A/N: Ok, you guys are Craze Amaze! I loved each and Everyone of your reviews, and VeVe2491(hope I got that right) I'm sorry it hit you hard, I actually didn't know he was dead til you said it... I'm still in denial waiting for when they'll say he's alive and it's all a sick joke. SO RIP Cory, We love you forever and Always. Ok, Away from the depressing stuff, for now... You'll see later in the chapter maybe. Anyways, I was gonna update sooner, but yesterday was like a national holiday for me... How Awesome was Teen Beach Movie? Amaze, am I right? Anyways, the songs in that movie were super catchy, and now I really can't stop singing and they keep playing in my head over and over again, I mean it's ok, but I don't need the sing along I already memorized the songs what with it being stuck in my head all day. I had an amazing sleepover with my friends, we watched all the New and exciting stuff Disney had planned yesterday, and then fangirled at the very end where Ross' shirt is unbuttoned and you can see his torso area? Forget it, I wasn't all like Fangirl, Ahhh, Ahhh, because I've seen him shirtless before. Anyway... I love you guys, and I'm sorry this might be short or might not even be up today at all... but I'll make up for it I'll give you two today, one now one later. SO, Austin first... and go ahead and read it, I was really suprised that nobody commented on the little memory that Austin has of Ally, oh stupid boys...they just don't understand, but we love 'em anyways. READ Lovelies Read!
Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN AUSTIN AND ALLY OR ANYOTHER REFRENCES USED IN THIS CHAPTER!
AustinPov,
It's been almost 3 years since Ally died. I still miss her deeply, but...Something, keeps telling me she's alive. If Ally's alive, I don't know what I'd do... I have so many emotions, I'm pissed,broken-hearted, in love, and hurt all at the same time everyday, I think if she was alive all that feeling would come out.
I just can't help but feel she's still here, I have a fan that sends me all these song lyrics, and they all remind me of My Ally's songs... innocent,pure, and from the heart. Speaking of my music, Starr really gets on my nerves, after the whole incident with me being a cheater, and then Ally's death, he told me to stop with the sissy attitude and grow a pair. He was basically telling me that I'm not aloud to morn the loss of my girlfriend, he's an ass, and I want to quit but Ally's final goodbye to me told me that I should keep our dream alive and keep making my music, and that's what I'm doing, pushing through all the shit in life, because eventually it'll be over and I can be with Ally and it'll all finally seem worth it.
I've been laying in my bed for a while now... it's that day again, her birthday. March 11th , she'd be 18 today. I remember her funeral, we never found her body, so she didn't get the true burrail an angel like her deserved, instead some watery grave somwhere from here in Miami to somewhere in Georgia. Her body wasn't there, so I couldn't say goodbye to her one last time, instead a picture of her stood at the front of the church. It was a small gathering, Ally's family, her close friends, and some old teachers and other people who touched her life and made her who she was to the very day of her death.
"Austin, mom says to get out of bed and eat right now," Halston says from the door an irritated look on her face.
I throw a pillow at her and she dodges it by opening the door wider and moving to her right.
I let out and exasperated groan.
"Can you just leave! I mean do you ever knock?! Nevermind don't answer that, just get out and let me live my life my way!" I tell her.
"Austin! This is freaking ridiculous, she was your girlfriend, she wasn't really related to you, you guys were in your Sophmore year, the relationship was probably just a fling that wasn't gonna last long. She probably would have left anyway... But this," She says motioning to the air around her, "Is fucking ridiculous! Your almost 19 grow up!"
"Get out Halston," I say in a monotone.
"I'm not going to leave, until your ass gets out of that bed and down the stairs into the kitchen." She tells me.
"Fine. Stay, see if I care." I tell her turning to face the other wall.
I hear her sit down. I just listen to her shifting in her seat.
"MOM!MOOOOM!" I hear her yell.
"Wow." I mutter under my breath.
"What do you want honey?" My mom asks, peeking her head through the door to see what's going on.
"Look at what you force me to call my brother," She says.
I turn around and throw another pillow in her direction.
"Halston Elizabeth Moon! Knock it off right this instant young lady!" My mom says entering my room and sitting next to me on my bed.
"Mom,I'm just being realistic here. I've told you before, do not use my full name, it's way too long!" Halston says rolling her eyes. "Gosh, what were you and Dad thinking, No you weren't thinking, I mean 20 fucking letters!"She mumbles.
My mom looks at her and glares.
"Hallie, go to your room you and I will talk later, this is now way for someone that's almost 21, to act." My mom scolds.
Hallie leaves not before mumbling a sorry and walking down the hall and opening and slamming it shut behind her.
"Honey, I know she was and always will be your only love, but do you think she'd want you to sit around and waist your life, because she lost hers?"She asks me.
"No, but it's hard, and it's my fault, maybe she wouldn't have died, if I don't get her involved with Dallas, because, it was probably the whole fight... Dallas was the one that cut her breaks!" I yell, clearly forgetting for 10 seconds that he lives in the room next to mine.
"Austin Mon-" She starts.
"Matthew," I correct.
"Right, sorry. Austin Monica Moon! We will not jump to conclusions." She tells me.
"But it's true, he killed her, he's the reason her breaks wouldn't work and she went barreling over the bridge." I say childishly, crying into my mom's shoulder now.
"Oh, Austin, we don't know why her breaks didn't work. The autopsy of her car... wasn't very easy. We'll never know unless Ally herself tells us what happens."She says kissing the top of my head.
"I just don't get it. How can you see someone just like 30 minutes before and then they're deaad." I say.
"I don't know Sweetie. Let's not talk about this anymore. Your just making yourself upset." She says rubbing my back.
"I know." I say sitting up. "But, it's only fair to Ally, if I suffer too." I tell her.
"No Austin it's not. I want you to stop this right now! You're making yourself sick!" My mom yells at me.
" understands. I don't get why you guys try. STOP TRYING TO HELP!" I yell as I walk out of my room to the kitchen.
I'm greeted by the one face I didn't want to see. Dallas.
I bet you're wondering why he's still here. I am too. But my mom always answers with he's family, he and his mom need a place to stay. I don't get what the hold up is, my aunt should just divorce the drunken bastard that's unfourtunately my uncle.
I walk past him and grab the peanut butter and jelly sandwich in the shape of a smily face my mom made for me.
"Look, Austin, I don't know how many times or how many years i'm going to have to say this, but I'm sorry." Dallas says as he takes a seat from across me.
"Yeah? Well sorry isn't going to bring her back." I tell him.
"I know but you can't honestly think I'm to bla-"I cut him off.
"I do! I always will, to the day I die." I tell him.
"Austin, what did I do? tell me!" He says.
"Did you forget what you said to me the day she died?" I ask him.
"Yes I did. Because, she was my girlfriend, I'm trying to move on she was just your friend." He tells me.
"She wasn't just my friend and this is what you told me," I tell him
flashback No one POV,
By Now, Ally had left the car rental and was on her way to South Carolina, the place she would call home.
Austin Was off in a corner away from everyone, reading her final goodbye to him. Over and Over.
was talking to the police about how this isn't a real case but it needs to seem like one, for the well being of his daughter. Of course this was an abuse of the emergency system, but him throwing in the tidbit about the well being of his daughter made it ok.
Off in another corner was Trish and Dez. Dez was trying his hardest to comfort her. Although, Trish was numb from her pain and hurt she wasn't completly oblivious to the fact that she was starting to develop feelings for Ally's brother. She was just hoping that wherever Ally was in heaven, she'd be ok with her dating Dez.
Oh, and of course how could we forget the infamous Dallas. There he stood by Mimi who, still was not too thrilled with him, to be completely honest, she never really liked Dallas' family to begin with, but her husband insisted on allowing his brother's family a place to stay at their huge Miami home.
Dallas snuck away from the watchful eyes of his aunt and toward his cousin who was sitting on the ground thiniking deeply about something.
"Hey Austin," He said in mock cheer.
"Go away Asshole," Austin replied not looking up to aknowledge him.
"I refuse too." Dallas said sitting next to Austin, who immediately moved away from him.
Dallas let out a sigh before continuing to talk knowing Austin wouldn't be doing much.
"Look, obviously this was a sign that Ally never loved you, She obviously killed herself to get away from you. It was never you she loved, it was always me." Dallas said looking at Austin hoping to get a rise out of him.
"SHE ALWAYS LOVED ME! SHE NEVER LOVED YOU! SHE WAS TOO FUCKING AFRAID OF WHAT YOU'D DO TO HER TO EVEN BREAK UP WITH YOU! SHE ONLY SAID YES, BECAUSE YOU WERE HER FIRST IN A LONG TIME, AND HER TRUE , WAITED TO LONG AND TALKED TO A FUCKING ASS ABOUT HIS FEELINGS INSTEAD OF HER! IF HE HAD SHE'D STILL BE HERE!" Austin yelled. Most of the eyes from the other people at the scene were on the two.
"It's God's sign, if I can't have her nobody can." Dallas said a smirk tugging at his lips.
Austin didn't say anything instead he stood up and walked towards his mom and Dad who pulled him into a hug when he reached them.
Little did Austin know, part of the reason Dallas was such a player, ass and a bully was because...well, every kid had the one thing he didn't a perfect family.
Austin Pov,
"I remember now... but I don't care, if you wanna hold a grudge, then . !"Dallas said in syllables.
I sat there. I didn't care if Dallas was sorry. All I knew was soon me and Ally would be together again.
A/N: Ok, so I had fun writing this sort of. I mean we got a little intro to Trez some foreshadow at the end creepy foreshadow. How many of you caught that? How many of you know what Austin's little memory of Ally is? Ok, sorry I've been writing this for 2 days. I wanted it to be perfect, I wanted you to see how Austin was coping with all of this. So, next we'll see how Ally's doing, so another little important filler that leads up to the reuniting. I'm still not sure, if Auslly will still be alive but I can assure you the drama has just begun. I'm sorry for those of you that this is hitting hard, I'm trying to rush us through all the parts about her death. Next chapter should be mostly death free. So yeah, I'll try not to make you wait forever!
*In other news: It's A Boy! Congrats to Duchess Kate an Prince William on their baby boy! He and Selena Gomez are b-day buddies. Just like me and North West.(Kanye and Kim didn't thin that through. It's like Alicia Keys naming her son Car Keys. Anyways yay! Happy Day for them. The royal baby was so close to being B-day buddies with my older twin sisters! There birthday is on the 24th and the baby was on the 22nd. SO... I guess they'll always have Bindi the Jungle Girl and Amelia Airheart to celebrate with!
*Kaylin, Who loves you guys for 57 reviews on 13 chapters! Who is happy you guys were so patient!