Spiraling out of control chapter 12

A month, Ahsoka had been searching for Anakin for a month on Coursuant and found nothing. She had searched every level of Coursant even the crime filled lower levels with thieves and murderers and found nothing. Ahsoka could tell her master was healing, she could feel it through their bond but he wasn't strong enough yet that she could locate where he was.

Her first thought had been to return to the Jedi temple and see if he was there but then she decided against it because she would probably have to face punishment for disobeying the council. The young Jedi rubbed her tired eyes, she hadn't slept much since this whole ordeal had started and she knew she wouldn't until she found her master.

"Another drink for you ma'am" a service droid said placing another alcoholic beverage on the table. Ahsoka took the drink and hit the middle between chugging it and taking even small drinks of it. Sure a Jedi was not suppose to drink alcohol but Ahsoka really didn't care, it wasn't the first time she had broken the rules.

No one would believe her, no matter what she said they just didn't believe that Anakin was alive. Ahsoka looked down as the light began flashing on her communicator again, a look of annoyance appeared on her face. 'Probably Obi-wan or Shaak ti trying to contact me again' she thought. Obi-wan, Anakin's best friend thought he was dead, Shaak ti thought Anakin was dead and they both almost convinced her completely that Anakin was dead. The fact that Obi-wan had abandoned her master on Dathomir show Ahsoka another side of Obi-wan, heck it showed her another side of the Jedi Order.

It showed her how much they didn't care, sure their faces might show sadness and sympathy about ones passing. They would tell Ahsoka to just seek refuge in the Force and move on, that it was the will of the Force that it happened. But Ahsoka couldn't seek refuge in the force, she didn't want to, she wanted to find her master.

After a month however Ahsoka began to wonder if she would ever find him, she had search every place for him and found nothing. She knew drinking wasn't the answer to her problem but it helped take her mind off of all of it. Off Obi-wan's choice to abandoned Anakin, off the council lack of faith and support when she said that Anakin was alive. Where the Jedi really so blind in their so called will of the force that they couldn't sense her master was alive? Perhaps, perhaps not.

Anakin's eyes snapped open inside of the bacta tank, he looked around before pushing himself up to the surface of the tank. He pulled the tube from his mouth and took deep loud breaths, a moment later a medical droid came over and helped him from the tank "You should rest in bed, you internal organs have just healed but your body is weak" the droid said.

Anakin dried off and put on his clothes "I need to find Ahsoka" Anakin said. He tried to push himself from the bed which he was now sitting on but his legs turned into jelly, he grabbed onto the bed before he fell. "Sir I must insist that you rest, your body needs to build up its strength" the droid replied. The door opened and Obi-wan saw Anakin try to push himself from the bed again and he reach forward quickly to catch him as he fell. "Anakin you should rest" he said gently sitting his friend back up in the bed.

"Ahsoka…where is she…" Anakin said as he looked back at Obi-wan. "She went searching for you, she has been missing for over a month. Master Shaak ti and Master Plo Koon are looking for her" Obi-wan replied. Obi-wan couldn't help but smile, his friend and former apprentice was alive "It's good to have you back" he said as he hugged him. "Now you should rest Anakin until your body is strong enough, you've been through quiet a lot" Obi-wan said putting a hand on his friends shoulder. "Yea tell me about it" Anakin replied.

"Master Plo I've found Ahsoka. She's in the lower levels I've been tailing her for a while" Shaak said quietly into her comm. "I'm on my way from the upper levels" Plo replied. Shaak turned off her comm. and slowly began to approach the Jedi padawan, she had masked her presence when she had first seen Ahsoka now she just had to get to her.

Ahsoka was getting desperate, she had followed every possible lead she had heard about the crashed shipped and where the pilot may have gone. She had spent a lot of her credits bribing people for information who claimed to have the location of the lost pilot but all of them had lied and ran off with the credits. Ahsoka could still feel her master presence was on Corustant she just couldn't pinpoint where it was at so she was force to rely on the words of people.

Ahsoka sat down on a bench and sighed, if she just would have been there with her master when all of this had happened she could have kept him safe. Sadly the council thought she was to young for the mission and forbid her to go, Ahsoka didn't know why, she had been on several dangerous missions before so again why was this one so dangerous.

"Ahsoka" Shaak said reaching out to touch the girl. Ahsoka jumped up from the chair and spun around to see the master Jedi. "I'm not going back to the temple until I find my master" Ahsoka said quickly figuring the Jedi master had been sent to find her and bring her back.

"Ahsoka we found Anakin he is back at the temple, we've been searching everywhere for you trying to find you" Shaak replied stepping toward her again. Ahsoka shook her head "No, your lying I would have felt his presence at the temple if he was there. You're trying to take me back to hold me there" Ahsoka said. "Ahsoka I'm not lying to you. Anakin is back at the temple please come and see for yourself. We were wrong to think he was dead, I found him on the temple steps and we took him to the medical room, he is waiting for you Ahsoka" Shaak replied.

"NO! You're trying to trick me! I will find Anakin and prove to you all that you were wrong, I will find my master and you're not going to stop me!" Ahsoka yelled. "Ahsoka please, I'm not trying to trick you. I was wrong not to believe you we all were wrong but when I found him at the temple I knew I had to find you. Please come back" Shaak insisted.

"You didn't believe me before! You didn't trust me before so why should I trust you!" Ahsoka said taking a step backward. "Please Ahsoka listen to me, Anakin is back at the temple come back with me and you can see him" Shaak said. "No I'm not going to fall for your trick!" Ahsoka growled "And your not taking be back to the temple, I am going to find my master!" she said with a voice that grew cold and full of anger.