A/N Alright, first of all I need to say a huge thanks to OoJasper'sAngeloO for her beta work on this chapter and to sinfulroad for her pre-reading. Love ya both. Now a warning, there is a mini lemon in this chapter. Jasper finally gets some release lol! I'm sorry for being late in posting this chapter but I'm working and I decided to do a Monday, and Wed. postings. Yeah, I know this is Tuesday. So it may turn out to be a Tuesday, and Friday posting. Hope you enjoy this one

Jasper's POV

Just lying here with my mate in my arms is amazing, wonderful, and yet I'm so fucking full of guilt right now. Not about the payback that Emmett and Peter went through, but because of what Bella did for me.

A part of me hates that she received nothing in return. Yet, at the same time the pain has lessened, so I'm grateful that she is so givin'. She finally passed out after wearing herself out. When I knew she was out, I pulled her body up so that her head rested on my chest. The worst part, she was still fully dressed.

I still can't believe that she said yes, but I know it's all real because I can see the ring on her hand. The ring is one of a kind that I had made just for her. The engagement ring is one stone, a ruby in the shape of a heart. It will set inside of the rest of the ring which is a band that has two rows of smaller diamonds that are intertwined on both sides and will surround the ruby.

I explained that the ruby represents her, while the diamonds represents me. I will always be there and will protect her with my life. I had a very long talk with Felix and he told me some things that are very promising. The most important thing we talked about though will be up to Aro. Him along with the other two believe Bella to be dead.

Renee is very close to her due date, and apparently Aro is making her come in every day to be examined by the doctors they have working for them. She is worried about what will happen once the baby is born. I don't blame her, Aro has proven to be heartless, and unmerciful.

Bella moved at this point and her hand ended up close my cock. Of course this only caused things to become "harder" for me. I heard Peter griping, "Fuck Major, knock that shit off, I need a break."

Serves him right for getting my mate drunk, and then tellin' her what to do. My thoughts of course went back to earlier.

Flashback. . .

After telling Bella that she could hold me down and have her way with me and that I thought it was hot, she didn't hold me down, but she did have her way with me. Unfortunately, because I was so wound up it didn't take much, or very long.

She took my cock in her hand and pumped a couple of times before bringing her mouth down and licked the slit. I almost lost it then. Her mouth was so hot, as she licked up and down just before she put the head in her mouth. She used her hand to cover what wouldn't fit in her mouth and started to go up and down. I knew it wouldn't take long to bring me to the edge.

I felt like a teenage boy, that was just so overwhelmed by the feelings that I did lose it, way too quickly for my liking. It only took a few pumps before I came hard. I tried to pull out but she stopped just long enough to tell me to just let go. She took everything I gave her.

I fully expected her to stop but she kept going. She was sucking, and licking, then going up and down. I couldn't tell her right now, but she was driving me even more crazy with need the way she was working her hot little mouth. I had never felt anything like this before.

You see with Maria, it was always about what she wanted. She taught me how to please a woman. She taught me all the different ways to make sure that a woman had many orgasms before I was done. There were even times that once she had her fill of orgasms, she sent me away, leaving me hard, unsatisfied, and frustrated. That was one of the punishments she used on me.

Never once in all of the time I was with her, did she ever do anything to me, or for me. She never gave me a blow job, or even touched me except to put my cock inside of her. But I foolishly thought she loved me, so my only desire was to please her.

This, what my beautiful mate was doing to me, was a first for me. She was pumping me in and out of her hot little mouth, and dragging her teeth as she pulled up. I was moaning loudly, as she did this. Again though it only took a few pumps before I was coming again.

Then once I was through she started to lick up and down my shaft, nipping every so often. Then she shocked the shit out of me by sucking one of my balls into her mouth. She sucked on one before moving on to the other one. When she used her teeth to lightly nip one I lost it again.

This time I came all over my stomach. Her words had me hard again, "Aww Major, that's just fucked up. I wanted you to do that in my mouth. Now look at the mess you've made, I guess I'll just have to clean you up. Next time, Major, come in my mouth!"

"Yes ma'am". was all I could manage to say.

She then proceeded to lick me, cleaning me up, then she started to suck, and use her teeth again until I came a fourth time. Right after that, she passed out. What she didn't know was that I had made sure to project my lust out to Emmett and Peter. They were going at it with their own mates, the whole time Bella was working on me.

Both of them yelling at me to "stop that shit". They had planned on hunting while Bella slept. Needless to say, I kept it up the whole night! Seems that they wanted to be there when she woke up to see how she would handle the morning after shit that comes from drinking.

End of Flashback. . .

At least this way, she wouldn't have to face the family. I have a feeling that she's going to be embarrassed by what she did. Especially, since she has never done anything like that before. I questioned at first how she knew to do some of what she did until I heard Peter telling me, "You can thank me Major by knocking off the projectin' shit. Yeah, I told her some of what to do, Char told her the rest."

"Do you mean to tell me that she was plannin' on doin' this?" I whispered knowing Peter would hear, but that it wouldn't wake my mate up.

"I don't think she was until we got back here. I had a feelin' she wanted to ask me somethin' so I went to her room while you were in the shower. I told her some of it and Char had told her earlier as well as Rose about the rest I'm guessin'." He explained.

"Peter, I'm warnin' you right fuckin' now, Do. Not. Say. One. Fuckin'. Word. I will NOT have you embarrassing her. That goes for you too Emmett." I growled out.

Of course Em wasn't happy. He was looking forward to sayin' crude things to get her to blush. I told them to get the ball rolling to get everything set up for the weddin'. Most of the details had already been taken care of, now we just needed to finalize things.

I called Renee and after inquiring about her health, told her that Bella had said yes. She told me she knew she would. I asked if she had had any problems with her part and she told me no. Everything was starting to look up for both of us.

Renee actually embarrassed me by asking if I had enjoyed myself before Bella fell asleep! I should have known that she would know what had taken place. She did inform me that while she knew some of what took place, she was able to stop the pictures so she didn't "see" anything. For that I was grateful.

After hanging up with the assurances from Renee that it would work out, I just held onto my mate and trying not to replay her actions of the night before in my head. If I did, I would be in even more pain than before. Instead, I just focused on her being in my arms, and knowing that the morning would find her in pain from a hangover.

Bella's POV

The first thing I was aware of was that I was being held by Jasper. His arms were around me, and my head was on his bare chest. He smelled so fucking good, and being here right now felt like this is where I was always meant to be. It didn't take long for reality to set in.

I went to open my eyes and sit up a little, but was hit with the worst pain I had ever felt in my head. I heard someone say something, and it sounded like someone was screaming in my ears. It made the pounding in my head worse.

It turns out that it was Jasper asking if I could handle drinking some coffee. Esme had made some and brought it up. She wasn't in the room but I noticed that Jasper was covered up to his waist with the sheet. I was having trouble remembering everything that had happened. I do know that apparently I had fallen asleep before changing clothes and that I was still fully dressed.

Jasper, on the other hand, was not. No, he was naked under that sheet. I was trying to remember what had happened before I went to sleep, but it kept running together and I couldn't figure out what was real and what wasn't. Right now though, I needed to take care of my human needs.

I got into the bathroom and quickly took care of my needs. I was just about to brush my teeth when I suddenly had a flash of me doing something to Jasper, something naughty. Suddenly, everything started coming back to me and I remembered what I had done to Jasper.

I also remember falling into someone's lap. I also remember that my face was almost in his crotch, and I remember exactly what went through my head at the time. I wanted to help my mate out. I wanted to know if I could give him pleasure. I knew I could turn him on, that wasn't the problem.

He was experienced in being with someone sexually. But it had always been a vampire. Could I, as mostly human, bring him pleasure? Could I ever measure up? Would I be enough, or would he be left unsatisfied, frustrated, and needing more than what I could give him? Those were the thoughts that went through my head.

I knew that as his mate he was drawn to me, but if we weren't mates would he have even given me the time of day? Would he even have been attracted to me? Is his love for me there because I'm his mate and he has to love me? That was everything I was thinking last night, and I kept my shield up enough so that he couldn't feel what I was feeling.

That shit that I drank last night gave me the courage to do what I did to him. When he had proposed to me, I knew it was our new beginning. It was perfect, he was perfect and I loved him enough to need to try to help him. Now there was a new problem. How in the fuck was I going to face him? It was then that it hit me. OH SHIT! Please don't tell me the whole family was here, listening.

My head was hurting badly, but now I was feeling embarrassed. The questions were still there as well. I started feeling inadequate, as well as embarrassed. How in the fuck could I satisfy him, I'm just a fucking human with just enough vampire in me to want to drink blood. I know that he came three times, or was it four?

All of these different feelings were making me dizzy, causing my head to spin. I heard knocking on the bathroom door and could hear someone talking or were they yelling? I fucking wish they would stop, my head was hurting worse with the noise. Why are they yelling?

It was then that I smelled it. Blood. I think its human blood. No, it smells unusual. It doesn't smell like normal blood. My mind went back to the thought that Jasper doesn't really love me for me. He's being forced to love me. Why in the fuck was I even born? Oh that's right, a fucking asshole wanted to fuck up someone else's life. I'm just the results of a fucking experiment. Why in the fuck should anyone care about me?

It sounds like the pounding and yelling is louder now. The smell of blood is getting stronger. I decided that I needed to stop the fucking noise. I just wish the room would stop spinning so I could deal with the noise. Oh shit, the noise just got louder. It sounds like they are yelling at me to do something.

Maybe I can get them to make the room stop spinning, but if I open the door then I'll have to face Jasper. He only loves me because he has to. I can't make him stay with someone he's being forced to love. He needs someone better than I am. He needs a vampire. I have caused him too many problems.

But I love him, how can I leave him? He needs someone better than me. He needs someone who can please him. I know, I'll find him a vampire and she can please him and then he'll forget all about me. Why in the fuck is the smell of blood getting stronger?

I suddenly heard the sound of a door being busted open. I spun around to see who had broken the fucking door down. That was a huge mistake. The dizziness just got worse, and I heard more yelling just before everything went black. . .

A/N Let me know your thoughts on this chapter. Just so everyone knows, I'm going on vacation this week. I'll only be gone for four days and then its back to work. Do not worry, I'm taking my laptop and will be writing whenever I have a few minutes. So, just for this week I may be posting the next chapter of Seattle Nights tomorrow night, as I'm leaving Thursday morning and I'm not real sure if I'll have internet to post. Don't need the internet to write, just my laptop. Thanks to everyone who reviewed and added this story to their favorites or alerts. Love you guys.