Which one
'Stupid Lupin and his shenanigans,' Severus grumbled in himself as he strode down the corridors down to the dungeons after dinner. Today Lupin had given the third years their class on boggarts and he loathed it. It seemed that the Longbottom boy feared him so much the boggart had turned into him. And of course Lupin had helped the boy make him, or rather the boggart, look absolutely ridiculous. And now the potions master was subject of a lot of laughter and talk. Severus hated it.
Arriving at his quarters he closed the door behind him with a frustrated bang making the few portraits closeby jump up in their paintings. He wasn't that frightening right? To make Longbottom that scared of him to make a boggart turn into him? He remembered his first time facing a boggart. It had shown his fear of Lilly breaking their friendship. That wouldn't be valid now as she had been murdered by the Dark Lord. And before that she had indeed broken their friendship, making his fear come to life.
Yes he had a healthy fear of being discovered as a double spy by the Dark Lord. Who wouldn't be. If they were in their right mind at least. The man killed people like flies being slapped down with a newspaper. He scowled. It was all because Albus had pressured him into spying. Claiming it was to repay for his debt to Lilly. Still agitated he threw open his liquor cabinet and poured himself a generous amount of firewhiskey from one of the old bottles gifted to him by Lucius.
Taking a long drink from his glass he sat down in one of the two small couches in his quarters. There was also another thing that scared him somewhat. A few months before the Potter boy was born Lilly had contacted him for help. She asked him for an oath to protect her son from harm. They had been sent into hiding by the old coot in response to the prophecy and she knew things could turn awry really quickly. So Lily had called on their old friendship, forgiving him on the mudblood incident and asked him to protect the Potter spawn.
It scared him quite a bit that he was in some extent responsible for the Brat-Who-Lived and had to try and keep him alive. Something that had not been the easiest thing the past two years. Danger seemed to pull to the boy like he was a magnet for danger. The thought of the things he had to do in order to protect the son of his nemesis made him take another big gulp of the burning liquid swirling in his glass. Severus was certain those two contradicting things were certainly the two things he feared most.
Only which one of the two was worst was a tough question. His mind kept swirling with those questions for the rest of the night until he passed out on that same couch with an empty bottle of firewhiskey at his feet. The only thing he finally had made up out of his this dilemma was that he didn't want to find out which one was worse and that Lupin was a prat for catalyzing his mental turmoil.
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This fiction was written for the World Gobstones Championship Challenge and the Character Admiration Tournament from The Golden Snitch forum.
For this fiction I used the Gobstone Lapis Lazuli: Write about a character who can't make up their mind. And the task Worst fears, Regulus Black (light) VS Severus Snape (dark). Write about what these characters fear most. Is it not being remembered? Being overrun with stupid teenagers?
Word count: 543
LadyMuis, Mahoutokoro, Kaze
Extra thanks for my beta Grulnork!