"Tell me whats going on!" The older Novak demanded.
Gabriel sat down on his bed and signalized Castiel to sit down next to him.
"My date.. it wasn't" he stuttered, "it wasn't with a girl" his shoulders slumped. He avoided every eye contact with his brother.
"So you are telling me that you are gay?" confusion spread across his face, he tilts his head and wait until Gabe starts talking again.
"I... I don't think gay is the right word. I think.. I am pan sexual." determination clear in his voice. He combed out his hair with his fingers and waited for a reaction.
Castiel chuckles and gains a glare at that, his smile vanished and he ordered:"Hey, listen up! Remember when I told you that I'm gay. Remember how I started to cry because I panicked. I thought you would hate me. I feared that our parents would throw me out. You just stood there, shook your head, hugged me and we had our worst chick-flick moment ever. You told me that you loved me, no matter what. The first thing you did was call a friend of yours and ask him if he were interested in dating me." The brothers shared a small laugh. Castiel even blushed a little saying it.
"Do you really think I would react negatively at your outing, brother? I'm there for you, no matter what, right?"
"Right" Gabe answers, his eyes were wet when he looked up and Castiel gave him a crushing hug.
"So... who was the lucky guy?" the older Novak urged.
"You noisy little shit" Gabe laughed." His name is Dean Winchester"
The smile on Castiels face vanishes. He freezes and stares at Gabriel wide-eyed.
" Dean Winchester? The Soccer player? From our school?"
"Ehm, yes!? Something about him?" Gabe informed.
"Nothing, just.."
"You like him! Don't you?!" The younger Novak interrupted.
Silence followed.
"Well, I do appreciate his appearance." Castiel blushed and put his arms tight around his waist so to not feel the pain of the broken heart.
"Oh my God. I am so sorry, Cas!" Gabriel screamed but Castiel was already out the door and crying into his pillow.
"Why did you even think you had a chance", he whispered to himself. The tears wouldn't stop falling. " I'm a nerd who spends his weekends watching movies, how could I ever think he'd be interested? How could I be so dumb"
He kept crying into his pillow he only stopped sobbing as he heard Gabe knocking at his bedroom door.
"Please Cas, let me in" he begged.
Castiel ignored his brother, he knew it wasn't his fault. Still he couldn't bare to see or hear him, so he just switched on some music. He turned it up so loud he couldn't hear his own thoughts anymore. His eyes were rimmed red, his oceans of blue still on the verge of welling up.
After a little forever Cas turned off the music and made his way into the bathroom. He washed his face, the red was barely visible, and went to his brothers room.
He knocked and heard fast and light footsteps approaching the door.
"Hey" Gabe said shyly.
"Hey, I just wanted to tell you that I don't blame you. I was just mad at myself for thinking that I have a chance." Castiel confessed
"I'm sorry, brother. If I had known... The date didn't really go so well, anyway." A sad smile spread on his face.
"Do you.. have another date?" his eyes didn't leave the wooden floor.
"Ehm.. yes. But I can cancel it if you want to!"
"No!" Castiel nearly shouts, he looks up "Enjoy your date. I'll be fine." He smiles slightly and heads downstairs to get something to eat. Maybe that can fill the void in his chest.