her shoulder.
"Elena, take her to the boarding house."
Elena didn't question her brother-in-law, just handed him the homework she ran all the way to the car to get. She felt awkward in front Stefan and Caroline. Stefan was seeing someone else and Caroline was head over heels for him. The last thing Elena wanted was for Caroline to be hurt by her brother-in-law's indecisiveness.
"Y'all might want to hurry this up, because people are about to start heading in," Elena muttered.
Stefan wiped Caroline's continuous tears, "Baby, you need to breathe,"
Caroline nodded trying her hardest to stop the crying. She heaved haggard breaths as another sob enveloped her small frame.
Stefan fought hard with what to do. Before he knew it, Elena was in front of him. She grabbed Caroline's face so she would look Elena in the eyes, "Caroline," she said in a soothing voice. "Calm down,"
Caroline's crying slowed and her eyes went wide, "Oh my god,"
Stefan pushed Elena out of the way. She didn't need to compel Caroline. He could calm her down.
Caroline sniffed and looked at both of them with shocked eyes, "Oh my god,"
Stefan was confused. Her crying had slowed, but it was obvious she hadn't been compelled. Was she on vervain? Stefan reached for her, but she snatched her arm out of his reach, "I can't be here," She whispered sprinting out the door.
"Why did you do that?" Stefan snapped.
"She was making herself sick from the crying, Stefan. The same thing happened to me when Jeremy died," Elena replied forcefully.
"You didn't need to compel her,"
"Well, it obviously didn't work meaning she is on vervain meaning she knows about vampires," Elena sighed worried what this meant for her family. She loved Caroline and they had quickly formed a bond. Knowing that Caroline knew what vampires terrified her into losing a best friend.
Stefan mentally berated himself for allowing Elena to try to compel Caroline. He shook his head before quickly leaving in the same direction Caroline did.
She was having a panic attack. Well, as much of one as a vampire could have.
He was a vampire. All of those thoughts she had feared for them flew out the window. How could she be so stupid? How did she not notice?
Why would you ever look for the signs?
She couldn't believe this. She leaned against a tree trying to calm herself down. She thought back on all of the moments they shared, but not once did she ever wonder if he could be what she was.
"Caroline."
Shit.
"I can't talk to you right now."
Stefan slowly approached her not wanting to scare her off.
"I know you must be scared."
Scared. Why would she be scared? He is just like her.
Cause he thinks you're human.
Everything became so clear. Why Elena and Damon had been together so long, why he didn't care they were together.
"When were you born?"
Really? Out of all the things he expected out of her mouth, that wasn't it.
"uh, 1846."
"Oh." She didn't know he was that old. He must have turned during the civil war. Wait, was he a soldier?
"Caroline, please just don't freak out."
She continued to stare at him. There was a part that wanted to run at him and kiss him, but the other part feared Klaus coming after him even more now.
"I'm twenty eight." It was the only thing she could think to say to him to make him understand.
"You're twenty eight." He said slowly. She watched as his mind began to work out the kinks and he found clarity. "You're twenty eight."
She shrugged and he felt a heaviness lift off of him. "Everything makes so much more sense."
She nodded. He didn't hesitate to close the distance between them. Before she could understand what was happening, he was pulling her to him, slanting his lips over hers.
She couldn't do this. She wanted to, so bad. But she couldn't. Her mind yelled at her to pull away as she pushed her hands into his hair—not hesitating on using her strength.
"Stefan, I can't. We can't."
Stefan pulled away hurt. "But we are both vampires."
She didn't want to bring up Klaus. So she lied.
"I know, but that doesn't change anything. It doesn't change that I am on the brink of turning off my humanity to not feel that pain of my mother or the fact you drink yourself into oblivion for god knows what reason. You still have a girlfriend and I am still broken."
"Don't you understand, Caroline? You terrify me. I feel so much with I am with you that I forget about the whole ripper—"
"You're a ripper? Explains the drinking and proves my point."
"You keep me grounded. I need you."
She felt her heart began to break. She needed him too. To find out she could be with him full-heartedly was the best news she had heard in months. All of the feelings she had held at bay in fear of hurting him came rushing towards her.
But Klaus would kill him.
"We are back where we started, Stefan. We depend on each other too much. It isn't fair. We have to be healthy."
"Caroline, you can't be serious." He couldn't lose her. Not when he finally could finally have her.
Klaus' threat plagued her mind. She needed Stefan as far away from her as possible, but he needed to know the truth. He needed to know how she felt. She bit her lip to stop it from trembling.
His hands came up to cup her face. "Baby, talk to me."
She closed her eyes leaning into his touch. She missed him touching her. "I can't."
"Yes you can." He leaned his forehead against her own. She felt the tears begin to form.
"I can't put you in danger, Stefan. Being with me is dangerous. I don't want you hurt."
And then she was gone.
Damon stood in front of the Bennett witch's house. He needed answers. He needed to know what was so damn special about Kol Mikaelson. He needed to understand why she would take the chance to release hell on earth for a Mikaelson.
So he knocked. Well, pounded.
And when she swung the door open, his eyes slanted into a glare. "Bonnie Bennett?"
"Who is asking?" She questioned, her eyebrow raised.
"Not important. You see, what is important is you trying to stick your nose where it doesn't belong."
She cocked her head to the side more amused than frightened by his outburst. She assumed he was a vampire and somehow found out about her plan to bring Kol back.
"Kol makes it my business so now I ask why it is yours?"
"Do you know how much blood, sweat, not to mention lives it took to get Kai over there and you want to set him free because of Kol Mikaelson?" He said it as though they were best friends giving her advice on saving the man she loved.
She glanced down at his left hand to see the black ring holding his ring finger captive. "And if the pair to that ring was over there wouldn't you do anything to get her back? Even if it meant bringing Kai back."
He stuttered for a moment because he wasn't sure how to respond.
She's right. You'd risk everyone for Elena.
"You don't understand how crazy he is." Damon cringed just thinking about the mayhem Kai caused the last go around.
Bonnie wondered if he knew Jeremy. He knew Kai, what are the odds he knew of the other two captors that waited on the other side.
"Jeremy Gilbert, you know him?"
Damon's eyes narrowed at her.
"If you're playing me so I will allow—" His words were garbled up into a scream as he dropped to the ground agonizing pain. Aneurysm after aneurysm was sent through his brain causing him to want to pull his hair out.
"Allow? Let's get one thing straight. I don't need anyone's permission. If I want to release Kol and everyone else over there, I will. I'm guessing by your reaction you do know Jeremy Gilbert. So I will ask again—who—are—you?"
"Damon—Damon Salvatore," He grounded out through the pain which instantly stopped when the last syllable escaped his mouth.
"Elena's husband?" Bonnie gasped. "You're a vampire?"
"How do you know Elena?" He glared still not able to stand—lingering pain flittering through his brain.
"She's my friend. Stefan's your brother. They are vampires? How did I not notice this? Does Caroline know?" Bonnie spun around shocked at the information she was collecting.
"I'm not going to hurt you, Bonnie."
"How can I believe you?"
Damon had finally made his way to his feet and sighed. "Jeremy is Elena's brother. Kai killed him ten years ago."
"And Lexi?"
Damon felt his chest tighten at the thought of his brother's best friend. A girl Damon carelessly took the life of fifty years ago before he cared about anyone. "Stefan's best friend. She died—a long time ago."
Bonnie stared at him a long while. She didn't know what about him she felt she could trust, but she could. In a weird way, he reminded her of Kol. "Come in."
Damon was shocked by her words, but followed her into the house never the less.
"Jeremy wants to kill Kai. He says the prison isn't enough." Bonnie explained to him.
"He's over there? You're not lying?"
Bonnie shook her head. "I didn't even know who he was. Why would I lie? And Elena is a vampire?" He nodded. "Does Caroline know?" She asked again.
Before he answered the front door slammed. They both turned to see Caroline come through the door with tears streaming down her face. She gave a Damon a glare.
"I'm taking that as a yes."
With that, Caroline ran to her room in a vampire flurry.
"And apparently she is one too. Well that just took an interesting turn."
She stayed in her room the rest of the night trying to understand the information that she gained throughout the day. She could be with him, but she couldn't. Stupid Klaus. Why couldn't he just leave her and the people she loved alone? Cause she did—she loved Stefan. Learning he was a vampire had made her understand her feelings for him. What started as a distraction snowballed into her falling head over heels for the first time in her life. Nothing had felt like this before. What she thought she had with Klaus paled in comparison to Stefan. The way she longed for him. The ache when he around.
She thought about him all night.
And before she knew it the sun began to rise.
She needed to get out of the house. She needed to just get away.
So she got dressed, put on her favorite jeans and t-shirt, and stared at herself in the mirror— thankful that her vampire tendencies made it impossible to see that she hadn't slept and had she cried all night.
And with that she left the house.
She walked the whole town before deciding she was hungry. She decided to go to the local breakfast spot. Before making her way to the door she saw someone she thought was long gone.
Rebekah Mikaelson stood stock still as she stared into the diner. Caroline took a quick glance around to make sure Bekah's brother was not around before calling out her name.
"Bex?" Rebekah snapped back to reality, jumping slightly before turning to look at Caroline.
"Caroline." She smiled gratefully walking over and wrapping her arms around the blonde.
Still stunned to see Rebekah standing there, Caroline's arms hung loosely beside her.
"Enzo told me you were living here."
"Did you come back to threaten me too?" Rebekah cocked her head in utter confusion. "I will take that as a no. Your beloved brother stopped by to threaten me to get Kol back."
"He is truly insufferable. No, I did not come back to threaten you. Though, I miss my big brother dreadfully, he is gone and I am beginning to accept that."
"No offense, but then why are you here?" Rebekah glanced back into the diner before pulling Caroline away from the windows to sit on a nearby bench.
"To protect my family." She said sadly.
"I don't understand."
"I don't really know where to start."
Rebekah sighed and pushed her hair back, the small ring on her ring finger glistening in the sun. Caroline had noticed Rebekah had worn that ring in all the years she had known her, but never said where it came from.
"A little over forty years ago, my brothers and I moved back here because they missed home. I begrudgingly came with them and I met a boy. He worked at the Mystic Grill and was so beautifully human." Rebekah got a smile on her face that Caroline had never seen before.
"I was so in love it hurt. For the first time in my life, I wanted to be human. To grow old with him and I wanted him to know what I was. I wanted him to be proud of who I was. So I told him and he hated vampires, but he loved me." Rebekah gnawed on her lip, glancing at the diner when she heard the door open with her super human hearing.
"We married when he was twenty five. Klaus and the boys had decided to flee to a new city, but I stayed. And things were good. We were happy, but I did something that he probably should never have forgiven me for. I would put drops of my blood in his coffee every morning—just to be safe. I feared someone would hurt him to get to me."
Caroline glanced the ring Rebekah played with—everything about her becoming so clear. The bitterness Rebekah held towards her brother was palpable. The tension between the two could be cut with a knife and anytime Rebekah as stuck in the same room as Klaus she looked like if she could vomit, then she would.
"Well, he ended up getting in a car accident. Can you believe that? Here I fear all of the supernatural ways to die, not even thinking something so human could kill him. His injuries were too severe and I lost him." Rebekah sniffed at the thought of losing her beloved.
"When he woke up, I surely thought he would leave me to die once again—never wanting to become the vampire I was. Of course he was angry I lied to him, but he understood I was doing it to protect him."
"So he became a vampire?" Caroline asked.
Rebekah nodded. "I thought we would have eternity together and for ten years, we had a perfect life of traveling and just being in love. I taught him to control the blood to make sure he never became the killer he feared."
"So what happened?"
"Klaus happened. He got a werewolf pregnant and she feared he would use the baby to make hybrids. So she gave the baby to me and told Klaus the baby died. We fled, raising Hope as our own and though it was scary he would come after us, I was happy. I had everything I wanted. A husband, a baby who would probably be either a hybrid or a werewolf or a witch—which one I didn't know. But I was happy and for ten more years, I was a mom and I loved her. But Klaus found out that I had a baby and he started to wonder—" At this point, Rebekah took a deep breath to stop her emotions from overwhelming her. "I couldn't have him hurt my baby, so I left. I ran away hoping he would come after to me and not my family."
"So why do you stay with Klaus?"
"Cause he found me and I thought if I went home with him—well then he would think there was nothing to worry about. "
"And you're here why?" Caroline was still utterly confused on why Rebekah came to Mystic Falls.
"Cause they moved here. And before I left, I had a witch place a spell so he'd give the appearance of an aging man."
"Cause Klaus knows you were married to a vampire." Rebekah nodded.
"I'm sorry, Rebekah."
"I just need to make sure he doesn't hurt them."
"Won't the spell wear off?"
"It will in a few years. He will revert back to a healthy twenty six year old vampire. That or if I come back and we see each other."
"Sounds like a powerful witch."
"She is." Rebekah stood up taking a chance to once again look inside the diner. Caroline followed her and when she looked into the restaurant she was shocked to what she saw.
Matt Donavon laughing with a girl who looked to be mid-twenties. The girl had lilac colored hair pulled back into a high bun with her legs crossed on her seat. She flung her hands around as Matt smiled and sipped on his coffee.
"Matt Donavon is a vampire?" Caroline asked flabbergasted.
"It is shocking to see him as a sixty something year old man, but I know my husband and I know my daughter."
"Bex—"
"You're not the only one being threatened by Klaus. If he knows that is my daughter—he will come after her. I will do anything to protect my family."
"I know."
"And I will protect yours as well." Rebekah placed a hand on Caroline's arm. She had grown rather fond of Caroline over the last ten years. At first, she was skeptical of the optimistic blonde, but soon began to form a tight bond with the girl.
"How long has it been since you talked to him?"
Rebekah sighed. "Fifteen very long years."
"Maybe if you just talked to him."
"Trust me, that thought has crossed my mind. I don't know if I am strong enough. Plus, if the spells wears off after we talk then I effectively ruin his life."
"We will figure it out. Just stay here for a second, okay? I am going to grab some food for us then we can go back to my place."
Rebekah nodded as Caroline pulled away from her walking into the diner. As she started towards the counter, Matt called her over. "Caroline, I wanted to meet my daughter, Hope."
Hope sat her fork down and stretched her hand out for Caroline to take. Caroline stared hard at her—seeing Klaus' features etched into her face. Except, she had a smile pulling at her lips instead of a scowl.
"Hi," Caroline rasped out.
"Caroline is a friend of Stefan's." Matt explained making Hope give a nod.
"So you were the reason he was in such a good mood last time I was home."
Caroline sputtered at the thought. Well she was blunt. She must get that from Bekah.
"Hope," Matt's tone was one of warning, very used to his daughter's antics.
Before Hope had a chance to respond, she glanced out the window, eyes widening in shock. "Mom?"
Caroline felt herself begin to panic. She looked out the window to see Rebekah seemingly frozen in place as she held eye contact with her daughter.
"Hope." Matt tried to keep his daughter calm, but he himself was shocked to see his long lost wife so close to them.
Hope jumped out of her seat, Caroline doing nothing to stop her. Both she and Matt followed behind the lilac haired beauty.
She didn't give Rebekah a chance to speak before she was throwing her arms around her. "Mom."
Rebekah slowly wrapped her arms in Hope, closing her eyes with a smile crossing over her features.
"Bex, I don't think this should be happening out in the open with you know who bouncing around." Caroline muttered giving up her façade of human. Obviously Matt was a vampire, nothing she needed to worry about.
"You're right. I can't be here." She pulled away from Hope who felt rejected from her own mother.
"Mom."
"Come to my house. I will give you the address and y'all can continue the reunion there. Klaus can't see you hugging a girl the same age as his daughter." Caroline reasoned.
"Okay." Hope gave a slight nod noticing her father had seemed to have disappeared.
"Where'd dad go?" Hope asked looking around.
"Probably hiding away from me." Rebekah muttered before speeding away to Caroline's house already knowing where it was from Enzo.
"I am so confused." Hope turned to Caroline.
"Yeah, me too. Come on, I guess you don't need my address—just come with me."
And with that they began the short walk to Caroline's house.
Caroline hoping that with a few more vampires, the people she loved wouldn't be hurt.
Ever since I could remember,
Everything inside of me,
Just wanted to fit in (oh, oh, oh, oh)
I was never one for pretenders,
Everything I tried to be,
Just wouldn't settle in (oh, oh, oh, oh)
If I told you what I was,
Would you turn your back on me?
And if I seem dangerous,
Would you be scared?
I get the feeling just because
Everything I touch isn't dark enough
That this problem lies in me
I'm only a man with a candle to guide me,
I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me.
A monster, a monster,
I've turned into a monster,
A monster, a monster,
And it keeps getting stronger.
Can I clear my conscience
If I'm different from the rest?
Do I have to run and hide? (oh, oh, oh, oh)
I never said that I want this,
This burden came to me,
And it's made its home inside (oh, oh, oh, oh)
If I told you what I was,
Would you turn your back on me?
And if I seem dangerous,
Would you be scared?
I get the feeling just because,
Everything I touch isn't dark enough
That this problem lies in me
I'm only a man with a candle to guide me,
I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me.
A monster, a monster,
I've turned into a monster,
A monster, a monster,
And it keeps getting stronger.
I'm only a man with a candle to guide me,
I'm taking a stand to escape what's inside me.
A monster, a monster,
I've turned into a monster,
A monster, a monster,
And it keeps getting stronger.
By: Imagine Dragons