A/N: I wanted to have the inspiration and ideas to continue on with this story, I really did. But with the last chapter I really felt that this was the place for me to end their story. Being a lover of lyrics and song fics and flashbacks and piecing things together. I hope that I am able to give this story closure with some of my favorite moments that have happened and I think it's just a great summary of their love story with the song that I think fits this story and their relationship best. I hope you enjoy it. Thank you all for reviewing and staying with me and reading and giving me the encouragement to write this love story that I wanted to write so very badly. The song is "Ours", by Taylor Swift(i changed maybe two or three words to make it fit their story like this song is perfect for them but 99.95% is the same), lyrics are in bold, flashbacks in italics. And the fast forward in it's normal text.
"Elevator buttons and morning air
Strangers' silence makes me wanna take the stairs"
"26? And you have doctorates?" She asked making eye contact with him once more and raising her brows.
"Yeah, I have three PhD's. I also have a BA in Psychology and Sociology."
"Well then Doctor, we have something in common. I have a Masters in Psychology and BA in Sociology as well."
"I'm a genius too!" Garcia chimed in, "I may not have degrees or have gotten them at a young age or anything but I am."
"We have time to wait I'd love to hear your opinion on new Darwinism." Caitlyn suggested, lured in by how quickly the young doctor rattled off his academic achievements. The SWAT team was amazing but didn't have many with BA's in psychology, let alone doctorates.
"Yeah, I um, have to um, I forgot…" he began, "I have to grab... something. Next time."
"Did I say something wrong?"
"If you were here we'd laugh about their vacant stares
But right now my time is theirs"
"Well, I think there may be someone, but I don't really know him and I'm pretty sure he hates me." Caitlyn said cracking a smile which in turn made the woman laugh lightly.
"That's how it always works doesn't it? Life has a funny way of working and so do people. That's why I love science it always had a way of being exact and not surprising you."
"Yeah well Doctor, the way I feel about him surprises myself. I'm around dudes all day, nice looking ones too," Caitlyn said trying to keep the conversation light, "but I cared about my work and helping people, like we're going to help you now."
"So you've never noticed anyone before?"
"Not really," Caitlyn said honestly, "and the one I do hates me."
"Seems like there's always someone who disapproves
They'll judge it like they know about me and you"
"Well when I was on the roof with Dr. Braiser I was trying to distract her and I told her how I thought you hated me and she told me to tell you." Spencer then joined in with the laughter.
"There's a Thai restaurant that's open 24 hours, do you wanna go?"
"Yeah, definitely."
"Atta boy," Morgan smiled looking at the two smiling agents. Gideon turned in his seat to look at them as well.
"That's going to be really good, or a recipe for disaster I see it already."
"Aw come on Gideon, why? I never thought that there would be a girl who could keep up with Reid and be able to listen to him babble as long as he does and then want to go somewhere with him. I didn't think there was any human who would want to." Morgan joked.
"Because they're going to fall in love with each other."
"And the verdict comes from those with nothing else to do
The jury's out, but my choice is you"
It was as if the Thai restaurant changed everything. It went from this timid fragile thing between the two of them, and now they were laughing and sharing bagels.
"So… I know we're around a lot of profilers. I think they're going to notice us… if there is an us." Caitlyn started.
"Is there an us?" Reid asked.
"I think there's the beginning of a possibility of an us." she smiled.
"I think as long as we do our jobs and keep it professional in the office there will be no problems. But they're all going to ask-"
"I know what to say, you on the other hand just start spitting statistics or something." Caitlyn winked at him.
"So I have a plan, I'll come and pick you up." Spencer smiled.
"Okay." Caitlyn cautiously took a small step forward, putting a small amount of space between her and the doctor. He was quite a bit taller than her so she had to almost tilt her head fully up to look him in the eyes. She was almost certain she could hear his heartbeat. Closing her eyes she softy pressed her lips to his. It was like electricity, the softness of his lips, the scent of him was like the pages of new books and coffee. She pulled back slowly and he just stared at her blankly.
"Sorry," she began "I just have been wantin-" she was cut off by Reid placing his hand softly on the side of her face and pulling her in to kiss her again.
"Me too. I'll see you tonight."
"See you tonight." Caitlyn responded as they both got into their cars grinning like idiots and unaware that Garcia caught the whole thing on the parking lot surveillance camera and was having a miniature heart attack.
"So don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard"
"JJ, you don't have to explain." Caitlyn said. Morgan walked over to Hotch after an officer whispered in his ear. He tried to be quiet so Caitlyn couldn't hear. The only thing she couldn't help but hear was,
there was no one in the field but it looks like someone had been dragged.
She couldn't cry, she couldn't even move. She wanted to throw up she wanted scream and run and curse everything but her emotions shut off. There was no time for that, especially if she wanted to help Spencer. JJ let out a wail and began to cry into the blanket and Caitlyn stood up stone faced and walked over to Morgan and Hotch, each step agonizing and feeling as though the world had tumbled down upon her and was on her back. Knives daggering at her heart as they looked upon her with empathy,
"What's our next move, we have to find this son of a bitch."
"Are you sure you're alright to do this?" Hotch asked, JJ still sniffling in the backround. Caitlyn gave him a look that made Hotch's resting glare look inviting.
"Im. Fine." she lied, "Let's go."
"The stakes are high, the water's rough"
Caitlyn looked into the computer screen, she knew that she was on camera.
"Spence, if you're watching this you're not responsible you understand me?" Reid instantly started to bawl at the sight of her face.
"He's perverting god to justify murder." Gideon added.
"You are stronger than him Spence, he can not break you." Caitlyn added before the feed cut off.
They were all in separate rooms when Garcia called them in, this time Hotch stopped her at the door and refused to let her in.
"What is happening Hotch! What is happening let me see!" Caitlyn growled, unknown that Reid was unconscious and Tobias was trying to get him back to life. Caitlyn broke though and saw Reid lying dead on the ground, still stone faced.
"But this love is ours"
Reid made his way over to Caitlyn, falling to his knees infront of her. She looked up and him and grabbed onto him so tightly, afraid that she would break him.
"I love you, Spencer Reid. I love you so fucking much." Caitlyn sobbed.
"I love you too," he cried back, kissing her between her words.
"I'm sorry I left you I shouldn't have done that." Caitlyn cried, the rest of the agents looking at the two as they grabbed onto each other.
"That was so stupid I was so stupid." she cried. The young genius placed his hand on her face, finger lightly touching the bruise from where she had gotten knocked out.
"You're face, are you okay?" he asked, Caitlyn scoffed.
"Now you're stupid." they both were able to laugh a small amount between their tears, "I'm sorry."
"It's not your fault. I'm okay."
"I wanted it to be me instead of you."
"I'm okay, Caitlyn. We're here together, we have each other."
"You never know what people have up their sleeves"
"Spencer?" she asked groggily, sitting somewhat up.
"Yeah it's me," he answered, and she slid back down with an exasperated sigh. Reid turned on the bathroom light to not shine her out and changed into pajamas and slid into the bed behind her, wrapping his arms around her and placing his head into the nape of her neck, breathing her in.
"Caitlyn," he whispered.
"Hmmm?" she responded sleepily.
"I'm struggling." he felt her hand wrap around his, and she let out a sigh of relief.
"I know, I've known the whole time." she confessed, he pulled her closer.
"I'm so sorry." he whispered, "I'll never keep anything from you again, or treat you like that you didn't deserve it." Caitlyn turned around in his arms burying her head in his chest.
"It's okay, you can beat this. I'm going to help get you through this." she promised, and Reid tried to fight back tears.
"Ghosts from your past gonna jump out at me"
"My brain has been sending me signals, I can't ignore them anymore." Spencer stated. The other agents tried to talk about his subconscious and his fathers abandonment sending him mixed signals but Caitlyn knew that his mind was made up and he wasn't going to budge. They had more in common than she thought. They were both stubborn as shit.
"I've come this far. I'm not going back." Reid said, Caitlyn stood up and grabbed his hand.
"Then we're going there with you." she smiled softly. The rest of the night they went over the case files, how the boy was murdered and found and starting to build a profile and how and why Riley was killed. Reid was looking at a map when he found out that his family lived half a mile away from Riley Jenkins.
"Reid, you know we're going to have to track down your dad." Morgan said.
"I should talk to my mother first." he responded.
"Reid I don't have to tell you that this was sexual in nature and need based, the man we're looking for is a pedophile. So I'll ask you again. Are you sure you want to go down this road?" Rossi asked, leaning forward. The young genius nodded and was off to go see his mother, Caitlyn ran after him in the hallway.
"Spencer!" she called after him, he turned around, holding onto the strap of his messenger bag. "I know that nothing is going to change your mind and you say that you're ready for this and I'm behind you all the way. But I want you to tell me if you're really okay."
"Honestly, I'm terrified. But I can't let that boy die without having any justice, even if it was my father." he admitted to her. Caitlyn cupped his face in her hands and looked him deep in the eyes.
"You can't let your anger at your father cloud your vision, okay?"
"Okay." he said. Caitlyn kissed him softly
"Lurking in the shadows with their federal smiles,
But I don't care 'cause right now you're mine"
"Did you see that blonde agent, that's his girlfriend." Diane said, immediately going back into mother mode.
"I did. I didn't even really have to ask. Anytime you were talking to me she looked like she was a lioness wanting to tear my eyes out." William laughed.
"She can be like that sometimes with me." Spencer smiled.
"That's the kind of girl that you marry. Especially when you both see and go through the same things… the things that I had to leave after witnessing." William said.
"That's what I told him!" Diana interjected.
"You want to go officially meet her before we leave?"
Caitlyn's Point of View
When the family emerged out of the office she could tell on their faces that the dynamic was different. William went up to her first, and Caitlyn looked at Spencer first and he gave her a nod.
"Let's start over again, I'm William." he said, shaking her hand which Caitlyn returned firmly.
"I'm Caitlyn, nice to meet you. Sorry about being how I was earlier it was a delicate situation to say the least." she smiled as Spencer came beside her and pulled her to his hip.
"I always knew that my son would hook a good one," he winked at Caitlyn.
"They're going to give us the cutest grandchildren." Diana daydreamed. Spencer instantly went red,
"Mom!"
"Sorry Spencer but I want grandchildren and you both are adorable so they're going to be perfect." Diana responded.
"And you'll say
Don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine"
"You're so stupid." she said, tears finally falling from her eyes, trying to keep her face straight. She wanted to say something endearing but that's all she could muster.
"I'm sorry. I'm going to get out of here." he said.
"You can't die Spencer. I don't know what I'd do without you I love you so much. I will find a way to help you, I'll go to the edge of the earth." she cried.
"I'm going to get out of here, I have to give you this." he said pulling the wedding ring out of his pocket, Caitlyn fell to her knees and sobbed outside of the door, not caring what the rest of the team or any of the other officers saw. She was so happy but the nature of the situation that he may never be able to give it to her was even worse.
"Spencer…" she cried.
"I'm going to figure this out, and then will you marry me?" he asked.
"And life makes love look hard
The stakes are high, the water's rough"
"I can touch him now, right?" Caitlyn asked, looking at Spencer. He was breathing heavily and started to sweat. Caitlyn grabbed his hand before she gave him permission.
"You're going to be okay." Caitlyn said, trying not to cry anymore. This was her worst nightmare, this was worse than Tobias. Even though that wasn't the ideal situation either, but she had just fallen in love with him then. Now was different, that young genius was her whole world. He was the first thing she woke up to in the morning, the last thing she said at night. He was the scent on her clothes, the home to he house she lived in. He was the taste of her coffee that they chose at the store, the song that he hated but she loved every time she put it on and him hating it made her love it a little more. He was in everything she saw, and now she could be losing her world. That morning she was worried about her future and didn't know that her future could be over that fast, if he died her future died with him.
"Are you doing okay, Dr. Reid?" the doctor asked.
"My throat is a little scratchy, but other than that I fee… I feel.. fe…" he started to fumble with his words, his eyes rolled into the back of his head and he began to cough up blood.
"Jesus Christ," Caitlyn started to wail, the doctor urging the driver to go faster. Spencer tried to say something to her, but she urged him to be quiet as he closed his eyes, she prayed for him to open them up again. They brought Spencer into a room to try and test him and find what to do. Caitlyn never felt so alone in her whole life, she knew that she couldn't call the team, if they had anything to tell her they would and she couldn't distract them. She sat in the waiting room, sobbing silently and holding her head between her knees trying to breathe in the waiting room.
"But this love is ours"
"I can't believe you did that." Caitlyn said, more tears falling down her face as she finally was able to kiss him softly, carefully crawling up by him in the small hospital bed since he was safe and clean now. She had done the same thing in the hospital with him after the incident with Tobias.
"Honestly I really don't like spending the night in hospitals with you I'd rather us be at home, can you please stop putting yourself on the line and being the one who gets hurt?" Caitlyn asked, placing her head on his chest and listening to his heart beat.
"I'll stop when you do." he countered, she smiled at him.
"I told you I would figure this out but there's something you didn't tell me," he started.
"Yeah, I know. So say it again." she said.
"Will you marry me?"
"A thousand times yes."
"And it's not theirs to speculate
If it's wrong and"
"Are you two flirting over here, or are you doing business?" she asked raising her eye brow. Caitlyn had to use every bit of strength in her body not to knock her out right there.
"Excuse me?" Caitlyn said, turning to face her directly.
"I just want to make sure that the two of you are giving this case your full attention. I do not condone dating between agents, especially on the same team. But Agent Hotchner stood up and gave a fair case." Strauss condescended.
"Yeah, and we all know that you don't trust his judgement." Caitlyn fired back, Spencer put a hand on her shoulder.
"Just letting you two know that I have an eye on you. You're still fairly new to this team Robertson, we don't want any googly eyes clouding any of my agent's judgement. Your success rate has gone down in your role during past cases. But I have to give it a little longer to determine whether it's just circumstance or," she looked Spencer up and down, "something else."
Morgan walked up as she was walking away and Spencer's light hand on Caitlyn's shoulder had turned into a death grip as if he was holding her back.
"Your hands are tough
But they are where mine belong and"
"Seriously," Spencer continued, "I just feel extremely lucky right now. That I'm here with… you. When you walked into the BAU that day I was sure that you would be somewhere with Morgan and I was so nervous I couldn't even look you in the eyes. I'm not the kind of guy that gets a girl like you, or any girl for that matter." Caitlyn turned her body completely towards him.
"You're not the kind of guy who gets a girl like me?" she asked slowly.
"I didn't mean that in an offensive-" he started, getting nervous.
"That's not where I was going. Dr. Reid, you've got me. Do I have you?"
"Yes." he responded, finally understanding where she was going.
"Then it's settled, we're each others." she smiled, Spencer grinned back at her once again grabbing her face in his hands and lightly kissing her on the lips.
"I'll fight their doubt and give you faith
With this song for you"
"When I first joined the team and someone said that you two were dating I thought they were playing a practical joke on me." Rossi confessed, "but then I saw you two. I learned a lot about relationships from my three marriages, and for you two to make it work like this for two years, that's impressive."
"I was scared at first, we kind of got off to a rough start with a lot of things. And my mom and dad's relationship wasn't the best. We both know how that can impact someone, so I was always hesitant and didn't want to let anyone in. I still feel that way, it took a while to let the team in. And now I'm here talking to you so I guess I'm getting a little better at it. I was just always taught not to cry, not to talk about how you feel and your problems and to keep it all to yourself. It got me into some trouble." Caitlyn admitted.
"Do you think that you two will ever get married?" Rossi asked.
"I don't know if Spencer would ever want that, but if he asked me I wouldn't have to think for a second." Caitlyn answered.
"Cause you love the gap between my teeth
And I love the riddles that you speak"
"Saying that today is the best day of my life would be a lie. Because ever since I have met you, everyday has been better than the last. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I know a lot, I'm a genius. But you've taught me things that I never even thought to imagine. You make me want to be a better man, you make me feel like I can do anything and I love you with every fiber of my being. We're on a team but you are my partner. Every cell in my body loves you, every minute that I'm not with you is spent counting down the seconds until we're back together. I can't wait to spend the rest of my life with you, I can't wait to be the one who makes you coffee in the morning and gets you out of bed even if you're not the best when it's early," the crowd of people watching the sermon laughed at his joke, and so did Caitlyn who was trying not to bawl as he said his vows to her, he continued, "I'm going to make sure that you're happy and I can't wait to start this adventure and learn even more from you."
"And any snide remarks from you mother about my tattoos will be ignored
'Cause my heart is yours"
Spencer smiled, going to run a bath for Caitlyn and helped get her undressed and into the tub. Caitlyn held her knees to her chest as Spencer used a cup to run the water over her and wash through her hair and then helped get her changed into some clean clothes. Caitlyn stared at herself in the mirror, eyes puffy from crying as she saw Spencer come from behind and stand behind her.
"We are the Reid's, for some reason the worst things happen to us, but we always have each other and we always make it work." Spencer said, holding her tightly.
"So don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
And life makes love look hard"
"I'm sorry I threw an encyclopedia at you." she apologized, last night she had gotten mad for some reason that she couldn't even remember before and totally took it out on Spencer. God bless the patience that he had with her and JJ helping her through her pregnancy. Hotch had even taken her gun away- at least instructed Spencer to lock it away because he didn't want anyone shot out of a hormonal meltdown.
"You promise this is the last case that you're going to come on?" Spencer asked her.
"Yes and then I'll be stuck here alone, probably calling you a thousand times missing you or at the BAU driving Garcia crazy." Caitlyn sighed.
"Don't you worry your pretty little mind
People throw rocks at things that shine
But they can't take what's ours"
"You have to get her out of there, I can't lose her and this baby Hotch. I don't think I could recover, please." Spencer begged. He began to cry as he heard a gunshot go off from inside the control room. Desperate the genius got up and began to use everything that he could to try and break into the control room, even though he knew that there was nothing that he could do. Rossi wrapped his arms around Reid and pulled him back.
"You gotta calm down, we'll get them out." Rossi tried to comfort him.
"My life is in that cell, I'll die Rossi, I can't." he whimpered, slumping to the floor.
"They can't take what's ours"
"Caitlyn, if anything happened to you, I would die. I don't think you understand that. You are my world and you have another part of my life inside you." he stared into her.
"I'm sorry," she said as the young doctor took off her shoes and began to massage her feet, the agent giggled and pulled back.
"Very nice gesture, but you know I'm so ticklish. It's my back that's killing me." Caitlyn confessed.
"Well alight then." Spencer said, shutting off the lights, tucking Caitlyn into bed and snuggling behind her, gently kneading the small of her back.
"That feels good, thank you. I love you." she told him.
"I love you too." he responded, falling asleep with her pulled against him, hands on her stomach, feeling the kick of the life inside her.
"The stakes are high"
"I hate this." Caitlyn sighed, Spencer with his go bag hanging on his shoulder.
"Trust me, I miss you too and I don't like leaving you either." he said holding her into him.
"But I'm not going to get killed or something in Garcia's tech lair." Caitlyn complained.
"I promise, I'll be back to you as soon as I can, and I'll be safe. And I'll call, and text and you know how awful I am with technology but I'll do it for you and I'll do it often." he said, placing kisses on her lips each time he paused and started a new sentence.
"I love you." Caitlyn teared up, those damn hormones.
"I love you," Spencer said, before kneeling down and kissing her stomach, "and I love you." This caused Caitlyn to cry and continue to cry until the jet made it's way into the sky.
"the water's rough"
She was about 10 hours into labor, the pains were intense and coming and going. Garcia had come from the BAU and was by her side.
"I hate him, I hate him." Caitlyn said with each contraction.
"What? Who do you hate?" Garcia asked.
"SPENCER! I hate him! Where the HELL IS HE, why did he get me pregnant! I hate him!" Caitlyn screamed. She had been tortured, beaten, bruised but nothing compared to labor. It felt like she was being stabbed from the inside and no one would let her die.
"How many centimeters dilated is she?" Caitlyn heard a familiar voice approaching, and she burst into tears when she saw Spencer come through the door, medical charts in hand.
"But this love is ours"
"I'm going to love you and take such good care of you. You are going to be so loved, and so protected. You're going to get into a really good school because you're going to be smart like your daddy, and you're going to be so beautiful because you're going to look just like your mommy. " Caitlyn heard Spencer saying quietly in the chair beside her as she started to wake up slowly. Caitlyn was right, it was a girl. A beautiful baby girl. She was right. Caitlyn yawned and opened to see Spencer sitting in the chair holding their baby. They named her Emilia Dianne Reid. After Emily and Spencer's mom.
"Mommy's awake." Spencer said, standing up and bringing Emilia over to her. Caitlyn smiled up at him.
"Hey Spencer," Caitlyn said tiredly, "we have a baby."
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5 years later
"Emilia!" Caitlyn called after her daughter who was running wildly through the halls of Rossi's mansion. She had long brown hair just like Spencer's that flew in the wind behind her as Caitlyn chased behind her. It was Emilia's 5th birthday party and Rossi had agreed to let them have the celebration there. The young girl had him wrapped around her finger, so basically anything she wanted she would ask and Rossi would give her. "Come on Emilia you have to put on the dress Aunt Garcia gave you or you'll make her sad!"
"No! I want to go find daddy!" The young girl called back and Caitlyn stopped when she reached the backyard and saw the young girl leap into Spencer's arms. The backyard was wide and there were little kids running around everywhere. Now two of JJ's, one of Morgan's and Rossi's grandson. Caitlyn smiled as she saw Spencer pull a fake coin out of Emilia's ear. She was definitely the tomboy, which she had gotten from Caitlyn and Morgan made sure that she played some sports, Emilia was really great at soccer but wanted to learn karate. So that she could "kick ass" like the woman she was named after. This caused Caitlyn to send her to time out- which was short lived after she batted her eyelashes at Spencer a couple of times. Emilia was also extremely smart, Spencer spent a lot of time with her helping with her schooling and the girl had a natural ability to learn things quickly and was speaking before she was 2 and even skipped a grade. The agents made a way so that they were still able to work for the BAU and be present in their daughter's life as much as possible.
"Look at all these kids!" Emily said coming from beside her.
"I know, it's crazy, isn't it?" Caitlyn said.
"Not at all, I knew from the second you two started that you'd end up here. But from the first day at that round table I definitely didn't expect us all to be here and all the things that happened."
"It's because we're a family." Caitlyn smiled.
"Mommy!" Emilia called, Caitlyn hugged Emily and ran over to where Emilia and Spencer were standing.
"Can I go with Henry and Derek down by the water to play some catch with them please, I promise I'll be nice." she pleaded, the little girl was extremely competitive and was prone to getting in fights with her god brother Henry.
"Daddy said yes! I told him when I ate my cake and he said a lot of things that I don't understand really fast but then he said yes."
"Okay, you can go." Caitlyn smiled, she let out a small gasp when Spencer pulled him tightly to her and kissed her hard.
"She's got you wrapped around her little finger, you know that right?" Caitlyn said, hugging into him tightly.
"She's not the only one." he smiled, kissing her deeply again, pulling her in by the small of her back as he deepened the kiss.
"Ew! Mommy, daddy! I can still see you! Gross!" Emilia called before running after Morgan.
"Don't let her strain herself too much, make sure she hydrates Morgan!" Spencer called and Morgan just waved him off.
"That girl," Caitlyn sighed.
'She's just like her mother, absolutely perfect."
"She's ours."
"I love you."
"Forever."