Chapter Four - Stinging sensation

"What are you doing here?" His low gruff voice sounded angry. I gulped.

I could feel my eyes widen as I remember everything about this man that Sam and Dean told me. An angel of the lord who is currently on the lookout for God himself. I could feel my mouth getting dry at the thought of there actually being a God. There was a few seconds of silence before Sam's voice interrupted it. "Do you know her?"

Another beat of silence. I looked over to Dean whose face was scrunched with confusion as his eyes darted between me and him, his eyes stopping on me. I could see a look of protection, but not in a way to protect me, but him and his brother. I could see his fingers twitch towards the nightstand instinctively where the demon blade was resting. He looked at me as something foreign again, and I don't like it.

"Yes…and No. I am unsure." The angel's voice echoed through the room as he looked towards Sam. "Unsure? How can you be unsure if you know someone, Cas?" Dean boomed. I crossed my arms over my chest, waiting for more answers. His eyes went back to me, his feet planted. "I don't know you…but you seem…familiar to me." Just as quickly as his eyes snapped to me they snapped around the room to scan it. I let out a huffed sigh. "Well, thank you for clearing that up for me." I grumbled as I tuck my feet under me. "Okay, so…care to explain a little more to us, Sherlock?" Dean is starting to look more and more annoyed as seconds tick by. Castiel sighed and walked over to the other side of the room so he could better see us.

"How long has she been with you?" He muttered. "A couple weeks now. Could you not sense her?" Sam straightened up with curiosity. Castiel shook his head. "She seems to be protected. Almost warded." Dean looks at me then to Castiel. "Should we be worried?" He huffed. Castiel shrugged. "I honestly don't know." I looked between the three men and jumped off the couch startling Sam and Dean and feeling Castiel's gaze as I walk towards the fridge, open it and grab a beer. "Well, this was interesting, boys. Glad we have a whole other mystery on our hands." I slam the fridge door and pop open the beer tab, taking a giant gulp. "I mean, don't we have enough on our plates? Who cares if I am protected or warded or whatever. Right now our biggest problem is Lucifer. Not. Me." I plunked back on the couch, my beer now half gone. Dean gave a half shrug before looking towards Castiel. "'Liv here has a point-" I cleared my throat. "Olivia." I stubbornly spit towards him. "Whatever." Dean groggily rubbed his eyes. I leaned my arm on my pillow, feeling the cover of my book under my elbow. I put my beer on the floor and I rest my other hand under the pillow. "That's true. Which I bring news. I found Zachariah, and he-" Just as I touched my fingertips to the spine of the book, Castiel immediately got cut off with him covering his ears, looking to be in pain and if he hears an ear shattered noise as he crouched. "CAS!" Both the boys shouted and leaped to either side of him. I jumped up and the moment I did, he stopped panting and uncovered his ears. He looked around the room as if trying to find something. "Cas, what's going on?" Dean shouted.

"Something's in here…" Castiel was still catching his breath. In one quick moment all of us were tearing apart the room. Sam and Dean were anxiously trying to get answers out of Castiel as he stood there just shaking his head. I picked up my bag looking through for anything out of the ordinary…hex bags, charms, just something. I picked up my pillow and lifted my book to look in the cushions of the couch when I heard Castiel shout in pain again. His eyes darted to my hand and with both hands over his ears and shouted, "It's the book!" I dropped my book onto the couch hoping to stop his pain. He looked relieved once my possession wasn't touching me anymore. Sam and Dean looked as confused as I felt. "The book?" Dean turned to Castiel. "A God damn book is making you practically bleed from your ear canals?!" Dean's voice was getting louder with annoyance.

"Bring it here…but don't touch it." Castiel demanded. I looked at my book. "Promise I can keep it still?" I whispered. I looked towards Castiel, catching Dean's glance. His expression of annoyed and confused has now turned softer as he looked at me. "I can try to keep that promise as long as it means no harm." Castiel said carefully. I pursed my lips as I grabbed my blanket and wrapped it around my book. I walked towards Castiel, holding it close. He gestured towards the table. I gave my book a gentle squeeze before laying it front of him. He carefully peeled back the blanket, revealing the tattered name plate and dark brown cover. Castiel pursed his lips as he slowly went to touch it. Sam and Dean took a step towards him, ready to strike if necessary. Castiel's finger lightly touched the book and…nothing. Absolutely nothing happened. His face, which was already creased with confusion, wrinkled more. He gestured towards Sam and Dean to try. They both touched it hesitantly before looking back at Castiel, who hasn't budged. Once he deemed safe, He immediately started flipping through pages. I crossed my arms, rocking my weight to my right foot. "Yeah, please, be my guest." I spat towards him.

"Almost looks like a journal…" Sam said, fascinated by the contents. I could see his eyes moving left to right as fast as they could as Castiel flipped through and scanned. Dean's eyebrows knit together as he looked at the gruesome, hand drawn pictures of creatures. His eyes darted to me in question before looking back at the pages. They both knew I had the book, but I never opened it in front of them. Castiel got to the back cover and traced his fingers along the inside of the spine.

"There's missing pages. Why?" He demanded.

"Page 332 can be squashed under my shoe!" Ashley, a much taller than me seventeen year old dangled my book above me as I leaped trying to grab it. She laughed as she ripped the pages I haven't studied yet and stomped it into the mud. The brittle pages almost disintegrating from the amount of moisture in the mud from a previous rain. "Page 334 can be no more!" She taunted as she ripped another page and crumpled it in her hand and used her teeth to shred it into pieces. I felt hot tears streak down my face as I continued to jump and holler, trying to claw at her skin but she just would push me into the dirt. She started hastily ripping out the last few pages scattering them. I tried to scramble to pick up the pages but I could see the ink fading as each page hit a puddle. When she was satisfied she hurled the book at me. I caught it with an "oomph" and landed on my butt in the mud. I looked up as she hovered over me. "That book is all you will ever have…how does it feel to have it ripped from you?" She sneered. I hugged the book tight and felt my tears rushing down to my chin. "Oh, stop being such a fucking cry baby all the time. Someday, you're going to have to learn to fight back." She put a hand on her hip. "How about we start today. Lesson one; Think fast." Before I knew it I saw her fist hurling towards my eye.

"They were taken from me before I could read them." I mumbled, rubbing my right eye. Sam frowned. "So you have no idea what was on it?" I shook my head. "Go to the last current page." I pointed at the page as Castiel flipped it. "The last thing I have is the start of Angels. I only know that they are brothers and Sisters and children of God. But it cuts off at that. I never had more information, so I guess I never really chose to believe it. About a dozen pages were ripped out of it, so who knows what it said."

"A journal about Angels? Who else knew about all of this…" Sam gestured towards other pages filled with creatures. "AND angels?" He sounded puzzled and I just shrugged. There was a silence as Castiel wrapped it up and handed it back to me. "Keep it safe. I am still unsure of it. And uh…do me a favor and don't touch it while I am around please." He grumbled. I chuckled as I took it back and slipped it under my pillow. I could hear Sam and Dean talking to Castiel but I drowned it out. My book is all I have from my childhood, or even all I have of where I came from. What if it's actually dangerous? I slipped on my shoes and started towards the door.

"Hey, Where you going?" Sam called out. "Just to get some fresh air…" Who knows if they heard me though, because the door closed before I could finish.

Dean POV

Sam looked at me as the door shut. "I guess I'll go after her." I said I slipped on my shoes and with a sudden whoosh Castiel was gone. I sighed. Can't he ever say goodbye? I shoot Sam an 'I'll be back soon' look before walking outside. I flip through my car keys, ready to drive around to find her but I didn't have to look far. From the corner of my eye I saw her sitting on the sidewalk of the building not too far away. I walk over to her noticing she's deep in thought. I clear my throat, making her look up to me. "Mind if I join you?" I gesture towards the sidewalk next her. She shrugs and pats the spot next to her as I crouch down, resting my elbows on my knees. "You okay?" I watch her face. Her hair moves slightly as a small breeze comes through. She tucks her hair behind her ear. "That book was always the only thing I had…I didn't find it though until I was old enough to try to snoop through my box of files. Apparently I was dropped off at the orphanage only a few weeks old, with that book." She looked towards the stars. "The orphanage leader didn't think it was important for me to have it. I found it though. I was always curious from a young age." She chuckled as she brought her knees up closer. "You know…When I first found that book there was a letter written to me. It said that the book was meant for me to learn and to become something amazing. I believed it when I was young…but then I got a harsh look on reality. I thought the book had something more and I had given up on it." I watch her closely as I see the emotions running through her eyes as she looks towards me. I couldn't look away from her eyes though, no matter where she looked. "I had a dream that the letter was from my parents and that they would find me…boy did that get crushed." Giving a small chuckle I clear my throat and I speak up, "Ain't that the truth…" She gave a small smile and looked back towards the sky. "Tonight just kind of…kindled those feelings again. With how Castiel reacted to that book…Something HAS to be special about it, right?" It almost looked as if she was pleading towards the stars. A lot of things don't make sense to me. She's warded first of all and we have no clue who would have done it and why. She has some sort of connection with this book of lore and to top it all off Lucifer still wants my brothers' head, or rather, body.

Now, I don't know what to do. Everything is screaming at me currently to try to comfort her. And the past few weeks, that's how I've felt. I find myself starring at her, thinking about her, and I even almost made her stay back from a hunt so she wouldn't get hurt. My gut keeps telling me to protect her, but I know she can protect herself just fine. Every time I get these feelings, I try to suppress them back. Hoping I could ignore it so I can focus on bigger matters on our hands. Plus, I don't want to get in her line of fire if I overstep anything. I sigh. "Listen. I honestly don't know. And to tell you the truth, this whole scenario is freaking me out a little bit." I mumble so as not to wake anyone. She dropped her eyes to the ground. Shit, I hate this. Trying to lighten the mood a bit I soften my tone. "Listen, what I can say is… We will try to figure out what's going on the best we can and we will do it together. That's all I can promise." There was a second of silence before she looked back at me and gave me a grin. "Thanks, Dean." She stood up, using my arm for something to push off of. Her hand was on me only for a second, but the moment it left my skin still felt hot. I shook my head, clearing all of the feelings away as I follow her inside. "Wait up, 'Liv." She turned around quickly. "How many goddamn times do I have to remind you not to call me that?!"

Whew! This chapter was long over due and I am so sorry for that late update! I had a busy couple weeks, but don't worry I haven't and will not forget this story!

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