Chapter 4

Note: Guys, I'm so sorry that this one's really short :( It's getting pretty hard to write from Bonnie's perspective. Next chapter is Damon's and it will be muchhhhh longer, I promise. This chapter's purpose was simply to introduce the plot. The next Bonnie chapter will be longer and really delve into the action. Also, you already know, I don't own any of these characters but I like controlling them :) That sounded creepy... Anyway, I'd like to dedicate this whole chapter to PrincessAle, whose review is responsible for this entire chapter! Thank you, you made my day.

"I mean that Enzo knows what woke him up."

Bonnie stared at Stefan, perplexed and a little scared.

"Stefan…?"

"I'm sorry, Bonnie," said Stefan, genuinely. "Lily…" he trailed off.

"Lily? Your mother, Lily?"

"She's who woke him up," Stefan said somberly. He sounded emotionless, but she knew better.

"I –" Bonnie stared at him, trying hard to mask her jealousy. "I'm sorry, Stefan, that must be really hard for you. She's back, isn't she?

Stefan was surprised. "No, actually. According to Enzo, he flashed back into his real body for seconds at a time. Otherwise, he was in a dream world. The scene usually changed each time. First, he was alone, without any other person. Then, one day, Lily appeared."

Stefan paused and his expression softened when he saw Bonnie's reaction. She didn't look jealous or scared at all, simply curious.

"Continue."

"Enzo didn't tell me the details; said he didn't want to talk about it. All I know is that somehow, my mother's presence, her voice, gradually helped increase the amount of time he had in his body. Each time he woke up for more seconds than the last time. He gained control over his body, slowly, eventually waking up completely."

"Why Lily?" she asked.

Stefan pursed his lips. "We think… we think it's because…"

"Because she's who he loves."

"Look, Bonnie, I'm sorry that I was so rash. But like I said earlier, it's possible to love two people at once."

She nodded, her tinge of jealousy fading into concern. "What about Damon?"

"We think that he's probably experiencing the same thing Enzo did. Hallucinations of the one person that can get him out of there. The person he loves the most. The person his soul is willing to fight for."

The person he loves the most. "Elena," Bonnie said. She felt another, stronger pang of jealousy but she didn't allow it to stay.

Stefan nodded. He looked concerned. "We think it's her."

"So," Bonnie said, deep in thought. "We need to bring Elena to him."

"We can't endanger her," he sighed. "As much as I want Damon back, Elena has to come first. He'll never forgive us if she doesn't."

"But won't he just eventually snap out of it and wake up?" Bonnie asked. "Like Enzo Did?"

"Come on, Bonnie. You know Damon as well as I do. He's stubborn, and if he isn't already awake, chances are…"

"He's fighting it," Bonnie interrupted. "Why?"

Stefan shrugged.

"What are we going to do, Stefan?"

"Well," Stefan said with a sad smile. "Me and Enzo are going to figure it out."

Bonnie saw his hesitation.

"And you," Stefan sighed. "Sorry, Bonnie, you're going to stay here."

Bonnie was outraged. "Why?"

"You've had a lot going on, Bonnie and me and Enzo decided it's best if you stay here."

Bonnie stood up and turned away from him.

"Listen, Bonnie…"

"No, you listen to me, Stefan. You don't get to decide what I do. I may not have powers anymore, I may be tired and not thinkinig straight, but I'll be damned if you get to decide my actions. I'm coming with you."

"No, Bonnie," Stefan shook his head, solemnly. "You're staying here." He got up and pulled the door open. "I really am sorry. We just…can't risk it."

When Stefan was gone, Bonnie collapsed on her mattress. She knew Stefan was right. Bonnie didn't have her magic. She would just drag Enzo and Stefan down.

Bonnie thought for a moment about the new information Stefan had given her. Enzo had seen Lily. Lily had helped him become himself again. And Elena was probably helping Damon. But why was he fighting it?

Bonnie pushed away her thoughts and pulled out the second sheet of paper in the stack.

Dear Damon,

It's been a couple months since you left. I don't know what it's like to dessicate in a coffin, but I'm guessing it's not that great. Meanwhile, here I am, here we are: Me, Stefan and everyone else you left behind. Here we are, dealing with our problems instead of running from them. Here we are, constantly facing threats, but surviving. And there you are, taking a nice big nap, waiting for me to die so you can wake up.

I just thought you ought to know that I don't regret my decision. Not for a second. You didn't and still don't deserve to say goodbye. I will never read that letter you wrote me and believe me, it's probably for the best. It would only make me more angry.

I was right about you the first time, Damon. I never should have thought you could be anything other than selfish.

Bonnie remembered exactly when she had written it. She was angry. Furious. Enzo had just saved her from the armoury, and yet, all she could think about was the letter that had been on her desk. It had been her decision not to throw it out, but it still seemed like an obnoxious reminder of the power Damon had over. She was furious, not only at Damon, but also at herself. Why hadn't she thrown that letter out?

Bonnie neatly tucked all the letters back into the drawers. Oh how she regretted never truly finding it in her to forgive him.

She sighed. She knew that Stefan and Enzo had been right not to let her come with them. But, here's the thing, when it came to Damon, her concept of right and wrong blurred into oblivion. Every single time.

She opened another drawer and pulled out her gun of wooden bullets.

If she couldn't help them find Damon, she would have to do it herself.

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