MORNING:
Tonight I'm going on a date with Jacob but it's hard for me to stay positive after Rosalie told me she hired an assassin. Hopefully the event I'm doing later will cheer me up.
"Oh you're such a big girl now using the potty" I said to Nessie as I slipped a pull-up onto her.
"I'm going to Grandma?" Nessie said as I put jeans on her
"No not today baby. You're going to daycare and then...Mommy has to find someone to pick you up" I said as I put her jacket on before putting her on my hip. I'm wearing skinny jeans and a fitted white top with converse. Although I'm used to wearing heels I hate them.
I would ask Rosalie to watch Renesmee but I doubt she wants to talk to me after last night. It's either Edward or Rosalie. If I choose Edward I'll have to tell him I'm going out on a date.
"You want cousin to pick you up from daycare?" I asked Nessie as I grabbed my purse
"Yeah!" Nessie said as we left the guest bedroom
As we entered the kitchen I saw Rosalie straddling Emmett on the couch, kissing him roughly.
"Rosalie" I said as I covered Nessie's eyes
"Oh shit" Rosalie said as she stood up and fixed her shirt "I thought you weren't leaving till nine. Sorry about that"
"It's fine. Listen do you think you can pick up Nessie from daycare today and watch her tonight?" I asked in Italian
"I'd have to bring her to my parents house and if you don't want her to stay there without me she'll have to come to therapy with me. She can stay on my phone or something"
"Okay thanks. You can bring her to therapy if you want-"
"So where are you going to be?"
"Well after work I have a date and I want it to go well" I said "Don't tell you know who"
"I won't but you owe me. I knew you weren't going to go back to him anytime soon" Rosalie said before turning to Emmett "I'm sorry Em don't feel left out"
"It's cool. I love the way it sounds. Bella would you like to join us for breakfast?"
"Thanks for offering but we're picking up breakfast right now. Rose I'll text you the information for her daycare" I said before leaving
After I dropped Nessie off I headed downtown where the convention is. I'm so nervous I've never been a very big fan of conventions. I feel like a statue just being stared at.
The convention is very nice though. There are different tables with all different kinds of clothes and designers. I'm starting in the denim section. I'm wearing a sleeveless light denim romper with black heels.
I'm glad Jacob and I were assigned the same places so we can talk when people aren't around.
"It was so hard leaving Seth this morning with my mom, he was crying" Jacob said
"Oh really? You must be a good dad then"
"I've never thought of it that way. I'm going back to school to study law soon so I'm going to have to get used to him being away from me"
"That's always hard. I'm not ready for Renesmee to go to preschool" I said before being quiet when a group of people walked by
Rosalie's POV:
I look down at the black carpet floor of my therapist, Dr. Shepherd's office when she asked me a question I don't care to answer. Renesmee is sitting in a chair next to me with headphones and Elmo occupying her.
I usually write in my journal a few feelings I had this week and then Dr. Shepherd speaks to me about it. I don't usually speak because I'm still uncomfortable with all this.
"Rosalie I think we've moved from the journal. Why don't you tell me what you want to talk about? We could start with forgiveness perhaps"
"Dr. Shepherd do you think this is working?" I asked as I watched her continue to write in her notebook
"Rosalie you may not see or feel it yet but you are making progress. Now tell me about your cousin. I thought you two weren't getting along"
I sighed before saying, "We have our ups and downs"
"Do you still blame her for what happened?"
I waited a minute before answering "When I see her interact with her daughter I do, because that's what I could've...that's what I would've had with my son"
"Would you like to speak about your son?"
"No" I said quickly "Don't ask me about him again"
She sighed but nodded before writing in her book more, "Does spending time with the child make you happy?"
"Yes" I said
"Have you considered getting a job at a daycare or maybe even teaching dance? You still dance ballet right?"
"Every now and then I'll go back to class. My parents want me to go more"
"How do you feel about that?"
"I don't know. I'm willing to do anything to ignore what happened"
"Rosalie I think you should try to spend more time with children, dance, sing do anything that keeps your mind off of it. Maybe spend more time with your new boyfriend. Does he help?"
"He helped until I told him. Now he looks at me with pity. But he's still a good distraction"
"Do you feel more comfortable opening up to him?"
"I don't know" I said
"Okay well then I want you to call me when you find a good distraction, whether it's children or dance I want you to tell me and we'll move on from there"
Nessie and I went to my parents house for dinner after I finished therapy. I can't get this distraction thing off my mind.
Nessie is sitting on my lap eating shrimp alfredo. She loves my parents.
"Honey you don't want anything?" My father Ivan, said to me in Bulgarian. We've had our ups and downs ever since I came back from Bulgaria. Sure I came back most Summers or they came to me but I never wanted to go. Sometimes it just hurts me that he sent me to Bulgaria and let Jasper stay.
"I ate a lot earlier I'm not hungry" I said in English before kissing Nessie's hair.
"How was therapy? And don't be rude answer me in our language" he said strictly in Bulgarian. Dad still talks to me like I'm a kid. He's still stuck on those pathetic memories.
"It was fine. Why ask me? Why don't you just call her like you always do?" I asked in Bulgarian
"Honey I wouldn't do that if you'd speak to me. I'll do anything you need me to-"
"Dr. Shepherd wants me to go back to ballet" I said
"She does? That's fantastic Rosalie you know the school is still, offering you that scholarship" Mom said
"I don't want to go back there they're only taking me because of what happened to me. Everyone at the school knows" I said
"Then we can look around. Rosalie eventually we'd like to meet your new boyfriend. Maybe you could bring him?"
"I don't know Mom we're not serious" I said as I wiped Renesmee's mouth and stood up with her on my hip "Jasper is dating Emmett's sister now so maybe both of us can come"
"That would be nice" mom said as she took Nessie from me and rocked her "Are you two sleeping over?"
"I don't see why not I just have to call my agent he said it's important. Something about a job" I said in Italian before excusing myself
Bella's POV:
I went back to Jacob's house after the convention
"Are you sure you want to do this?" Jacob asked me between rough kisses as we laid down on his bed while slowly lifting my shirt above my hips
"Yes" I said as I undid my belt and pulled my jeans down before kicking them off. Jacob left a trail of kisses on my stomach as her reached under my t-shirt and pulled at my hard breast. I moaned and lifted his shirt off before taking off mine. Jacob rips off my bra and nips at my neck while massaging my breast with both his hands.
"I want you" I said as I undid his pants "I want you now"
Jacob smirked as he took off the rest of his clothes, stroking his hard length "What the lady wants she shall get"
I took my panties off before meeting his lips again. I moaned, arched my back and lifted my hips as he eased his large and long cock inside of me. Jacob winced, "You're so tight". I wrapped my legs around his waist bringing him all the way inside me.
Jacob started off slow but then he quickly got into a steady rhythm. I feel him all the way inside me. I gasped at every move as he started pumping faster and faster until I orgasmed.
Jacob pulled out and brought me on top of him. I straddled his waist before easing him inside me. Jacob held my hips and moved me slowly on his length. I gasped as I felt him go all the way inside me before going faster. He pushed me out of him quickly before ejaculating…..
Jacob or Edward?