CHAPTER THREE

Doomed High School Sweethearts

Finn's POV

"Hey Mr. Schue." You say with a smile as you walk into the choir room. "I thought up some routines for the kids to try out." You frown at the forlorn look on your mentor's face. It was a look that you have grown used to seeing on the man ever since you meet him back in Sophomore year. It was the look he always had whenever he thought about his personal life. It was a look that you wished you didn't have to see ever again. You had hoped that once he married his true love; Ms. Pillsbury; then that look would be gone. But; he wasn't married to her. Yet. So the look remained.

He sighed deeply as he turned to meet your eyes. "Oh hey Finn." He said in a tired voice. "What was it you were talking about?" His eyes looked confused.

You sigh gently. "Um it doesn't matter."

He raised his right eye brow. "Finn; it does matter."

That was why Mr. Schue was one of your favorite male role models. Even when his life was in the dumps; he still made time for you. Your right hand goes to the back of your head. "Um; I actually have some routines for the kids to try out."

"Great. Wonderful." He tried to get a smile out on his lips. He clapped his hands together. You can tell that he was actually trying. Even through it is coming off on a downer note. You decide right there, and then to try to encourage him that all is not lost where Ms. Pillsbury was concerned. After all although you and Rachel weren't together right now; didn't mean that you won't be in the long haul.

You did set Rachel free the day that you sent her off to New York on her own; after graduation. You had to still honor your words to her. You meant them then; and you meant them now. Although it's breaking your heart that she's sharing her bed with some other man. At least it wasn't Puck. But; still it hurt that she's with someone whom isn't you. But; you understand that she's still trying to find her way back to you.

You flash back to the almost wedding. How Rachel told you that she wanted you after you two sang together. Moments after you told her that you guys were the end game. That no matter how many times she slept with that Brody guy; or other guys; that you were just waiting for her. Then you two were together once more in the hotel room. You were able to slide deeply into her; and you felt her body against yours once more – you felt her desperate need for you still. You just loved her even more throughout the night.

When you woke up the next morning; and she was gone you felt lost once more. But; you could still feel her against you – so you knew that you were not wrong the previous night – that in time she'll come back to you. You grew so angry when Santana called you; and told you that she was sure that Brody was up to no good concerning Rachel. You were so steamed up in the bathroom of the hotel that Brody used for his clients – that you were so happy that he made you punch him in the face. You got to beat the shit out of the douche bag; and inform him that he had to leave your future wife alone.

Rachel still didn't know that you did that. You were fine with keeping her in the dark. All that mattered to you was that she was no longer seeing Brody. That she finally knew the truth about Brody's business; and she broke up with him. You would go to the ends of the earth to protect Rachel. You can't wait till you and her are finally married; and you can be by her side for all time.

"... so that's what I was thinking, Finn. Finn?" You come out of your thoughts as Mr. Schue's hazel eyes grew concerned.

"Umm, what was that, Mr. Schue?" You said as you comb your hair with your left hand.

Mr. Schue sighed. "Don't worry about it Finn."

Will's POV

You knew that the difference between you and Finn was; that at the end of the day you would be married to Emma. But; sadly Finn won't be married to Rachel. You had known this fact for a very long time. Ever since the kids Sophomore year. You knew just by glancing at Finn and Rachel – that they wouldn't be happily married high school sweethearts. But try telling that to teenagers.

Try telling that to yourself when you were their age. You had Terri; and you thought you two would out last the entire world. At seventeen years of age you were so sure that you and Terri were made for one another. You got through college without even glancing at another girl. The only girl for you was Terri. You married her right after graduating. You gave up your dreams of New York; and singing on Broadway to make a home with Terri in your hometown. You were so sure that your love for her was going to keep you happy for the rest of your life. You didn't mind that you didn't manage to escape from this hell whole expect for your college.

But then all your dreams went down hill. Terri didn't want to start a family right away. You had always dreamt that as soon as you and her were finally married; you would start to have little ones running around in no time. You just knew that you two would make perfect little beings. You were looking forward to holding your child in your arms; against your chest – promising them that all their dreams would come true. But Terri crushed them when she said that she didn't want to have your child right away. You told her that you understood; and that you pushed your dreams of being a dad away for the time being.

That's why you wanted to become a teacher. You wanted to shape young minds – and perhaps 'adopt' your classroom. When you heard that your old high school was hiring – the only school in the district that was hiring; you jumped at the chance to teach. They were much older then the kids that you dreamt of 'adopting' but you were willing to teach these young minds.

It wasn't until the Glee club was formed that you found your 'adoptive' children. Then Terri told you that she was pregnant. You felt like your cup had over filled. Then it all went to hell when you finally learned that Terri lied to you; that she never was pregnant. That she was 'padding' herself to keep you from leaving her. That she had planned on 'stealing' (she told you that she would have adopted) Quinn's baby. That Quinn knew that you two were the perfect parents for her unwanted child. You couldn't believe how calmly Terri looked you in the eyes; and told you that she basically tricked a scared young teenager to giving away her baby. You told Terri that you were through with the lie of your marriage to her.

By then you had realized what real love was. You had found your true soul mate. It was Emma. But you were trapped in your marriage by the time you met her. You swore to yourself that you were not a cheater; that you wouldn't make any moves on Emma while married to Terri. Terri sensed that you were finished with your marriage; so that's why she faked the pregnancy. You were guilty for finding your true love while still married to Terri; but Terri was guilty of lying to you about a child – and trying to steal some one else's child away from them.

You watch as Finn made his way over to his normal chair. The chair that he had sat in whenever he was dating Rachel. He looked fondly in Rachel's normal chair. How do you begin to prepare him for giving up his dream of marrying his high school sweetheart? How do you prepare him to move forward to meeting his own soul mate? His soul was so fragile all ready. Is he ready for this heartbreak? Would he ever be ready for it?

Kitty's POV

You sigh inwardly as Marley sighed next to you. You refuse to look at her as you are trying to finish your homework. Whatever possessed you to invite her over to do homework? Why the hell did you tell her that she could join you on your Queen sized bed to study? You should have ordered her to study on the floor. That was what you would have done a few weeks ago. Hell; a few weeks ago you would never ever dream of inviting Marley Rose to your house period. At least not without the other Gleek girls. You would have snubbed Marley and forced the other girls to go along with you. Just as you did with the sleepover before 'Grease'.

But you promised yourself to turn over a new leaf. To actually trust in Marley's friendship. You need to. Because you know that you would be lost without it.

It was still hard to admit it to yourself. You would never ever admit it to Marley. At least not yet. Perhaps in a few years into your adulthood; once Marley has proven that she has spoken the truth, and wanted to be your friend.

You pray that Marley is telling the truth. You couldn't bare it if she was just using you to be protected at McKinley.

You didn't know if you were strong enough if Marley was just like all the others. So you kept her at a distance. Still.

Marley's POV

You sigh once more. Your eyes drift back to the shorter blonde next to you. The blonde whom is sitting upright with a science book lifted firmly up to her face. You know that she's not taking in anything at all. You look back at your own copy of the book. You try to take in the assigned reading; but your thoughts kept drifting to the hazel eyed blonde next to you.

How can you break through that hard shell? You have made progress. But; it was just a little tiny progress. With one false move and the door would slam shut. Never to open again. Not even a crack. It was like she wanted you to fail. She was waiting for you to fail.

You refuse to fail. Granted you were going to make mistakes. Big mistakes. Small mistakes. Tiny mistakes. But you knew that your mistakes wouldn't cause her to slam the door shut. To build up those walls higher than ever before. She wouldn't cement or put steel around where you couldn't break them. Just as long as you didn't make that one mistake.

You know that you have to move slowly with this wild little colt next to you. You knew this from the first moment she marched up to you on your first day at McKinley; told you that you were going to be on the loser end of the food chain for the rest of your life. You watched in wide eyed shock as she turned and flounced down the hallway. That was the moment that you swore to yourself that you would make a everlasting friend out of the fragile soul that had insulted you instead of befriending you. That's why you never once took anything that she threw towards you to heart. Your tears were for her not yourself.

Expect when she insulted your mother. Those tears belonged to your mother not her.

This wild little colt next to you has stopped insulting your mother. After she finally learned whom your mother actually was; she stopped. She actually showed that she honesty did care about your mom. Especially during the shooting incident. When you were frantically texting your mom; and she wasn't replying. Kitty slid closer to you; and tearfully told you that no one would ever dream of hurting your mom; because everyone loved her. You knew she was telling a lie. But you knew then that she was another person whom honesty loved your mother; almost as much as you did.

"Thank you for having me over." You speak. You are shocked at the noise of your voice. You two had been in stilled silence for the past half hour.

She jerks at the sound of your voice. You watch as she brings her right hand up to her chest. Then her hand quickly goes back to her science book; which had dropped into her lap. You keep your eyes glued to her as she twisted her hazel ones to meet yours. "Are you still here?" Her voice is high pitched. She swallows. "I quite forgot that you were here." She glances back down at her opened science book.

"I'm sorry for scaring you." You say as you keep watching her.

Her head twisted back to face you. "You didn't scare me." She frowned. "I just forgot you were here is all." You can tell she's lying.

Kitty's POV

Her blue eyes were staring into your own. It was like she was staring into your very soul. It had been like this since the first moment you walked up to her; and told her what was what at McKinley High school. Okay; so you called her a loser and told her that she would forever remain the loser that she was. You never once gave her a chance to speak up. You just turned and quickly left. You had felt yourself fall into her gaze; and you had your image to uphold after all; it took all your will power to leave.

You swore that you'll never give her that power over you ever again. But; looking into her blue eyes sends you into a crazy scary free falling. Every. Single. Time. It wasn't until you tearfully hugged her after confessing to what you had done to her costume for 'Grease' that you felt that you were almost to a safe haven. But; you quickly let go; and got as far away from her as you could. You crossed the room to where Unique and Ryder were … fully knowing if the gunman banged opened the door; that he would have shot you dead in the middle of the choir room. You didn't care in that moment – all you knew was that you didn't deserve her to be your safe haven.

"So what are your plans for the weekend? Puckerman still trying to get into your pants?" You raise your right eye brow. You know that this will unnerve her. As always. This was a good way of getting her off your back.

She blushed. "Jake has brought up sleeping together again; today. But; he fully is committed to waiting till I'm ready." She had a soft smile cross her lips. "He's in this for the long haul. Even if I want to wait until college." She looked down to her twisted hands; "Or until our marriage bed."

You roll your eyes. You fully knew that NO Puckerman male could hold out that long for sex. Especially after having sex. If Marley didn't give in and sleep with Jake; then he'll move on before the years out. But; try telling Marley Rose this. You hint around it. You insinuated But; you haven't said in stark words. You just couldn't destroy Marley's romantic dream like that.

No it would be better if Jake did it himself. You knew any day now he'll cave into his natural needs; and either pressure Marley into sleeping with him. Or he'll cheat on her. After all he's a Puckerman male after all. They were all cheaters after all.

Although Puck didn't cheat on you. You broke up with him when he decided to join Finn at Ohio State. You knew that you couldn't compete with the college girls. You didn't want to. You didn't want to have to go to college parties just to be with Puck. It wasn't worth fighting off college guys from laying their hands on you. It was bad enough with high school boys. Puck was easy to control. But you knew that he was only with you because you reminded him of Quinn.

After all you and Quinn could be twins. Well sisters at least …. you were younger after all. You didn't mind it when he murmured Quinn's name when he was kissing you in your car at the Sadie Hawkins dance; or that he almost called out her name when he came deep within you.

You fully knew that Noah Puckerman was in love with Quinn. But; you also knew that he would get his heart broken someday. Quinn Fabray only belonged to one person. That one person had always been; and always will be Rachel Berry,

"It's not a crime to wait, Kitty." Marley said in a hurt voice.

"I just don't think Jake can wait to have sex once more for years and years." You truthfully replied. "After all he knows the joys of getting himself off inside girls." You shrug your shoulders. "I just don't think Jake's the guy for you."

Hurt is shining in her eyes as she stares at you. It wasn't the first time that you have informed her of this. It won't be the last. You were just preparing her for the end that you knew would happen between her and Puckerman. Her eyes lowered. "It's not a crime to wait." She whispered.

You wanted to tell her that you agree with her. But the words wouldn't come. You knew that if you spoke about crime then what happened to you when you were eleven would come spilling out. The last person you told was Ryder; and he turned his back on you. Your parents knew – but after awhile they just brushed it under the rug. They didn't even talk to you about what you were going through. They didn't comfort you. They didn't say it wasn't your fault. They just brushed it under the rug. Like it didn't happen at all.

It happened. It changed you. It destroyed you.

After Ryder turned his back on you; you knew that you couldn't talk to anyone else about this. You couldn't bare the thought of another human turning away from you. Blaming you for what had happened to you. The complete loss of your innocents. The end of your childhood.

You look at Marley's bowed head for another silent moment. You turn back to your science book.

END CHAPTER TWO

Author's Note: I have decided to bring Lima into the story. So everything of season four has happened …. expect for Regional s and Will and Emma's actual marriage in the choir room. I have decided to add some of the 'rewrites' that we got in season five for season four. So we are still in late Winter. (New Haven and New York winters are totally different from Ohio's winters. So New York/New Haven crew will be still in their warmest clothes … and dealing with blizzards – as the Lima crew are getting ready for Spring).

I'm a major major Artie and Kitty fan. I'm also a major Karley fan. I haven't really decided at this point if I want Artie & Kitty to be dating yet in this story (or even at all) or if I want Kitty and Marley to be together. But no matter what Kitty will be very close to both Artie and Marley throughout this story regardless whom she ends up with.