A/N A huge thanks to OoJasper'sAngeloO for her beta work on this chapter. Now, we get to hear what happened with Jasper and the Cullens. Hope you enjoy.

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Bella's POV

He broke the kiss and then smiled, "Darlin', there is no way that I won't turn ya. I need you to be with me for eternity and the only way to do that is for you to become a vampire. Sides', with you bein' such a danger magnet its the only way to keep ya safe."

I wanted to smack that smug look on his face, off! But it was true. Since I have been back in Forks I have been attacked twice. Even though it was the same fucking vampire, I was getting kind of tired of being the fucking walking target.

I had so many questions and I guess he pretty much knew it as he spoke up again, "Darlin' I know you have a lot of questions, because I had the same fucking questions and some didn't get answered until I saw you again. I know you are in pain, but would you at least be up to listenin' to me tell ya what happened after we left? Most of your questions will be answered once you know everything, but before I start I have a question for you that I really need for you to answer."

I just nodded for him to ask, "Before you were taken you acted like you were angry with me. You kept pushin' me away, wouldn't talk to me and you seemed to not even want to be around me at all. Did I do somethin' to upset you? I need you to tell me what did I do so I can either fix it, or at least apologize and try not to do it again."

I know I was blushing. Thinking back on it, it seemed kind of silly, but I had believed him, "I'm sorry about that, but it was I guess what you would call a self-defense mechanism. When you were talking to Carlisle I heard you tell him that you had found your true mate. If that was true then that meant that you would be leaving me. I figured you were just staying around protecting me because you felt guilty for what happened at my birthday party and was trying to make up for it. I knew I was falling for you and it would have killed me when you left. So I started pushing you away, hoping that I could protect myself from the same kind of pain. If you had figured out what had been bothering me, would you have told me the truth? Or would you have just waited for me to figure it out?"

"I had already decided that if I found you alive that I was goin' to tell ya. I realized when you were taken that I couldn't live if anything were to happen to you. I was goin' to tell ya as soon as I could, but you were badly injured and needed to be taken care of. You have no idea how happy you made me when you told me you knew. I was also plannin' to tell ya that I would be turnin' ya sooner, rather than later, but not until we're out of Forks, its too dangerous here and Victoria is still on the loose. I'm not takin' any fuckin' chances that she might show up durin' that time. You would be too vulnerable. Now, do you want to lay down while I tell ya about what happened or do you want to sit up?"

"I'll sit up if you don't mind. I'll let you know if I need to lay down, but will you just continue to hold my hand? I feel calmer touching you, is that because you're an empath or is it because we're mates?"

"It's because we are mates. Mates are the only ones able to calm each other just by touchin'. Why do you think I've been makin' sure to always be touchin' ya in some way? Now at least lean back and let me talk woman."

I sighed heavily, but did lean my back against his chest, but is was awkward since we were sitting side by side. He quickly fixed that by pulling me into his lap. The coolness of his skin actually felt good against my aching and sore muscles.

Once settled he started, "I guess the best place to start is at the beginnin' long before you were even born. I already told you about when I was turned and about my time with Maria. What I didn't tell you was what Maria turned me into. A monster. The first few years of my life as a vampire was filled with death, destruction, blood, sex and more death. I was a killin' machine. I thrived on what I did all because I loved Maria. I would do anything for her. We actually would have sex while bathin' in the blood of our victims. You already know about the newborns I created as well as how they would be destroyed when they turned a year old. What I also didn't tell you was how I got the scars I carry on my body."

I turned around slowly and looked at him. He was nervous and so I asked him what scars. He told me he would show me after he had told me everything. His exact words were, "I want you to know everything before you see the scars. At least that way you'll know the whole story before you decide that I'm too scarred up to be with you."

"Not gonna happen Whitlock, please continue." I replied.

"Anyway, like I was sayin' I started to realize that what I had with Maria wasn't love. It was when Peter found his mate Char that I knew for sure that Maria didn't love me. She just controlled me. It was shortly after that, that I let Peter and Char go. I was punished severely for that by Maria.

It finally got to the point where I was goin' to let myself be killed. I hated everything and everyone except for Peter and Char. I was real close to it when they came back for me. You also know how killin' humans bothered me so badly that I would go into a deep depression every time I killed. You already know how I met Alice so I'll skip that part and go on to what she told me.

She told me we were mates. I had felt hope for the first time since I had been turned, so of course I believed her. Little did I know that she was usin' me the same way as Maria, I was a good fuck. I never stopped to question why I never felt the pull, or the pain when we were separated.

A few months before you came to Forks she started havin' visions that apparently showed you joinin' the family. She didn't like what she saw and started to maneuver things so that things would happen the way she wanted them to. Like she told me that there was a new girl comin' to Forks and that I would need to stay away from her at all costs. She saw me killin' ya darlin'. At least that's what she told me.

What she didn't tell me was that you were in fact my mate. Now some things I learned before leavin' the family while other things I figured out after I ran into you. So I'm going to tell you in the order that things happened.

My first inkling that something wasn't right was when she offered for us to take you to Phoenix when James' was after you. You remember how Alice's gift works right? If someone makes a decision, she can see the course that they are on, until, or unless they change their minds, then their course changes.

Once there she had several visions including the one where she saw your ballet studio. When she told us about it, I could feel that she was feelin' excitement. It wasn't the excitement of a fight, but of someone about to get their wish granted. I thought that was strange since a vampire was after her best friend. I chose to ignore it as thinking that maybe she was excited at seeing James' defeated.

It wasn't until later that I found out the excitement came from her vision all right, but it wasn't James' death she saw, it was yours. She also saw you getting away from me just like you did at the airport, but said nothing. She had to let it happen since it was going to lead to your death. Or so she thought.

She had seen that there would be something that would keep the rest of us from getting there in time to save you, again she said nothing. What she didn't take into account was that Edward wouldn't be able to stand around while waitin' for a car. He took off yellin' for us to catch up.

Of course that changed everything and you survived. She seemed to almost be angry, but was able to hide it for the most part. That was the catalyst that started the decline in our marriage. Every time we had sex after that it was more of an angry sex than anything else. It only happened like two times after that. And after the last time, I refused to touch her.

In the meantime I need to back up just a little bit and tell you what was goin' on with me personally. I know that you are probably wonderin' why I at least didn't know we were mates. You have to realize that being an empath does have its downfalls.

I can feel emotions from others and at times its hard to know if they are my own or someone else's. Did I feel the pull, yes I did. I also felt the pain when you weren't around, but I honestly thought it was comin' from Edward, for you. I did mention it to Alice one time and she agreed that I was indeed feelin' what he was feelin'. I never thought to question it at the time.

On top of all of that there was something else that was happenin' and I never realized until after the family left. Something that I thought for sure was just comin' from Edward. It wasn't until a few weeks after we had left and Alice and I had gotten into another argument that I realized the horrible truth or at least what I thought was horrible truth. I had fallen in love with you.

It wasn't something that slowly happened, I had fallen in love with you before James even came into the picture. There were times when it was so over powerin' that I had to leave. Alice had me convinced that I was just feelin' what you and Edward felt for each other. It bothered me that I felt angry at the way Edward treated you and actually found myself cheerin' when he would work you up and leave you frustrated. I found myself wishin' I could be the one to comfort you.

Then the incident with James happened. I was told by both Alice and Edward to stay away from you after that. The more I watched you with Edward the more controllin' he seemed to become, Alice as well. You were never left alone and I would have to leave before you got there. I was too dangerous to be trusted alone with you.

Then came the day of your birthday party. Alice tried her damnedest to keep me from huntin' properly that day. I did go and hunt against Alice's wishes. By this time I had already moved on and had filed for divorce. Even though the family didn't know this at the time.

Again, I found out after we had left that Alice saw what was goin' to happen at the party and made sure to have plenty of glassware. She wanted me to attack. I still felt guilty that you thought I was actually attackin' but I wasn't. I was tryin' to stop Edward.

Again, what Alice didn't see was the split decision from Edward to push you away from himself. All she had seen was me lungin' and you dyin'. I tried to tell Carlisle and Esme the truth of what happened, but of course they believed Edward and Alice over me.

I was blamed for everything and Alice convinced Edward that we needed to leave. You know the rest of that part of it. What you don't know is a few weeks after we had left, I had had it. Alice had made a slip of the tongue, something about keepin' me away from you.

She never told me that we were mates, but I was able to get her to admit that she was deliberately keepin' us apart. She tried to get me back in her bedroom and back in her bed. I refused. She got angry and blew up admittin' to all I have just told you. All she would say about you and I is that you would destroy her handiwork and our marriage. Her handiwork bein' me.

She also convinced Edward that you were his mate. And Carlisle and Esme that I was a monster and needed to be forced to commit to our marriage. After another few days of arguin' that I wanted nothing more to do with Alice, I left, but not before makin' her sign the divorce papers.

Now, I need to say a few more things and then I'm done. When we were ordered to pack up and told we were leavin' you behind, Emmett argued against leavin'. Rose of course felt it was for the best, this way you could have a normal life.

When she saw how deeply it was affectin' Emmett she argued to stay as well. Emmett got so pissed that instead of goin' with us, he took Rose and they left the family. They keep in contact with me, but refuse to go back to the family.

Rose was able to "make a deal" with Emmett, promising him that after five years they would come and check on you. Of course you were already gone, living in Seattle.

Now Alice still has Carlisle and Esme convinced that I'm Alice's mate but I'm just refusin' to see it or accept it and of course, you are Edward's mate. I'm hopin' that lettin' them see us together for a few days might show them that you and not Alice is my true mate."

Jasper's POV

I looked down and saw the tears flowing freely down my mates face. I knew she was hurting from the fact that Alice wanted her dead. I gave her a couple of minutes and then asked if she was ready to see my scars. She turned around so that she was facing me and started to unbutton my shirt. I knew that this was going to make or break our relationship.

Once my shirt was undone I put Bella on the couch next to me and removed it. I closed my eyes, as I knew she would be disgusted just as Alice had always been. I waited. . .

A/N I'm letting everyone know that tomorrow is my birthday so please review it will be a great birthday present. Also, I will be posting the next chapter of The Death of Jasper Hale tomorrow evening. It will have Catherine's story mostly. Thanks to everyone who reviewed, and added this story to their favorites and alerts. Love you guys.