A/N I want to say a special thank you to my best friend OoJasper'sAngeloO for her awesome beta work on this chapter. I love you girl. Okay finally going to get to see a softer side to the Major, hope you enjoy!

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Bella's POV

The last three weeks have been interesting to say the least. Major has practically been waiting on me hand and foot. Of course the first week I was still regaining my strength and it helped that he was there to help me with whatever I needed. He even cooked for me most of the time.

Peter was finally being smart and keeping his fucking mouth shut about whatever Jasper did. I knew, and I guess that he did too, that Jasper was going beyond what was really necessary to make it up to me and even Peter could tell that he didn't give a shit about the fact that if others could see him, he would be laughed at and labeled as being pussy whipped.

I also found out that deep down, beyond the hardened exterior, there was a very gentle man. He had gone hunting shortly after I had left him in his room very satisfied. When he came back he brought me some flowers that he had picked. He had placed them next to my pillow and it was the first thing that I saw when I woke up.

Once I was back on my feet he would take me for walks around the property and ask me about my life, my family and my friends. Somehow he seemed to know that if I talked about my dad it helped with the grief I felt over his death. What made it all even better is the fact that he was really interested in what I had to say. He felt badly that what he considered to be a good man had to die just because he was trying to protect me.

The rage over what Edward had done seemed to intensify in him as I shared about the girls that had been brutally raped and killed. He listened as I told him about the fear that each girl had, gently holding my hand. I shared about each girl's life before they had been taken. The most shocking thing was when I accidentally overheard his phone conversation. He had taken each girl's name and had a lawyer send each of the girl's family members money. He knew that it wouldn't ease the pain of the loss they were feeling, but at least the family would be taken care of at least for awhile. Some of the fathers hadn't been able to work because they were grieving, so the money was welcomed and in some cases they were told it was insurance money.

I didn't know the details, just that the Major was now feeling something very strange for him, was new, and strange for him to feel that for anyone else. It only made me fall in love with him more than I already was. We still had our moments though. He is still pissed at me that I won't let him touch me. I have actually given him a couple more times of just taking care of him. He gets really pissed and usually has to leave to vent.

The last time was the worst. Peter and Char both had to step in to keep him from just taking me. I would have let him, but I could see the pain in his eyes when he realized that he had almost raped me. I knew what I was doing and I also knew that I would know the second that he finally understood what I was trying to help him understand. Its not about what you can get, its about what can you give without expecting anything in return. It was about what love really is. He was close, just not there yet.

I knew that it was hard for him. He has been so beaten down, for way too fucking long. He has no clue about love, so I also understood that there might come a time when he would take me. I knew that I would have to be patient. I love him and at least he was trying. Char also told me that he just might do me the same way, take care of my needs and then leave. Peter told me that there was no way he could do that, he's a male vampire.

I understood what Peter was trying to tell me. The second time I had taken care of him, he had practically begged me to let him touch me, take care of me. When I refused he did what he does best and ran out to destroy shit. I was surprised when he let me do it the third time and yet I wasn't. I had learned how to make it more pleasurable for male vampires and I knew that he was feeling pleasure beyond anything he has experienced in the past.

Our first real argument came because I wanted to call Carlisle to find out what was going on with the Volturi. Because of his past actions towards me, Major was sure that if I talked to Edward that he would convince me to come back to him. It hurt so fucking bad that he didn't trust me or my love for him, yet because of his past I understood his concern.

Peter had also explained to me that males, especially newly mated ones, were extremely possessive of their mates. He wouldn't trust anyone really with me until he had been able to claim and mark me. Because of this, he didn't want me talking to Edward at all, ever. I couldn't really say that I blame him, the thought of him talking to Alice makes me see red.

I think mostly it's because I know she still wants him, but she will never have him because he's mine. He never really loved her because he didn't know how to love. Besides, no matter what she says he was never her mate. The main reason I wanted to call Carlisle was to find out if she had told the Volturi that Jasper was her mate.

Peter and Char had explained to me that if someone publicly announces to the Volturi that someone is their mate, then the Volturi have to accept it unless it can be proven that it's not true. If she has then we could all be in trouble unless we can prove that he and I are true mates. Although if Marcus is around than he should be able to tell that we are indeed true mates. I just hope they would be willing to listen before acting.

At night now whenever I'm sleeping is usually when Jasper goes hunting. I don't want him in the room with me because it's just too tempting. He is so sexy and my desire for him grows every day. Every time I take care of him I've actually had to take showers and it's not because I'm dirty. It's because I need my own release. I'm determined that I will not get it from him, until he has learned what I need him to.

Tonight though something changed. After I had eaten my dinner we sat down so he could read to me. I knew he was wanting to be with me because I could feel him harden underneath me as I sat on his lap. The sound of his voice was always soothing, unless of course he was yelling and cussing. And that's the way it used to be; tonight it was different. I had just about decided that I was going to give myself to him tonight, but then he shocked me. I knew he was ready, he had learned what love is.

Major's POV

I couldn't help my body's reaction to my mate's proximity. She is so beautiful and of course she has given me three chances to feel her love for me not only emotionally, but physically as well. I have been with many females and yet never have any of them come close to giving me the fulfillment that Bella has. The best part is the depth of love that I feel from her as she moves over my body. If I had been standing,it would have a been enough to knock me to my knees.

Tonight though as I read to her I felt her emotions were different. She wanted me, maybe as much as I wanted her. Of course I knew what she was doing in the shower, but I also knew that to approach her would be the wrong thing to do. I needed to wait until she was ready and I knew that wouldn't happen until I really understood; the thing is I believe now that maybe I do understand.

I had promised her that I would do anything to show her that I could be the man, the mate that she needed. She has taught me so fuckin' much about love, what it means, how strong it can make a couple and I have found a gentleness deep down inside me that I never knew was there. Of course I never wanted it to be seen by any others before I met her and almost lost her.

I hated that she was taking care of my needs without me being able to reciprocate. Like I said I knew what she was doing in the shower and I fuckin hated it'. I wanted so badly to touch her, to show her physical love and yet it terrified me because I've never had to be gentle. I never really wanted to make love until now, but because she has taken care of me I can understand what she is trying to teach me. She said it the first time, unconditional love.

After about an hour of reading to her, she let me know that she was wanting to take care of me again. I knew she could feel my desire and no matter how hard I tried to fight it I couldn't seem to control it. The thing is I wanted her so badly, but I wasn't going to risk losing her because of my own needs.

She put her hand on my erection and that was her signal of what she wanted to do. I knew I had to make a decision and I also knew it would be the hardest decision of my life. I had decided that she would not be taking care of me unless I could reciprocate. I wanted to make love to her, I knew everything there was about bringing pleasure to females, but I wanted to see what it was like to do it because of love.

Peter and Char usually made themselves scarce at night. They understood that I was having enough problems with my own emotions as well as the ones Bella was feeling, without having to feel their lust. Although they did tell me that I deserved to feel it, but not actually be able to make love.

Bella was just started to undo my pants when I very gently placed my hand on top of hers to stop her. I intertwined my fingers through hers and then moved them so that they were on my thigh. I shook my head no and said,"No, I don't want you to take care of me anymore. While I love what you do and how you make me feel; I'm not going to let you do it anymore. If you do it again it will be because we are making love to each other."

Unfortunately she did not react the way I expected her to. She had a shocked look on her face. She started to say something, but I just shook my head no. When I looked into her face she had the most beautiful smile. By this time it was late so I knew it was time for her to get ready for bed. For me it meant going to hunt.

She surprised me further when she asked me if I would stay at least for a while longer. She told me,"Tonight, after I'm ready for bed would you mind staying with me?"

Of course there was no fuckin' way I was going to deny her. I had wanted to stay with her at night, but I guess she knew I wouldn't be able to keep my hands to myself. She was right of course, even I didn't trust myself to keep my hands off of her beautiful body. Even though she had asked me to stay with her I was smart enough to make myself think innocent thoughts. It would be stupid of me to be doing any wishful thinking.

I sat on the couch and listened to her going through her nightly routine. Except this time it was changed, she seemed to be taking much longer in the shower. It also seemed take much longer for her to finish after her shower. Something was up and of course my mind immediately went to all kinds of stupid shit. As badly as I wanted to run upstairs and grab her and make wild passionate love, I would stay put at least until she called me.

Finally I heard her beautiful sweet voice call to me. She simply told me she was ready for bed and that I could come up. I really tried my best not to get overly excited, but the thought of her in bed was driving me wild. I ended up using my vampire speed to get to the room. I stopped at the door and opened it slowly, but what I saw was not what I expected.

She was sitting in the middle of the bed in nothing but a camisole and a thong. She is so beautiful and her eyes are filled with longing and she directed them at me. I couldn't help but stare and it wasn't until she motioned for me to join her that I even moved and once again at vampire speed.

When I got to the bed she held out her hand as if to help me join her. Once again I shook my head no, I was not going to let her try to seduce me unless I could love her back. I wanted the chance to show her that I could love her like she needed me to. Her next words were the most beautiful words I've ever heard her say, "Major, please join me on our bed and make love to me. I know you're ready and I need you to show me how much you love me."

And I did just that. . .

A/N Please let me know what you think. Yeah I know you probably hate me for stopping it there but don't worry I promise next chapter they'll be together and it will be at the beginning. A huge thanks to everyone who reviewed, and added this story to their favorites and alerts. Love you guys. Oh and next chapter some major drama but not the Major's doing.