A/N: Hello there again! As I promised I would give an update, we got some new reviewers! Hi there and thank you! And I can't keep saying thank you because I love this story a lot and really want you all to like it to! Yesterday was my day off and I just churned out TWO chapters ahead of this ;) when they're yours depends on you! Muwahaha.

Caitlyn couldn't believe this was happening. They searched the corn fields for hours trying to find where Tobias dragged Spencer. When they realized that it was a dead end, Hotch made the decision for all of the team members, including Garcia to set up base in Tobias's house. If there were any answers they were going to be in that house and there was no use in going back and forth from the house to the field office. Hotch explained this to Garcia when she arrived carrying an oversized suitcase behind her. Caitlyn hadn't slept all night, she couldn't. All she could think of was getting knocked out in the field. Why didn't he take her? Why did he have to take him? She was more qualified for situations like this, Reid was so sensitive and delicate- she couldn't even think about it. She didn't even want to be in the house, every single thing about it reminded her that her boyfriend was somewhere and could possibly be- no, she couldn't even think like that.

Another thing that made it worse was the way that all the other agents looked at her. They expected her to be an emotional mess, giving her empathetic looks as she was stone faced looking through the case files. If one more person asked if she was fine she was going to snap.

"Hey," she heard Garcia say softly, "are you okay?" There it was. Caitlyn looked up at her in a monotone voice and responded,

"I'm fine." she answered getting up to turn around but was stopped by a box that Garcia put out in front of her.

"I brought you a box of macaroons, I know that they're your favorite because I see that you keep a box of them in your desk and Reid always-" Garcia stopped herself, "I'm sorry." God damn it Garcia, being all kind and Garcia-y.

"No, it's fine. Thanks." Caitlyn said grabbing the box and putting it by her stuff.

"Welcome to our nightmare." JJ said to Garcia.

"This computer is an extension of his brain, I need you to dissect it." Gideon ordered her, Morgan offered to take her to show her where she needed to set up.

"Nothing new since I left?" Hotch asked.

"The good news is this guy practically documented every second of his life, the bad news is, we're still un piling." Emily explained, while Caitlyn was in the process of reading over the psychobabble.

"He hasn't left this place in years." JJ said softly, still disheveled and showing more signs of the trauma that she had been put through and her emotions while Caitlyn did the complete opposite. The second she showed one bit of emotion she knew it would all come crumbling down and she had to focus because this would be the kind of thing that would get them separated form the team.

"He believes that god is on his side, every single time he comes in contact with the police he gets away with it." Caitlyn said, "and he isn't on ours."

Garcia and Morgan were going over the computer programmings as the rest of the team went through the things that Tobias had on his computer. Caitlyn and Prentiss found something from a narcotics anonymous meeting but it looked to be about 12 years old. Gideon found latin written on the walls that was hidden under wallpaper. JJ wasn't doing to well, she was having flashbacks about the dogs that were attacking her and almost shot Prentiss when she came to check on her. Classic signs of PTSD. Prentiss decided to get JJ out of the house to help get her mind off of things, Caitlyn refused to stop working.

"You know there's nothing that you could have done to make this different." Gideon said scaring Caitlyn a bit as she was trying to look through the house and find anything that could lead her to Reid. There was always something about Gideon that made it so that you didn't lie to him, it was as if you couldn't lie to him. He had a gaze that was life a concerned father.

"There's so many things that I could have done different. I had him, Gideon, I was right behind him. I have caught and taken down so many guys like that before and he…" she stopped still wincing at the pain, "he knocked me out. He had a cheap shot and he took it."

"That's not what this is about, it isn't about you. We know you're afraid for Reid, we all are. But he's smart, he's going to be okay."

"Are you trying to convince me, or are you trying to convince yourself." Caitlyn breathed. When JJ and Prentiss returned from the group, the told the rest of the team what they had found. They found out that Tobias was addicted to dilaudid, which was probably the cause of his psychotic break and why he was living as three people.

"This could be bad news a computer store was robbed in the middle of the night," an officer said but their attention was broken by Garcia.

"Oh my god, guys! Guys!" she cried, all of the agents running into the room.

"Guys get in here!" Morgan called, all of the agents filed in but Morgan stopped Caitlyn in the doorway, "I don't know if you want to see this."

"Morgan, get out of my way." she growled. He was right, she didn't want to see this. On the screen the young doctor was tied up to a chair, it was obvious that he had been tortured. Caitlyn's face stayed stone still but it felt like she was going to throw up. She wanted to run out of the room throw herself on the floor and cry.

"He's been beaten." Prentiss exclaimed.

"Can't you track it?" Caitlyn asked.

"Tobias is only steaming this to his home computer." Garcia said horrified.

"This is for us, he knows we're here." Gideon confirmed.

Caitlyn put her eyes away from the computer, she felt Emily's arm on her back, she shook it away. It was like when someone was going to give you a hug when you were on the verge of tears, and their hug would bring you to a full breakdown of tears. Caitlyn didn't want to watch, her heart was in her throat. The computer screen went blank, Morgan stormed out of the room and Caitlyn just stared at the screen.

"Robertson are you sure that you're able to continue with this?" Hotch asked.

"Yes, I'm just gonna get some fresh air. Come look back at this with some fresh eyes." She answered going out into the backyard, staring up at the night sky. She clicked through her phone to the last text message that he sent, 'we're each others'.

Then it happened, it was like there was a brick on her chest and she couldn't breathe, if she could she would be hyperventilating. She placed her hands on the top of her head, closing her eyes together to stop the fall of tears and arched her back letting out a deep breath.

"Cait," she heard Morgan and Prentiss approach behind her, and she whipped her head around quickly trying to wipe the tears from her eyes.

"You guys, I'm okay, I'm just trying to think."
"We know you're not okay and it's fine." Emily said quietly.

"No, I can't be weak I have to be strong this is the kind of thing that would make us unfit to be able to work together. He knocked me out first he should have taken me." Caitlyn said, finally letting some of the tears fall down her face and grabbing at her chest. Morgan rushed forward and pulled her into a hug, Emily rubbing her back.

"Morgan, I love him," she sobbed into his shoulder, "I didn't tell him."

"You're going to get to tell him, we're going to find him." Caitlyn looked up and him and wiped her tears with the backs of her sleeve.

"I want his head on a stick." She said, finally slowing down her breathing. "I'm going to come back in once I don't look like I cried please don't tell anyone about this." she said and both the agents nodded, leaving her to think until she looked composed and walked back into the house.

The last murder was posted online and JJ was relentless in wanting to see it, Caitlyn saw her changing before her eyes. Morgan, Prentiss and Caitlyn looked through Tobias's whole life. It was easy to see what was going on, their whole family tree was posted throughout the whole place. Caitlyn was dying every single second that he was away from her. Caitlyn looked into the computer screen, she knew that she was on camera.

"Spence, if you're watching this you're not responsible you understand me?" Reid instantly started to bawl at the sight of her face.
"He's perverting god to justify murder." Gideon added.

"You are stronger than him Spence, he can not break you." Caitlyn added before the feed cut off.

They were all in separate rooms when Garcia called them in, this time Hotch stopped her at the door and refused to let her in.

"What is happening Hotch! What is happening let me see!" Caitlyn growled, unknown that Reid was unconscious and Tobias was trying to get him back to life. Caitlyn broke though and saw Reid lying dead on the ground, still stone faced. She was about to literally throw up this time, she took a step back and luckily there was a desk able to catch her and she leaned up against it, until she heard him breathe. She tried to listen to anything that would be a clue. Tobias tried to get him to pick someone to die, holding a revolver at his head. This time, Caitlyn had to turn away and not watch, when she heard him speak the words,

"Kill me." God damn it Reid, don't be a fucking hero. Tobias held a rifle to his head and stung the barrel, and the young doctor didn't flinch each time he pulled the trigger. The young genius stared him in the eyes until he gave him an ultimatium. One of the members on his team, other than him was to be killed. Until he chose Hotch, calling him a narcissist and quoting revelations, all of the agents looked at him. Hotch ran into the room,

"I'm not a narcissist," he said,

"Don't take it personal Hotch." Gideon said. The unit chief smiled,

"What are my worst qualitites. Don't worry you won't get in trouble."

"You can be a drill sergeant."

"You have no sense of humor."
"Right," Hotch smiled widely, "but would you ever say I put myself before anyone else on this team?"

"No," Caitlyn said slowly, "but you barely ever smile and you're really smiling a lot now so I'm starting to think you're a bit narcissistic."

"No, I'm not. Reid and I argued about the definition of classic narcissism and he knew that I would remember that and he also quoted something wrong, he wouldn't get it wrong unless it was on purpose."

"He's in a cemetery." Morgan said. Turned out that there were no cemeteries near by and they had to go back over the first footage of Reid that they had seen, "I wont choose who will be slaughtered." Were his exact words,

"See if there are any slaughter houses near by, or slaughtering" Caitlyn commanded.

"There's a cemetery on these grounds," Garcia confirmed. Caitlyn ran to get her gear on, it was like she couldn't get her bulletproof vest on quick enough.

"Don't go be pulling any hero shit little shot." Morgan said.
"I had him Morgan. You're not the only one who can chase after the bad guys and kick doors down anymore." Caitlyn said finally making a joke, "this bastard is mine."

All of the team busted into the cemetery,

"Ah what's that smell!" Caitlyn said, the cemetery and the stench of dead animals overwhelming her senses.

"They have to be on foot, let's go!" Morgan commanded, Caitlyn ran behind him when she heard a gunshot.
"REID!" Morgan called out as they ran toward the gunshots.

"There he is!" Hotch said, Caitlyn ran as fast as she could towards him, when she got there Hotch was helping the young doctor up. Spencer was holding onto their unit chief tightly,

"I knew you'd understand." he sobbed.

Caitlyn finally allowed herself to feel the emotion, she fell to her knees holding her head in her hands sobbing uncontrollably as he still held onto Hotch. Reid made his way over to Caitlyn, falling to his knees infront of her. She looked up and him and grabbed onto him so tightly, afraid that she would break him.

"I love you, Spencer Reid. I love you so fucking much." Caitlyn sobbed.

"I love you too," he cried back, kissing her between her words.

"I'm sorry I left you I shouldn't have done that." Caitlyn cried, the rest of the agents looking at the two as they grabbed onto each other.

"That was so stupid I was so stupid." she cried. The young genius placed his hand on her face, finger lightly touching the bruise from where she had gotten knocked out.

"You're face, are you okay?" he asked, Caitlyn scoffed.

"Now you're stupid." they both were able to laugh a small amount between their tears, "I'm sorry."
"It's not your fault. I'm okay."
"I wanted it to be me instead of you."

"I'm okay, Caitlyn. We're here together, we have each other."

"I thought I'd never get to tell you." she said as Spencer wiped the tears from her eyes, Caitlyn stood up and helped him to do so as rest of the team started to make their way to the sedans, Reid looked over at Tobias's body.

"I'll meet you at the car I just need one moment alone." he said, Caitlyn nodded and walked to the car, Morgan put a hand on her back and gave it a light pat.

"You were strong," he said to her as she was still crying to the car, she was so relieved it was hard to stop crying, JJ was doing the same as Spencer went and grabbed the Dilaudid out of Tobias' pockets.