Distance and confusion
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Shizuo leaned against the railing lightly banging his head. Both Izaya and Kanra were suspicious of him. That look of hurt was one he had never wanted to see on the teen's face. "What the hell am I doing?" The blond growled exhaling smoke in front of him. It wasn't fair on either one of his lovers.
The phone in his pocket vibrated again and since both his of his lovers were in the apartment it could only be one of two people. Sliding his hand into his back pocket Shizuo held his phone glaring at the screen. Accepting the call Shizuo barked down the phone before the other person could get a word in. "I'll be there soon." Ending the call he turned around hearing the door open.
"What do you want, flea?" Izaya stood there without a word his head tilted slightly. Shizuo knew he was being analysed. Gritting his teeth and stubbing his cigarette the blond let the butt fall.
"What's going on, Shizu-chan? You're not a very good liar. Kanra thinks you're cheating on us, that's why she's so upset." Cheating? Is that what they really thought?
"What about you?" His actions would maybe give that idea but cheating? He loved both Izaya and Kanra. "Do you think I'm cheating?"
"Do you think I would allow you to? You're mine, Shizu-chan." The flea smirked hands in his pockets.
"Whatever. I have stuff to do." Walking past his forearm was grabbed sharp crimson staring into his own.
"Why don't you stop acting like the lone wolf and ask for my help? You do need it, right?" Shizuo bit his lip shrugging the hand away.
"This isn't something you could help with, Izaya."
x-x-x
Kanra sat at her desk eyes fixed on the door. Izaya had gone to talk to Shizuo. Clasping her shaking hands together she knew there was nothing to do but wait. Izaya and Shizuo had known each other longer. She could be wrong accusing her lover of something he hadn't done. It hurt to think that the trust between them was breaking.
Reaching up Kanra clenched her fingers in her long dark locks slowly pulling it forward until the wig fell onto the desk, the fake locks spiralling over the keyboard. Closing her eyes the trainee informant leaned back against the chair resisting the urge to run out and eavesdrop. She had told Izaya her fears, it was now up to him to deal with them.
Her own demons were lurking closer, Shiki's tempting offer not far from her mind. The only ones that she held dear in her knew life was Izaya and Shizuo, if they didn't love her any more...then why should she stay? Why suffer at wearing constricting panties every day? But they did love her, the ravenette knew it with absolution. "Help me, Iza-nii."
The yakuza had offered her what she most desired. Why couldn't there be a single day without the frills and girlie clothing? No. She shouldn't think like that. It was for her own sake, her own protection from those that had once before destroyed her life and would set out to do so again.
x-x-x
Izaya closed his eyes hearing the door slam shut behind him. The protozoan wasn't cheating on them he had known as soon as he had seen the brute's expression. Perhaps he had been too quick to judge angered at how it had upset their younger lover. It wasn't like him to do so, proof that his whole world was becoming just Shizu-chan and Kanra.
Even so something was wrong, something the bottle blond couldn't tell them about. Either way he was going to find out what was wrong. Opening his eyes Izaya turned on his heel pulling open the thick door and making his way back to his apartment. It wouldn't do well to keep Kanra waiting, especially after she had met with Shiki.
"Kanra, I'm back." Opening the door he could see the girl slouched in the chair head in her arms. Closing the door softly behind him the informant sighed crossing the room. Slipping between the gap in the desks Izaya crouched down brushing the short dark bangs out of the way. "You shouldn't sit like this, it will damage your back." He lightly scolded.
The teen nodded slowly looking tired. "Where is Shizuo?" Izaya sighed not too sure how to answer.
"I don't know. Something urgent came up. Kanra, he's not cheating. Shizu-chan isn't the type to." It surprised him how much conviction there was in his own words. The protozoan would never betray them.
"T-Then what is he doing? Why is he sneaking around?" The teen sniffed sitting up and demanding answers. Izaya said nothing scooping up the wig and balancing it on the tips of his fingers.
"I don't know yet. Whatever it is I don't like it." The informant wanted nothing better to do than march straight to the hotel the brute's so important guest was staying at and demand to know the truth. He hated it when he didn't have the answers. The problem was Kanra. Izaya couldn't leave her on her own.
"Can we go to the hotel? Shizuo's guest should still be there." Wordlessly Izaya nodded seeing the gleam in his lover's gaze. Before the blond was declared innocent the other secret would have to be revealed.
x-x-x
Shizuo sighed miserably trudging along the asphalt. A car had been offered to pick him up yet he had declined not wanting to spend any longer with them unless it was necessary. It was funny how gangs challenged him or tried to ambush him normally. That was why he was walking in the shadows of alleys keeping out of sight. A single scratch on his face and everything would be ruined.
Slowing his steps his nose twitched in disgust. Gritting his teeth the fortissimo spotted two teens exchanging money and something else. Stupid idiots throwing their lives away. Storming up to the pair Shizuo grabbed the older of the pair the one who now held the money while the other ran free only for the blond to trip him up. "What the hell are you doing?"
The teen grinned sheepishly giving him cock sure attitude. "What's it to you old man? You want some?" As soon as he locked eyes on the mysterious package Shizuo hit the roof lifting the now scared teen by his throat. "Where did you get it?"
x-x-x
Kanra clung to her lover's arm as they neared the hotel in question. Whatever was inside or whoever was inside was something Shizuo had tried to hide. "Iza-nii, is this right?"
"What do you mean?"
"Shouldn't we wait for Shizuo to tell us?" Even as her conscience made a stand her legs continued moving in sync with Izaya's.
"That stubborn protozoan won't tell us." Izaya laughed bitterly. "He wouldn't want to get you in any trouble. As for me I guess some feelings from the past remain."
Kanra blinked shaking her head. "Shizuo loves you, there's no way he has any hatred any more." Shizuo loved the both of them whole heartedly, didn't he? Either their lover would be in that hotel room or they would come face to face with the one that had Shizuo on edge.
The doors slid open the hotel sign bright above them. Guilt ate away at his nerves. Thanks to Izaya he was used to prying into people's personal lives, just not those that he cared about. "Its too late to go back now. You still doubt Shizu-chan, right?" Wordlessly Kanra nodded following Izaya inside.
x-x-x
"You're late!" Shizuo sighed not surprised. The idiot was beginning to seriously to piss him off. "Get changed." Closing his eyes the blond let himself be ushered into the room a white curtain pulled across. Glancing down he chuckled lightly. No one had noticed that the clothes he wore were still in perfect condition.
Everything was all ready for him hanging up on their individual hangers and labelled. Checking his phone Shizuo closed his eyes seeing that he had no messages or missed calls. The flea hadn't really answered him. It was possible that Izaya thought he was cheating. Both of them doubted him, it didn't matter about his feelings for them.
"Damn it." Dropping his head in his hands Shizuo closed his eyes trying not to think about the current situation. Everything was out of control and not even his brute strength would solve it. The curtain was yanked back harshly the angry man staring at him.
X-x-x
Izaya hid a smile thinking about how cute his adorable younger love was. The teen was holding his hand staring at the floor. If he pointed out that it was Kanra's idea to come here...shaking his head the informant pushed the thought out of his head. It wouldn't do any good to tease either of his lovers with the way things were.
For now he needed to hold himself in check until everything went back to normal. Taking the stairs two at a time Izaya's sharp eyes followed the numbers on the doors. "It's here." Kanra mumbled holding tighter to him. There were no texts or messages on his phone, Kanra was the same looking disheartened.
Knocking loudly on the door they waited. Inside the room he could hear a loud thud a single voice. The door flew open the single occupent staring at them in confusion. "Eh?" Kanra blinked looking up at him for answers. Aoba's words came back to him. That's the problem with you and Shizuo, you don't realise that people you care about can be harmed.
Taking control Izaya stepped inside pushing the hooded figure back before he could run. He didn't need to be an informant to know what was wrong. Hollow eyes and sunken cheeks said it all. The quiet hero was once again protecting someone. "You're not n-"
Izaya glared at the source of their unease. "No, I'm not. What have you done to yourself?" The grey hood was pulled up the figure shrinking back against the sofa hiding behind the mess scattered over the table.
x-x-x
"Okay, hold it there." Click. "Move a bit to the left. A bit more." Like a marionette his body moved as instructed. Click. "Almost done." Click. Click. "Maybe unbutton the top few buttons. I'm sure your manager won't have any arguments, Yuuhei." Shizuo said nothing undoing the first button. Any further and the scar on his chest would be revealed. "Okay, change outfits."
Pushing himself up Shizuo walked away from the set up catching his reflection in the large mirror. Pretending to be someone you're not, he knew all too well what it felt like. At least his situation was hopefully temporary. Mikado was stuck as he was. "Yuuhei! Why are you spacing out?"
Shizuo glanced at his brother's manager the man who had single handily got him caught up in modelling. It was supposed to be Kasuka up there having his picture taken. As it was he was reduced to sitting or kneeling so his taller height didn't give him away. Closing his eyes the fortissimo took a deep breath breathing out slowly. His brother's career hung in the balance. The moment he stepped out of line everything would come tumbling down.
x-x-x
Kanra shrank back not liking the way the hooded figure was staring at him unseeing. Izaya was standing protectively in front of her. "Well Kasuka-kun? What have you done?" It was unbelievable that the actor his lover had been so proud of was reduced to a shell huddled on the sofa biting nervously at his too short nails.
"Where's nii-san? I want nii-san, he promised he wouldn't leave me alone. He promised." Kasuka muttered. "I-I changed my mind. I want my money back. I can be good, I'll be sensible. I-I won't buy any more. I- I can stay clean. "
"Iza-nii." Taking a step back the raven didn't look at her eyes focused on the not quite stable actor.
"Kanra. Go and call Shinra. Get Celty to come and pick Kasuka-kun up." Her eyes widened seeing Izaya's expression. With a shudder she drew out her phone quickly selecting the correct number. "Shizu-chan shouldn't be dealing with this on his own." Kanra nodded in agreement feeling guilty at the relief in her heart.