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"spoken"
"Foreign Language"
'Thoughts'
#Place
Flashback / dreams
[Written]
~track of time~
(A/N)
"Tsuna speak to Henko"
"Henkospeak to Tsuna"
Normal POV
after some moments of hesitance (and a threatment from Reborn) Iemitsu finally opened the light blue journal...
it was belongs to Sakura...
He then read the black journal that belongs to Yoshi...
for the last he finally read the dark blue journal who had two orange stripes on it... this one belongs to Tsuna...
He read the first page, and it goes like this...
[XX/XX/XXXX
Hello. Mama gave you to me today, she said that I can use you to write my feelings and what happened in you, Diary-San.
Today is my 4th birthday, I'm a big boy now.
Mama took me out today to see a grave, I don't know who's grave it was but Mama said it belonged to someone very special to me.
I was very happy today, Mama noticed me, maybe it's because Tsu is a big boy now.
Ne, ne Diary-San, you will be my best friend starting today so I would love to gave you a name...
Jaa... how about Kaito?]
This page didn't tell too much aside that Tsuna is a lonely boy...
Iemitsu fliped the next page...
[XX/XX/XXXX
I said I was sorry, but Tou-San still hit me, he said I was naughty. But... but it wasn't my fault. It was an accident...
I accidently dropped syrup onto him and then he kept hitting me. I'm a good boy... right?
It hurt, it still hurts. Why does Tou-San not like me?]
It's fresh on Iemitsu's mind. on how he cried... on how he pleaded him to stop... onthe fresh red that came ot from the brunet's wounds... And he was still at his four by then!
[XX/XX/XXXX
I met a nice man today, he noticed me. It made me happy, he said if I wanted to visit him I had to be in my best condition though. The man said his name was Loke.
He took care of me when he found me outside because Tou-San locked me outside the house.
Ne Kaito, can yoy tekk me, why does Tou-San do this to me all the time?]
Tears can be seen hanging on Iemitsu's eyes as he decided to flip some pages forward as can't stand to see blood that cover them...
[XX/XX/XXXX
I... I can't do this anymore. I thought Tou-San finally cared about me, but...
He took me out for the day, he said it would be just me and him, Father and son together for the day. He even got me Strawberry Shortcake... but why?
WHAT DID I DO... WHY?
I feel disgusting, after he gave me cake, he left me in a hotel room with those men...
He said I would never be his son... that he hated me
I'm sorry Diary-San... I can't stop crying on you, my whole body hurts and... and... ALL I WANT TO DO IS RIP MY SKIN OFF!
Those men... they touched me everywhere, they hurt me... I can't take it anymore... I'm sorry, I'm disgusting.]
By now Reborn has reached his leon-gun and eager to shot the blond. He might still not remember who's Tsuna and how important he is to him, but just knowing that this boy's 'Tou-san' is this sh***head before him he has to struggle hard not to pull the triger and send the hot bullet to his thick skull...
[XX/XX/XXXX
It's been a long-time Kaito, I was taken away. The people who took me would put stuff into me and it hurt.
Ne, Kaito, is this what people mean when they say 'fate can be cruel'?
So far, my life has been nothing but suffering.
I met three girls when I was there, two of them were there before I got there, the last girl arrived just before we escaped.
I have a Mum and Dad now, as well as three little sisters. It makes me happy and now I know what it's like to have a family.
The two girls who were there before me are called Riki and Riku, the other girl is called Yuni.
When I got back no one even cared, they acted like I wasn't missing at all...
Kaito... I think I understand now... Kaa-San... No, Nana-Sana and Lemitsu-San, they both hate me... but what did I do?]
"I swear Baka-Ie... If it's not because my promise on not hurting any Vongola which luckily you to have that bloodline in your pulse You'll be in a worser state than just ashes... Nothing will left from you..." Reborn threatened with a blizarring eyes, Leon who got Iemitsu's head also had the same spark on his eyes. they both are angry and I sure have told you that nothing will goes fine if they both agreed on something.
Iemitsu can only gulped while praying for his own soul...
Basil sweatdropped but then decided to read some of the next pages...
[XX/XX/XXXX
Today I became 7 years old. my founded family set a surprise party for me while as usual... they don't even remembered my existance...
Funny right? I should be happy that at least some one finally remembered my birthdate...
I shouldn't have cried but this tears just won't stop...
I should never hoped from the begining. I'm nothing to them afterall... just piece of trash... just a mistake...]
The next page manage to catch their attention...
[XX/XX/XXXX
Hi Kaito, it's me again...
I thought I was having another weird dream but it seems that's not the case. Last night my anchestors came to me, they introduced me as the Vongola's first generation namely Gio-nii, G-nii, Asari-nii, Knuckle-nii Lampo-nii, Daemon-nii and Alaude-nii.
It looks like I've been chosen as the leader or the one that they called the decimo, the sky of the tenth generation...
I've told them that it's impossible. I mean, I can't even get my parrents attention. How am I supposed to get anyone else's then?
Sadly, they won't listen...]
"so this is when Primo showed himself" Iemitsu muttered but Reborn catch it anyways.
"so this Tsunayoshi boy has been chosen by the Primo himself?" he asked in shock.
"It seems so..." Is Iemitsu's smart answer.
the next page that they read this one had much evidence that Tsuna was crying on it...
[XX/XX/XXXX
I... I can't believe it Kaito... Loke-san said that Mom (read : Aria)is dead... that Yuni and Dad (read : Gamma) are missing...
It was...
It was all my fault!
If only I never born...
If only I never existed on the first place that masked man would never got them and they must have still living by now...
It was all... my... fault...]
No one commented on this one and instead they decided to continue with the journal...
[XX/XX/XXXX
Cielo-nii, the one that saved me back then, he told me that it's not over yet. that the masked man would go back and hunt me as well my brothers. and that Dad and Yuni is sill alive somewhere...
with the help from Riku's random hunch, I decided that I would go as a hacker.
I'll borrow your name when I'm on it. I hope you won't mind...
anyway... please wish me luck!]
and then anothe pages they read...
[XX/XX/XXXX
Kaito... I'm at the hospital now.
Loke-san put me here after what happened yesterday...
as you have known, I killed them... I killed those men.
just for you know I did that to save my brothers. although I've known that we're not related by blood they are still and forever will be my brothers.
Those men was about to kill them if I don't take my action...
I wonder how will I ever get rid of my sin?]
Iemitsu remembered this one, 'so he's actually saving them?' he then felt even guiltier. Tsuna was saving his babies from those lunatics yet he gave him a strong-deadly kick to his gut.
[XX/XX/XXXX
someone came to my dream last night. he said that this thing has chose me to be its master. and like it or not I have to accept it...
I can't believe it at first. then again I already have the worse luck on my side so I shouldn't have shocked that this would ever happened to me. I'm living till this second already a mirracle to me anyway, I should be gratefull...
well then, this is me now...
I'm the new -]
the rest of it got tainted with blood.
"blood?" Basil questioned as he flip the next page, the bloodstain is even wider on it.
he then flipped and flipped until it hit where it has the most bloodstain while the next page got nothing. he then read the clean page.
This page has a shaken writing on it...
[XX/XX/XXXX
I-I'm so sorry Kaito... I've tainted you with my dirty blood.
I can't help it... They keep on coming out from my mouth as I gagged up since this morning. Looks like the curse is getting me...
looks like I'm going to leave much earlier than I though...
that means I have to move faster or else I could have died before I achieve any of my aim...
I wish I have enough time...]
"Curse? what curse?" Reborn asked. this topic is getting his anxiousity. and having Reborn to actually worry over something never meant for anything good.
both of Iemitsu and Basil can only shooked indicating that the don't know.
They keeps on reading each pages until it hits the last page...
this one has both bloodstain and tearstain on it...
[XX/XX/XXXX
Hi again Kaito... it's been a while huh?
many things happened ever since you're in my care... bad and good things...
Everything seems to goes in a flash. without me realizing we've reach your last page as well the last time I ever write on you...
I deeply sorry but I might not remember you after this...
the war has over. Akira is dead. but I have to leave...
I have a problem of my own now, and I believe no one other than me could help, and that's exactly why I have to leave...
I hope you'll understand...
well then see you late my bestfriend, Thankyou for everything... Sayonara...]
and that is how it ended...
Iemitsu has broken in tears while Basil can only bit his lower lips trying not to give in. Tsuna's wounds... he write it correctly till the point where they could feel how deep his pain.
only Reborn who manage not to shred a tear, because even Leon the Chameleon cried!
"Tsuna... is his name right?" Reborn asked. Iemitsu nodded still crying in guilt. "what a poor boy..." Reborn commented.
just then a paper fell down from between the pages.
it looks like an essay.
Reborn pick it up.
the contain is indeed an essay about a poem. by the looks of it Tsuna made this one based on his own life story. and It goes like this...
[===A Little Happiness Within This sorrowful Life===
Hush now my dear...
one's don't waste your tears on me knowing that my life's end is near.
For I have been able to know the sweet promise's of the spring, the blazing flame's of the summer, the crisp taste's of the fall, and the chilling embrace's of the winter.
And although I am young I am wiser beyond my years, as I have seen the eternal dance of the moon and sun come and go.
So please don't shed nor waste your beautiful sweet tears on me my dear...
one's for when my breath halts and my eye's light fade's, my tears halt and my pain cease's to exist.
Know this my dear...
one's I leave you all of my word's idea's, feeling's and my undying loyalty and love.
And although it may seem impossible even at the darkest of times my only wish for you my dear, one's is smile and find a little happiness within this sorrowful life...]
once he finished reading, gust of memories rushed into his head. his memories...
moments that they shared with him...
every seconds, every smile that he showed...
his angelic soul and those heavenly foods, how could they ever forget?
Sawada Tsunayoshi, their angel... he's silently screaming for their help while having those burden upon himself, not grumping even once...
Tears can be seen from Reborn's eyes... THE Reborn cried...
he cried and doesn't mind about it as he felt guilty for Tsuna...
"I'm Sorry Tsuna! I'm so sorry!-"
-that night, the forest witnessed on how the number one hitman and the CEDEF headchief cried and mourn over an angelic boy namely Sawada Tsunayoshi...
Meanwhile with everyone else...
since Reborn manage to broke the seal that Tsuna created, everyone is having their memories back...
either it was through the dream, a de ja vu, or any other ways, they lead to one conclision and that is...
They all remembered him...
They remembered Tsuna...
and now either they were sleeping or not, everyone who knows Tsuna are crying while calling his name all night long...
(A/N : the poem belongs to my friend, .3 and also I got help for the diary entry from my friend on wattpad, Sadia276! ^-^)