A/N A huge thanks goes to my beta twilightaddict71484 for her awesome skills to help make this chapter a better read. Also a huge thanks to my prereaders Jasper'sAngel, and sinfulroad69 for helping to make this better. We get to see Renee have a talk with Jasper, and Bella is turned loose on the Cullens, and we get to find out just a little bit more about her. Enjoy.
Still don't own Twilight or any of the characters.
Jasper's POV
Renee told me to put her to sleep if I could. I guess it worked because she suddenly went limp. I was confused, my gift hadn't worked on her until now. I laid her down on the couch, and Renee told me to let her sleep for a few minutes.
I asked her why my gift worked on her now, when it wouldn't before. She just told me that I should wait and let Isabella tell me. I know that I should feel relief at not having to go through with getting her pregnant, and I do.
I feel relief that the family is safe. When Renee told us that now Isabella can choose who she wants to be with, and get pregnant by, it felt like a dagger being shoved into my heart. When Renee asked me if I wanted to stay with her, I spoke the truth. I am a man of honor, yet, I have a feeling that it will take more than that for her to choose me.
Its what I want. I want for Isabella to choose me. I don't think that I have ever wanted anything more. At the same time I know that she probably will choose Demetri. I have hurt her, so why in the fuck would she chose to stay with me. I believed that she was an evil person and treated her as such, I never even considered that maybe I had been lied to.
The realization that I went out of my way to humiliate, and hurt this girl, this woman, that has never hurt anyone in her short life made me feel sick. It got even worse when I finally understood that I had almost made her first time a nightmare. I hated myself even more.
It didn't take very long for me to realize that no matter what I did to try to make this up to her, I doubt that she would ever forgive me. She no longer had to stay with me, and so I'm sure that I have lost probably the only good thing to come my way, ever. I now understood the depth of my anger. There was a pull to her that has been there since I first saw her walking towards me at our wedding.
Once I "knew" all about her, the pull was still there. The more I was around her the stronger it got. It made me angry for having feelings for her. At least she knows why I was angry now.
Renee asked if I would take a short walk with her. I just nodded that I would. She asked Felix, and Demetri to watch over Isabella, and explain that we would be right back, if she woke up before we were. I had to fight to keep from growling at the thought of Demetri being anywhere near her.
When we were outside Renee asked if there was somewhere private that we could talk. I knew a place, and told her that I did indeed have a place in mind. She told me to lead the way, and then explained that she does have vampire speed. With that we took off.
It was a small waterfall, and I had found some large boulders and placed them so that I could sit and think. This was where I often came when everyone else in the house was "busy" doing things that I didn't have access to at the moment. I also came here when I was being overwhelmed by emotions, or just wanted to be alone.
I know that she didn't need my help and I may be an asshole, but I'm still a gentleman. I helped her up, and then just stood there. I didn't know if she wanted to be able to look down at me, or have me sitting close to her, so I waited.
Finally, she spoke up and said, "Jasper, you can sit down next to me. I promise I won't bite, at least not yet!"
I laughed with her, but I didn't really feel it. I just wanted to be polite. Once I was sitting next to her she turned and asked that I turn to face her. She then said something that while I knew it to be true, it had been way too long since I had actually done it. Maybe if I had done it with Isabella, maybe I would have known the truth long before now.
"Please Jasper, as I talk I need to see your eyes. I want you to see mine as well so that you will know without using your gift that I'm speaking the truth. Eyes are the windows to the soul, never forget that. It might just save your ass the next time someone is lying and you can't feel it."
"I know that you are worried that Bella is going to choose Demetri. I also know that you have been feeling the mating pull. That's what that pull is. I know you never believed in the mating thing, but it does happen. Most vampires just don't ever find their mate, and just chooses to be with someone, instead of being alone. For true mates, there is the pull. There is also pain of separation. Love still has to be developed, but it happens a little faster. The reason I needed to talk to you alone is because there are things that I know that you need to know as well. Some of this will stay just between us, at least for now. I will also be talking to Bella and I will be telling her some things that I will not tell you. I also need to warn you about some things concerning Bella, and what needs to happen." she paused for a moment.
"She will be allowed to choose who she wants to be with. But, I need you to work your fucking ass off to get her to choose you. Remember I'm a seer, and I know for a fact that she MUST get pregnant with your child. Its the only way to bring down the fucking Volturi. If she ends up with Demetri, the child will side with them. They will raise the child their way, and there will be much evil wrought by him or her. Your child, on the other hand will be the catalyst so to speak to bringing down the brothers, and that's while he or she is still very young." I'm sure I looked like an owl.
"Now, I can tell you that once Bella is pregnant, Aro will want her there with them. You of course will need to come with her. She will go through her pregnancy there, and give birth. Your family can do what they want, either stay here or come with you. That won't make a difference, except that they can be with you, when your son or daughter is born. If you are there, Aro will allow the two of you to raise the child. If you stay here, the child will be taken and raised by the brothers. Bella will then be given to someone else to get pregnant again."
I felt anger as she talked. Anger at the possibility that she could choose Demetri. The anger increased thinking about her being alone, then having our child taken and raised by fucking monsters. Then her being given to someone else, made it worse, and I couldn't stop the growl from coming out.
"Good, it makes you angry. Now, I'm going to be telling this part to everyone later. There is already a plan in motion to stop the fucking assholes from continuing to ruin and destroy innocent lives. But, we need your child to help us. We need you, and Bella as well. Her gift is very powerful, even now. The brothers know of one gift, but they have no knowledge of the other gift, and they don't know about my second one as well."
I started to say something, but she cut me off, "Please just wait, I have much more to say, and I need to do this quickly and get back to Bella. Some of this can wait until we are back to be explained to you. Now, lets get back to the pull, I know Bella is feeling it as well. She's angry at you, but its not completely because of what you did to her. Its the same reason as you, the main difference though is that her anger comes from pain. The emotional pain of everything she went through. Now, when we get back to the house, its going to be her turn to tell everyone how she felt about everything. I'm warning you now, she's probably going to say some very cruel things, to everyone, especially you. She's probably going to scream, cry, curse, and want to hit you. DO NOT try to calm her down. She needs to let it out, all of it." I nodded, letting her continue.
"I don't want you to take it too much to heart, as she was hurt badly. Once she's let it all out, she'll actually be less angry. She still may not forgive, but she will be able to allow everyone who hurt her at least try to show her that you are not the monsters she sees you to be right now. I'm also going to be reminding her sternly if necessary, that you, and your family were also victims." She started to rise.
"One last thing. You will only have one week to try to win her heart. Both you, and Demetri will be given three hours a day with her. You can take her out on a date, sit and talk, do whatever you think will make her choose you. Here's some don'ts for you; don't do fancy, she's likes simple things, she would much rather go on a picnic, sitting on the ground, then go to a fancy restaurant. She would rather sit and talk, or just read with you, than to go dancing. Which she does love dancing, just do it at home. She loves quiet, and would much rather walk along the beach, and go camping, than to go and do something that costs a lot of money. I can also tell you how you can almost guarantee to win her heart, which you already have a head start by the way. But, just because you two are mates, doesn't necessarily mean she will choose you, she can leave and be with someone else. The secret is to buy her a horse." I raised a brow at this.
"She loves horses and it was the only thing she could do for fun, at the castle. I'll let her tell you what her life has been like, but if you got her a horse, it would touch her heart for sure. I know, there's no place to put one. Talk to Carlisle, and see if he'll agree to building a stable, and put a fence up to keep one. With all of the materials you could have it done in twenty-four hours or less, right?"
I told her yeah. I knew that if everyone pitched in we could have it up in less time. Then I just had to ask, "But, is there any way that I can make up to her for what I've done?"
"Not really, you're just going to have to let her get the anger out of her system, and then show her that you are not that monster that she sees you as right now. Actions always speak louder than words. We need to get back, and you need to get started on that plan."
We both jumped off and as I turned to start running she stopped me, "One more thing Jasper. You already know that Bella is a virgin. What you don't know yet because you haven't had the chance to find out, is that she is a very kind, sweet, loving, and compassionate young lady. But when someone hurts someone she cares about, she can become a viscous hell cat. I'm going to ask you that when she chooses you, please be gentle with her. Especially after being so rough with her."
"You mean, IF she chooses me."
"Yeah, if she chooses you."
"Can I ask you a question?"
"Sure, but I may not answer it."
"Can't you tell who she will choose?"
"Yeah, but I'm not telling."
"Wait, you saw the baby, do we have a son or daughter?"
"I'm not telling whose baby it is, nor am I telling the sex. You had just better make sure she picks you!"
With that she fucking took off and left my ass there.
Peter's POV
Bella woke up shortly after her mom took off with the Major. I stood close by in case she went ballistic again. I knew that I wouldn't be needed for that. The real reason I wanted to be close was to make fuckin' sure that Demetri didn't do something to upset the little gal even more than she already was.
Felix told her that her mom had asked to speak with Jasper alone, and wanted us to watch out for her until they got back. Felix then explained that Aro wanted to find out what kind of child a vampire, and a hybrid would create.
That just got the little thing all upset again. She was stayin' close to Felix though. I guess she wasn't ready to deal with the Cullens just yet. They seemed to be smart enough to keep their distance.
Of course it might have had somethin' to do with the fact that her mom talking to Jasper just fuckin' pissed her off even more. She started yellin' about how Jasper just better not fuckin' hurt her mom, or she was goin' to fucking light his ass on fire. Man, this little lady was a fucking time bomb just ticking away. I'd hate to be close, when she blew up.
One thing my knowing shit was tellin' me was that she was gonna blow. But, she needed it. She's been keepin' all of that fuckin' anger, hurt, pain, and fear bottled up inside. If that shit doesn't come out, it can fester just like a sore, and it will end up destroyin' any goodness that's in her heart.
Now Jasper, well, he needs to have his ass kicked. I don't think that I have ever seen him treat a woman as bad as he treated Bella. Now, he has killed women, but he never tortured them. And that shit with making her take ice cold showers, is just fucked up. Not to mention, he crushed her wrist.
But I ain't worried. I know that Miss Bella is gonna shred his ass, and the Cullens as well. I can hear them comin' now, so that means that the show is about to begin. Just so happens, I have a front row seat.
Jasper's POV
As soon as we got close to the house, I knew that Isabella was awake. She was ranting some shit about if I hurt her mother, she was going make sure that I hurt as well. Part of me wanted to laugh, I mean, come on, seriously. Just how much damage can a tiny mostly human girl do? The other part remembered Renee's words, "hurt someone she cares about, and she becomes a vicious hell cat".
As soon as we were through the door Bella was hugging her mom. She asked her if she was alright, and then if the baby was alright. She glared at me like she was warning me. I almost wanted to laugh again. There was just no fucking way that I would ever be afraid of this tiny girl.
Renee told her that I would never hurt her, and she knew that. Renee asked her if she was alright, and then if she had eaten again. She had, so Renee said it was now time for her daughter to have her say. Then she turned to Isabella and told her to not hold back on what she needed to say, but made her promise not to use her gift. I wish I knew what this fucking gift is.
Renee spoke up first, "I know that most of you have no idea of what my daughter's life has been like. You only know the lies. Now, Bella, I want you to make sure that you tell enough about yourself that they will understand you better, and why some things bothered you more than others."
I watched as Isabella was standing there and I could tell she was trying to figure out where to start. Finally, she sighed and then started, "I was born and raised in Volterra. I was born inside of the castle, and that is where I stayed until I came here. I wasn't allowed to have friends, except for members of the guard. I never even had a hybrid friend. I have never been allowed to be close to anyone except vampires."
"When I was born and just a few days old, my father was murdered by Aro. He was no longer needed, and he had tried to get mom, and I out of Italy. He was frightened for us, and even though we weren't completely human, he wanted a better life for us. Aro, said that since we had lost him that mom could raise me, and she would be left alone as long as she did as she was told."
"I was never allowed to leave the castle, for any reason. If I needed anything, it was brought to me. I never lacked anything material. I had anything I could ever have asked for, except for friends. I was home schooled as there wasn't any schools in the castle at the time. When I was little, I had fallen and cut my leg on a rock. Mom had some blood that she always kept in the refrigerator, and she heated it up. She somehow knew that it would help heal my wound. I found that the blood tasted good, and sometimes just had some because I liked it."
"While I do drink blood when needed, I have no blood lust at all. I want it occasionally, the same way a human might want a coke instead of tea to drink. When I have to use my gift purposely I do need it to regain my strength, as using my gift does wear on my body. I have two gifts, but the Volturi only know of one. I have a mental shield. That one stays up without my trying."
I noticed that she then looked at her mom and she simply said, "Go on baby and tell them about the other. I'm sure they won't tell Aro. It will also help them to understand why Jasper couldn't feel deceit from the brothers, and why he hasn't been able to feel your emotions."
"I have a second shield. Its the one that causes me to be drained and need blood to re-energize. Its a physical shield. Mostly, when I have it down, the mental one is still keeping vampire gifts from working on me, to a point. If its a physical gift then I have to bring the other shield up to stop it. I can also do other things with it, but that's for another day. You know, my mom had told me all about the infamous Cullen family. How humane they were, how civilized they were. When mom came and told me that I was to be given to Jasper, I stupidly got so fucking excited. I was going to be with vampires that tried to be a part of the human race. I had to watch as other young girls were given to other male vampires. Some never lived beyond the first time having sex. Some were treated like animals, forced to do things that were horrible at least to us humans. Some were beaten, raped, left alone without food, or water. Is this in any fucking way starting to sound familiar?" her voice was harsh, and she was yelling at some points.
"When I found out I was going to be coming here, I just knew that I had lucked out. I was going to be leaving the fucking castle, and getting to see things that I had only seen in pictures. I couldn't believe that I had been chosen to get to leave. Most of the other girls didn't."
"When the brothers called me in and told me that they were going to be conducting another experiment, and that I had to use my shield to keep you, Jasper, from feeling any deceit from them, as well as hide my emotions; I was sure that even with that, I would still be treated with compassion." Her voice was getting louder, and she was crying.
She suddenly leveled her glare at me, "Do you have any fucking idea what I was feeling when I was told to stay in the room, unable to leave even for food? Can you imagine what it fucking felt like to be a virgin, not even having been kissed, or even out on a date; and having a man rip the clothes off of you? Can you put yourself in my place, and wonder what it felt like to be forced to have to sit in a room, naked, not knowing if at any moment that same man would come in and maybe do what you ended up trying to do?"
She was starting to cry harder, "Do you have any fucking idea what it was like to have to stand under ice cold water, while the same man stood there and watched you; not even allowing hot water to be turned on? Shivering so hard, I could hardly do anything. Then, not even getting a towel. Can you imagine being so fucking cold, that even a blanket doesn't warm you up?"
"You, said you felt no deceit, that was because I made fucking sure you couldn't. If I hadn't hidden that as well as my own emotions from you, they would have killed my mother."
"They did tell me that if you or any of the Cullens did ask me if what you had been told was the truth, that I could tell you what was really going on. Guess what, not one fucking person ever asked me anything!" She was screaming now.
"Do you even want to think about how I felt when you ripped off the clothing I had on, then not just pinned my hands up over my head, but have one of my wrists crushed, while your other hand is squeezing my breasts so fucking hard that bruises were left. I am a fucking virgin, but then again if you had raped me, well, you would have known then that they had lied. If that wasn't enough, you made sure that I wasn't eating properly. You didn't fucking give a shit if I died or not, but If I died, then so would your family.
Would you like to feel what I felt then? What I feel now? I bet you would rather not. Well guess what, I'm going to finally drop my shield completely, and you, will, feel, every fucking thing I have felt since I got here!" she screamed out. She was hurt, and most of the time hurt turns into anger.
At this point she was crying so hard that she could no longer talk. She looked at me, and then I was hit with an onslaught of mixed emotions so strong that I was knocked down. The mixture seemed to swirl around each other.
There were so many, and not one of them positive. There was humiliation, embarrassment, disappointment, depression, disgust, pain, anguish, anger, and fear. There was also some self-loathing. I heard a scream, and it took me a few seconds to realize it was mine.
I knew that I needed to be careful that I didn't start to project. There was no fucking way I wanted the family to feel this shit. Then something happened. I felt like something that I can only describe as a presence come into my body and pushed out my gift.
Suddenly, I hear the screams and cries of my family. I couldn't really focus on anything but I knew that somehow they were feeling what I'm feeling. What. The. Fuck. Just. Happened?
A/N Any guesses as to what just happened? If you guess correctly I will tell you. Anyway, leave a review. I must thank the ones leaving reviews from guests, I can't reply to your reviews so thank you. Also, a huge thanks to everyone who added this story to their favorites and alerts.
