Harely looked at herself in the mirror every day and realized it was growing. Her body was expanding like some fresh hell of alien. She was scared and conflicted, but most of all she missed her Wade. She didn't want anything else, but him. She wanted to be in his arms experiencing the same lie she was damn well promised. She didn't know what to say. She just knew that's what she wanted was to love him. She wanted to change her life for him, and now it was her own selflessness that made her want to become selfish again.
Wally knocked on her door. "Are you okay?" He asked. Over the past few months they had become so serious as friends and companions that he bought her a beach house which he stayed at ever so often he had dumped Bruce and was making slow attempts to repair his life. Though he had no idea it would take Harely to see his self worth for him to realize it.
"Fine." She sniffed her tears away. She wasn't fine. She was pissed. Annoyed and hurt that she believed some wizard would bring him back. "Just wish I wasn't so damned gullible."
"What do you mean?"
"A month ago some weirdo wizard gave me this." She held up the item.
"Okay.."
"He said it could bring Wade back."
Wally froze. He didn't know what surged through him, but there was a chance that maybe it was worry. Maybe it was a deep seeded fear of losing her. He wasn't Gay. He wasn't straight either but he loved Harley with all his heart and it would ruin him if Wade walked right back in after being dead. "You want him to come back?"
"Of course I do Wally that's my husband."
"Was."
"Was my husband if it could be a that.. or an is I'd like to make it happen."
"You'd bring him back?"
"In a hearts beat."
"What if it was the babies heart beat?"
"Why would you say something so grim?!" Harley asked.
"'Cause Harley that's the way life for a life works."
"What?"
"A wizard, a time traveler, or hell me.. We can't trade in someone elses life without destroying someone elses... Is that really what you want?"
She looked at him. "You're serious aren't you?"
"Yes.. Harley I don't want it for you I don't.. I don't want you to be.. guilty."
Harley sighed. "I don't want to be alone."
"Don't be." He said seriously.
"I don't have any one in my corner."
Wally took her hand and kissed it "You've got me."
"No I don't."
"Yes you do."
"I.. I can't." She sighed. "I can't let my self be.. I can't let my self be in love."
"Come to dinner tonight." He said. "I'm inviting everyone. So please come."
"I've got to go see Wade."
"Well Come afterward."
"I will."
Wally left her with a kiss on the cheek and in an empty office. She grabbed her purse and walked to the grave of her lover.
WADE WILSON
beloved husband, Father, and friend
1979- FOREVER.
Harley stared at his stone for ever. "I thought I'd have you here. I thought I'd be here with you dancing on this stupid grave but I can't! I just want you and I to be happy together! Damn it Wade I miss you and I trusted some weirdo to freakin save you and I don't want to think he was lying but-"
"I'm not Lying."
She turned around "You!"
"Me." Doctor strange said with a small smile.
"I would kick you in the face but it would strain Wade and WIllow."
"So you're having children not child."
"Yeah and I thought we'd have their dad here by now."
"It's not time."
"And what the hell is the right time for you Doc?! Now is the perfect fucking time for me! So how about you bring him back now?!" She cried. "Don't play with me doc Don't fucking play!" She cried harder.
Doctor strange held her. "Don't cry child..It's not time for you to be reunited."
"I'll tell my children that when they ask about their dad." k
"If memory serves you let him go. A selfless act"
Harley smacked him. "You don't get to talk about that."
"You're right.. I don't. But to let him come back are you sure you'll like what you see?"
"Will it be him?!"
"Yes."
"Will he be the same."
"No one can see that."
"Stop being a damned riddle I have no time for that! I need my hsuband."
"Death has done you and so you have no claim to be his wife."
Death. The word made her sick and the person made her sicker. That beautiful pale skinned laveneder eyed bitch was getting everything she had wanted.
"It will happen Ms. Wilson."
She wiped tears from her eyes "When?" Like a blur he was gone. "WHEN YOU SHERLOCK HOLMES LOOKING SON OF A BITCH!" She screamed her eyes burning with more tears. She looked at his grave. "Don't be mad at me Wade.. I just want you home.. I'm sorry to scream and cry two of the very large things you said you didn't want me doing pregnant, but I need answers. I need them for you and me and us.. Our team is starting off big with a double duo! I need some help." She tried to smile, but it was hard.
Wally ran up to her. "Harley."
"Wally?"
"I came to check on you.."
"I.. i thought you had a dinner."
"You're my guest of Honor."
"I am?"
"You are." He smiled "C'mon I'll take you."
"I don't think it-" by the time she could finish her story she was at his house. "Never mind." She looked at his dress shirt and pants. Something serious was going down and she wasn't sure how to take it.
"Don't worry Harl. We're in this together I promise." Something about the way he said it made her feel, safe. Like she wasn't as alone as she wanted to believe. She loved Wade. She needed him, but this wasn't going her way. Not in any way, shape, or form. She was more afriad of what she wanted than she cared to believe. She wanted to be strong but having someone like Wally wouldn't hurt either.
"O-Okay." He opened the door. "We have arrived." He smiled opening the door. "Guys meet Wilson and Willow."
John and Shayera stood. "She is beautiful." Shayera rubbed her belly. "Congratulations Harley."
"T-thanks." She blushed.
"You're glowing." John said. "I can't wait to have children."
"If either of us wasn't married to the job."
"Which we are." He admitted.
"She was married to a super criminal, a mercnary, and has a criminal record eighteen miles long. With a shit ton of deaths under her belt..." Bruce said "Lat thing she needs is a kid."
"Bruce!"
"Or two."
"Bruce." John said "Not cool."
Harley felt like she was at trial again and this time her children were too. The choice of fight or flight kicked in. "I'm going home."
"No!" Wally said holding her hand "Please don't."
"He's right. What Bruce said is-"
"The truth!" Harley spat. "Yeah I was in love with a manical crazy person who convinced me that the world needed a bigger smile.. So you've got to see the world from the ruins to do so. Did I go against EVERYTHING in me? Yes... And I killed accidently I meant no harm! You all put me in this box.. Crazy girlfriend.. And I was. But with Wade I was a wife. I was self less and I am going to be the same with my children! I've been on teams of crazies for both sides and you know where that got me?! Here with a big ass belly a chest of heart burn and chopped full of hormones! I've got sensitive boobs, I'm miserable, and I'm ALONE! I just want to be where I am wanted. And that's not here." She looked at Wally "Thank you but no thank you."
"No Harley you stay."
"No!"
"Please!"
"No." She said sternly.
"Harley I wanted you to be in front of all these people to tell you that I care about you. I care so deeply I don't want to let you go. Harley I want to be with you."
"What?"
"I do." He said "I don't care about your past. I just want to be a part of your life."
Harley was shocked. What did she say to that? She should say no. Wait for Wade. But knowing Doctor strange she'd wait forever. She didn't want to wait forever. Was Wade Happy? Did he care if she was? Maybe Wally could make her happy. "Yes." She said. "Yes I want to be with you too."
With a soft and somber kiss. She started a new hope a happy one. Maybe Wade would come back, Maybe Wally would be an amazing stepfather. Hope. It was a new feeling. It made her feel light and finally excited for the future