Spiraling out of control chapter 18
Anakin didn't know how long he had sat there just hold onto his padawan as she clung to him in what felt like a death grip. He had yet to push her away nor did he scold her about attachments as any other Jedi would have done. Instead he was gently rubbing her back as her face remained pressed against his chest and arms wrapped around him. She needed him and he knew this and he also needed her. He looked down as she muttered the same thing she had been for the past twenty minutes?...or was it an hour now. His eyes saddened slightly at the sight of her, he still couldn't fathom just how hard his supposed death had hit her but it had clearly done a number on her both emotionally and physically. He hadn't realized that her losing him would have driven her to insanity…did she really care about him that much? She must have if she was willing to go against two Jedi masters in a saber duel and against the council's wishes.
He felt her press her head harder against his chest as if seeking more comfort more reassurance that he wasn't going anywhere. He pulled her closer against him and reached out to her force signature to provide her comfort through the force. She latched on to it instantly and with as much will power as she could clung to it like it was some sort of a rope. Through their bond he felt her overwhelming happiness and joy to have him back but also a deep fear of loss and the pain that the loss would bring. He realized that she was terrified of losing him because of how much he meant to her. He had no idea that in the time they had spent together just how much she grown to care for him.
Soon the muttering stopped from his apprentice and his attention was drawn back down to her. She had fall asleep and looked so peaceful that he couldn't find it in himself to wake the girl. She was probably still pretty tired after all she had been through. Gently he wrapped his arm around her legs and twisted his body so he could lay her back down in the bed. With some resists from Ahsoka Anakin was able to pry her arms free from him but when he stood up to leave Ahsoka she instantly began tossing and turning in the bed. He looked back and noticed his cloak laying to the side of the bed so he picked it up and laid it over Ahsoka who wrapped herself in it before falling still once more.
Walking quietly out of his room toward the exit of their shared quarters he hadn't spoken to Obi-wan since Ahsoka had exploded at the council and wanted to make sure the council wasn't going to do anything that could have bad repercussions. Right as he was about to open the door it opened for him and the person who he wanted to see was standing in the door way. "Hello Anakin" Obi-wan greeted with a warm smile on his face, Anakin smiled "I was just on my way to see you master" Anakin replied. Anakin stepped aside to let the Jedi master into the room. Obi-wan sat down and took a seat at a table in the room. "How is Ahsoka doing?" Obi-wan asked, Anakin gestured toward his room "She's asleep" he said.
Obi-wan raised an eye brow in question but didn't ask about it. "I'm worried about her Obi-wan I've never seen her so…lost before" Anakin admitted. "She just needs time to heal Anakin" Obi-wan assured. "She thought I was dead Obi-wan and when she found that I was alive and went to the council for help to find me they blew her off. How would that make you feel if you were in her place?" Anakin asked. "The council was wrong, I was wrong we all were Anakin and I wished I would have believed her" Obi-wan replied. "She wouldn't be having this problem if you all had" Anakin pointed out, "I'm aware of that Anakin and I am willing to admit my fault" Obi-wan replied. Anakin nodded in satisfaction at his friend's willingness to admit his fault.
Anakin would usually have a smirk on his face when he would have pointed out that he had been right and his friend but he looked back toward his room where Ahsoka was sleeping and instead Obi-wan saw a very humble expression on Anakin's face. "I'm lucky to have her you know. She went against the council and even fought and defeated Count Dooku to find me. I could never have asked for a better padawan" Anakin said. "She is like you in many regards Anakin" Obi-wan replied and then smiled "I'm still not sure if that's a good thing though. I've got enough grey hairs as it is already" he said. At this Anakin smiled warmly at his friend and chuckled "Oh come on master I wasn't as nearly as bad as Ahsoka" he said jokingly. "You have no idea Anakin" Obi-wan replied with a wider smile.
"What is the council going to do?" Anakin asked seriously "I don't know Anakin some of the council fears that when she was searching for you she slipped away from the light" Obi-wan replied. Anakin looked up at him "Now hold on just a minute Obi-wan you cant be saying-" Obi-wan held up his hand to stop his friend "I don't know Anakin the council is still deciding what to do we can't forget that she attacked two other Jedi two council members no less" Obi-wan replied. "But she killed Count Dooku Obi-wan the council has to recognize that. She brought us closer to ending this war" Anakin protested. "I understand that Anakin and I have said that to them on her behalf but I am only one voice on the council but nothing has been decided yet" Obi-wan reassured.