A/N Please forgive me for taking so long to get this posted. I know I didn't post last week because I didn't have time to get the chapter written. I know that everyone has been waiting for this chapter, so here it is. A huge thanks goes to my friend and beta OoJasper'sAngeloO and my pre reader sinfulroad69 without them this chapter wouldn't be here. Hope you enjoy.
I do not own Twilight or any of the characters.
Bella's POV
When I woke up I was feeling dizzy, icky and very confused. The whole family was surrounding me, or more like Jasper and I, since he was sitting down holding me in his lap. He had one hand under my head and the other was lightly resting on my stomach. It was kind of creepy, cuz everyone was smiling and some, including Jasper, having venom tears in their eyes.
The last thing I remember is getting off of Snow King. I remember sliding off like I usually do if Jasper isn't around to help me. He was there, but was helping Bia off the horse. I needed to get in the house as I hadn't been feeling very well. I did my best to not show that I wasn't feeling good. When it was time to eat I was feeling kind of dizzy and nauseous. I just wanted to lie down.
I barely remember feeling the ground under my feet and then everything was spinning. After that, nothing, until I woke up here. The last few days I have been feeling tired and just not myself. I didn't want Jasper to know because I didn't want to worry him, at least until I knew for sure that something was wrong. He always would become so worried if I didn't feel good.
Carlisle spoke up and told everyone to please back up and give us some room. Then Jasper asked me how I was feeling. I asked him what happened and it was then that Carlisle told Jasper to get me back to our house as quickly as possible. That confused me even more. Everyone seemed to be so happy about something. Jasper then explained that Carlisle needed to examen me to make sure everything was alright.
Since I really wasn't feeling very well right now I had no problem with going home. Jasper used his vampire speed to get us back to our little house, with Carlisle running with us. He had his medical bag with him and as soon as we were at the house I was taken upstairs to our room and laid on the bed. Carlisle then explained that he needed to do a complete exam which included a pelvic exam. Neither one of them would tell me anything other than to wait until the exam was over.
Jasper helped me into a simple gown so that I could be covered and yet Carlisle could still do the full exam. After all of the pushing and prodding he took some urine and then some blood samples. Then he went into the bathroom and told us he was going to run a couple of quick tests in the bathroom, then later he would run some blood tests that he hoped would confirm his diagnosis.
Jasper was definitely excited. Carlisle finally came out of the bathroom and just nodded to Jasper. Then he said he was going back to the house to run the tests on the blood samples and he would let Jasper tell me what was going on. He also said that once the blood tests were done that he would discuss his findings with us in private away from the family.
I started to sit up, but Jasper just told me to lay back down and rest. He asked if I was hungry and I wasn't. He then stripped down to his boxers and laid down next to me. He was staring intensely and then pulled me into his arms. He smiled and then said, "I just want to hold you for a few minutes, but just so you know I have a question for you. How have you been feeling the last few days?"
I told him exactly how I had been feeling including why I didn't eat. Then he said the words that I both dreaded and dreamed of hearing and placing his hand once again on my stomach, "Darlin', we're having a baby. You are pregnant. My child, our child is growin' inside of you right now. He or she will be here before we know it. I'm assumin' that after the blood tests come back Carlisle might be able to tell us how far along you are and how long we'll have to wait before we can meet him or her."
I did the only thing I could do. I cried. My husband held me until I had calmed down enough to tell him that the tears were for the fact that my mom wouldn't be here for this special time in my life and happiness, that one of my dreams were finally coming true.
I was so happy, but yet the sadness of having to do this without my mom was painful. She had always been there for me when I needed her the most. It was usually during or right after one of the fucking experiments that the Volturi always ran on me. Some, having caused severe pain. It was always at those times that she promised me that one day, she would either find a way to destroy them, or she would get me away from them. She would make sure that I had a normal life, at least as normal as possible for being part vampire.
I fell asleep feeling bad that I had let my sadness mess up what should have been the most joyous time for us. Jasper woke me telling me that Carlisle was back and had some information for us. I was definitely pregnant and according to the tests I was about six weeks along. Although I had probably been pregnant for less than that since the baby was growing faster than a full human baby would.
He still couldn't tell me how long I might carry the baby. He said that he would have to monitor me for a few days, to watch how fast the baby was growing. Once he was able to do that, then he could give me at least an idea of when the baby might be full term. He wanted to monitor me closely at least for the next week or so.
The next week was so fucking messed up, at least for me. I would be happy then heartbroken about my mom missing out on all of this. Then there was the nausea, vomiting and lack of appetite and of course the headaches. They were severe sometimes and only made the nausea worse. Nothing seemed to help and most days I found myself crying, wanting my mama to come and make everything better.
Peter, bless his heart, actually made up for all of the fucking shit he pulled when he suggested that maybe I should start drinking more blood than I usually do. I usually only drank it once or twice a week, but since I was carrying a mostly vampire baby, that he or she might need blood more often.
It worked, at least for the most part. It didn't stop the mood swings though, which weren't really bad, for now.
Carlisle did tell us that it looked like I might be pregnant for three or four months. Because of that the "normal" things would happen much faster if they did happen at all. He also asked if I would be alright with him checking on me daily and keeping records of my progress.
At first Jasper refused to touch me sexually because he was afraid of hurting the baby or me. I finally made him go and talk to Carlisle who told him that having sex was actually good for not only the baby, but me as well. Although, most of the time right now I was either too sick, or too tired.
My stomach grew quickly and by the time the first three weeks had gone by, I was sporting a baby bump. It wasn't big but I was bigger every time I woke up. The mornings started to finally become something I looked forward to as I have woken up several times to hear my husband talking to our baby. Obviously he was talking to my belly, but still it was so amazing to see his eyes light up as he told our child how much he loved him or her.
One morning I realized that he was so into talking to the baby that he hadn't noticed that I was awake. It was then that I happened to overhear his heart's desire. I kept my eyes closed and listened as he spoke softly to my belly, "I love you so much baby, I hope you can feel and hear me. I have a secret to share with you, but you have to promise that you won't tell your mama. I don't know how she would feel if she found out and I'm not sure she would even want to go through this again, but I'm kind of hoping that well, maybe she'll want to try to give you a brother or sister. I know that I want to have more than just you. I want at least one more, maybe two more if she would be willin' to go through this again. Just seein' how she is glowin' makes me want to keep her pregnant, but she is goin' through a rough time right now. So take it easy on your mama. She's such a beautiful lady and I think you're gonna be surprised at how much love she has for you. I know she loves you, I can feel it. Now remember, let's keep this a secret just between us. I love you little one."
I couldn't stop the tears from falling and of course he knew then I had heard. I pulled him up from his position at my belly and kissed him deeply. I would have started to make love to him, but my body being mostly human had the extreme need to empty my bladder.
Once that was taken care of I went back to bed, and we made love.
It was different this time though. We had to use different positions than we usually did as my bump was enough so that it was uncomfortable for him to lay on top of me. We both found that our love making was deeper, slower and he always took extra care to make sure that I was comfortable. The need for him was overwhelming at times and sometimes he took my breath away with just the way he would look at me.
I have to admit that there were times when we never made it to the house. Although we did have to get dressed long enough for Carlisle to check me over and take his notes, but he understood our need to be alone and never pressed us to come to the house. I will say that while the family did understand that we needed to be alone, they were always disappointed when we didn't make it.
Jasper and I talked at length and both of us agreed that we would come back and visit the idea of having more babies, but only after the Volturi had been brought down. There was no way I wanted to bring more into the world when both of us had to be constantly looking over our shoulders in case they showed up to try to destroy what we have here. My hatred of them never dimmed, but continued to grow as the baby grew, but I refused to allow it to interfere with our happiness, or allow it to affect the child growing inside my womb. There would be time to take it and use it to destroy those monsters later.
One morning I woke up to the usual sight of Jasper rubbing my belly and talking to the baby. I had to get up and do the usual bathroom run and it was just that, running to the bathroom trying to make it to the toilet. Jasper seemed to think it was funny and was usually laughing at me. As soon as I came out I was determined that I was going to get him back.
Instead of going back and getting in to join my husband and having a round of love making, I went to pull some clothes on. He told me to come back to bed and I told him no. I didn't want to come back to bed when the person in it laughed at me. He ended up chasing me around the room at human speed.
He caught me easily of course and then did apologize for laughing. Then we ended up making love and once finished we were just laying there enjoying the feel of our bodies being pressed as close together as my belly would allow us to. We were kissing and both of us were rubbing over the bump when we felt it. The first little flutter of movement. Jasper got so fucking excited that he called the family to tell them and then of course we had to rush to the house so that everyone else could feel the baby moving.
It was a happy time for everyone, but there were times when I really missed my mom. I broke down several times at the main house in front of the family. No one would say anything, they understood that to say nothing was much better than hearing someone say it would be alright, or that it would get better. Most of the time when it happened Jasper would just quietly, without a word, pick me up and take me home and just hold me until it passed. He never used his gift to try to make me feel better, he knew that in order to heal I needed to go through the pain of grieving for my mom.
We did find out the hard way what happened when I didn't drink blood several times a day. It was one evening while we were at the house that I had one of my mood swings and the grief hit me without warning. As usual Jasper brought me home and we laid in bed until I had cried myself out and then I fell asleep.
I woke up feeling so fucking sick I never even made it off of the bed. I just sat up part way and then leaned over the side of the bed, vomiting. Jasper ran downstairs to get me some blood, after cleaning me up and helping me put on a t-shirt. He cleaned up the mess I made while I drank the blood. I kept telling him how sorry I was to have made a mess and then to make him have to clean it up.
He laughed and said that it was his duty as my husband and mate to always clean up my messes, no matter what kind of mess it was. I felt much better once I had finished the blood and asked if I had drank bear, deer, or big cat blood. He looked at me and replied, "That was actually human blood baby. We ran out of animal blood, but Carlisle always keeps donated blood on hand. Why, did you want more?"
I told him that it tasted different than the blood I normally drank and was wondering why. Before I got pregnant it never mattered. Blood was blood and it all tasted the same to me. Now it tasted different. The blood I had just drank tasted so fucking good. He said that we needed to tell Carlisle so he could add it to his notes and he would probably make me drink animal blood to see if I could tell it apart from human.
When I was about a month and a half into my pregnancy, I looked like I was about six months along. My belly was growing fast and I had been out of my normal clothes for a few weeks. Fortunately, Rose, Alice, Char and Esme had all taken me shopping for maternity clothes.
We actually all went, but the guys went to do their own shopping. After we were done with buying way too many fucking clothes for me, we met up with the guys and we all went baby shopping. We ended up buying the whole nursery at one time, as well as clothes that could be worn by either sex. Then Peter, Emmett and even Edward and Carlisle decided that the baby would need toys.
They bought way too many fucking toys of course. Jasper would have gotten a hell of a lot more than just the two that he did, but one glare from me and he backed off. I quickly explained that with the other men buying ridiculous amounts of toys that he needed to just stop with trying to out do them. The other females were laughing at their mate's enthusiasm over buying for a baby.
You have to admit, watching four supposedly grown men fighting over which one got the best toys and who was going to be the favorite uncle/grandfather was quite amusing. Once we got back to the house it became even funnier to watch as they started to open and play with the toys themselves. Even Carlisle who was supposed to be the head of the family couldn't resist wanting to "try out the toys to make sure they were safe enough for our newest addition to the family."
At least that was the excuse that the guys were giving us girls. It got even worse when Jasper started yelling at Emmett for getting HIS daughter a Star Wars light saber to fight off the evil Jedi. Em's excuse, "It going to be a son and I happen to know that he's gonna fucking love this neat light saber. Shit he might even fight off the Volturi with it!"
Right after that we heard the clear sound of hard skin hitting more hard skin when Esme popped Em in the back of head and telling him to "watch his language especially around the baby."
He had been warned enough times that she was going to start using the same force that Rose did if he didn't stop his cussing around the baby. His reply only caused Rose to smack him, "Hey, Bella gets to cuss, why can't I?"
"She's going to be a mom and its hard being pregnant. She has every right to cuss when she's not feeling well. I'm sure she'll stop when the baby gets here." Esme explained.
The arguments that my pregnancy caused were quite amusing. Everyone thought they knew what sex the baby was going to be and they always seemed to start these stupid arguments when I was around. It wasn't until one day when I had started to miss my mom when the arguments started up. It was always Peter or Emmett who seemed to start them and I couldn't stop the laughter, no matter what. Most of the arguments were about who was going to be the baby's favorite or what toys would be favored, one thing was certain, they were always silly.
Later, one night after Jasper had taken me home, he let me in on the secret. Both Peter and Em could tell when I started feeling sad and had decided to make it their mission in life to make sure I was happy. While they understood that I needed to grieve, they wanted to do their part to try to help me heal. Laughter was something that helped to mend whatever was broken.
When I was about two months into the pregnancy my mood swings became worse. I would cry over stupid stuff, like not being able to see my feet, or not being able to get close to Jasper. Then there was the major blow up I had when we went into town to get some food.
I was wanting to get out of the house for a while and so we went into town to do the weekly grocery shopping. Between Bia and I we went through a ton of food. It happened while we were in the store and looking back I'm so fucking embarrassed at my own stupidity.
I was trying to decide between getting grape jelly or strawberry and Jasper was standing beside me. A very pretty girl passed by and I saw Jasper watching her. He only looked at her a minute and of course she was looking at him like she wanted to eat him. The tears came before I even realized what was going on.
The girl had to audacity to come up and say something to Jasper. He smiled at her and that did it for me. I yelled at him that if he wanted her that badly that he could just go ahead and fuck her but not to bother coming home. I ran out of the store at that point. I knew I was fat and ugly right now and it hurt that he wanted someone else.
It took him an hour to calm me down and finally convince me that he would never want another woman. At first he only made it worse by saying, "Darlin', no matter how fat you get, I'll always only have eyes for you."
I cried brokenly because he called me fat. At least that's how I saw it. He finally had to call Esme and have her talk to me on the phone. She had gone through pregnancy and so she kind of understood where I was coming from. She was able to help me understand that sometimes men just can't seem to help saying the wrong things at the wrong moment. I finally forgave him for looking.
A couple of days later I was at our house when Carlisle called Jasper. I couldn't hear, but Jasper was getting excited. He then told me that we needed to get to the house immediately, there was a surprise waiting for me. It didn't take long to get there.
I was led into the room they had set up for when the baby stayed there. Yeah, they already had prepared for when they could watch the baby for us while we had some alone time. They had tried to be subtle about it, but I knew different.
As soon as I was in front of the door with everyone standing around me I knew something was up. Jasper opened the door for me. When I looked around my eyes landed on my surprise. I immediately turned to Jasper and glared at him, "Please tell me what the fuck is going on? You had better not tell me you knew about this."
I couldn't move, I was in shock and I knew that my body was about to collapse and sure enough the world went black. . .
A/N Please let me know what you think. Just so you know, I'm not going to be spending chapters with her pregnancy. She'll probably have the baby in the next chapter or the one after that. Again, I'm sorry that this is so late, hope it was worth it. Thanks to everyone who reviewed, and added this story to their favorites and alerts, love you guys.