A/N A huge thanks to my very special friend OoJasper'sAngeloO for her beta work, and to my pre-reader sinfulroad69 for all of their help, I love you girls. Alright, the first chapter gave us the Major's background, in this one we meet Bella and find out what she's thinking and feeling. It would seem that there are things that she's hiding from Edward. Hope you enjoy.

I do not own Twilight or any of the characters.

Bella's POV

It's hard to believe that in one week I, Isabella Marie Swan will be getting married. Right now I'm starting to have doubts about if I'm doing the right thing. Its not that I don't love Edward, I do very much so. Its just that ever since I had that dream that I've been having for the last two weeks, I'm just not feeling so sure.

Its also the fact that I'm feeling smothered. Edward refuses to let me have any say in my life anymore. I'm rarely, if ever, alone and he pretty much makes my decisions for me, without even asking me. He says its because he worries for my safety and he wants only the best for me.

Its not that I'm unsure about Edward, or that I don't want to be changed. That's the main reason for me agreeing to marry him. He'll change me after he makes love to me, as long as I marry him first. I tried to tell him that I didn't need or really want to get married, but he's old fashioned enough to need that for himself, so I agreed.

After we came back from Italy he asked me and I said no. He kept on asking and I kept telling him no. It wasn't until right before the battle with an army of newborns that Victoria had created to try to get to me, that he made a compromise with me.

He would make love to me and change me, if I agreed to marry him first. He would do both after we were married. Of course I agreed realizing that he apparently needed the old fashioned way of getting married before having sex. It didn't stop me from trying and I always ended up frustrated and worried that he didn't really want me.

He said the same thing he always did, "Bella, love, its too dangerous."

I actually thought after we were engaged, once the battle was over, that he would cave and make love to me. Of course I was wrong again. The only real change besides the planning of the wedding was that he became more controlling. Because I always felt so inferior to him I kept quiet.

I had changed so much just for his ass. I used to be the type of girl who had problems keeping her mouth shut, always speaking my mind to anyone who bothered me. I always stood up for myself and wasn't afraid of confrontation. I also used some language that as Edward would put it, "Its very unbecoming for a lady to talk that way."

I always felt that if I let my true personality out that he would push me away permanently. You see, he is so handsome and so far above me that I'm afraid that he's going to realize one day that he deserves better and can have better than me. Then he'll leave me again.

I'll do anything to keep him and make him happy, so that's another reason I agreed to marry him. The thing is that since that night that I had that first dream I have become unsettled and distracted. The dream isn't always the exact same one, but it does have the same person in it.

I also feel kind of responsible for his reasons for leaving me after my disastrous birthday party. I had told the family to please not worry about doing anything special for my birthday, but does Edward or Alice ever listen to what I want? No, never.

Not only had they planned a party but they also had gifts that I didn't want, as well as cake with all of the fancy crystal plates that no one would eat off of except me.

That turns out to be the one time I truly almost died at the hands or maybe I should say teeth of Edward.

I, being human got a stupid paper cut and Edward, wanting to save me, pushed me away from himself and into the plates which of course broke and cut me up pretty bad. Everyone had to leave the room except Carlisle who then cleaned me up and stitched my arm up.

Edward broke up with me a few days later and the whole family left. I became a zombie until Jake started to come around and he finally helped me to smile. I knew he wanted me to fall in love with him, but I also knew he wouldn't ever be anything to me other than a friend.

I made sure to never lead him on or give him any hope. I did find out that he was a werewolf when Laurent came back to check on me and tried to drain me. I was saved of course by a pack of the largest fucking wolves I had ever seen.

I eventually learned about imprints and what it meant for the wolves. I understood something then that I guess Jacob never did. I wasn't meant for him otherwise he would have imprinted on me. Of course that never happened.

When I left to go and save Edward after being told that I had committed suicide he knew then that he would never have my heart. He finally imprinted though, on a very sweet girl from another tribe altogether named January believe it or not and he was happy now that I had never given him a chance. He told me that if I hadn't pushed him away he might not have been where he was when he did meet her.

When he found out that I had forgiven Edward and was going to marry him he ran away. He ended up in the upper part of California and ran into another tribe. When he first saw her he was hooked. He was able to convince her parents to let her come here to La Push. Now they travel back and forth and will be getting married as well, but are waiting until Jake finishes school.

I really wished I could understand why I'm feeling so off about this whole wedding. Although I wasn't really happy about getting married, it made me happy to see Edward so excited. Again it didn't really start until that first dream came to me. After that first night, I started feeling uncomfortable, like something wasn't right.

Yet at the same time, I know what I want. I want to make love to my very handsome boyfriend, soon to be husband and become like him. Only then will I be equal to him and then he won't have to worry about me being in danger any more. He can relax and let me be more myself. Although I'm sure I'll have to watch my language, especially when I get angry.

Alice says that she sees the wedding coming off perfectly, yet things get blurry when she sees me reach the groom. She sees me in a wedding dress, but not the one she picked out for me to wear. So now she's driving me even crazier than I already am with this fucking dream not letting me go.

This dream really has me thinking though. Why am I having this same dream with the same vampire in it? I have no fucking clue who he is or why I'm dreaming about a vampire I have never met. The part that bothers me the most is the feelings that I have after I wake up from it.

The scene isn't always the same, but the vampire is always the same one and he always does things to my body that makes me feel things I have never felt before, not even with Edward. Unfortunately I always wake up before I even have an orgasm.

Edward always seems to think that its him causing these feelings, but there's no way I can tell him that I'm dreaming about a totally different vampire. This one has red eyes, which means he's a human drinker. That should scare the fuck out of me, but it doesn't. It actually turns me on even more.

I haven't actually seen his face clearly, but I have seen his eyes and I know that his hair is blonde. That's all I know. At first I thought I was dreaming about James, but there's something about this vampire that is different. Yet I kind of feel that there isn't really much difference between this vampire and James.

This vampire is dangerous. Not to me and I have no fucking clue how or why I believe that. James was as well, but this vampire has a darkness that covers him when I see him stand alone. When I stand next to him the darkness leaves him. That's another part of the dream that recurs without fail.

The dreams always seem so fucking real that I have been disappointed and sad upon waking up. I always wanted to see the end of whatever he was doing. Sometimes he's fighting another vampire and sometimes when I finally see the face of the other one it turns out that its him. He's fighting himself.

A few times though I saw him fighting with Edward. The really fucking weird part about that, I'm always wanting the strange vampire to win. I don't want Edward to hurt him. And when he's there I don't want Edward around.

A few times Edward is trying to take me away from him and I start to fight. Obviously I'm not strong enough to fight off Edward so he usually pulls me away and that just fucking pisses me off. Its like to take me away from this strange vampire is to rip my heart out. I have woken up and snapped at Edward for no real reason. If he only knew the truth he would dump my ass again.

That's why I haven't told him about the dream. I would then have to tell him that the thoughts of what I want this vampire to do to me or what I want to do to him is definitely X rated. I don't understand it myself, but there's just something that makes me want this strange vampire more than anything I have ever wanted, even Edward. That fucking scares me!

Then two nights ago the dream changed from more pleasant ones to nightmares. I kept seeing other red eyed vampires, but these made my skin crawl and my blood run cold. They were planning on forcing themselves on me, raping me over and over again.

That alone scared the shit out of me. It seemed so fucking real and I was beginning to go crazy as I had no one I could talk to about these stupid dreams. There was no fucking way I could talk to Alice or Esme. I had no one and I was feeling so fucking alone. That is until the day I got a shock from Rose.

Edward was going hunting and had asked Alice to watch over me, but she had a sale she wanted to go to and there was no fucking way I was going to go and be dragged around the mall for hours. It was Rose that spoke up and said she would stay with me. That just fucking confused me even more because I knew she didn't like the fact that I was wanting to be turned. She hated me or so I thought.

Once we were alone she told me that she didn't hate me, she hated what I allowed both Edward and Alice to do to me. She saw them taking my decisions away from me and forcing me to do things their way. She wished that I would stand up for myself.

I explained my reasoning with her and she scoffed and told me that I deserved better than Edward. As far as she was concerned he was nothing but a spoiled child that had never grown up. Then she shocked the shit out of me by asking what was wrong.

She said that while she may act like the ice queen and a bitch she also watched what was going on around her and others and knew something was up with me. I was distracted, even when with Edward and usually all of my attention was on him.

I decided that I needed to unload everything and so that's what I did. I told her about my dreams and how I felt when waking up, they felt real. Then she asked me a question that really fucking blew me away as I had never thought about it. She asked me if I was falling for the vampire I kept seeing.

I tried to deny it, but even I realized that maybe she was right. The vampire was doing things to me that Edward has refused to do. We talked for hours about my fears and my own desires and not necessarily those of a sexual nature. I felt like something was missing from my relationship with Edward. I realized that maybe I should step back for a couple of weeks and rethink the wedding.

The one thing that I was sure of was that I did love Edward, deeply. The fear though that I was now feeling was that maybe I was falling for someone who didn't even exist. How in the fuck would I be able to give all of my heart to Edward if I was thinking about someone else, whether he was real or not. I was becoming even more fearful as time went by.

I should have been scared, but not about the dream or Edward or even the wedding. How was I to know that there were worse monsters out there just waiting for the right moment to attack. Watching me, knowing that the minute Edward and the family left they could strike.

Unfortunately I was their prey and little did I know that when Edward left to go hunting with his family, it would be the last time I would see him for a very long time. . .

A/N So please tell me what you think. Before anyone asks, Bella in this story has dreams that are prophetic. Thanks to everyone who has reviewed, and added this story to their favorites and alerts. Love you guys. Next chapter we find out exactly what is going on. In case you haven't figured it out, there's gonna be tons of swearing in this story. I am surprised as to the response I have gotten and hope that I can do this story justice. Hopefully, I'll be updating Seattle Nights in a couple of days. Still have to write the chapter.