A/N So I've decided to do the shorter boringer chapter because that's what most people want. The excitnger chapter will be the next chapter. So today I got a new phone! It's an IPhone 5s and I honestly love it. That's all. Thank you and enjoy!
Tobias and I walk into my apartment after leaving the hospital. Neither of us really spoke during the trip expect for the occasional comment or question. When we get inside both of us gravitate to the couch.
"I haven't been in here for a really long time," Tobias chuckles.
"Hasn't really changed. In fact I still haven't fixed the hole in the wall from when I punched it when you said I was acting immature." I pointe to the small hole next to the door. Tobias laughs and leans back against the couch.
"That wasn't the best day, was it?"
"Not really," I reply. That was roughly one week after our biggest fight. Tobias had come home almost an hour later than he said he would, so I proceeded to scream and yell at him. Shortly after the hole appeared. "We really needed to get our shit together," I shake my head.
"We really, really did." Tobias agrees. "I think it's weird how we're more or less made up better than we were when we were together."
"Maybe...maybe we just weren't made to be together. Like, maybe we are better off just as friends or something." I say dejectedly. Even if both of us wanted to be back in a serious relationship I don't think it could work.
"What about these past two weeks?" Tobias asks dolefully.
"Friends with benefits?" I say trying to lighten the mood a bit. It doesn't really work. "I'm sorry Tobias but you know how bad our relationship was.
"Tris, you do know you're having my children. Right?" Tobias raises his eyebrows.
"I know but what if-" my pointless rambling is cut off by Tobias kissing me. I immediately put my arms around Tobias's neck and his go to rest on my waist. He pulls my closer and I gladly accept. Soon, I'm up against his chest and able to feel his strong, steady heartbeat. I pull away an instant later and release a sigh. "We can't do this Tobias," I whisper. "You know we can't."
"I love you, Tris." Tobias mummers. "Please don't do this to me,"
"I love you too, Tobias. But I'm not in love with you, like I was. I don't even know how I feel about you anymore." I say even though it makes me want to explode. "I mean, sometimes I want to get back together and everything, but sometimes I want to just leave things how they are, you know?" he stares at me with a burned look.
"That's doesn't change the fact that I love you and aways have. And I only really got together with Kabrina to piss you off." he smirks. "I can't really tell if it worked or not."
"It did, a little. When I was with Josh all I really did was hate you. Actually I think you pissed me off more than Kabrina did." I tell him truthfully. I realize I'm still seated on his lap, so I slowly move off and back onto the couch. Tobias sighs. "Another reason we can't be together is because you're still with Kabrina, right?"
"No. We broke up yesterday. One of the pediatricians told her that I was the father of your children and she freaked out and left. So that means you can have this back," he reaches into his pocket and pulls out my old engagement ring. "I'm not proposing I swear, but I thought you might like it back." I take it from him and fidget it with it.
"Thanks," I bite my lip.
"What's wrong?" Tobias asks, notching my expression.
"Our children's lives are gonna suck," I say, staring down at my ring. "They're going to be moving from apartment to apartment and if we ever find anyone else, having to deal with step parents and shit."
"That does sound pretty awful," he complies.
"Oh, I forgot to tell you. I found out the genders," I say perking up a bit.
"What are they?" Tobias seems to have an almost childish like excitement.
"It's a boy and a girl," I tell him. Tobias smiles and looks as if he's about to kiss me but then pulls away.
"This is excruciating," he says, confirming my thoughts.
"I'm sorry," I rest my head on his shoulder and release a breath. He tentatively wraps his arm around my shoulders and I gratefully accept the affection.
The next morning I wake up still on the couch, but this time I'm laying on my side and Tobias is asleep on the floor. We stayed up talking until nearly two in the morning. It was obviously to late for him to walk back to his apartment so I let him stay. I grab a pillow from the opposite side of the couch and throw it at his face. He jumps awake instantly then glares at me. I laugh and lay back down on the couch.
"Good morning Sleeping Beauty," I smile. Tobias groans and rolls his eyes.
"Whatever. At least you didn't have to sleep on the floor," he mumbles, rubbing his back.
"That was your choice remember? I said you could stay on the couch but you said 'no I'd rather not'" I say with a horrible imitation of his voice.
"Actually I said you kick to much in your sleep," he corrects.
"Oh, looks like someone woke up on the wrong side of the floor this morning," I say tilting my head to the side. He throws the pillow back at me and I catch it before it hits me. Tobias stands up and starts to head toward the kitchen. "Make me some coffee! With two-!"
"I know what you want," he says without turning to face me. I grin and follow him. "Do you remember what you said the last time I made your coffee?" he asks while pulling two mugs out of the cabinet where they always are.
"No," I prop myself up onto the counter.
"I asked what you were doing because I had already made yours, so you said, and I quote 'I'm doing voodoo magic to bring back my dead parents, dumbs' un quote." he begins to filter the grounds and pour them into the mugs.
"You were being annoying. You deserved it, dumbass." I laugh. Tobias takes my mug from under the coffee machine and hands it to me. Right as I'm about to take my first sip he takes it from me. "What the hell dude? Give it back," I reach for it but he steps away.
"You're pregnant. You're not allowed to have this," he then proceeds to dump the coffee out into the sink. I stare at him in utter shock.
"When did you become the pregnancy expert?" I question while getting myself a glass of water instead.
"I don't know," he shrugs. I smack his arm and get back up onto the counter. "See, this feels normal. Me teasing you then you hitting me. That feels right," Tobias joins me on the counter.
"We did do that a lot, didn't we?" I respond. We both take periodic sips of our drinks, resorting to silence.
It's been nearly a week of this. Tobias coming over after work, me trying to sneak coffee past him, failing, then him staying until dark then returning to his apartment. I can't say I hate and I can't say I completely understand it either. He hasn't tried and pushing a relationship which I am extremely grateful. I want to be with him, but with how our last relationship ended, I don't think it could possibly work. A sudden snap of fingers in my face brings me back to reality.
"Tris? Are you still there?" Tobias asks. I shake my head as if to clear my thoughts.
"Sorry, what were you saying?"
"Nothing. You just had this really weird look on your face," Tobias says, leaning back on the couch.
"Oh, sorry." I duck my head and take a small sip of my tea. We make small talk for a couple of minutes but whenever he turns on the TV I completely tune it out when a thought comes to mind. Tobias is still trying to get back together with me even after I so bluntly said I didn't want to. Now that I truly think of it, the reason I didn't want to get back together wasn't that I didn't love him, I wasn't sure if he loved me. It's now very obvious that he does. Plus, what's the harm of trying again? "Tobias?" I say. His head turns to me.
"Yeah?"
"I've been thinking-"
"Oh God," he interrupts.
"Shut up," I hit his arm. "This is important. I've been thinking that I've been really...blind lately."
"And?" he asks when I've gone silent.
"And, I think I might want to try us again." I say looking at anywhere but his eyes. It takes him a second to fully understand what I'm saying, but when he does the happiest look I've ever seen consumes his face.
"Are you serious, Tris?" he asks. I smile too and nod. I'm the first one to lean forward and kiss him. He kisses me back immediately, wrapping his arms tightly around me. I wasn't totally sure about letting us back together, but now that we are I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.
A/N So? Did you like it? I didn't. So the next chapter will be the excitinger one with a major plot twist. But it will be set roughly two-three months later. Yeah. That's it. Thanks for reading! Ily and DFTBA!
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