Spiraling out of control chapter 4
Ahsoka walked into a empty training room and walked onto the mat. She let her cloak fall down to the ground and pulled out her sabers. She began going over some of the basic forms. After about twenty minutes she heard the door opened and she sensed Master Kanobi walk into the room, she ignored him and continued her training.
"You know Master Shaak ti is just trying to help you Ahsoka, she cares about your well being" Obi-wan said walking up onto the mat. "She sure has a funny way of showing it" Ahsoka said through gritted teeth "All she tells me is that I need to move on" she continued.
Obi-wan nodded "And you do Ahsoka, I know you miss him but I also do but we are at war and we need to focus on winning this war" Obi-wan said. Ahsoka paused and looked at the master Jedi "You make it sound so easily, he was your friend and you make it seem like his death doesn't bother you" she said and slashed harder at the opponent she was visualizing in her head.
"Ahsoka it does bother me yes, and it hurts me that he is gone we have more important things to worry about" Obi-wan said. This time Ahsoka fully stopped and turned to look at him "More important? Anakin was important to me!" Ahsoka replied. "I know he was Ahsoka I know he was but…" Obi-wan trailed off and sighed. He could tell Ahsoka was still very upset about this he just didn't want to push her to move on.
"How did it happen?" Ahsoka asked as she resumed her training. Obi-wan closed his eyes, he knew this question was bound to come, he just didn't know if he was ready to give the answer. He wondered if it would do more harm than good if he told her, he didn't want to keep secrets from Ahsoka but he also didn't want to have her believe that he was the reason her master gone. He blamed himself enough as it was for the incident.
"How?" Ahsoka asked again stopping again to look at him. Obi-wan's silence was beginning to push the bounds of Ahsoka's patience "How Obi-wan!" she said loudly. Obi-wan sighed "Ahsoka…I…" he stopped and decided against telling her for the time, he turned and began to leave the room.
Ahsoka knew Obi-wan was not telling her something and she wanted to find out, she needed to find out. All her emotions were just building up and she didn't know what to do. Obi-wan looked back at the young padawan "Ahsoka I am truly sorry" he said walking out of the room.
Ahsoka watched the master Jedi leave the room and sighed, when the door slid shut she allowed herself to slip to her knees and give into her pain once again. "Of all the masters why did it have to be mind" Ahsoka said as tears filled her eyes again. Her hand trailed down to the hilt of her master's lightsaber and she took it in her hand.
She unclipped it from her belt and let out a shaky breath, her thumb reached over and activated the blue blade. Its blue blade sprung to life, the saber felt strange in her hand but she adjusted her hand until she found a comfortable gripping position. Her dull blue eyes met the blight blew glow of the blade. She took in a deep breath and let the force signature of her master that was emitting from the saber surround her.
A couple hours later Ahsoka was sitting in Anakin's room staring at a holo picture. It was of her and Anakin they were both laughing, they were both happy. It just seemed so unreal to her that he was gone, her thumb caressed the photo gently as memories of her and Anakin flooded in to her mind.
She thought they would both survive this war, she didn't think it would be like this. That he would be taken from her and if anything she thought that she would be the one to die first, she was the more careless one not him. She closed her eyes and held the picture close to her "I miss you…" she said softly.
It was unlike a padawan to morn for such a long time but they were more than just master and apprentice, they were best friend. The council already thought that they had been to close but the two were a perfect match for each other. To her they seemed like the perfect master and apprentice in a manner of speaking.
Ahsoka needed to find out what had happened to her master when he was on that mission, she needed to know. Ahsoka got up and put her cloak back around her, after clipping her master's lightsaber to her belt as well as her own and placing the picture back on the desk she headed out of the room.
Ahsoka made her way though the temple to the Jedi archives, she walked in and sat down at a computer. Her hands went to work as she pulled of Anakin Skywalker's file and began to read. After reading many of his exploits and mission he had went on before she became his padawan she found little about his death. In fact the entire report of the mission leading to his death was just gone.
Ahsoka slammed her hand down on the table in frustration and laid her head down on the table. Why was the report missing from the mission it shouldn't be unless someone had removed it, that was the only explanation. Question was who and why. Ahsoka stood up and thought, she would have to talk to someone who was there with Anakin when he died, that was the only way she was going to find out.
Rex, that's it. Rex was almost always with Anakin when he was in battle. He must have seen or heard something, now she just needed a way to get to him. Ahsoka turned and walked outside of the library and out of the temple. She knew the council would not send her on another mission especially without a master so she would have to do it on her own.
Ahsoka jumped onto her fighter and blasted off once she was in space she reached down and changed the frequency of her ship to the same frequency as the Resolute. "Admiral Yularen this is Jedi padawan Ahsoka Tano" she said. At first there was static but after a moment a voice called through the static "This is Admiral Yularen" the other end said. "I need you location…the council has sent me to link of with Captain Rex" she lied. "Transmitting location now" the other end said, Ahsoka looked down as the location of the Resolute appeared on her nav computer. Ahsoka locked her ship into a hyperspace ring and jumped into hyperspace.