A/N A huge thanks goes to OoJasper'sAngeloO for her beta work. Not much going on except Bella wanting to get into Jasper's pants. Mostly filler to lead into the next chapter. Hope you enjoy.

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Bella's POV

I could tell by the way that he had his eyes closed after removing his shirt that he was expecting me to be repulsed or run away from him. If he had been looking at me I'm sure he would have seen that I would do neither. Especially now.

I know that I was looking at him, but the only thing I was feeling was desire. His chest was well defined with muscles, including what I believe they call a "six-pack" and he had a line of hair that trailed down and ended at the waist of his jeans. There was a part of me that wanted to follow that trail and see where it ended.

Then I saw that there were scars, the same kind that I had on my wrist. Only his covered every square inch of his chest, arms, shoulders and neck. Since we were both sitting, I'm going to assume that his back was the same way. There were hundreds at least and there were a couple of places that the scars were thicker, as if he had been bitten in the exact same place over and over.

I started to trace some of them. He had broad shoulders with his hips being narrow. His arms were muscular without being overly so. I couldn't help myself, he was so fucking sexy. I just started rubbing his chest and abs, making sure to graze over his nipples. I watched as they hardened under my touch. I heard a low hiss.

Then I trailed my fingers downwards, following his happy trail. When I got to the waistband of his jeans I put a finger just under the edge and started rubbing back and forth. I felt him harden underneath me and had to smile at the affect I was having on him.

I was about to try to undo his pants when his hands grabbed mine and stopped me. I looked up into his eyes and they were black, yet there was a fire in them, "What are you doin' darlin'? You should be runnin' right about now."

"Jasper, can't you feel what I'm feeling right now? Its not fear or revulsion. You are very sexy Major and I can't wait to see what else you have in these jeans of yours. I don't see the ugliness you do when I look at your scars. I see proof of just how strong you are, not because of your physical strength, but your strength of character. You chose to walk away from that lifestyle and have never returned. You are the strongest person I know." I whispered still wanting to get into his pants.

He stared at me for a full minute before speaking,"I was afraid to feel your emotions. I was afraid I would feel what I feel from others when they see my scars. Fear and revulsion being the most prominent. I didn't want to feel that from you so I pulled my gift back so I wouldn't feel yours. I can see that as usual you have surprised me once again. Where I should be feeling fear, revulsion and rejection, I only feel desire, lust and longing."

I blushed. The last time I had felt these emotions was when I was with the asshole. I still can't believe I fucking felt that shit with him. He was a boy, Jasper on the other hand is rugged, manly, with a hot body, that also screams "dangerous". I was not ashamed that I felt like ripping these stupid jeans from his body and doing things to him to please him.

I heard a growl and looked up again to see that it was coming from Jasper. I realized that he must have felt my emotions and damn if that growl wasn't the sexiest thing I have ever heard. Wonder if I can get him to do that when we. . .

"Isabella please! Stop with the lust. I'm about to lose control and I will not touch you until you are fully healed. Although, I must say that the desire you feel for me makes me happy. I feel the same way and it shows me that your body at least recognizes me as your mate. I will tell you now that when your body is completely healed, I will have you, all of you, naked, in my bed. I will do things to you that will have you screamin' my name in pleasure. Until then you need to rest and I need to make plans to get us to Texas. Especially now that the Cullens are moving back to help the wolves with the Victoria situation. I want us away from here before Edward comes back. I do have one question though, would you want to see Emmett and Rose? At least think about it before givin' me an answer. Remember they both left the family because they didn't want to leave you or at least Emmett didn't want to and Rose didn't like seeing Emmett hurtin' the way he was over leavin'. I understand that they could have come back instead of stayin' away, but they wanted to give you a chance at a human life. I can tell ya, Emmett has never been the same since they left. I'm hopin' that you'll be at least willin' to hear them out. You can think about it and then let me know. Now, its time for the human to get some rest."

"When are we leaving? Didn't you say something about letting Carlisle and Esme watch us together so that they could see that we are mates? What about that?" I asked.

"It will take a couple of days to get everything ready. That's why I was askin' about seein' Em and Rose. They live off and on in Texas. They are close to my place there and I was going to ask them to go and turn the heat on and then stock the kitchen with food. If you wanted to see them then I would have them wait until we got there. If not, then I would make sure that they were gone. Either way I'm goin' to be talkin' to them and explainin' everything to them. I'll stand by whatever you want to do and even if it hurts them, they will abide by your wishes. They might come here and join the family until Victoria has been dealt with. We can let Carlisle and Esme watch us as you heal and get everything ready for our trip. You don''t have to even acknowledge them. I have no clue how they would react in knowin' that Alice deceived them into believin' her fuckin' bullshit. I would like the answer to that, so they'll be here with us. Now lets get you to bed."

The next few days were a whirlwind of activity for the vampires, but for me it meant staying either in bed, or sitting on the couch and reading or watching TV. The Major was taking care of me, not letting me move around too much. To tell the truth, my body was in a lot of pain and it hurt to do just that. Carlisle and Esme were around, but had been warned about speaking to me unless I spoke to them first. It seems that they were at least willing to abide by the Major's rules that he had given them.

Jasper was very concerned about me traveling while I was in pain so he said that we would be leaving a week from this Friday. Carlisle told him that most of the bruising and pain would be gone, but suggested that he wait until we got to Texas to try to be intimate. Char had explained that vampires, especially males, were very sexual creatures and when they find their mates they bond, then claim and mark them. It was a testimony to Jasper's control, as he did nothing at all except kiss me and he made sure they were chaste.

When Char had told me about male mates needing to claim their mates as soon as they found them. I knew then, beyond any shadow of doubt that Edward had never been meant for me. He had no desire to touch me other than holding my hand, or chaste kisses. Had he known what Alice was doing, or did he truly believe what Alice told him. Did he even stop to wonder about the mating pull and why it wasn't there?

When I had asked Jasper about marking me, he told me that he couldn't do that until he was ready to turn me. I reminded him that I had been bitten and the venom had been sucked out, he could do the same. I wanted to wear his mark on me, it seemed that even human I had all of the desires that a mate is supposed to have.

Carlisle checked on me everyday. He never spoke to me directly. It was one of the rules for being allowed to stay around and take care of me. I had nothing to say so I stayed quiet. I did watch as the sadness became more pronounced in Esme's eyes. She wasn't allowed to speak to me either.

I knew they both wanted to see me forgive them. How could I do that when they had proclaimed to love me as a daughter and yet could leave me without a word. They listened to everything Alice and Edward had told them. Because I was left defenseless, my family and friends are dead. If they had truly loved me they would have at least tried to explain why they felt they needed to leave.

Instead, they listened to a stupid seventeen year old boy and a vindictive bitch that only cares how her visions can help her get what she wants. What she wants is Jasper, not to help him or even love him, but to use him. She had always told me what a great lover he is in bed.

That thought pisses me off every time I remember the things that she had told me. It was almost as if she was gloating about having him in her bed. Jasper of course felt the pain of those thoughts, as well as the anger and made me tell him what was wrong. I didn't want to at first. I mean how do you tell a very dangerous vampire that his ex-wife has gone to great lengths and extreme details of their times in bed? She also made sure to tell me how she had satisfied him in bed.

Jasper sat down with me in his lap and explained a few things that apparently Alice failed to tell me. He told me that he has been with more than one vampire female, but that every single one of them were only out to receive pleasure. Maria being his first lover ever had taught him everything he knew about pleasing a female.

With Alice it was always about making sure she was satisfied. He laughed at one point telling me how she would lay down and let him bring her pleasure, then fuck her in the missionary position only. She never touched him beyond kissing. She didn't like his scars and sometimes even went so far as to tell him to keep his shirt on. In other words, she had used him as well.

Then he told me that he understood from other mated couples that it was totally different for a mated couple. The sex felt different and had been described as mind blowing. It wasn't just sex. It was the union of two souls coming together in the most intimate of ways and feeling a bond that is so totally unbreakable that numerous vampires have died horrible deaths because they tried to come between mates. It was one of the laws that the Volturi enforced strictly.

For any vampire that did, death was certain. If a vampire killed a mate, that vampire could be taken to the Volturi where they would suffer before death would finally take them. While it was against vampire laws to kill another vampire knowingly, in the case of mates it wasn't enforced.

That part confused me because James' was mated to Victoria so she had a right, if you will, to try to kill the ones she felt responsible. Why didn't they come and wipe out the Cullens? Jasper explained that it was because they were never told. Now, it could be argued that he had been killed because he was trying to kill me and I was the mate of a vampire or so I thought.

The problem with that is that I'm still human. I should have been turned, or killed. If they ever were to find out, Jasper and I could both be killed whether or not I was a vampire. The Cullens probably as well. While I didn't really care about what happened to some of them, I didn't want to see the others destroyed because of the asshole's desire to be stupid.

The last day of our stay here in Forks something happened that made me really consider seeing Em and Rose. Carlisle and Esme had been watching Jasper and I and had seen how we reacted to each others presence. There was an especially tender moment and it seemed to have made both of them realize that maybe they should re-examine the things Alice had told them.

I was sitting watching TV and Carlisle came in to examine me one last time. We were leaving early the next morning and he just wanted to make sure that the stitches were removed and that the cuts were healing properly. After the exam they both stayed in the living room. I knew they wanted to talk to me, but I was feeling a little off today. I was missing my dad.

A show came on that had a dad and he was taking his little girl fishing. It reminded me of my own dad and it started another round of tears. Jasper, who had been packing in his room, was by my side in a second. He had looked at Carlisle and growled loudly thinking that either one had said something to upset me.

He scooped me up and sat down putting me in his lap, he started to nuzzle my neck while purring. This was how mates comforted each other. Since only mates could purr in the presence of their mate Carlisle and Esme had now seen the truth. They had never seen Edward purr for me, nor had they ever heard Jasper purr for Alice or her for him.

Did this mean that I now forgave them? Fuck no! They still would rather believe what they had been told than to watch and see the truth for themselves. While I did feel less hatred towards them, it still hurts that they didn't stop to even consider anything else or that they weren't seeing the mating bond between Edward and I or even Jasper and Alice. They chose rather to believe the lies, than to seek out if they were being told the truth or not.

Since they themselves are a true mated couple they should have known the truth. If they had stopped to try and see the signs of us being mated, they would have known and maybe everything could have worked out without anyone having to die. Maybe Jasper and I would have been able to spend time together and then the truth would have been known by everyone. All of that time and lives lost, all because of one vindictive vampire slut, who only wanted Jasper who would please her any time she wanted.

We left early, while it was still dark. We would be driving all the way and taking our time. Being human meant a lot of stops and they planned on stopping each night to let me rest properly. The cuts were still healing and Jasper was taking no chances with my health. I told him he was being silly, but he refused to back off of his decisions when it came to me.

I still haven't decided on if I should see Em and Rose. They had been told everything and while Rose seemed to be a little skeptical about Jasper and I being together, she wasn't a total bitch about it either. Jasper's words not mine.

Em on the other hand had gotten excited on hearing that I would still be a part of the family. I could hear the sadness in his voice when Jasper told him that I might not want to see him, ever. He had put the speaker on so I could hear. When Em heard about what happened to mom, Phil and then dad, he went from rage at Edward for making them leave, to pain and sadness at what I have had to deal with since they left.

Jasper used this to his advantage, as he was still close to both of them. He gave me this look that was so fucking sad and pleading at the same time, so I finally agreed to at least listen to them. I told Jasper that this didn't mean I could accept them back into my life. I just wasn't sure I could trust them.

Then Jasper shocked me and asked me to let him feel what I felt when the family had left. He wanted to better understand exactly what had hurt the most. I think he just wanted to make sure that it wasn't just Edward leaving that had hurt.

Unfortunately, the thought of Edward leaving did nothing, I felt nothing anymore. So, I thought of when Em, Rose, Carlisle and Esme as well as himself left me without a word. He actually doubled over in a sitting position. I pulled it back quickly but it was enough for him to understand.

He held me tightly and he was shaking. He kept apologizing over and over for having caused me that kind of pain. A few minutes later, we were turning down a dirt road. We were here and in a few minutes I would be face to face with part of my past. The problem is, am I really ready for this. . .

A/N Please tell me what you think. Next chapter we'll hear from Emmett, and Rose. Thanks to everyone who reviewed, favored and added this story to their alerts love you guys.