Callie stood in front of the mirror as she applied another layer of mascara, the past few days had been the definition of hell. The second she left Arizona's after their kiss her destructive mood had begun, she had screamed at everyone during her surgery. Normally, her OR would have an upbeat and comfortable atmosphere. Unfortunately for those who experienced the wrath of Callie Torres that day, their usual comfortable atmosphere was long gone. Instead the whole OR was in silence for the duration of the surgery, the only words that were spoken were Callie asking for equipment. The wrath didn't stop there. Talking to Penny that evening didn't go as well as she hoped either, she didn't know what she had expected, but for her girlfriend to ask if she still loved her ex-wife was not was she was expecting. She had gone over to Penny's apartment in an attempt to be calm and patient. However, with Callie's short temper that plan lasted five seconds.
"What on earth possessed you to say that to Arizona?!" Callie threw her bag down on the work top as she followed Penny into her kitchen.
The red head let out a sigh, she knew this was coming. "I don't know I don't know, it just came out!"
"Something like that doesn't just come out Penny, you must have been thinking about it."
"It just come out, I saw her with Sofia and I imagined what'd be like if there was another child on her hip."
"Regardless, you had no right to say it. Do you know how hard it was for Arizona to get over it? The last thing she needs is you bringing it up again."
"Why are you so quick to defend her on honour?"
"I don't know maybe because my girlfriend was damn right disrespectful to the mother of my child."
"Disrespectful? I was disrespectful? I would never have sent you that text message. She's put you through absolute hell and you're still on her side!"
"Why are you making it out to be a competition?"
"Whenever Arizona Robbins is involved, I am a lost cause. You and I both know this." Penny interjected, her face falling as she thought about her what she was about to say. "If I didn't know any better, I'd say you were still in love with her."
Callie stayed silent.
"Well are you?"
Callie hadn't given Penny and answer, she had picked up her bag back up and fled her girlfriend's apartment. That was the second time she fled from reality in the space of twenty four hours. She and Penny hadn't spoken about their argument, both being too scared to face the cold hard truth that Callie still carried feelings for her ex-wife. Callie also had high tensions with Arizona, each time Arizona tried to bring it up Callie would make an excuse and leave. Her life had quickly become a mess. Being around Arizona was tough; all she wanted to do was take the blonde into the nearest on call room and continue their short lived kiss. She had been doing the mature thing this week and avoiding all situations that would leave her and Arizona in each other's company. Exchanging of their daughter was the only time Callie allowed herself to be in Arizona's company.
Now Callie was stood in front of the mirror trying to apply the rest of her makeup while gathering her emotions. Today was Arizona's birthday and both she and Sofia were expected to make an appearance. She had wished Arizona didn't invite her over, being around both her ex in laws and ex-wife was going to be one to remember.
Deciding to just go with how she looked Callie set out to find her daughter. "Sof come on, we have to go see Momma."
Sofia stomped out of her bedroom. "I can't find momma's present." She pouted and crossed her arms.
Ruffling the top of the little girls head, Callie turned her around and patted her back to get her to move. "Your present is in the car, you put it in there last night remember."
Sofia seemed to agree with her mother's words as she simply smiled and bounced down the stairs, her mother followed in suit with a less than enthusiastic look on her face.
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"Oh Arizona, come and see how cute Sofia looks!" Barbara cooed as she let in Callie and Sofia. Sofia was wearing a newly purchased dress, pink as expected. The little girl refused to wear anything that wasn't pink or yellow. For Arizona, this was a dream come true. Her daughter was a little Easter basket but for her ex-wife who wasn't a fan of bright colours she had thought otherwise.
"Bug look at your dress!" Arizona smiled as she watched her daughter twirl around.
Callie stood awkwardly to the side letting her daughter have a moment with her mother. Sofia run up to Callie and held out her hand, seconds later a bag was placed on top. She ran back and held the bag up to Arizona. "Happy burrfday Momma!"
Both Barbara and Arizona cooed at the sound of Sofia saying happy birthday, during the week Sofia had lost a milk tooth at the centre bottom of her mouth. While her grandparents were fussing over the loss, her mothers had both expressed their excitement over the new pronunciation of words.
Sensing the awkwardness between the two women, Barbara took her granddaughters hand and muttered something about a secret stash of chocolate.
"You know mom's going to be sneaking her loads of chocolate tonight right?" Arizona commented, as she played with the hem of her tshirt.
"Just want I need, a hyper and sick child." Callie answered as she looked up at Arizona.
"Well anyway, everyone's in the garden." Arizona replied simply as she left Callie standing by the door.
Following the blonde, Callie wondered into the garden to be met by the sight of most of their friends. With their being doctors it was very rare that everyone could be together without the sound of someone's pager going off.
"Torres you made it!" Alex cheered as he held a beer to her, she shook her head while holding her hand up.
"You know I would but Arizona's mother is feeding Sofia chocolate so I need to be on guard." She admitted while taking a seat in between Maggie and Alex.
"Where is little Torres?" Karev muttered as he stood up to go find his sidekick.
While the rest of the adults began to gossip, Callie couldn't help but feel uncomfortable. Looking round the garden she noticed everyone was preoccupied with talking to someone. Karev had tracked down Sofia who was now sharing some of the 'secret chocolate'. Amelia, Maggie and April were engaged in some sort of small talk. DeLuca and Owen played shared the role of deputy chef to Daniel who had taken it upon himself to be in charge of the barbecue. She was talking to no one.
Barbara made her way out into the garden and perched herself next to Callie. "Some time ago, you would have been up talking to everyone. What's happened?" She grabbed Callie's hand and squeezed it.
"I'm fine, just feeling out of it y'know?"
"Whenever Daniel moved bases, it took me weeks to get used to everyone. Any event they had organised, I would walk around feeling so lost. I know you and Arizona didn't end the marriage on the best of terms, but you both will get to a place where you can be friends."
Callie nodded out of politeness "How did you cope when Daniel wasn't there? I have everyone around me, but I still feel alone?"
"Sweetie I didn't cope. I had Timothy and Arizona to distract me, those two ran me wild every single day. I was too busy making sure Timothy wasn't getting Arizona stuck up a tree or forcing her to be a daredevil, I didn't have time to think of myself. But when I did, it was heart breaking." Pulling her ex daughter law in closer, she rubbed the side of her arm. "I know it's not my place to say, but there's still hope for you both"
Callie looked up at her ex mother in law and simply smiled, throughout her marriage to Arizona she always found comfort with Barbara. She treated Callie like a second daughter, and Callie thought of her like the mother she wished hers was. Barbara would phone the family every Wednesday to get an update of their lives, she would spend only a few moments talking to Arizona but she always found herself talking for hours to Callie. She knew her daughter appreciated how much she cared for Callie, not just herself but Daniel also cared for Callie.
"Torres head's up!" Alex shouted as he came out the back door. When did he go back inside?
Callie glanced at Alex who gave her a look. She was confused. Glancing at her watch, she made a note that she'd only been here half an hour. Was she missing something? Callie went to speak but stopped when she saw Arizona enter the garden with a woman trailing behind her.
Callie suddenly lost interest in the conversations around her, the only thing her mind was focusing on was the woman on Arizona's side. The woman was no taller than herself, her dark hair laid perfectly down her back with a tight braid going around the side of her head. Callie's eyes couldn't help but look down at the women's figure. She wore a respectable cream coloured dress that extenuated her legs. Those legs. Callie was certain they went on for miles. She had to give Arizona credit, the woman was beautiful.
"Guys, I want you to meet Jennifer." Arizona proudly spoke, the smile on her face sat widely.
Amelia and April were the first jump up and approach the new woman, eagerly taking Jennifer's hand and introducing themselves. Arizona had found herself a little 'clique' at work with Amelia and April, everyone had laughed at the bonding of the 'A girls'.
Callie watched her friends fawn over Jennifer, she suddenly felt disinterested in her drink and threw it in the trash adjacent to her.
"Sweetheart, don't let it bother you." Barbara whispered in Callie's ear. She personally didn't like that her daughter invited her new 'bit on the side'. How could she be okay with it when she was so hopeful for Callie and Arizona?
Sofia shyly made her way past Jennifer and came to stand with Callie and Barbara. "Mami, who's that?"
Hoisting the little girl up on her lap she played with the ends of her hair. "She's a friend of momma's so you have to be extra nice okay?" The little girl nodded as she saw her momma approach.
"Bug come here a second." Sofia turned round to Callie who smiled and lifted her back down.
"This is momma's friend Jennifer." Arizona held the little girl's hand "Jennifer, this is my special girl Sofia" Arizona proudly spoke, Sofia was the single most important thing and person in her life.
Sofia gave the woman a shy smile before slowly stepping back towards Callie, once she hit her mother's leg she stopped. Introducing new people to Sofia was always risky, their daughter either attached herself to them or shied away; there was no in between. Most of the time Sofia loved meeting new people, she was a social butterfly at daycare and kindergarten but in this case she shied away. For her own personal feelings Callie was relieved Sofia didn't bounce into Jennifer's arms.
Arizona looked at Callie and gave her a brief smile. "Jen this is Callie, Sofia's other's mother."
Jennifer politely smiled and held her hand out for Callie to take. "You have a beautiful daughter!"
Being the mature person she'd like to think she was Callie took her hand and shook it. "Thank you, she's our pride and joy." Callie couldn't help but emphasise her reply.
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The afternoon continued as it did before Jennifer arrived, a calm and relaxing vibe was felt by all the guests. April and Amelia had taken it upon themselves to make Jennifer feel as welcomed as they could despite Callie's reservations about the woman. The party managed to go on for two hours without a pager going off, but the relaxing atmosphere was broken when Owen's pager beeped. Leaving the party, Owen had left Alex, Andrew and Daniel being the only men to guard the fort. The fort of many women.
Daniel had managed not to burn a single item of food on the barbecue, to congratulate her husband Barbara took it upon herself to tell the party about the post wedding family night they held for Callie and Arizona. Daniel had burnt every piece of food. Everyone laughed along with the story, expect Callie and Arizona. They held their gaze with each other the minute Barbara had started recalling the story. That night would always be memorable for the ex-wives, Arizona's parents had sent them out to buy more appetisers. Returning back an hour later, they made a fake story up about how the store was packed and only two cashiers were open, when in fact they had spent forty minutes in each other's arms in the car. It was the same day Callie fractured two of her toes trying to keep herself up in the car as her wife worked wonders underneath her dress. It was a memorable day for all.
Arizona reached over and gave Jennifer a gentle peck on the cheek before excusing herself from the circle, she made her way back into the house to go check on Sofia. Not long after Daniel had finished preparing all the food, Sofia had climbed onto her momma's lap and fell asleep. The sight had been a warming one for Callie but it was quickly turned into a sight of jealousy as Jennifer moved closer to Arizona and started to stroke Sofia's hair.
Watching her ex-wife walk back inside, Callie made a sly escape in the same direction gazing behind her to make sure no one saw.
Callie found her ex-wife watching over Sofia who was sleeping peacefully in her own bed. When Arizona purchased the house, the first room she went about decorating was Sofia's. At first the little girl was sceptical about having two bedrooms, she didn't understand why she couldn't just keep her 'normal room'. The minute Arizona took Sofia furniture shopping and let the little girl pick any type of bed she wanted, her mind was instantly changed.
"She okay?" Callie quietly spoke.
Arizona jumped slightly as the sound of Callie's voice crept up on her. "Calliope, you scared me!"
Forcing a smile Callie shrugged her shoulders and left the room, she allowed herself to walk across the hall and wait outside Arizona's room. It wasn't long before the blonde followed and gestured for them to enter.
Callie perched herself on the chair that sat in the corner of the bedroom. She waited a few moments before speaking. "So, things with Jennifer are getting serious?"
"We've only been on three dates Callie."
"Three?! I thought you'd only seen her twice." Callie's jaw dropped in shock, she had no idea that Jennifer was so present in Arizona's life.
"We had the second date that you know off, and last night we went out. Not that it's any of your business anyway." The tone in her voice began to raise.
Callie held her hands up. "I was simply asking."
"You weren't, you were fishing. I don't ask you about your relationship with Penny."
"I was simply asking Arizona, I have to right to know who is our daughter is being exposed too."
"If I recall correctly, you actually didn't come to me about Penny. I had to find out from Sofia." Arizona run her fingers through her hair, this was only the second time Callie had claimed Sofia as only her daughter. Arizona knew Callie didn't intentionally say it to hurt her, she did it out of temper… that fiery Torres gene made its presence again. Yet each time she heard it, it made her feel less of a parent.
"I apologised to you when you came to me."
"Today was the first time Jennifer has met Sofia, unlike you I don't introduce Sofia to everyone that leaves my bed in the morning."
"I'll let that one go."
Arizona let out a sigh, the brunette had moved from the chair to stand by the window with her hands folded.
"What are we doing Callie? I thought we got passed the arguments." Callie went to open her mouth but Arizona spoke up first. "I'm not trying to point fingers but if you didn't dismiss my plans with Jennifer, Penny wouldn't have sprouted her mouth."
"Normally I would tell you to not blame Penny, but in this case it's partially her fault. But at the end of the day, we have to take responsibility for our own mess, and I take the blame for starting this storm."
Callie moved to sit next to Arizona on the edge of the bed. She mirrored Arizona's position, so their hands were just inches apart. "Are we ever going to talk about what happened?"
"I've tried to talk to you all week." Arizona whispered, she looked down at their hands. Callie's slowly made its way closer to hers. Their small fingers lightly brushed together. Arizona bowed her head and moved her hand away. "Cal we can't."
"How can we ignore something that feels so right?"
"I am not repeating my history with Jennifer and I'm certainly not letting you do it to Penny." Arizona truthfully spoke, she couldn't ignore that fact that every bone in her body craved Callie's touch.
"Penny asked me if I was still in love with you."
"What did you say?"
"Nothing."
"Well, are you?" Arizona asked, her own voice sounded fragile.
Arizona sat in the same position waiting for Callie to reply. Ever second that went by, Arizona could feel her heart beat faster. She looked Callie, the pain on her face was obvious.
"I think…" Callie swallowed "I don't think I ever stopped." She placed her hand gently on the top of Arizona's back and traced the outline of her spine. She could feel the muscles flex underneath. Without second guessing Callie moved her hands to Arizona's waist, pulling her in close sit so their sides were touching.
"For months, that's all I wanted to hear and now you've said, I don't know what I feel."
Callie felt her heart clench in response and covered her face in shame. If only she had said sooner.
"Why now? I've just found Jennifer, she is absolutely amazing. Why now Calliope?!" Arizona couldn't help but cry, her voice cracked each time she tried to breathe. "Wouldn't couldn't you tell me this months ago?"
"Why did you have to cheat?!" Callie snapped back, she wiped the tears with the back of her hand. Callie knew bringing up her infidelity was a lose end, she had brought it up so much since it happened that it lost its meaning.
Callie's thoughts were scattered so she just became more frustrated, she couldn't take being so close to Arizona. Getting up she let her legs carry her towards the door, as she went to walk through the door she faintly heard her name.
Turning back she saw Arizona stood in the middle of the room, the look in her eyes was a mixture between heartache and desire. Neither of them knew who started walking first until their lips were coming together.
They both clawed at whatever they could in an attempt to bring their bodies closer; clothes, hair, face. Callie backed Arizona up until her leg's hit the bed. Without warning the pair fell onto the bed. Trying to re-gain control of the situation, Callie hoisted herself up so she was straddling Arizona's waist, their lips never losing contact. Hands were buried deep in hair trying to bring mouths closer.
Arizona moved her hand down to Callie's neck, she slowly started to massage the soft skin as she stroked her brunette's tongue with her own. Their tongues were reacquainting themselves as the passion between them heightened. Callie sucked in a breath as Arizona's mouth made its way across the side of her jaw and down her neck. Callie felt her hips grate against Arizona's leg as the blonde sucked on a spot at the bottom of her neck.
Arizona couldn't think. All she wanted was more. She knew this was wrong but oh did it feel so right. It felt like forever since she felt Callie's skin under the mouth, she didn't want it to stop. She couldn't help but release a moan when she felt a hand lift her thigh. She tightened the grip her leg now had on Callie's back. Throwing her head back, Arizona engulfed the feeling of desire that was consuming every sense in her body. Callie gripped Arizona's hair and pulled her away from her neck, gazing down Callie could see the blonde's eye dilating. Wanting the upper hand, Callie lowered her head and attached her lips to Arizona's neck and bit down hard. "Calliope."
Callie could detect the need in Arizona's voice, she bit down harder. Neck biting was always a quick way to get Arizona in the mood. During one night, Callie brought Arizona to her climax solely by biting her neck. The brunette knew, if she continued the possibility of her and Arizona taking it further was higher. Regardless of their history and obvious need for one another, the situation wasn't ideal.
Callie released the skin and brought her forehead to rest on Arizona's. Their eyes gazing into one another's. Neither having to say a word. Callie brought her hand up to gently stroke the sides of Arizona's face, she pushed the blonde hair from her face. Keeping her gaze with Arizona, Callie slowly lowered her lips to join with Arizona's. Pulling back she whispered "Kissing you last week… it felt like I was coming home." Watching her ex-wife's face for a reaction, she noticed blue eyes starting to fill up. As the women below her blinked, the tears made their escape. Lowering her head, Callie kissed the corner of Arizona's eye.
Using the strength in her arms, Arizona managed to push herself to a sitting position; still with Callie on her lap. She buried her head into Callie's neck as the pair remained silent.
The sound of Barbara calling for Arizona made its way into the bedroom but neither of them moved; scared that the second they moved all of this would be gone. Arizona patted Callie's thigh gesturing for her get of her lap. The pair stood and composed themselves, Arizona walked towards the door but turned around. "I think you should end it with Penny, she doesn't deserve to be involved in our constant storm."
"Same goes to you and Jennifer." Callie replied as she rubbed her eyes, she couldn't tell if things had gotten worse or better.
Ay op! It's me, I hadn't planned to update for a couple of days. I finally started on my university assignments so my plan was to get them out the way and come back here.. yet I couldn't help but write this instead! I hope you like this.