A/N Okay guess, I'm really excited for this chapter (which is set 2 1/2 months later). I've had this idea since Justin Bieber became a douchebag. So a very long time. Some people are probably gonna kill me or unfollow this story, or burn it or A FROTHY COMBINATION OF ALL THREE! If anyone knows where that's from I will become your best friend. That's all for this headnote. Thank you and enjoy!
%%%%%%%SET TWO AND A HALF MONTHS LATER%%%%%%%
Tobias and I's relationship has only seemed to improved the past couple months. We no where near the pointe we were after the war, but we are on the way there. The twins have done nothing but grow, which is a little annoying for me. I felt their first kick two nights ago while I was trying to go to sleep. That just so happened to be one of the few nights a week he spent at his apartment. When I had told him, he was ecstatic. Right now though, I sit a little uncomfortably in my desk trying my best to find an open job for someone from the Fringe moving to this part of the city. He's rather picky when it comes to what job he wants. After what seems like hours he decides and hangs up. I sigh and plunk down to my chair and run a hand along the bottom of my stomach where I seem to be getting some intense cramps.
I'm seven months pregnant now and huge. Well, huge to me. Genesis says I'm a little smaller than the normal woman in my condition but she thinks it just because of my size. One of the only good things from this is that Tobias and I have finally come up with names. Grayson Drake for the boy and Lilian Fayla for a girl. I wasn't really keen on naming my child after someone who had passed in the war, in fear it would come up as a constant reminder.
A knock on my door snaps me from my daze. Tobias walks in and leans on the doorframe.
"Ready to go?" he asks. I look at the clock and realize it's time to leave.
"Yeah. Help me up?" I reach my hand forward and Tobias comes over to help with a chuckle.
"If you're having this much trouble moving now, it's going to be awful in a couple months." Tobias says while we start our way home.
"Ugh, don't remind me." I groan. Another cramp hits me stomach, this time so bad I have to stop walking and lean against a wall to support myself. "Jesus, this sucks."
"Are you alright, Tris?" Tobias asks with concerning eyes.
"Yeah I'm fine," I brush of his concerns and get back onto my feet. "Genesis said I would start getting cramp anyway."
"Not until at least month eight though," Tobias reminds me. I ignore his worries anyway.
I wake up later that night and find Tobias missing from the bed. I'm curious as to why I woke so suddenly, but then there is a horrible, excruciating pain coming from my abdomen. I put my hand over my stomach and nearly scream from the pain. I move my blanket to get up and walk around, but what I see horrifies me. So. Much. Blood. Something has to be going wrong. I scream when I feel another torment rock through me. My apartment door flies open but it's not Tobias who comes in, it's my neighbor Conner.
"Tris? Are you okay?" he asks. He stops short at the sight of the blood. "Where's your boyfriend?"
"I don't know," I sob. "Please help me get to the hospital." he nods vigorously and moves to help me up. Conner grabs both of my hands and helps me to a standing position. Between my size and bad legs, I'm practically being carried by Conner to the hospital. At some pointe I begin to feel light headed, and before I know it, everything around me is black.
Some time later I wake up in a hospital bed with a different pain in my stomach. I groggily look down at see stitches lining my abdomen. Genesis comes through the door a second later with heartbroken look on her face.
"I'm glad you're awake Miss Prior," she says, not all like her usual chipper self. Something must me terribly wrong.
"Genesis, what's wrong?" I ask, fearing the worst.
"Whenever you were kicked in the stomach, it had unknowingly ruptured your uterus. It wasn't seen in the ultrasound because it was so small. But it had grown over time and-" Genesis get's choked up and has to take a few deep breaths to calm herself. "So your children had no more room to grow so the only they could do was come out."
"Are they okay?" when my voice catches, I realize I've been crying. Genesis gets teared up again.
"No. They're both so incredibly premature that their vital organs are not yet fully developed. Your daughter is doing fine on the ventilator but we... we don't think your son's going to survive." the words come at like a gunshot to the head. My two infant children are two months early and both have a large chance of not seeing tomorrow. More tears fill my eyes and once again spill over. After all of the pain and death I've felt in my life, this is the worst. I faintly here Genesis tell me she's taking me to see them. I'm moved to a wheelchair and pushed through the seemingly endless hallways. Soon enough I'm pushed through a doorway and see two incubators containing my son and daughter. I'm pushed up to Grayson first. His skin is a combination of pink and purple but even through the tubes and machines I can see his little pale blue gray eyes identical to mine. He even has a small tuft of blond hair.
"Can-can I hold him?" I stifle. The nurse nods and gently lifts the boy from the incubator and place him in my arms. The minutes is tiny body is in my arms I break down again. I run my thumb across his face, careful not to disturb the wires. His curious blue eyes open and close, occasionally glancing up at me. I stare down at his little face until the moment he takes his final breath.
When I'm told his heart stopped and there's absolutely nothing left to do, I feel a large part of my life tear away from me. They ask if I want to see my daughter next. I say yes even though I don't know if I can handle it. The slowly wheel me over to her and take her out for me to hold. She's asleep so I can't see her eyes but because of her brown hair, it wouldn't surprise me if she shares her fathers eyes.
"Hi Lilian," I say. I don't have a smile which makes this matter even worse. My little girls eyes open and immediately flutter to me. She stares at me for a moment before weakly trying to grasp my finger. I mildly caress her downy soft brown hair admiring her now sleeping face. Genesis tells me I need to go lay down and sleep and Lilian herself needs to rest. I don't resist when I'm put back in my hospital bed and given something to help me sleep.
Tobias POV (When he left)
I stare up at the ceiling unable to find sleep. Some nights are easier than others but sometimes sleep seems like a foreign object. I look over to Tris who is sleeping somewhat peacefully on her back. She's been complaining about her stomach bothering for the past couple days but insisted everything was fine. I honestly don't know what I would do if anything bad happens to Tris. After almost losing her countless times it's a constant fear of mine. Now that sleep is never going to come I swing my feet over the edge of the bed and slip on some normal clothes. I'll probably be back before Tris wakes, so I don't bother with a note.
Before I really know where I'm going, I end up at the Dauntless compound. I use the side entrance that takes me straight to the Pit. It's calming being back to what I consider my old home. It's ghostly empty, with no one running around or yelling or screaming. The last time I was here was when we threw Uriah's ashes into the chasm for his funeral.
Before I know it, I'm up in the pier near the Fear Landscape room. I grab a dusty needle and serum from the supply closet and turn the simulation on. Even after not injecting any serums for almost five years I still know exactly where to put it.
The simulation starts on top of a rather large building that only get's higher the longer I wait. I look around desperate to find anything to do instead of jumping, but that seems to be my only option. I remember when I took Tris in here for the first time. The memory of her hand in mind is enough to get me off the building.
Next I'm the Goddamn box. This was always the worst one for me in initiation. Not matter what I did it only got smaller and small, slowly suffocating me. I kick at the front wall which finally gives way and breaks open.
The next simulation that comes is new, but all the more frightening. I see a little boy and girl huddled together in a corner with bruises and cuts covering their thin, shaking bodies. They both stare up at me in fear. I feel something cold in my hand and when I find a belt curled in my fist I want to shoot myself. I drop the belt and back away from the children as the sim changes.
I've had this fear for years. It never seems to go away. I stand in a seemingly empty room with a sheet of clear glass in front of me. Tris appears behind the glass and stares at me. I can't hear her but I can't tell she's saying "Help," soon she's banging on the glass wall screaming my name and for me to help her. I sprint to the glass but no matter what I do I can't get passed it. From an unknown cause Tris looks at me with loathing then collapses to the ground. Her eyes roll to the back of her head.
I'm still shaking from my simulation, even when I return to the city the fears are still fresh in my mind. It's daylight when I return, which means I've been gone for at least a few hours. I just hope Tris isn't worrying. I'm nearing the apartment when someone I vaguely recognize comes up to me
"Tobias?" the man asks pulling me to a stop. I now remember him as Tris's neighbor, Conner.
"Yeah?" I say, eager to get back to the apartment.
"Come with me," he grabs my arm again and try's pulling me in a different direction. I yank my arm away.
"What are you doing?" I ask.
"Tris is in the hospital," he says. I feel my heart drop into my stomach. I break into a sprint towards the hospital. Once it finally comes into view I pick up my pace and burst through the doors, making some people jump. I run up to the front desk where a nurse looks at me calmly. I suspect she's seen this before.
"I'm Tobias Eaton, here for Tris Prior." I say hurriedly. She types some things into a computer then stands up and gestures for me to follow her. She leads me through the twisted hallways before stopping at a metal door.
"From her records they recently gave her a dose of melatonin, so she might still be asleep." the nurse tells me. I thank her then walk into Tris's room. She's curled up on the hospital bed, her eyes staring at the wall. I walk to the side she's facing away from and try to grab her arm. She jerks away.
"Don't you dare touch me," she seethes. I stare at her quizzically even though she can't see me. I walk around to the other side of the bed and she flips to her back, still not looking at me. "Where were you?" she questions looking on the verge of tears. Her eyes are already red and slightly puffy which means she's been crying. What the hell happened?
"I was in Dauntless." I tell her. "What happened to you though?" I sit down in a chair next to her bed and she finally meets my eyes.
"I woke up screaming in pain but you were gone and couldn't help me. I tried to stand up but noticed that there was blood covering my bed sheets. I screamed again and Conner was the one who came in and helped me to the hospital." she goes from bitter to mournful so fast it makes more worried than I already am.
"Are you okay? What happened?"
"I blacked out and when I woke up I found out that I had an emergency cesarian section and only of them survived, Tobias." she stares at me through her stream of tears. "Grayson died about twenty minutes after he was born. I got to hold while he died," a feeling of complete and utter despair fills me and one stop.
"I am so sorry I wasn't here Tris," I say. This time when I grab her hand, she doesn't pull it away.
"Could you sit with me?" she heaves. I don't respond just move to the bed and wrap my arms around Tris. She rest her head on my chest and begins to sob. I feel tears of my own cloud my eyes but force them to not fall for Tris's sake. Hours roll by but Tris remains in the same position. Once she's asleep, I let my tears fall freely.
A/N Soooo? You hate me yet? Tbh, I really liked this chapter. Not because of the death and whatever but because I think you really got to see a side of Tobias and Tris you don't see in every fan fiction. Now time for the QOTC! If you could have one superpower, what would it be? I would fly because that would be so freaking awesome. Tell me what you would want in the reviews!
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