A/N hello sorry for not updating for a while dealing with some personal stuff.
Sorry for the short story, I just wanted to give you guys a little something.
I'm not going to follow mr shue's lessons, i'm gonna write in different ones to fit the story better
WARNING;TRIGGER!
Disclaimer! I own nothing!
Here it is
Nicks pov;
"I don't know. Look I just don't want like anyone to bully you for dating me, maybe in a month or something. I'm sorry truely" I could see the hurt in her eyes. I felt bad.
"O-okay" Quinn looked down.
"It's not because of anything else than I don't want you to be bullied. Your still beautiful, smart, amazing in all ways. Anyways I better go." All she did was nod. Why must my life suck?
I headed out her house got in my car and sat there in pure silence. Nothing but silence. But instead my head was different, my mind was screaming at me, why did I let her go! I should've said yes! Fuck why did I always hurt people! I'm such a mess up!
I got home and sat down on my couch in the living room and stared. Stared at everything. Going through my mind memories. All the memories. What is life? What is the point of life? Why are we here? Why does no one care? What did I do? All the mistakes I've done. Regrets. I picked up my guitar and started singing Adams song by Blink 182
I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest who'd have known
I traced the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine, I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed, to go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone
I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone
I never thought I'd die alone
Another six months I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never step foot in my room again
You'll close it off, board it up
Remember the time that I spilled the cup
Of apple juice in the hall
Please tell mom this is not her fault
I never conquered, rarely came
At 16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over but we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone
I never conquered, rarely came
Tomorrow held such better days
Days when I could still feel alive
When I can't wait to get outside
The world is wide, the time goes by
The tour is over I survived
And I can't wait till I get home
To pass the time in my room alone
What would have happened if my mother never met my fathers. What if I was never born. Before everything. If there a God. If there is who created God? Who started it all. How was someone created without a creator? My own thoughts started haunting me I couldn't take it "SHUT UP JUST SHUT UP!" I started crying. I should just do it. End it.
I got a shot with herion in it, I had got it from a drug dealer just in case. I got a pen and paper and started writing.
For those who actually care, I'm sorry. The pain wouldn't stop. I had to end the pain. This was the only way
For Quinn, I love you. I know I may not know what love is or it is to strong of a word. But I know, I can't shake the feeling this is love.
Its not any of your faults. It is My bullies, they caused this. My dads abused me and didn't care it's their fault too. I can't take this anymore.
I hate this depression, goodbye
~Nicholas Justice Berry
There was a knock at the door, who is it? I stuffed my note and herion in my desk.
I went to the door and opened it. It was Quinn.
"Uh Quinn why are you here?" I said bluntly."Sorry I didn't mean to come off as rude."
"Look, I can make my own choices. I don't need you or anyone else telling me what I need." She looked at me for a few seconds then continued."My own desision is, I want you! Hell, I need you!" She came in and kissed me roughly.
"Okay"
"What?"
"I want to be with you too." She smiled widely, and then kissed me again.
"Good, but like all couples you need to take me out on a date."
"Me?"I asked questionly.
"Yes you, your the guy in this relationship, so be a gentleman!" Quinn teased.
"Okay, friday night, Breadstixs?"
"Sounds good to me. Bye."
"Bye!" She left. I knew I was not going to be a sad sack anymore. No more bullying. And no suicide. I'm going to make this. Fucking show that Karofsky who's boss.
Next day at school;
I walk down the halls, taking in a breath. I see the asshole football players. Screw them. I don't give a shit for them, I'm not going to take their shit.
I hear snickering from others. I shoot them a glare. The group turn back down to their phones.
Karofsky walks up from behind.
"Sup loser."
"What the hell do you want Dave?"
"I want to beat the shit out of you."
"Do it. I dare you."
He starts walking towards me, lifting his hands in the air. He moves his fist fastly towards me. I block it and with all of my strength I punch him in the jaw with my free hand.
"What the hell!"
Yeah sorry for the short chapter, see you guys soon!