sorry i haven't updated in a while. Also: R.I.P Lee Thompson Young

Chapter 5

Jane had her hands folded over her lap. She was sitting on Maura Isles's couch, waiting for the older woman to join her.

Maura had abandoned the popcorn in favor of hot chocolate. She brought two mugs over to the couch with her. She sat down next to Jane, handing her a mug.

Jane's hands were shaking so much that she could barely get a grip on the cup.

"Jane," Maura cleared her throat. "What just happened, it can't happen again. You know that, right?"

Jane scanned her eyes up Maura's body, trying to take in all of her body language. She was turned away from the younger girl, trying not to touch her.

Maura looked for confirmation from Jane. "Right?"

Jane set her hot chocolate down on the small table in front of them. "I think, that what's coming out of your mouth is what you know you should say, but not what you want to say."

Maura stood up and set her mug on the table as well. "Jane, I cannot get into this conversation with you. Do you know how wrong it is that I just kissed you?"

Jane stood up. "I don't think it was wrong,Maura ." She tried out the new name with hesitance. Maura gave her a perplexing look.

"Jane, you are my student and you are seventeen."Maura folded her arms over her chest, pulling them closer.

Jane stepped forward. "Why don't you tell me what you want? Just a moment ago, it was that you wanted me here. Then you kissed me. And you can't just throw me around like this."Jane's mouth was running fast. She was about to spurt out the secret that she had kept from Ms. Isles for so long.

Maura stood there, not knowing what to say. Jane took this as her chance to continue.

"You can't throw me around because, I…. I love you." Jane locked eyes with the intimidating woman in front of her. "And do you know how hard it is to be in love with your female teacher? Ms. Isles," She inhaled deeply. "that kiss was the best moment of my life."

Maura turned away placing her hand on top of her head in a distraught fashion.

"I'm sorry, Jane. I shouldn't have done what I did,"Maura replied quietly without turning around. "And to answer your question, yes. I know what it's like to be in love with someone who is so far out of reach."

"Maura," Jane stepped forward.

"I… don't think that you should call me that." Maura said hesitantly.

Jane shook her head, no. "I'm not walking away from you." She took Maura's arm in her hand gently and tugged her to turn her around.

"Jay," Maura looked at the younger woman in front of her. "You're an amazing girl but," She touched a lock of Jane's Black hair. "But you need to be with someone your own age."

"Yea," Jane scoffed sarcastically. "Because there are so many girls at school who are openly gay and who would love to be with me."

"There are probably more than you think," Maura said in a hopeful tone.

"But, I don't want anyone else, Maura." Jane accentuated the woman's name.

"I could get in a lot of trouble,Jay." Maura pleaded. "You don't understand. I could lose my job, I could go to jail."

"Okay, just hold on a second." Jane held up her hands. "Nothing like that will happen." She took a deep breath and continued before Maura could say anything. "Nothing will happen because, I won't say anything."

"Jane..."

"Maura, just listen to me. You kissed me. I love you. Why can't we just try?" Jane could feel the heat returning to the area behind her eyes. The tears were not far behind.

Maura just looked at the girl in front of her, seeing the mess that she turned her into once again. She didn't have any other answer to Jane's question. All she wanted to do was take the younger girl in her arms and hold her close. Their eyes locked once again, but this time, Maura didn't try to pull her vision away.

Maura inhaled deeply, and a slow small smile formed on her lips. Her eyelashes lowered in a calm and inviting manner. "Come here," She held out her arms in front of her. Jane gave her a questioning glance and then took a hesitant step forward.

Jane wrapped her arms around Maura's waist as the older woman wrapped her arms around her neck.. They stood like that for what felt like hours. Jane pressed her body further into Maura's, letting her physical attachment mirror the emotional. Maura responded by pulling her tighter. A tear had managed to slip out from under one of Jane's closed eyelids.

When they separated, Jane wiped it off her cheek and stepped back.

"Look," Maura said. "You're special. I just don't know what to think."

"Well," Jane replied, trying to sound composed. "I can't tell you what to think. But I can tell you that I think you're beautiful. And when you're not around, I miss you."

How did this happen? Maura thought to herself. I gave her a ride home, now she's in my house with slightly smeared lip gloss.

Jane moved closer to Maura, finally making a decision. "I'm going to kiss you," She said, taking Maura's hand in her own. "And if you don't feel anything, then I'll hide in your closet or something until 2 and we can forget I even saw you at the club."

Maura chuckled, forgetting to be serious. Then, Jane placed her hand on the back of Maura's neck. Gently, she pulled her up until their lips were only inches apart.

Again there was an electric charge between them. Jane brushed her lips against Maura's, then spread them with her own.

Maura was surprised by how much of a change had occurred within young girl currently attached to her lips. Soon, Jane had managed to get Maura's tongue to tango with her own. When they pulled apart, Maura was closing her eyes.

"Well?" Jane asked with a sideways grin.

"Jane," Maura smiled. "Get that smirk off your face." She winked.

"I will once you take your hand off of my hip," Jane said, the smirk still on her lips.

Maura stepped closer to her. Instead of removing her hand from Jane's hip she put her other hand on the back of Jane neck.

"I want to try," Maura said with confidence.

"Then let's try."Jane replied without a second thought.

"But this is serious, Jane. If anyone finds out about this…"

"They won't!" Jane insisted, pulling Maura closer again. "Promise."

I hope you guys liked this chapter. I'm trying really hard to make this realistic enough to not be ridiculous. Please leave a review to tell me how I'm doing : )