A/N A huge thanks to my friend OoJasper'sAngeloO for her beta work. Hope you enjoy this chapter but I'm warning you now, Jasper is NOT gonna be nice.

I do not own Twilight or any of the characters.

Peter's POV

As soon as the Major had grabbed Bella and took off I knew that it wasn't the Major, but the God of War. She was in some serious trouble. I could only hope that he wouldn't hurt her too badly because she is Jasper's mate, but it was just that; a hope.

He's cold, calculated and shows no mercy for anyone or anything. I also understood his anger. Our mates had decided shit without takin' us into account. The thing is that it wasn't just them, Charlie was also a part of their plan and at first I couldn't understand why Charlie would help.

That is until I realized that he's had an easy time in this life as a vampire. He didn't wake up and suddenly have to fight for his life from the minute he opened his eyes like the Major and I did. I'm also pretty fuckin' sure that he had to be the one to comfort our mates after we had been taken. I can't really blame him for wantin' to help the girls.

Still, I hope that the one dealin' with Bella won't hurt her too bad, but I'm worried.

God of War's POV

When I knew that we were far enough away from everything and everyone I stopped and dropped the female, I wasn't gentle either. I'm fuckin' pissed and its takin' everything I have NOT to rip her ass apart and just fuckin' burn the pieces! How dare she!

I became even more pissed and just started rippin' and tearin' shit up. I don't know how long I kept it up, but eventually I was able to stop. I didn't hurt her, but not because I didn't want to. Its her fuckin' fault that I came out.

Yeah, I'm sure that everyone includin' Maria thought I came out when she threatened to kill the female. That wasn't the reason that I came out although when I did I wanted to help her kill the one that is mated to Jasper. Stupid female has no fuckin' clue what she fuckin' did.

I was brought out of my thoughts by the female, Bella, comin' towards me. If she didn't back off I would kill her. I quickly held up my hand and said, "Don't!"

She hesitated, but then started to come closer. Again I held my hand up as well as backed up a couple of steps and then told her, "Don't come any closer. Do NOT touch me! I am not Jasper and I will kill you without regret. Jasper would regret it later and then kill himself thereby killin' me as well. I have no wish to die by my own hand. The only reason that I have not killed you already for what you did to Jasper is that you are his mate."

She started to say something, but again I held my hand up, "I will explain what you did and then if you have questions afterwards then you may ask. First of all I want to kill your ass for what you did. What you did is unforgivable. At least to me, although I'm sure that Jasper will forgive you, but it may take a while to do so completely.

Now I'm gonna explain exactly what the fuck you did and then I'm gonna let you feel what Jasper had to feel while you were bein' the big bad ass mate and doin' things your way. Mates aren't meant to act against each other and they sure as fuck stand together when there is a threat against either one or both.

I know that you fuckin' thought you needed to be the one to destroy the bitch and I will agree that in part it is very true. The problem started when you refused to allow Jasper to help you and decided that you would be the one to weaken Maria and THEN allow Jasper to kill her!

How dare you take away his choices and make him watch believin' that you would die. I know that you fuckin' thought so highly of yourself that I came out because Jasper couldn't take seein' you about to be killed, but that ain't even close to the truth! Would you like to know what your fuckin' shit caused in the one that you supposedly love?

I'm gonna fuckin' tell you anyway. Everythin' that you did once Maria came back made Jasper feel the same fucked up way that he always felt when we were servin' the bitch. No choices except who to keep and who to kill, no control over our own life. Helpless, defenseless and no fuckin' way out!

No, I didn't fuckin' come out because Maria was about to kill your ass. I actually wanted to help her when I first showed up. Naw, I came out because Jasper couldn't handle the fuckin' emotions that what you were doin' made him feel. You basically made him feel the same shit as Maria had!

How dare you do that to your mate! You should have let him in. Your stupid fucked up plan almost cost you the life of one that you supposedly call a friend and caused extreme pain to her mate by makin' him have to watch as well. Now I understand that you felt like you needed to avenge what the bitch had done, but it should have been done WITH your mate and not leavin' him out!

Now I'll admit that I don't fuckin' understand all of the shit about emotions and havin' a mate. I don't have emotions and that's why I was created. Jasper can't handle the shit that Maria made him do and feel. You, his mate, did the same and now I have to come out to save him once again from the emotions that could destroy him!

What kind of a fuckin' mate does that shit? I'm so pissed off that I'm havin' a fuckin' hard time to NOT rip you apart. As a matter of fact forget the fuckin' questions and lettin' you feel what Jasper felt. You know what the fuck you did and if I don't get away from you I WILL kill you!"

With that I took off runnin'. I had no fuckin' clue where I was goin' or what I was gonna do, but I knew that if I did stay it would destroy Jasper. So I ran and just kept on runnin'.

Bella's POV

I had let myself drop to the ground after the God of War left. I had listened to him and in my heart I knew that every word was true. I can't believe how stupid I had been to do that to Jasper. All I could think about was making sure that Jasper was safe and making Maria pay for what she had done to both him and Peter.

Instead I understood that I had been no better than Maria. I had almost cost Char her life and poor Peter had been forced to watch. I was now putting myself in his place and I could see the truth of the horror of having to watch your mate's head being ripped off. What I didn't understand is why dad went along with it.

Maybe one day I would ask him. Right now I have no intention of going back and facing anyone. How could I? I'm sure that Peter hated me for keeping him from helping his mate. Char would probably hate me for putting her too close to death, but she had wanted to do this without the help of our mates as much as I did. All either of us could see was that we wanted to hurt Maria for her shit.

I had made sure that Maria was weak before allowing Jasper to kill her. He should have been allowed to fight with us. Its what should have happened, but because of me; it didn't. How could I face anyone especially Peter and Char? The worst part; I had made Jasper feel the same as Maria had. I had hurt him maybe beyond repair. Yeah, every fucking word that the God of War had spoken was true.

How in the hell was I going to be able to fix this? I decided to just stay here. Maybe if I was lucky the God of War would come back and then he could kill me. Everyone would be better off without me fuckin' up their lives. I can't believe how stupid I had been. I could feel the venom tears in my eyes, but sadly would never be able to release them. It didn't stop the sobs from coming though.

I don't know how much time had passed when I felt the presence of the others or at least a couple. I felt arms around me and looked up to see Char. Peter was standing close as well, but neither said anything for a few minutes. Char just held me as I sobbed on her shoulder.

"Are you alright Bella?" Peter asked.

"Stupid question Peter can't you see that she's not okay?" Char replied.

"I was talkin' bout' the God of War hurtin' her. Although I can tell that he obviously didn't rip her apart." Peter explained.

"You need to go away, both of you. The God of War didn't hurt me, he just spoke the truth of how badly I messed up and almost cost Char her life, making you watch and made Jasper feel the same way as Maria had done. You need to stay away from me, I'm no better than Maria was. I can't believe how stupid I was. Please just leave me alone." I pleaded with them, while looking at Peter.

"Now you stop that shit right the fuck now! Yeah, so we both messed up. Peter has already given me hell for my part in it. We all make mistakes. Jasper knows this very well and he will forgive you. Neither Peter nor I are mad at you and once Jasper has calmed down he'll be back. Right now you need to go and feed. You are thirsty and I know this because I'm as well. I wanted to check on you and see if you wanted to come with us." Char told me practically growling in some parts.

"Where's my dad? I kind of expected him to be here as well." I asked.

"He went after Jasper. As soon as he saw that you were alright he took off following his scent. If I know Charlie as well as I think I do he'll knock some sense into Jasper and drag his ass back." Peter answered.

"NO! He'll kill my dad. He had to leave or he would have killed me. At least that's what he told me. He said that if he didn't get away he would do just that. Please stop my dad!" I said desperate to not let my dad be killed because of my stupidity.

"Don't worry Bella. Charlie is smart and I don't think that he'll put himself in danger. He'll probably just follow Jasper until he sees that he's calmed down some. He just wants to talk to Jasper and will make sure that he doesn't do something stupid." Peter said.

"What do you mean by doing something stupid?" I asked, now even more worried.

"He means killin' a bunch of humans and bringin' attention to himself. Don't worry Bella. Your dad knows what to do and what not to do. He'll call us if he needs help or needs to clean up any messes." Char told me.

"Now let's get fed and then we're gonna head back home. Charlie knows where home is and he'll make sure that Jasper makes it back. He needs some time to cool off and its kinda stupid to wait around here. Especially if the Volturi get wind of what happened here. If you're around and they show up... Well, I can guarantee that they'll try to make you a part of their guard because of the gifts you have." Peter said.

I knew he was right. Carlisle had explained all about the Volturi to me and even Carlisle had said that if the Volturi ever found out about my gifts that they would do whatever was necessary to insure that I joined them. They would probably take Jasper and use him to force me to comply. Maybe even try to force dad to join as well. We had to leave and I would have to leave my mate again.

Two Weeks Later. . .

Its been two weeks since Jasper ran off. Dad did call a few hours later after we left to let Peter know that he had found him, but he was destroying everything in his path so he would have to stay out of his range and just watch. Fortunately it was mostly trees, rocks and animals that just happened to come too close.

Peter felt so bad for leaving Charlie to look after the Major that he ended up leaving to find Charlie and try to help. He had had more experience with the God of War and had even helped Jasper to be able to gain control a couple of times.

Of course Emmett wasn't gonna stay behind and let Charlie and Peter try to deal with the danger alone so he got on board as well. What really surprised me was Rose's attitude about her mate leaving. I was worried that she might get pissed and take it out on me for her mate leaving to put himself in possible danger. Instead she came to me and wanting to speak to me I waited for her words of anger to assault my ears.

"Bella I know that you think that I might be angry that Emmett is going to join Peter and your father to try to pull Jasper back home. I'm not. As a matter of fact I want him to go. I pushed him a little bit." Rose explained.

"But why would you want him to go into a dangerous situation? That's exactly what he's walking into, danger. I don't want anyone getting hurt, especially since this is all my own fault. If I hadn't been so stupid the God of War would have never come out." I told her.

"Yeah, so you made a serious mistake. We all have done things that we wish we had never done. Sometimes those things have hurt our mates in one way or another. Yours just happens to have lived a very different life than any of us and therefore has had to learn how to deal with things in his own way. Peter knows what to do and not do and with Charlie and Emmett there I feel like they can bring him out of it."

Peter got another phone call from dad right before they left. There hadn't been any change and some hikers had paid the price. Sadly dad couldn't stop the God of War because he wasn't killing by draining them. He was just ripping and tearing. Things were starting to become dangerous in that the Volturi could hear about him and decide to take care of the problem. The problem being my mate.

I hated that they had to go and take care of the problem. The worst part is that I felt that I should be the one to go, but Peter said that until he calmed down that it could make things worse if he saw me. He had a plan that he had used a time or two, but it took him and Char a long time because it was only two of them. He assured me that with Charlie, and Emmett especially, that it could work and much faster as there were more vampires now.

Since our mates were gone Alice, Rose, Char and I decided to go shopping. We were going to be moving once the boys were back. Carlisle wanted everyone to stay together, at least for awhile. He said that he found himself enjoying Lillian and Charlie, even Peter had made an impression on Carlisle, although by his facial expressions I'm not sure exactly what kind.

I just really wanted to mope around, but they ganged up on me one day and they sat me down and told me that I was too important to the family. They all seemed to understand what I was thinking when I cut Jasper off from helping. Its instinct to want to protect and get revenge when a mate has been harmed or even threatened.

Yet while my head was with the family and shopping to a point, my heart was dying a little more each day that Jasper stayed away. I needed him, but I had hurt him after I promised that I would never do that to him. The thing is that if I had known what it was going to take to bring him back to me I would have taken dad's place gladly. . .

A/N Please tell me what you think. My beta loved this chapter. Another chapter or two and this one is done. A huge thanks to everyone who reviewed and added this story to their favorites and alerts. Quickly also thanks for all the prayers and well wishes concerning my husband. He's home and doing well. Please continue to pray if you do so because he may not have to have the radiation. Love you guys.