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" I am going to kick her ass" Nikita replied defeated and Tom laughed.
Two hours had passed since the time that Alex left the room. Nikita was still frustated lying down on the bed, her right hand handcuffed and her face wet from the tears. Despite Tom's efforts to make her understand that Alex's actions were coming from pure concern and love, Nikita wanted explanations and she couldn't stop thinking that she was losing Alex all over again, but this time she didn't know why. Nikita sat up when she heard the door being opened and she sighed in relief when Alex stepped inside.
" What do you want this time?" Nikita asked hars unable to control her nerves.
" Easy, Nikita. I just want to treat your wounds. Turn around." Alex replied calmly trying to wipe from her voice the pain that the hars tone of Nikita had caused her.
Nikita not wanting to fight again, she obeyed and she turned around, face on the pillows.
Alex slowly walked towards her and knelt down, with careful, soft movements, she took care of Nikita's wounds. Without saying a single word, she stood up and she was about to walk away when Nikita took a hold of her hand and stopped her from leaving.
" Just tell me why. Tell me what upset you so much. Give me an explanation and I will stay under your commands. I will let you leave and I won't come after you if this is what you want, but please tell me why." Nikita pleaded.
Alex gave a pained look at Tom and then turned to Nikita. She looked in her eyes and her heart sank in coldness when she saw pain in them. She didn't know what to say or do. So she did the only thing that explained everything to her. She kissed Nikita's forehead gently.
" I want you to stay away from Amanda. No matter what she does, I want you to stay low for awhile" Alex whispered.
" That is not an explanation" Nikita argued.
" No, it isn't. But the kiss was" Alex said and hoped that Nikita would understand that she meant that she loved her.
" What explanation a kiss can held?" Nikita asked confused.
" The most honest and beautiful explanation" Tom replied her answer.
" Tom." Alex warned him and took her hand away from Nikita.
" Nikita do you promise that if I explain Alex's actions with verbal expression, you will stay low?" Tom ignored Alex's warning.
" No, she can't. She is too stubborn. Stay out of this, Tom, please" Alex replied before Nikita could form any kind of words.
Their heated conversation ended when they heard a knock on the door.
" Come in" Tom and Alex replied in union.
The door opened and Meredith stepped in.
" It is time" Meredith said to Alex and Tom immediately stood up and ran out of the room.
" I will leave you two alone" Alex stated and she was about to start walking out of the room when Meredith stopped her by placing a hand on her chest.
" Please, don't. I need you here" Meredith pleaded and stared at Alex's eyes.
Alex studied Meredith for awhile and then she nodded. She took a sit on the chair and brought her knees up and hugged them.
" I am not going anywhere if this is what you want" Alex replied softly.
Meredith turned her attention to Nikita, who was staring at her curiously.
" Can we talk?" Meredith asked with shaking voice.
" Of course." Nikita replied and gestured to Meredith to take a sit on the bed opposite to her.
" I am pretty sure that you have already understood that I have some problems with you." Meredith commented.
" I have hurt a lot of people in the past, innocent people sometimes. I am not proud of that and I am really sorry. Please tell me what I did to you" Nikita replied honestly. She knew that she had a dark past, she knew that she had hurt a lot of people, she had destroyed families and lifes and she didn't look foward to hear someone accuse her for her past. But she had to deal with her past and she was glad that Meredith had the courage to face her and give her the opportunity to apology, to wash her guilt.
Meredith slowly took out a picture of her pocket. It was a picture of a little girl, around 6 years old. But the picture wasn't in a good state. It had a burn mark from a cigarette where the girl's body was and it had blood on it. Meredith took a deep breathe and handed the photo to Nikita. Nikita took the photo and when she saw it tears built up in her eyes. She recognised the photo.
" This is the last thing that I had from my father. The blood on it is his." Meredith said sadly.
" You are the daughter of Jonathan Jonson?" Nikita gasped in shock.
" Yeah. And I was there when my father got this picture and signed his death penalty" Meredith replied.
" What? No. You weren't there. You were with your uncle!'' Nikita said in shock.
" I was supposed to be with my uncle but I forgot my doll and came back to take it with me. I stopped and hide behind the door, when I saw my father on his knees in front of you begging for my life. You told him that if he didn't cooperate, you would take me away from him, you would have me raped and tortured, you would make me suffer until you get what you wanted. He told you that it was a suicide to break into his boss office for you but you didn't listen to him. You took out a cigarette and you pressed it on the photo to emphasise your words, you threw the photo on the floor and you left. My father was shot by the men of his boss in front of me and with his last move he handed me this photo, this is why it has blood on it." Meredith said hars and let some fat tears to fall.
Nikita felt her eyes burning with unshed tears that she couldn't hold back anymore. She let them fall and stared at Meredith.
" I am sorry" Nikita said honestly. She couldn't say anything else, she couldn't find words to explain how sorry she was.
" When he died, I was full of anger. I started fighting classes, I wanted to avenge his death. An agent noticed my skills and recruited me in the CIA. I agreed because I would have access to means and it would be easier to locate you. And I did it. Years ago, I located you. You were hanging out with Michael. I had taken a sniper's position, my finger was ready to pull the trigger, I was ready to pull the trigger." Meredith said.
" Why you didn't?" Nikita asked with grave voice.
" I was stopped." Meredith replied not wanting to make Nikita's life easier and not wanting to give up someone's secret.
" How?" Nikita asked curiously.
Meredith turned to look at Alex and smiled when Alex nodded to her, giving her the permission to complete the story.
" Alex appeared from nowhere and she asked me why I wanted to kill you. She was unarmed and she didn't seem to be a threat. I told her that there was nothing she could do to save you. She asked me again and that time I reply. She looked at me full of understanding. She walked towards me and she knelt down, she looked at me and she told me that I couldn't change the past. She gave me reasons why I shouldn't have taken the shoot and soon I started sobbing, she took the gun away of me and she hugged me until I stopped crying. She took care of me for some days until I could put myself back together. I asked her why did she protect you and how did she know you" Meredith said and looked at Alex.
" Do you remember what did you reply to me, Alex?" Meredith asked and Alex smiled softly.
" I protected her because if I don't believe that people can change then I fight an already lost war. And I can reassure you that Nikita had changed." Meredith repeated Alex's words.
" I asked her how she could be so sure that you had changed. She smiled to me and she told me to look in your eyes." Meredith added.
" I am really sorry about everything, Meredith. I am really sorry. I didn't want to do it and I know that it isn't an excuse but I am sorry for all the pain that I caused you in your life. I am really sorry" Nikita said and let some tears to fall.
" I can understand now what she wanted to say. You have changed Nikita. I am sorry, too. I will never forget what you have caused me, but I forgive you." Meredith said softly and Nikita smiled sadly in relief before her cheeks were rained with tears.
Meredith squeezed Nikita's hand and stood up. Alex followed her example and face her.
" Look in her eyes. You are right, eyes are the mirror of our soul" Meredith said softly.
" Yes, they are. Are you ok?" Alex asked worried looking at Meredith's teary eyes.
" Thank you for stopping me that day, Alex. Thank you for being here for me all those years. Thank you for offering me a family. Thank you" Meredith replied and hugged Alex.
Alex was stunned from Meredith's word. Slowly she pulled apart and looked at her.
" I thank you for letting me be there for you. I thank you." Alex said honestly and Meredith ran out of the room not wanting to start crying in front of Alex and Nikita.
" How many times have you saved my life without me even know about it?" Nikita asked and smiled to Alex.
Alex didn't reply, she kissed Nikita's cheeks.
" And I thank you for giving my family and my soul back..." Alex said and walked away. She stopped when she reached the door and heard Nikita's voice.
" Alex.. I never told you that I am sorry for killing your father. I am sorry and thank you for everything" Nikita said honestly and Alex smiled in return.
Without saying any other words, she closed the door behind her.
" I love you, Nikita. Please stay safe." Alex whispered and ran to call Tom. She knew that in few hours she will fly back to Division to hand Nikita to them but she couldn't stop her worry. She hated the fact that she will have to leave her family again, she hated the fact that she was a bitch to Nikita, she hated the fact that they might suffer because of her. But she loved them too much. She needed to deal with Julian alone and when she would have faced her demons, she could go back to them, hold them, break down in front of them and cry in their hug.