Levi let out a sigh of relief and watched as a puff of silvery grey smoke went along with it. He tapped the end of his cigarette, letting loose pieces of ash fall to the floor. He felt the relief as he took a draw from it and he felt his lungs being wrapped by a warm blanket... But he knew it was wrong. A blanket that was hurting the one person he loved, a blanket of death, a blanket of drugs to conceal all his feelings. He breathed out slowly, listening to the quiet pop his dry lips made as they let go of the cigarette. He watched the smoke curl and dissipate on the freezing winter breeze. It was illuminated in the light of a street lamp against the still dark December sky. Levi hadn't smoked in a number of years and he'd forgotten what it was like. The smell of the smoke swirled through his nostrils and he breathed out again, looking down the street sadly. He knew he shouldn't be doing this, but he couldn't not. He felt relief on every breath he took from the damned death instrument. After about ten more minutes, Levi pushed the end of his cigarette into the wall and chucked the extinguished stub into the gutter. He sighed, putting his hands in his pockets. He scuffed his feet sadly and turned to go back into the college. When he went back up to his room, he saw the look of sadness and worry in Eren's eyes with a hint of disappointment as he entered and he sighed, looking away. Eren watched him, the smell of smoke following Levi into the room as the door was shut. Levi didn't bother hiding it anymore, Eren knew and there was nothing he could do about it. It was early, about 6am but Eren had heard Levi go out of the room and had sat up and cried for a little bit before just sitting there. It was the day after the incident with the man in the alley and Mikasaa, and Eren was worried about what would happen with his sister now... Had he lost her? His eyes followed Levi to his bed and watched him sadly as he sat on it with his knees up and just looked at his hands in his lap.

Later that day, there was a knock on their door and Eren sighed and picked up his bag from the end of his bed before trudging to the door. He looked back at Levi who was still sitting there with his head hung. "I'll see you later Levi..." He whispered before opening the door to Armin. He shut the door behind him.

"Are you ok Eren?" The blonde asked quietly as they headed for their class and Eren wasn't even going to pretend that he was. He was definitely not ok. He was not even remotely ok. He wasn't sure if he'd ever be ok again.

"No. No I'm not..." He grumbled quietly and Armin sighed.

"Is this about yesterday's escapade with Mikasa? She told me about everything that happened last night." Eren's head snapped up.

"Everything? What's everything? What did she say?" Armin was taken aback by his tone and looked up at him nervously.

"Sh-she just said she was attacked down an alley and Levi was there! She said that he knew the guy that attacker her and you didn't listen to her when you came back here! That's all, she didn't say anything else!"

"Hmph..." Eren turned away again. So it seemed she hadn't spilled Levi's secrets then, that was a relief... But it wasn't just what had happened that was making him so upset. It was everything. Levi's cutting, the way he talked as if he was going to kill himself, the way he was smoking again, the way he still hadn't forgotten the army application form, the fact that he was constantly having to choose between the love of his life and his sister, how helpless he was, how useless he was when it came to helping Levi... Everything.

"So is that what's wrong? Will you tell me what else happened because there was obviously something else judging by the way you're acting, besides, your side of the story will be different to Mikasa's."

"Everything."

"Everything? What's everything?" Armin repeated Eren and the brunette bit his tongue.

"It meant what I said... and I don't want to talk about it."

"Alright... But you know that if you need me, all you have to do is ask, yeah?"

"Mmhmm..." Eren murmured in response. What was going to happen now? Was he going to lose both his sister and Levi one way or another? Did Mikasa now hate him so had he lost her that way? Was Levi going to end up dying? Was Levi going to end up being so consumed by everything that he would just go silent forever and Eren would lose him? Would he leave the college and end up dying in a war somewhere? Would the smoking get worse and he'd die? Would he actually try killing himself? Eren was terrified. He didn't want to lose either of them and all the possible ways that it could happen mortified him, and made him feel sick to the stomach.

(A/N:) Ok so as you can probably tell, there won't be much fluff for quite a long while... Thanks for reading, hope you are enjoying! :D