Are you ready? Chapter 11: Decisions

All eyes were on Ren Jinguji...

It was an awkward silence in the music room. No one didn't utter a single word. It's unusual because the group is always loud and full of life when they are together. Haruka wanted to disappear in that moment, seeing the guys acting like statues worried her and afraid of what they would do to Ren. Even him he didn't know what to do or say.

Masato snap out of his trance while his fists were tighten and storm to Ren and swung a powerful punch at him.

Haruka eyes widen as her hands covered her mouth to cover her gasp. She never knew Masato would do this kind of thing, neither the guys. Everyone is in shocked watching Masato's fierce expression while he shakes his hand off.

"How dare you put Nanami through this...you never think about the consequences. See I knew something was up, did you make her keep quiet about this? I can not believe you took advantage of her. You are a sick bastard." His gaze was icy and he never felt so furious in his life. The woman he loves is pregnant with someone that he couldn't stand for years.

Ren's gaze was down and didn't blame Masato for punching him. He knew he deserve it. Jinguji knew that if the others found out they would be very furious and settle in violence. He rub his lip and blood appeared and all Ren can say to his old friend, "We didn't plan this...it was only a one night that we shared. As a man, I take full responsibility."

Haruka ran toward Ren and she face Masato with a courage. "Hijirikawa-san Please don't blame Ren! My actions were involved too...I am sorry I kept this from you all," She looked around the room and gave everyone an apologize expression.

"Haruka...I wished you told us. We are STARISH after all, I am just disappointed that this had to happened." Cecil began in angry voice. Then he tried to take a deep breath and look directly to her eyes, "Are you not going to be the composer for STARISH anymore?"

Hearing that made everyone's heart raced and all eyes are back to Haruka. Then she shake her head and explained, "No! I will still be your guy's composer that will never change. I already decided what I am going to do when the baby is born."

"What do you mean Haru-chan?" Natsuki asked as he pat her shoulder to show concern.

The young composer shut her eyes and whispered so low that it made everyone loose it. "I am going to give the baby up for adoption." When she said that out loud she realized that she hasn't told Ren this and looked directly at him.

Ren's eyes widen and felt off guard of her statement. "What are you talking about? We are not doing that my lady!"

"This wasn't your idea Ren?" Tokiya asked coldly while folding his arms. Then he realized that Haruka is about to break down and cry. He knows that him and the others should not be involve in this conversation. "We will give you two space to talk about this." Tokiya is walking out of the music room and the others are still deciding to stay or not. Otoya is surprised of his actions and fidgety.

"But Tokiya! We are involved too!"

"I agree! We are staying and discussing this together and besides I don't want Ren alone with Nanami anyway..." Syo said in a strict voice and he felt like he needs to protect her. Because he never thought that Ren would do this to Haruka and it angers him more then anything. But Natsuki grab a hold of him and use his soothing voice.

"Syo-kun they need to work this out, we aren't the parents they are."

"B-But Natsuki! We can't leave them alone together I won't allow it!"

Masato tighten his hands again and let out a sigh and walked passed Syo and waited out in the hall with Tokiya. It made the short STARISH member realized that if Masato can leave so can he, if he doesn't like it or not. So he did with Natsuki.

"We will be out in the hall you guys. Let us know when you're done talking." Cecil calmly said and left the room.

Only Ren and Haruka are together in the music room. It's dead silent. But the saxophone player couldn't wait to asked her about what she said.

"Little Lamb, you aren't serious are you? What made you think you have to possibly give our baby away." Ren asked with uneasiness he couldn't look at her neither can she.

"I thought about this for quite sometime. I am sorry I didn't share this with you the other night...It's for the best." Haruka quietly said as she clench her chest. Trying to make the pain go away from her heart but it worsen of what Ren said.

"Don't you love our baby?"

"!" Haruka eyes widen as it turned glassy and she shouts, "Of course I do! This will be the hardest thing I ever done!" She walked over to Ren and put her hands on his chest, "We can't give up our dreams..."

Ren Jinguji grab her hands and pulled away from her and face his back to her, "Your not alone any more, you forget I am here now. I am not saying we have to give up our dreams just to be parents. But lady..." He turned around having a hurt expression, "I don't know if I can handle our child being with another family. I admit I was worried...but..." He place his hands on her stomach and whispered softly. "I love this baby."

"Sob...sob...don't do this to me Ren..." She turned around to face her back to him and let river of tears fall on her face.

"I visited my brother today. He couldn't believe I was going to be a father..." He continue to stare at the back of Haruka's head and continue speaking, "He wanted our baby to disappear somewhere around the world...and I couldn't understand why. If the public found out then it would hurt my family's reputation. For once I don't care what my family thinks, I know we can be good parents." Ren walked over to her and hugged behind her.

Haruka felt his warmth it soothe her. But she had to fight this and escape from his strong arms. "I am sorry but we aren't ready Ren...I want to give our child its best chance..." She turned around and place her hands on his face. But the saxophone player closed his eyes and pulled away again. What he is about to say is going to hurt Haruka more then anything.

"I will never forgive you." Ren gave her a deadly glare and stormed out of the room.

Haruka's legs felt numb and she fell on the floor and let out this horrible cry where the guys came running in.

"Haruka! What happened!?" Cecil crouch down.

Miss. Nanami couldn't answer, Cecil questioned. Masato couldn't stand seeing Haruka in so much pain he stormed out of the room and ran after Ren.

"Masato!" Otoya shouts.

Tokiya only sighed and utter a word, "Damnit!" He ran after him to stop and knock some sense to him. Leaving everyone in the music room.

"What are we going to do...? Haru-chan please talk to us..." Natsuki sadly said.

None of the guys know what went down in the room. All they guys are pretty mad at Ren, and concern for their Haruka. They all have mixed emotions but reality it's a huge mess. Even the guys are crouch on the floor with Haruka, and trying to get her to speak. Suddenly, Syo pulled Haruka in his arms and whispered to ear, " We are here okay Nanami? Please talk to us..." Then his words escape from his mouth where only Haruka can hear, "I promise I will protect you...please don't cry."

"Syo-kun.." Haruka cried in his arms but more then anything she wished it was Ren arms.

The young composer heart is crying in pain and worried it will never go away. She is afraid that she will loose Ren forever. In her mind she is repeatedly asking herself this question.

Am I making the right decision? Is it worth loosing Ren...and the baby...?

Author Notes: Hi everyone! I finally updated once again...again I am so sorry it has been two months...I didn't realize it. Once again life made me busy. And Of course my word account is expired... So I been trying to figure out how to type my stories. So I used google docs and copy and paste it hopefully it won't cause me problems. But anyway!

What do you guys think about my chapter? Ren and Haruka are going through an obstacle about the baby. Hopefully it works out! But I thought of something and I want you guys to think about it. What if this story has a "little" love triangle? Don't worry this is a RenXHaruka story but it would be interesting too see a love battle lol. Who do you guys think? I am leaning between Syo or Masato. But it's up to you guy's.

Thank you for voting! I know their has been voting for twins or only one child. But don't worry it's not decided yet. Just keep voting :) I write everyone's answers down and reveal real soon! So I know I say this almost every chapter, but if you haven't voted and you want to let me know!

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