" What does she want this time?" Nikita asked frustated and glared at Alex, who turned around and headed to operations with Nikita and Sonya on her heels.
The girls froze when they heard Amanda teasing Michael.
" She would never marry you, Michael. She would always have another mission. She would never stop to have a life with you." Amanda said satisfied that she could hurt Michael like that.
Alex frustated opened the door to operations with force and stepped foward walking towards Michael.
" I will make it sure that they will send you an invitation, Amanda" Alex said and gave a reassuring gaze to Michael, who smiled softly.
" What do you want this time?" Nikita asked coldly with gritted teeth and joined the others.
" No need to hurry up." Amanda replied softly and smiled evilly.
" Can I consider this call your turn, Amanda?" Alex asked softly not wanting to give Amanda the satisfaction that she was getting to them.
Amanda turned her attention to Alex and smiled.
" We will talk about this later. Someone wants to talk to you first." Amanda said calmly and made herself comfortable on her chair gesturing to someone to step foward.
" Hello, Alexandra." A man said coldly and smiled.
Nikita stared at the man and felt scared. She didn't know why but this figure made her feel nauseau and fear. His gaze was empty and dark. His feature emotionless and tough. He was her picture of evil.
" Julian." Alex greeted as calmly as she could and tried to keep her voice unaffected from her feelings.
Nikita looked at Alex with wide eyes and then back at the face of the man. That was Julian? Now, she could understand why Alex was so upset and scared. Nikita wanted badly to move closer to Alex and put her in her hug, keep her safe and away from this monster but she knew better than that, so she remained silent.
" You played a dangerous card, Alexandra. You have balls." Julian commented with hate.
Alex remained silent not wanting to give a continue to this conversation. She didn't want the others to know about what she did and she didn't want to talk about it.
" You have your deal. I will stay away from the others and you will stay away from my family." Julian added when Alex didn't reply.
" I have no reason to go after your family, if you stay away from them and you provide me a fair game. Beside that I really liked your wife and your youngest daughter, I wouldn't find pleasure in hurting them." Alex replied seriously.
" Don't you dare talk about them." Julian yelled frustated.
" I have only one question; how can you look in the eyes your daughters?" Alex exclaimed with disgust obvious in her voice.
" You got what you deserved, Alexandra. You were a nothing and I made you a queen!" Julian replied seriously.
Alex glared at him in shock.
" You are sick." Alex commented simly unable to find the right words to illustrate her feelings toward Julian.
" This is the truth, Alexandra. I made you a queen, your wish was their command, every girl inside the brothel respected you and looked after you, you were the most expensive whore in the brothel's history and you threw it all running away when you got the chance." Julian replied coldly.
" You killed me. You created an emotionless monster. You turned me into a living dead. I was a heartless body for your use. I am sorry to disappoint you but I don't exactly appreciate what you did to me and my body." Alex retorted with hate trying to remain calm. She couldn't believe that she was having this conversation in front of Sean, she wanted to shut Julian up and protect Sean from the pain of her past but she couldn't. She was powerless.
" I didn't do anything to you. Nikita did." Julian said and smiled to Nikita.
Nikita glared at Alex hurt.
" I don't remember Nikita raping me or torturing me." Alex replied seriously to Julian and turned her attention to Amanda.
" This game is getting old. I don't know what exactly I must do to make you understand that I don't blame Nikita for my past. You are better than that, find a new way to torture her rather than her past guilts. I am getting bored." Alex mentioned coldly and Amanda smirked to her.
" Why change the tactic when it works so wonderful. I can break her and I am not even there to do so. Her guilt will eat her up from the inside and you will be unable to do anything to help her after today. I win." Amanda replied coldly as ice.
" After today?" Michael asked worried. He had learnt through the years to take Amanda's threats into account.
" After today Nikita won't be able to look at Alex in the eyes. Nikita's guilt will destroy their relationship forever. All I had to do was to find the correct ally and Julian is the best for this job." Amanda replied calmly and smiled, a smile that causes fear to everyone knowing exactly what there is under this mask.
" I broke you, Alexandra and I will do it again. Do you know what would be the difference this time?" Julian said coldly.
" Enlighten me." Alex replied equally coldly.
" I won't stop. I will break you again and again and again. I won't stop. You will fall for me and I will torture every single breathe of yours out of your fucking body. I won't stop till the day you die. And the funny part will be that you will love me." Julian explained.
" Love you? Do you even know what does this word mean? I will never fall for you, Julian, not even if Amanda gives me another brain surgery." Alex retorted disgust.
" Come on, Alexandra. Admit it, you dream of me. Every single night when you don't have control of your sub-conscious, your mind travels to our wonderful nights." Julian taunted Alex.
" I am still in a better position than you are. You might haunt some of my nights but I haunt your entire life. You never gotten over the fact that someone managed to escape your claws. You are obsessed." Alex retorted angrily but calmly.
" Do you remember what day is today?" Julian asked.
" 17th of July. What is so special with this day?" Sean interrupted.
" Sasha's birthday." Alex whispered sadly.
" Do you remember Sasha's 14th birthday, Alexandra? If you don't, I have something that can help you remember." Julian said threateningly and show a little CD to Alex.
Alex's eyes immediately filled with tears and she walked towards Sean with shaking foot. She stopped inches away from him.
" Leave." Alex ordered him quietly.
" Why?" Sean asked confused.
" Please, Sean. Leave. I don't want you to see the video. I beg you just leave." Alex begged.
" I want to be by your side, Alex. No matter what. I am here for you." Sean retorted.
" I know it, Sean. I know but I don't want your mind to flash back to those images every time that you touch me. Please." Alex pleaded devastated.
" What is on the video?" Sean whispered worried.
" Rape and torture. Please. Leave." Alex replied honestly.
" If this is what you want. I love you, Alex" Sean said and bent to kiss Alex's lips.
Alex returned the kiss and Sean started walking away. He stopped on the door and turned to see Alex once last time. He froze when he saw the image of a young girl tied up on a wooden 'X' and obviously beaten up.
" Now, Sean." Alex ordered and pain was obvious in her voice.
" I love you" Sean mouthed and obeyed.
" Michael, Sonya, Birkoff, follow Sean, now" Alex ordered when the image of Julian started walking towards the tied girl.
Michael, Sonya and Birkoff obeyed immediately understanding what was coming and knowing too well that Alex wouldn't want them to see her like that. Michael thought of Alex like a daughter and Sonya and Birkoff were siblings to her and none wanted to see a family member being raped and tortured so they obeyed.
Alex sighed in relief and walked towards Nikita.
" You, too. Leave, Nikita." Alex said firmly.
Nikita turned to look at her while Julian's figure said " Make me enjoy and it is over"
" No. I need to see that. I am not leaving." Nikita replied seriously.
" Please. You didn't cause this. Julian did. Please. Leave." Alex insisted.
" I am not leaving. We will see the video together and we will talk later. Please, understand." Nikita retorted and Alex nodded defeated.
She knew that Nikita was too stubborn and she couldn't do anything right now, so she just moved closer, took Nikita's hand in her and kept it tightly, she brought it up to her mouth and kissed it.
" I love you" Alex said honestly and squeezed Nikita's hand.
Then Nikita turned her attention to the video while Alex studied Nikita's features ready to step foward and stop her from looking to the video if it got too much for her to handle.
"Happy Birthday Sasha." Julian smiled down at her.
"They tell me, that you've not been cooperating. Naughty girl… naughty, naughty, naughty." He shook his finger back and forth as he paced in front of her.
" You are strong, I must admit it. Your time here… would be much more enjoyable, if you'd just give in." He smiled brushing the skin on Alex's neck with his fingers in a suggestive manner following the curve of the neckline to her chest.
Alex refused to look at him and Julian annoyed with her attitude slammed her hard on the face cutting her lip.
"Every wild horse can be broken." Julian commented and gestured to his men.
Alex felt a sharp jab into her arm and realized that one of Julian's men had just injected her with something. He smiled evilly to Alex.
"I've just given you something to temporarily paralyze you. You will be fully conscious, feel everything, but won't be able to move or speak." The man stated without any emotion in his voice. He nodded to the men and they untied Alex and threw her on the cold cenement
Alex shallowed hard and sank into fear understanding what was coming next. She was used to this kind of torture now but she hated it.
" According to your file, you were born exactly 14 years ago. My present to you, my dear Sasha, is something little. My guards are so excited to have you here, 14 guards, one for every year of your life. Come on guys. Enjoy yourselves." Julian instructed firmly.
Nikita felt nauseau watching the video. When Alex told her that Julian was creative, she had never imagined something so evil and twisted. She wanted to stop the video now but she couldn't, she wanted to hurt Julian, made him pain for what he did to Alex but she couldn't, she felt powerless. She was sick and she felt more and more guilty about what she had caused to Alex. She thought that she had seen enough but nothing could prepare her for what was coming next.
Nikita watched with horror in her eyes as the first guard approached Alex's limb body.
The guard gently grabbed the top of her pants, hesitating a moment to caress the soft skin of her stomach with his fingers. Then, he took both hands and violently ripped her pants off. He undid his trousers; pants falling to his knees, grabbed Alex's hips forcefully and proceeded, in violating her in the worst way a woman could be violated. He reached under Alex's shirt forcefully grabbing her breast. It wasn't enough and he ripped her shirt down the middle, exposing her fully and a roar surged through the room and the guards could be seen smiling at her naked form waiting patiently for their own turn.
With his hand slammed Alex's face forcing it to the side facing another camera. Pain, anger, and sheer-torment could be seen racing through Alex's baby blue eyes, her eyes spoke volumes for what her mouth couldn't say. Tears were running freely from her eyes to the cold floor. As his assault continue Alex's gaze slowly turned empty and dark, Nikita could sense Alex's soul being slowly ripped away from her body. Her gaze was now empty of any emotion, it was the gaze of a dead person. Alex was dying from the inside.
Nikita watched disgust Alex being raped mercilessly as another guard stepped foward and then another and another... Without a second thought, she took her hand away from Alex feeling unworthy of Alex's love and affection.
" Your eyes..." Nikita whispered when another man stepped towards and started to have his way with Alex.
Alex decided that it was time to step foward and stop Nikita. Slowly but with sure steps, she moved towards and blocked Nikita's view to the man who assaulted Alex's body. Nikita kept her eyes locked to Alex's empty and emotionless eyes on the screen.
" Your eyes..." Nikita repeated again unable to form any other kind of word.
Alex grabbed Nikita's shoulders and shaked her.
" Look at me, Nikita" Alex shouted when Nikita didn't turn her gaze from the screen.
" Look my eyes, Nikita" Alex yelled again trying to gain Nikita's attention.
Nikita slowly turned her gaze to Alex's eyes.
" Can you see life in them?" Alex asked softly.
" Your eyes..." Nikita repeated and lifted one hand to cup gently Alex's face and then she turned her gaze away again.
" Nikita, look my eyes now." Alex ordered seriously scared that Nikita was in too much shock.
Nikita obeyed.
" What can you see?" Alex asked curiously.
" Life." Nikita replied and gave Alex a small hesitant smile.
" That's right. There is life in my eyes and you know why?" Alex continued and felt her own eyes burning with unshed tears.
Nikita shook her head negatively.
" Because of you. I am alive again because you came in my life giving me back my soul. I am alive thanks to you." Alex replied softy and kissed Nikita's palm.
As soon as the two women ended their conversation, the last man ended his attack and Amanda's and Julian's faces popped back on the screen.
" Did you enjoy your gift, Alexandra?" Julian asked sarcastically.
Alex gave him a murderous gaze but Nikita was the one who replied.
" I don't know why Alex hasn't killed you yet but if you hurt her again, I will kill you." Nikita said with hate in her voice.
" The only person who continuously hurt Alex is you, Nikita. Not Julian, not me, YOU" Amanda commented and laughed evilly.
Nikita remained silent not knowing what to say. Amanda was right. She was the one who had made a habit to break Alex's heart.
" Don't fall for her mind games." Alex whispered in Nikita's ears sensing her sadness.
Amanda smiled satisfied seeing Nikita in pain and Alex on the edge.
" It is your turn now, Alex." Amanda said and cut off the call with Division.
" I am not falling for Amanda's mind games, I am falling for the truth." Nikita commented sadly and walked out of the operations.
Alex sighed defeated and ran after Nikita.
" Nikita, wait!" Alex yelled when Nikita started walking faster and faster.
Nikita opened a door and entered a recruit room figuring out that this talk was something that it had to be done. Alex took a deep breathe and followed Nikita to the room closing the door behind her.
" Tell me that Amanda was wrong. Tell me that you didn't despise me when they were hurting you like that. Tell me that you didn't want revenge from the killer of your father. Tell me that you didn't hate me." Nikita yelled on the brick of break down.
" Nikita..." Alex started in an attempt to calm her down.
" NO! LOOK ME AT THE EYES AND TELL ME THAT YOU DIDN'T HATE ME!" Nikita ordered.
" I can't.." Alex whispered after some seconds and looked down staring at the floor.