Say my name
A/N:- Last chapter.
Lunch was uncomfortable. Mikado wanted to leave before they'd even left the hotel. It was supposed to be the four of them and then Kasuka had forcibly joined them. He wasn't sure what was worse, the animosity between Izaya and the retired actor or the dreadful silence between Shizuo and Kasuka. The heavy atmosphere weighed upon his shoulders, sealing his mouth shut. A sense of powerlessness swept over him watching the others. It was choking. Mikado shuddered keeping his hands in a vice grip on the table edge.
His gaze fell to Shizuo's bandaged hand. Another injury. He'd used his strength. The one thing that would give them away. There was no one like the fortissimo. Shizuo was sitting in silence staring blankly at the menu in front of them. Izaya and Kasuka were glaring daggers at one another but the raven was smiling and Kasuka's face was stone. Mikado looked down at the menu, moving to pick it up. His fingers brushed it too far forward sending it skittering under the table.
"Mikado?" Izaya looked at him. Mikado took in a few precious shuddering breaths. "Everything okay?"
"T-toilet." He croaked sliding from his seat. His eyes scammed the outer room for the men's toilets, his feet carried him away from the oppressive table.
Hurrying through the doors, the teen ran forward bending over the sink. Forcing his head up he looked in the mirror at his reflection. Kanra stared back just as uneasy.
"Why didn't you try to help?" Mikado asked feeling drained.
"In that? You've gotta be kidding." Kanra gasped. "What the hell happened?"
"I don't know. We knew Kasuka wouldn't like us but what happened to Shizuo?"
"Why don't we ask Izaya-nii?"
"When we're alone." Mikado cringed at the thought of rejoining them. He was out of his league. "Maybe we should go back to the hotel. This isn't the place for us."
"We can't leave Izaya alone to fight for Shizuo."
"Mikado?" The door opened and in walked Shizuo. "You okay?"
"Nn." Mikado nodded. The two of them hadn't been alone. Not like him and Izaya.
"Of course not," Kanra snapped. "Don't you feel how suffocating it is out there?"
"Kanra." Mikado hissed.
"...she's right." Shizuo said quietly. "Sorry. I'll take you back to the hotel."
Mikado felt weak. He stared at Shizuo's held out hand. "I don't want to go back. Maybe we could go for a walk instead?"
"Now isn't really a good time."
Mikado hung his head.
"Mikado...Kanra, I'll be your shield. Stay for lunch. You can sit next to me."
"Shi-"
"Shh." Shizuo glanced at the open cubicles. "No names. Not even when you think you're alone."
Mikado nodded guilty. He should have thought about that. "What do I call you then?"
"Whatever you want." Shizuo shrugged.
"...okay. Did something happen?"
Shizuo's eyes were shrouded in shadow, his bangs down, mouth set in a pained line. "I heard you."
"Heard me?" Mikado asked oblivious. He hadn't said anything bad about Shizuo.
"Yeah. I need to think some stuff through." Shizuo left the bathroom and Mikado trailed behind him.
When they reached the table, Izaya and Kasuka were still shooting daggers and trying to kill each other in their minds. Shizuo sat down, patting the seat beside him. In their booth Kasuka now sat alone.
"Nii-san?"
"Has anyone ordered?" Shizuo asked.
"Nope." Izaya leaned back slightly more relaxed. "Let's see."
Mikado glanced over his own menu. Shizuo took his hand giving it a soft squeeze. "How did you sleep last night?"
"Like a baby." Izaya grinned. "He curled up on the bed and stayed asleep until morning."
"No nightmares?"
Mikado smiled. "None."
x-x-x
Hatred was a powerful tool but so was indifference. Izaya watched over his lovers, satisfied Shizuo and Mikado's hands were joined. Kasuka was stewing across the table, he couldn't place himself next to his brother now that Shizuo was sitting between him and the teen.
Around him he could hear the sound of something breaking. Kasuka would lose his brother because of his lies. He hated what the decision would do to the protozoan but it didn't look like there would be another way. To be together they'd had to make sacrifices, discarding everything they knew and loved. They had each other. As long as they had that bond, everything would be fine.
"Nii-san, what do you want to order?"
"Whatever."
Izaya frowned flicking through the dessert menu. "Shizu-chan, why don't you go back to the hotel? Mikado and I can order the food and bring it back."
"That's-yeah. Your room?"
"See you there." Izaya smiled reaching to pat his hand.
Mikado slid from the booth, standing to let Shizuo past. "Nii-san, I'll come too."
Izaya watched them go. His fists clenched. "What happened?" Mikado asked sitting next to him.
"Shi- he's gone to say goodbye to Kasuka."
"He made his choice?"
"No. Kasuka made it." Izaya sighed. "Our protozoan fell into an old habit after finding a certain device with our sentiments."
"Oh."
"Yeah. Oh."
x-x-x
"Nii-san, wait up." Kasuka called running after him. Shizuo kept walking his fists stuffed in his pockets. It wasn't until they reached their hotel room that he sat on the bed, he'd been sleeping in for the past week and looked at his brother.
"I'm not your brother." He said softly.
"Nii-san, whatever those two said about me, they're-"
"I found the phone." Shizuo interrupted. "You saw how much I was hurting. You knew everyday I sat waiting for them. You kept their messages from me."
"Nii-san-"
"You gave them the wrong address!" Shizuo shook his head. "This entire week has been hell."
"I was protecting you." Kasuka said. "They hurt you. They were going to do it again."
"No, Kasuka. The only one that hurt me was you. I thought I'd been abandoned. I'm never going to be able to make this up to them. Mikado suffered through nightmares." Shizuo hung his head. "Why would you try and ruin my happiness?"
"I need you, nii-san."
"No, you don't. I'm not your brother, Kasuka. Shizuo Heiwajima died back in Ikebukuro."
"That was-"
"I don't know who I am yet but I'm not your brother. Not any more."
"You don't mean that!" Kasuka cried crumbling at his knees. Shizuo stared down at him. "I love you, nii-san. Please stay with me. If it's about those two-"
"It's not. The flea has lost everything. He's given everything up to be with us. I have to do the same."
"No!" Kasuka shook his head, tears streaming down his cheeks. "Don't leave me. I don't have anyone else either."
"Yes, you do." Shizuo said softly swiping his thumb against Kasuka's cheek. "You have your identity. You have your life and our connections back in Ikebukuro. Go home, Kasuka. Mourn me like the rest and live your own life."
"Nii-san, please." Kasuka begged clutching his leg.
"Let me go, Kasuka. You shouldn't be holding onto a ghost." Shizuo swallowed past the lump in his throat.
"You're still my-"
"I'm not." Shizuo smoothed back Kasuka's bangs, placing a kiss against his forehead. "Goodbye, little brother." Shizuo stood up prying Kasuka away from him. He managed to make it from the room before breaking. Taking the card key from his pocket he made it to Izaya and Mikado's room before crumbling to the floor overwhelmed with grief.
x-x-x
Mikado found Shizuo on the floor. He opened the door rushing to the man's side. "Shizuo?" Izaya followed in setting the bag down.
"Help me get him on the bed." Izaya closed the door, crouching to lift the unconscious Shizuo. Mikado helped as much as he could, the two of them lowering him onto the bed. Izaya pulled the covers out from underneath him, resting them on top.
"It's done?" Mikado asked quietly.
"Looks like it." Izaya answered looking worried. "Leave him sleep."
Mikado nodded dividing their food up. He left Shizuo's wrapped on the bedside table. Izaya sat cross legged on the bed, laptop in hand.
"Izaya, do Kanra and I need to change our names too?"
"No. You two can stay as you are." Izaya said without looking up.
"Why is it taking so long?" Mikado asked curiously.
"I have to build a background. If anyone gets curious and starts digging, they'll need a trail. We can't just pop up out of existence."
"So it's not just choosing a name?"
"That's the easy part. The hard part is giving the name life." Izaya explained. "In high school classmates know each other by their surnames. I've picked a school and a class for both of us."
"But you'd have to have the same surname?" Mikado asked.
"Right. That's why I've researched the most common names. Shizu-chan was one of three in his class and eleventh in the whole school. There's probably more but I don't need to go that far. I'm one of two and sixth in the whole school."
"I get it. You're hiding in plain sight."
"Yeah. Mikado, you don't need to change your first name but your last name-"
"Needs to change." Kanra finished. "Me too, right?"
"Yeah. That is if you are separate to each other." Izaya watched them.
"We're separate." Mikado confirmed.
"Totally separate."
"Okay. It would be weird if all four of us had the same name. So we'll do it as two married couples living together."
"Is that possible?" Mikado asked. "My mother is going to have a fit if she finds out I'm married."
"You're not. Kanra is. We'll get married at a later date. That way your mother can see her only child walk down the aisle."
"And maybe she won't hate Shizuo any more." Mikado smiled.
"Hopefully. Kanra your name is now Kanra Sato."
"Sato? What's Shizuo's name?" Kanra asked.
"Yuki Sato." Izaya grinned.
Mikado looked back at Shizuo's sleeping face. "What's yours?" He asked dreading the answer.
"Ren Suzuki."
"So I'll be Mikado Suzuki." Mikado murmured.
"Yep. I'll buy you a ring later."
x-x-x
"Yuki-chan." Shizuo opened his eyes seeing Izaya laying on top of him, head rested on his folded arms. "Good evening, Yuki-chan. That was a long sleep."
Shizuo registered the name. "Oh hell no."
"Yep," the flea grinned. "Your new name is Yuki Sato."
"Do I look like a Yuki to you? Where the hell did you pull that name from?"
"A list of the most popular boys names in Japan. I think it's cute."
"I'm not cute. Pick another."
"Nope." Izaya backed away. "Hurry and eat something. Your lunch got cold. The sun is setting so we're going to the observatory soon."
Shizuo grumbled sitting up. "What do I call you then?"
"Ren Suzuki."
"Huh."
Izaya frowned. "What?"
"It's surprisingly normal."
"It has to be." Shizuo nodded.
x-x-x
Shizuo stood at the reception desk. The receptionist smiled. "I'm afraid your brother checked out an hour ago."
"Right." Of course he had. Kasuka had listened to him. "We'll be leaving tomorrow." Shizuo sighed. "And my name is Y-Yuki Sato."
"Ah, I guessed completely wrong." The receptionist smiled. "I'm Eva Wakaba."
Shizuo nodded. "I'll remember it."
"I'd be honoured." Eva smiled. "Your boyfriends are waiting."
"Yu-ki-chan~" Izaya's voice called out.
Shizuo grit his teeth together. "I'm going to kill him."
"Yu-ki-chan~"
Shizuo lowered his head cutting across the reception to the door. His cheeks flared. Behind him he could hear Izaya's laughter.
"Shut up, Iz-"
"Ah ah ah." Izaya chided pressing a finger against his lips. "It's Ren-kun. You can say that, can't you? Get used to it Yuki-chan, it's who we are now."
Shizuo sighed. "This is my punishment, right?"
"What would we punish you for, Yuki-chan?" Izaya shrugged. "Come on. Mikado has been waiting patiently to see this."
"Um, Y-Yuki. Are you okay?"
Shizuo deflated. He hadn't thought Izaya's name calling could get much worse. "Not really."
"Relax, it's just a name. Ren-nii named me and now he's named you." Kanra grinned. "Careful Mikado, you might be next."
"My name is already weird." Mikado cried.
"It's the name your parents gave you." Shizuo sighed ruffling the teen's hair.
"You're right, Yuki." Mikado murmured. Shizuo groaned looking pleadingly at Izaya.
"I can't change your name, Yuki-chan. I thought you'd like it. It makes you sound harmless."
Before their eyes the tower lit up, a beacon lighting their way. Mikado's eyes became wide pools of wonder. "Come on, the best view is up there."
"Nn." Mikado smiled taking his hand.
x-x-x
They were so high up. Mikado looked around in wonder. Above their heads were rows of round lanterns all lit up. Looking down he could see a small portion was glass, showing the view below.
"Look." He grabbed Izaya and Shizuo's attention. Izaya grinned enjoying the view as much as he was. Shizuo paled taking a step back.
"What's wrong, Yuki-chan? Fear of heights?"
"No. It just doesn't look safe."
"It's perfectly safe." Izaya grinned standing up. "Look." Izaya jumped on the glass.
"Flea!" Shizuo pulled him away keeping him locked within his arms.
"It was perfectly safe, protozoan."
"Not when I'm around, it's not." Shizuo murmured.
"Alright, I'll stay away from dangerous things." Izaya nuzzled back in Shizuo's hold.
"Tch, you'll try."
Mikado smiled moving across the spacious deck. It was as if the display had been set out for them alone. At one of the many windows, his hands pressed against the glass, gasping at the view. The moon gave a soft glow to the tops of the buildings, their own lights making them prominent.
"It's beautiful." Kanra breathed.
"If you're into that sort of thing." Shizuo commented standing at his side.
"It's only the first of many." Izaya grinned with a twirl. "This is where we'll be."
"What do you mean?" Mikado asked.
"Tomorrow we'll leave and go back to Saitama, where I can arrange for the official hard copy documents of our identifies. When that's done, you and I can get married. We'll go travelling wherever you want to and then we'll come back here to Tokyo. What better place to hide?"
"Hang on, flea. That's if the kid wants to. You can't make plans for other people."
"I want to." Mikado nodded. "You're married to Kanra. It's only fair I get Iz-Ren."
Shizuo shrugged. "As long as it's what you want."I guess we'd stick out too much in a small town."
"Exactly. You're learning, Yuki-chan."
"Shut it, flea."
x-x-x
They stayed until just before midnight when the tower closed. Izaya led them back to the hotel. He'd been worried on the effect Kasuka leaving would have but it seemed he didn't have to be. Shizuo was more concerned with their safety being so high up. It was sweet really, considering he'd dealt with higher heights.
Shizuo's belongings had been cleared from Kasuka's hotel room and moved to theirs. Upon their return they had seen the bag on the bed. Shizuo said nothing claiming the need for a shower. Izaya let him go. There was no need to worry, not any more.
Mikado stood beside the bed glancing at the bag awkwardly. The last obstacle to their relationship was gone. He should have expected the small portion of guilt left behind. "What are you thinking about?" Izaya asked.
Mikado looked at him with a sad smile. "You've both lost everything. This is my fault." So it wasn't only him.
"No, it's not. This was a conscious decision Yuki-chan and I made. I don't regret it."
"Really?"
"Really."
After Shizuo left the shower, Mikado took one and lastly himself. The bed was big enough to hold the three of them. The protozoan was on the right side with Mikado against him in the centre. Izaya took the left. His arms slid underneath the teen, one flopped over against Shizuo's. Izaya smiled. Everything was perfect again. Leaning over to give both his lover's a kiss, Izaya wished them goodnight and went to sleep.
x-x-x
Shizuo groaned at how hot his body was getting. Cracking one eye open he looked at the bulge underneath the covers, realising the warmth wasn't natural at all. Izaya grinned up at him, the raven nestled between his legs.
"What are you doing?"
"Sucking your dick."
"I can see that, Izaya. Why?" Shizuo grumbled.
"I thought you were supposed to always forget names, Yuki-chan?"
"Like I could forget yours."
"You need to." Izaya murmured around his shaft. "What better way to ingrain my new name into you, than this?"
Shizuo stared down at him. "Suppose so. Where's Mikado?"
"Gone to get breakfast."
"Couldn't you get room service?"
Izaya shrugged. "I wanted you alone."
"To molest me?" Shizuo asked.
"No, I can do that when they're here. I needed to talk to you."
"You can do that without attacking me."
"You like it."Izaya grinned.
"At least get my fucking consent." Shizuo grumbled without venom.
"Consent? Okay. Please Yuki-chan, can I suck your dick?"
Shizuo turned a dozen different shades of red, his mouth falling open at Izaya's shamelessness. He knew now he was in for perpetual teasing from the raven.
"Wha-"
Izaya sat back holding his hands up in a 'I won't do anything' gesture. "In all seriousness-"
"Since when are you serious?" Shizuo scoffed.
Izaya ignored his jibe. "Do you have any doubts about Kanra?"
"What do you mean?" Shizuo pulled a pillow out from behind his head, using it to give himself some modesty.
"Kanra and Mikado are happy to be treated as separate individuals. I need to know you're not going to do anything."
Shizuo sighed. "The kid's sick, Iz-"
"Ren." Izaya corrected. "What would you have me do? Send him to a shrink? Dose him up with pills that have way too many side effects? He may be sick but it's our fault."
"I know. I don't want that." Shizuo muttered. "I only want what's best for him."
"Then accept it. There's four of us in this relationship. There always has been."
"Fine. I get it. Was that it?"
Izaya shook his head. "No. How are you feeling about Kasuka?"
"Flea, I don't want to talk about it."
"Okay. I'm here when you do."
"I'm back." Mikado backed in through the door holding three stacked trays, one on top of the other. "Oh. Should we leave?"
"Nah. Damn flea tried to molest me in my sleep."
"Sounds like Izaya-nii."
"It's Ren now." Izaya sighed. "Leave the food over there and come here."
x-x-x
Mikado stared nervously at Shizuo. He wasn't sure if he still had reservations about Kanra. She was a part of him and he wouldn't let Shizuo hurt her. Inside him Kanra giggled, the two of them watching Izaya trying to snatch away the pillow, Shizuo was holding in place. Food forgotten he climbed onto the bed, hovering over Shizuo's mouth. Izaya huffed moving around to grab him.
"Fine. I'll play with Mikado and Kanra instead." Mikado liked the idea, his eyes on Shizuo as Izaya's hands glided along the skin under the blouse Kanra had forced him to wear. The raven's fingers rubbed, pinched and tweaked his sensitive nipples, reminding him just how long it had been since they'd last had sex.
His legs were open slightly giving Shizuo the view of his panties underneath the flimsy veil of the tights. Pressing back against Izaya, his head flew back in surprise. Shizuo's mouth was hot against him, tongue teasing as it tore through the material. Mikado moaned as Shizuo's tongue swiped over the silken covered bulge.
"Mikado, don't come yet." Izaya whispered pinching his ear with his teeth. Mikado nodded but when the silk was ripped away and Shizuo's mouth descended, he cried out covering his eyes with his hands.
"I'm so sorry, Shi-"
Izaya bit him, twisting one nipple in warning.
"Yuki." Mikado corrected. He needed to get used to their new names.
"Been a while, huh?" Shizuo wiped his face with his hand.
Mikado nodded feeling embarrassment flood him. Neither one of them said anything about it. Izaya licked a line down the column of his throat, nibbling softly. Shizuo lapped at the tip of his dick before taking the whole thing to the back of his throat.
"Ren, not there." Mikado panted.
Izaya grinned. "No lube."
"Don't care." Kanra answered.
"Okay, make sure you get them wet." Izaya's fingers eased into his mouth. Mikado grabbed his hand, sucking at the digits, coating them with his saliva. His eyes closed, thrusting Izaya's fingers back and forth. Izaya let him do as he pleased.
His hips bucked against Shizuo, pushing further into his mouth. Izaya chuckled pulling his fingers free. A wet trail glided down his back, Izaya's hand on his behind. Mikado jolted feeling the first press inside him.
Kanra cried out at the second. Both digits scissored inside him making his hole wet and slippery. "Yuki-chan, do you want to go first?" Mikado shivered at the look on Shizuo's eyes. Holding his legs open he smiled at his lover's body over his, the sharp pain in his ass and then everything was okay. Better than okay in fact. Mikado couldn't keep the stupid grin from his face. It was like old times. They'd taken their future back.
Mikado's nails clawed against Shizuo's back, his head in Izaya's lap rubbing against a hardened bulge. "Ren." The teen murmured fumbling with the button on Izaya's jeans.
Izaya did it for him, taking out his cock. Shizuo pulled out momentarily allowing him to roll onto his knees. "Ahn." Mikado moaned as it pushed back inside, his nose rubbing against Izaya's tip.
"Take your time." Izaya whispered.
Mikado shook his head impatiently. "I want you both."
"It'll hurt."
"Don't care. Now."
Izaya nodded humming a little as he sucked him off, imagining what it would feel like to have both of them inside. His dick twitched at the thought, earning a groan from behind him.
He was right. The two of them were being as gentle as possible but it still stung when Izaya joined Shizuo inside him. Mikado gave up flopping down on Izaya's chest as the pleasure overwhelmed him. He couldn't remember the last time he'd been reduced to a gibbering mess but he loved it. So did Kanra, writhing in their grasp.
Both of them cried out as they came. Izaya and Shizuo had found their rhythm again, groaning as they came together, flooding him with their hot warmth. Mikado couldn't move, couldn't find the strength to operate his mouth. His body was sated, too relaxed. Just as gently they pulled out gathering him against the pillows. Izaya smiled smoothing back a lock of hair poking out from under the wig. Shizuo ran a finger down his cheek.
Shizuo moved to get off the bed, Izaya grabbed his wrist pulling him back. "We're not done yet."
x-x-x
They were supposed to have left that morning. Morning became afternoon and the afternoon became evening. The four of them drowning in one another, over and over again, tracing every contour, every dimple. They reaffirmed their bonds over and over again until the only names they uttered were their new ones. They spent the night sleeping away, recovering from their exhaustion. Neither one of them remembered eating but they must have done since they weren't hungry or thirsty.
It was late morning when they finally left their room, carrying their bags through the lobby. The receptionist Eva gave them a smile and a wave as soon as she saw them. She was the unknown factor that knew the truth. They smiled back waving goodbye, leaving through the doors and into their future together, wherever it may lead.
End
A/N:- And we're done. Big thank you for all your support. I may just may do one last part. We'll see.
Revolution:- The honeymoon period is over and the bubble of reality bursts. They're back in Tokyo and it's time to settle down. It doesn't take long to realise their glaring flaws. Izaya is useless, Shizuo is in need of some serious anger management, Mikado is a high school dropout and Kanra is a free loader in more ways than one. With no friends or family to rely on, money is running out fast. To survive they'll need to learn to live as wolves in sheep's clothing and be normal.