Spiraling out of control chapter 16
Ahsoka walked back into her shared room with her master, the walk had been peaceful and relaxing. Anakin had not once brought up Shaak ti, Obi-wan or any of the Jedi for that matter. After the emotional rollercoaster she had been on she didn't need to get riled up anytime soon, she just needed to relax.
Anakin had contacted his wife earlier telling her that he wasn't coming home tonight. He needed to be with Ahsoka right now, he had realized that Ahsoka took his 'death' even harder than his wife and that was saying something. Anakin had hugged Ahsoka and bid her goodnight before retiring to his room for some rest. His body was still not quiet back up to full performance so he needed his rest.
Ahsoka was up the next morning early, she finished getting dressed and put her cloak around her to hide her scared body, she already felt like an outcast by the order because she wouldn't except Anakin's death that they tried ramming that he did die down her throat; she didn't need be seen as one either. She walked from her room as her comm. link went off "Padawan Tano" she said. There was a moment of silence before the person on the other end replied, then Obi-wan spoke "Ahsoka…the council wants to see you immediately" he said.
Ahsoka sighed "I'm on my way" she said, for a moment she thought about waking Anakin but dismissed the idea just as quick, he needed his rest. She knew what it was probably about, it was probably about her disobeying Shaak ti's orders to stay here then escaping again and running off to find her master then on top of that it was probably also about her attacking two Jedi masters. She walked out of the room and headed toward the council chambers.
If anything the council should be thanking her, if it weren't for her trying to find her master and killing Count Dooku before he could get his hands on Anakin he might still be out there hurt. On the other hand, if the council would have let her go with Anakin in the first place this never would have happened in the beginning.
As the young Jedi, or training to become one anyway made her way to the council chambers her emotions began to radiate off of her but she was so lost in her thought that she didn't notice. 'Damn the council for not believing me' she thought as her aura darkened slightly. Her stride picked up in pace and the heels of her boots began to snap against the ground as anger began to stir inside of her.
'In fact Anakin wouldn't have gotten captured by Cad Bane if Obi-wan had been by his side but no for some stupid reason they got separated then Obi-wan left him there on that planet' Ahsoka thought as she stepped onto the turbo lift. Ahsoka thought about it, the entire blasted council had abandoned Anakin, not just obi-wan and Rex it was the entire council and the Republic. If they had been concerned even in the slightest bit they would have kept searching for their 'Hero with no fear.'
Ahsoka stepped off the lift now fuming walked right up to the council chamber's doors. Obi-wan must have been waiting for her because the second she was about to open the door Obi-wan did it for her. The look that the veteran Jedi master gave her only angered her more, it was a warm and friendly smile. "Hello Ahsoka" Obi-wan said kindly, the young padawan glared at him and shoved her way past him walking into the council chambers.
Ahsoka stood in the middle of the Jedi council she could feel their eyes watching her. "You summoned me" Ahsoka said in a less than friendly tone. "How are you Ahsoka?" Shaak asked in a gentle soothing tone not wanting to anger Ahsoka who was still emotionally unstable. It was evident to the entire council could sense the tension in the room the second Ahsoka walked into the room.
"If this is the reason the council has asked me hear you are wasting your time. Me and my master should be out fighting this war not debating on my emotion state" Ahsoka replied. Obi-wan sat forward in his chair "Ahsoka this isn't just about your emotion state, you attacked Master Shaak ti and Plo Koon" Obi-wan replied.
"If Anakin hadn't been at the temple I wouldn't put it past the council to pull something like tricking me into coming back to the temple and forcing me to stay there. Just like you tricked Anakin into thinking you had been assassinated Obi-wan" Ahsoka snapped. Obi-wan lowered his gaze as he remembered how Anakin reacted when he found out the council had not been telling him the truth. "Those were different circumstances" Plo Koon pointed out.
"No they weren't! You didn't trust Anakin and let him help you figure out that plot and you didn't trust me either when I told you Anakin was alive" Ahsoka said raising her voice. "We didn't know who we could trust" Obi-wan stated but quickly regretted as it made Ahsoka go off.
"You should have trusted Anakin! You should have trusted me! All of you should have had faith in me! But you didn't, you didn't have faith in me during the Jedi temple bombing and you turned your backs on me and you sure as hell didn't have faith in me when I told you Anakin was alive" Ahsoka said.
The council members were all silent and shared the same solemn and regretful expression. "I have served the Republic and the Jedi order faithfully for almost four years now, I've see and done things that girls at my age should never be exposed to, I've seen my friends die on the battlefield and I figured after everything I've done you would have a little faith in me" Ahsoka continued.
"Enough Padawan Tano, we understand your frustration" Mace Windu said trying to shut the girl down. "NO! don't you dare say you understand what I feel like! I searched endlessly for my master even though you all proclaimed him dead! He is more than my master, he is my best friend but you all tried to keep me here and just told me to seek refuge in the force and move on. You acted like his death meant nothing to any of you" Ahsoka said practically shouting every word.
Ahsoka didn't plan on stopping and at the moment she didn't care how harshly she would be punish for her insubordination she was going to get her point across. "The Jedi are taught to show compassion toward others but there the Jedi council sat not giving a damn about my master!" Ahsoka yelled. "Ahsoka stop!" Mace said loudly and firmly.
Anakin ran through the door just a Ahsoka was about to speak her mind about Mace Windu. He had felt her emotions begin to build as soon as she had entered their chambers; in fact they had become so strong it had awoken him from his sleep. "Ahsoka clam down, go wait outside please" Anakin said turning his padawan to face him.
Ahsoka eyed her master for a moment before storming out of the council chambers making sure to glare at Shaak ti and Obi-wan. When the door closed Anakin faced the council and bowed "Please masters you must forgive her. She's just been through a lot recently and she feels hurt that you didn't trust her" Anakin said. "Your apprentice is out of line Master Skywalker" Mace said dryly.