Disclaimer: Same as chapter 1.

Note: Okay, I've been writing a lot today. Sorry if there are any grammatical errors in any of the chapter's I've uploaded today. Question I was asked as to how much time had passes since Forks, the ending of Breaking Dawn: I'm not really sure. Not much. Breaking Dawn said it would take Nessie 7 years to reach her full maturity I think, and she is still a small child in this, I was thinking about 8 or 9 years old. So I'm guessing maybe 4 years at most. I left things vague on purpose, because if I get to bogged down with trying to figure out little details such as finding a real place to set this to that meets the requirements of rainy and still in the U.S. I tend to not write, especially when I was so inspired as I was with this story. (I had the whole story practically outlined in my head before I wrote a word of it. Winter turning on Rian was not planned, though.) I was trying to get the main points of the story down and I was going to go back and fix it some of it later, but I ended up uploading it before I was finished instead. I still try to edit the story but I am less concerned with those details than the details of Rian and Emmett.

Chapter 37: Changing

Rian was on the verge of passing out when she felt the piercing pain draw across her stomach. All her nerves lit up, she tried to withdraw from the pain as she screamed out once again, but she was firmly held in place. She shut her eyes as pain rippled through her, all she could do was scream. She just wanted the pain to go away, she couldn't handle much more of it.

As she felt the pain lessen and her eyelids felt heavy, she hear the small cry of the baby. She smiled, at least if she died, she'd die knowing that both her babies were fine now. Darkness was descending upon her quickly, she could feel her life fading from her. It was very familiar sensation, the blood loss and the darkness, she had felt it all very time she had a nightmare.

Suddenly she felt the bit on her neck, her eyes flung open to see Emmett retreating and taking her arm in his hand before he bit her wrist. He continued this until both wrists, her neck, and both of her thighs were bitten. The venom spread quickly as Rian was once again screaming out in pain.

Yes, she had felt it before in her nightmares, but they hadn't been real. They seemed to be a dulled version what the actual thing. She felt the burning rippling through her body, destroying her very DNA in its path and leaving the new constructed DNA in its wake. It was very, very slow process though. It took what seemed like hours for it to make it way from the middle of her neck where Emmett had bitten her to her lips.

Rian kept her eyes closed the majority of the time; focused on the pain the sensations that way she at least knew she was still alive. She didn't pay attention to her surroundings, the wind wiping around her as someone carried her back to the Cullen house, they would rather risk exposure than allow her to wake up in that awful place. It was bad enough in Emmett's opinion that the twins were born in the place.

Luckily, the trip back to the house didn't involve running through towns or near any humans. They were back at the house in now time and Emmett was placing her down on the table in the 'office'. He didn't want the twins to see her like this.

Each members of the family took their turn sitting with Rian, giving Emmett time to spend with his twins and Rian. Although he found it hard to be away from Rian while she was changing, he knew the twins needed him as well.

Three nights had passed, Rian screaming through it all, until her heart finally stopped. Emmett had been in the room with her when she slumped back down on the table and relaxed finally. But her eyes did not open, he panicked again. "Rian! Wake up!" He begged her, "You're supposed to open your eyes now."

He spent the next hour begging her to open her eyes and panicking, debating between going to get Carlisle and not wanting to leave her, before Alice opened the door to the office finally. "She's not opening her eyes, get Carlisle. Something is wrong."

Rian

It all made perfect sense, suddenly. Every piece of the puzzle settled into its perfectly shaped spot in Rian's newly mad brain. She finally understood her hallucinations, her connection to Emmett and why that vampire had kidnapped her. She remembered it all now, well mostly.

Everything she had ever dreamt up had been true. All of it had happened to her in a past life. The way she sees it, everyone, if they had died unsatisfied for one reason or another, would be reborn to get it right the second time around. It wasn't like if you didn't kill the one big game you had wanted to kill for a short while, sort of unfinished business that lead to one being reborn. It was more of an 'I didn't get the chance to tell my soulmate 'I love you' sort of unfinished business. It had to be something that truly left your soul desperate for another try.

She had died by a vampires bite on several occasions, it was a traumatizing enough experience to leave an imprint of sorts on her soul; that plus her 'power' to remember her past lives allowed her to experience her deaths as a human. Only problem was it eventually drove her insane in most of her lives if she had lived long enough for it to take effect.

But it wasn't until her life as 'Rian' that she had dived over the deep end at such a young age. This was due to her previous life.

This was not the first time she had meet Emmett in one form or another. She had meet him twice before her incarnation as Rian. And in each life, she had quickly fallen head over heels in love with the man. And each time, it had ended badly.

Almost 1,500 years ago

Rian's very first life, well from what she could remember (she hasn't remembered everything yet, just the lives that involved Emmett), he was the 'boy next door' character.

In this life, and every other life, she had the same basic structures she had now but with slight differences. Mostly her hair, skin, and eye colors were different in different lives. She had dark hair and skin and bright green eyes. Emmett looked almost the same as well, except for the darker skin complexion as well.

She had known Emmett's previous life counterpart all her life. He was a few years older than her then. They joked and laughed and wrestles as children. But that all changed when they hit puberty, Emmett started begging gentler with her and more affectionate. While Rian had been in love with the boy for several years, it wasn't until Rian's body started to change that he expressed any interest in her other than friendship.

They began a forbidden love of sorts, sneaking around to spend time together, but everything soon changed.

One night while Rian was making her way to Emmett once again, this time to tell him she was pregnant, a blond vampire bite her. She spent the next few days screaming in pain as she changed.

This was the first and only other life she spent even just a short while as a vampire.

She woke up renewed and the blond vampire explained everything; no seeing her family anymore, drinking the blood of humans to survive, exceptional abilities.

"I've been watching you, I know you have fallen for that boy. But we can be together now." He had said to her. The vampire had made her feel uncomfortable since she had woken up, but now she was feeling very apprehensive. What did he mean?

He had thrown her the severed head of her beloved, which was enough to make her become unhinged and reckless. It wasn't long before another vampire overpowered her and ripped off her head.

The vampire's name, who had killed Emmett's counterpart, was Eirik.

The next time Rian meet Emmett went very similar to the first life. She meet him, feel in love, and quickly became pregnant. This time he was the one to die.

She mourned his loss for a while before she was killed by a vampire. But this was different than any of the hundred (exaggerating) times she had been hunted and bitten before. This time, it left her soul broken and left a scar upon her she would never be able to heal completely from. As she felt her life draining from her body, knowing her unborn child would never see the light of day (again), she looked into his eyes and couldn't help but to forgive him. After all, the monster draining her of her blood was her soulmate, and she knew, somehow, she'd see him again (and although she didn't know this part: in this form, as Emmett Cullen.)