5th chapter! Something happened in this chapter! There is a heated moment, too. Oh my.. Really? Enjoy!
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It was a calm afternoon for Fuji but it didn't last for long, "Whoa! Fuji-senpai! I don't know you love gardening." Momoshiro put his foods on the table across Fuji.
"Stupid Peach! Don't you have other things to worry about? It's Fuji-senpai's life! Don't say dumbass things!" Kaidoh placed his own foods next to Momoshiro.
"I'm just asking, you stupid Viper!"
"No, I don't. I just need to.. Expand my knowledge?" Fuji answered with a grimace. "Do you guys love plants and flowers by chance?"
"No, what I know about plants are whether they are edible or not." Momoshiro laughed.
Kaidoh butted, "Of course not! You are a pig! I know only a little about them, Fuji-senpai."
"What did you say? Pig? Let's see who has more fat now! I'm sure I can beat you rightaway!" Momoshiro stood from his chair.
"Okay! Bring it!" Kaidoh was standing too and he put his forehead on Momoshiro's to press his purpose.
"Maa.. Maa.. Stop it you two. It's a public place. You are disturbing people, okay? Let's enjoy our meals quietly." Fuji put away his book and started to eat.
"By the way Fuji-senpai, have you heard any news about the wanted bulgar lately?"
Fuji's hand stopped moving. "No, nothing. Nobody has called and reported. Why?"
"Well, it's quite a horror imagine that the bulgar is still roaming around and nobody knows it. Yesterday one of my friends saw someone suspicious near her neighborhood but decided to ignore it and said it was just her imagination. Man, I don't know how but we have to catch him immediately."
"Maybe he is hiding his tail, afraid to be caught. The police are getting closer and more aggressive in catching him." Kaidoh added.
"Yeah, he is very dangerous, isn't he? I heard he had killed several people in years but no one had ever seen him so the police can't catch him, no evidence, no witnesses. If I ever met him, I'll strangle him and beat him up before hands him to the police!"
"That's breaking the law, you moron!" Kaidoh slapped Momoshiro at back of his head.
"What are doing, you stupid Viper?!"
Fuji didn't hear any of their words, he was too attach in his own fear. He could see the flashback of that day. The smell, the humidity, the fear. His ears were ringing and he could hear his heavy breathing and the cafeteria's and Momoshiro-Kaidoh bickering voices dissappeared slowly from him.
No evidence. No witnesses.
His body was shaking and the chopsticks which he held fell into the ground, awakening him from his nightmare.
"Fuji-senpai, are you okay?" Momoshiro looked at him with a concern look.
"Do you need me to call the doctor? You look so pale, Fuji-senpai."
"No. I'm okay. I think I lack some sleep. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to startle you." He smiled. He stood and put the almost uneaten tray back to its place and walked away.
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"Where is Tezuka Kunimitsu?" Fuji asked the receptionist.
"In his room, as usual." she blinked, confused.
"No. If he is, I wouldn't be here asking you, Eri-chan. He hasn't checked out yet, ne?" He sighed.
"No, of course not. He isn't allowed yet."
"Had someone visited him today?"
"No. He is a loner, Syuu. I can count his guests, they are less than my fingers, my right hand fingers to be precisely."
"Then, where is he? He is not at his room! I had checked the restroom, lounge and even the recreation room but it was futile. He can't see, for god's sake!"
"Calm down.. I'll ask the nurse station. I don't see him pass by, that's mean he didn't leave this hospital."
"Try the cctv room, too. I'll search for him. Inform me if there is something happens."
"Sure, I'll tell.." Fuji had left the counter and ran to the elevator.
Fuji punched the eighth floor button and started to think. Eri-chan didn't see him, he hadn't left the hospital yet. The room is tidy and spotless as usual, so he left by himself or someone helped him out. He can't see that's mean he can't go far. But I can't find him anywhere.
The elevator pinged. He went to Tezuka's room and checked it one more time. It may be his imagination. Tezuka might be still in his room.
He opened the bedroom's door but no one was there. His head filled with tons of bad thoughts. Where is he? Where is he? Fuji called the receptionist and Eri-chan said they were still inspecting the cctv.
"He shouldn't be far. He isn't allowed. He is.." Fuji's attention was drawn to the window. It was opened and the curtain moved slowly as the wind flew into the room.
Oh my god. Don't tell me.
Fuji ran toward the window. His thoughts were filled with anxiety and bad prejudice. It's the eighth floor. What if he fell down from here when he tried to open the window? There is no one behind the hospital, it could happen this morning, what if it happened this morning, what if Tezuka called but nobody answered, what if he injured badly, what if.. What if..
Fuji looked at the ground and found nothing on it. It's zero, nothing, nil. The park area was empty, too. He let out a big breath which he had held for long time. He didn't realize he held his breath until then. He was relieved yet still worried. Where he should be?
He looked at around and tried to imagine how Tezuka felt. He was lonely and it could be stressful. If it was himself he would search for a big but silence place like park or beach. There was no park let alone beach nearby. Moreover, Tezuka was prohibited to left. Where should he be?
"Ne, Eri-chan, where do you go to relieve your stress whenever you need it? Preferably if it's still in hospital's area." He called her once again.
"Where is it? Let me think, the nurse usually uses the nurse station or employees' lounge, the smoking area or the rooftop."
"Rooftop? Do anyone can enter?"
"Yes, everyone can use it. The patient usually go to sunbathing or talking. Oh!"
"It's on the tenth floor right?"
"Yes, I'll be on my way, too."
"Thanks."
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They found Tezuka at the rooftop. He was sitting on the floor with his back leaning on the fence, looking at nothing in particular. Fuji didn't know if he was sleeping, just daydreaming or even death.
Two nurse arrived not any longer and they helped Tezuka to walked back his room. Fuji was tailing behind them. He didn't say anything and wasn't sure if Tezuka was aware of his presence. Tezuka looked calm and composed, he neither show any emotions nor gave a response to the nurse. Fuji on the contrary was so mad, frustrated and tired of Tezuka's demeanor.
They sent him back to the room and checked his condition, he was fine except a little dehydrated. It's a good thing that he could arrive at the rooftop safely without injuring himself more. The doctor and nurse then left Fuji and Tezuka alone.
"How can you get there?" Fuji asked after the doctor and nurse had gone.
"It's not important."
"Answer me... please?"
"The nurse talked about it, they aren't as quiet as they think."
"Why.. Why did you do that?"
"I just need time for myself. Don't worry, I can go there by myself successfully."
"I can bring you there if you ask me. You risk your live by doing it by yourself, you know? Or if that's too much you can always ask the nurse or your family, maybe?"
Tezuka scoffed and shrugged. "Hn.. I don't want to. Don't need any pity from you."
"We don't. We all are here to help you. If you need something, ask. If you need someone, talk. There are many people who want to help."
"I don't need if in the end you will commiserate me and left me behind. If that what would happen then don't."
"Nobody will. I won't."
"It's easy for you to say but I know it better. You always go back to my cousin, Genichirou whenever you bored with me. It's great to have another person to hold on, huh?"
Genichirou, a cousin? Sanada-san is Tezuka's cousin? Really? No wonder they are alike. Sei-chan what has you done, really. From all of the people, cousin? Fuji wanted to bang someone's head right now, his cousin's head was a good start.
"Sanada.. Gen-chan is my childhood friend. I can't leave him just because I have boyfriend now." Or that what Sei-chan would say, wouldn't it?
"If that's so? Leave me, then. I don't need your sympathy after all."
Fuji lacked some sleep several days behind and he was still haunted by the nightmare, adding his panic attack this afternoon and Tezuka's act made something inside Fuji's head snapped.
"What the hell with you and your phobia of pity? Is that a new type of phobia? Nobody is putting a pity on you. We are all care about you. It's you who drove them away, it you who too proud to admit, it's you who pitied yourself the most! I don't understand you said? Now, let me tell you something I know, there is a little girl at the second floor who lost both of her arms from helping his brother in a traffic accident, she told me that she will live it, with a proud smile! She is learning to write with her feet now. A little boy who was abuse by his uncle at the third floor is doing his best to overcome his fear with lighters and belt. He is giving his best shot and never give up." Fuji gritted his teeth and continued, he didn't care whether Tezuka heard about his rant or not. He was just unleashing his thoughts.
"And.. And here you are. Pitying yourself and worried people will do it to you. You, a great athlete who is in his prime time. You are left behind by your opponents this year, so what? You can still compete next year. Your eyes can be healed, doctor guarantee it. You just need to recover quickly and kick your opponents' ass next year. An injured athlete is not a new thing, an athlete who can move forward and stand after his fall is the best. From what I see, you are far from it, you use your time to mourning over useless things. Instead of using the time to keep in touch with your friends or family, you locked yourself. Instead of giving your best, you are stepping out of your life."
"Finish?" Tezuka said calmly.
"No, barely. I think.. I think you are just a coward who ashamed of himself. You are too coward to reach out people's hand and too embarrassed to admit that you are wrong. ... But one thing that you are right about, I pitied you."
Tezuka turned his head toward Fuji's.
"Good bye." Fuji grabbed his back and ran away from the room.
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"I'm sorry, I'm late! Something happened at the station."
"Maa.. It's okay. Momoshiro and his gangs haven't arrived yet. Do you want something to drink first?"
"An alcoholic one, please." she sat on the chair and sighed.
Fuji called the waiter and ordered the girl's drink.
"Thank you for inviting me, Syuu. It's rare to see you hanging out with us. I'm happy that you finally decided to show up."
"Yeah, found a free time finally. Didn't want to spend it alone, too."
"I know that feeling.. Oh, Thank you." She said when the drink arrived. She gulped quickly and sighed when the drink emptied. "Another, please." she waved at the waiter.
"Don't drink too much."
"I have a day off tomorrow, so wanna drink till pass out. My friend's house is nearby and I'll crash at her place after this. Drink it up, Syuu!"
Fuji smiled and drank his coke.
"When are Momoshiro and his friends coming?" the bar played an upbeat song and she swayed her body as the music's beat.
"I don't know but he said they are on their way here. How are you today?"
"Work always hectic, no time to relax. This morning we were called by the management, I knew it about yesterday's incident. Fortunately we didn't get scolded by the management for Tezuka-san's dissappearing yesterday. He explained to the management so we didn't get any sanctions, just a warning."
"I'm sorry to hear that."
"Nah, we used to it already so it's not a big deal." she drank her drink again but slowly this time. "What happened? You didn't come to visit him today, is it because of the incident?"
"That, too. It's just.. we ended up had a fight yesterday. I kinda snapped and yelled at him. I'm sure he doesn't want to talk to my right now."
"Don't think so. He was asking about you, you know."
"Who?"
"Tezuka-san. He asked about you when the nurse do their rounds today."
"Is that so?"
"Yes, but the nurse said that he asked about someone named Yuki, the man who visits him regularly these day."
Fuji's heart stopped beating, "Did she said my name?" Fuji grabbed her arm.
"No, she didn't. She didn't know you. What's it, Syuu?" she looked at Fuji's hand.
"Sorry. I didn't meant it." He let her arm go. He sighed, "I don't tell him my name, he thinks I am my cousin, his boyfriend. If he asks something about me or become suspicious about me, don't ever tell him, please?" He pleaded.
"... Sure. But why?"
"It's a long story. I don't want to talk about it right now."
"Okay. Well, there is nobody else who visit him these two weeks other than you. His family came at the first and second day and then nothing. He rejected any kind of interview and refused to meet anyone, except you. His friends don't visit him, too. Does he even have friends, I wonder. Yesterday when I said he had less than five visitors, I was saying the truth. Don't you think it's kinda lonely?"
Fuji kept silent but then added, "I know. It's just too much. He must be waiting for people to talk to or at least get regular visitors. Wait a moment! How long has he been at the hospital?"
"Two weeks, why?" she stared at her drink.
Fuji realized that he had just visiting Tezuka for a week now. What about the week before? Did he stay alone in his early medication stage? Why didn't his family stay with him? When he was in hospital, his family made sure that he was accompanied by someone, his mother, sister, or Sei-chan. How did Tezuka felt that time?
"Why are you here?" was the first thing Tezuka said to him when he visited Tezuka.
It didn't mean hatred, he was too lonely and full of sadness and despair. He was losing his hope to people around him. He was afraid and that made him treated Fuji sarcastically.
All of them made sense now.
And Fuji yelled at him yesterday.
"Syuu? Are you okay?"
"Eri-chan, besides me and his family, did anyone come, someone who named Yukimura Seiichi?"
"Yukimura Seiichi? Is Yuki a pet name of Yukimura? His boyfriend?"
"Well, maybe. Did he come?"
"Let me think. Yukimura.. Yukimura.. No, from what I remember or he might visited when I was on my day off, too." she shrugged.
Sei-chan said he visited late night so he didn't have a chance to meet Tezuka. Why didn't you try harder? Darn you, Sei-chan. You just broke someone's heart, dragging me along and here I am, making it worse than before, Fuji sighed.
"Oh! That's Momoshiro! Here! Here! Over here."
Momoshiro, Kaidoh and their friends walked through the crowd of the bar, they looked like a bunch of mafia rather than a group of firefighter.
"Oh, Fuji-senpai! It's rare to see you here! I'm sorry that we are late, Yamaguchi-san."
"He ate too much so he had to secrete some before coming here." One of his colleagues said from behind.
"That's gross!" Fuji heard Kaidoh said.
"Stop it, will ya?" Momoshiro slapped the man's head. "Let's order something. Have you ordered?" He asked Fuji and Eri-chan.
They showed him their drink, he then walked to order to the bartende while bickering with Kaidoh.
"They are really funny to hang out with. I can't get bored with them. It's a great thing to work with them, isn't it?"
"If you think their regular bickering is fun, that's is." Fuji chuckled.
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"Gen-chan, your breakfast is ready. Do you want to eat it at your room today, too?"
"I'm healed already so I can walk. You don't have to fuss about me anymore, Seiichi." Sanada turned from his desk and walked out of his bedroom.
"I'm just worried. Are you sure you are healthy enough to move around?"
He stood at the livingroom and turned around, "Yes, so you can leave now. It's unfair for Tezuka and your cousin."
"But.. I told you that he is fine and Syuu-kun is dependable. He can take care of Tezuka. Don't you believe in me?" Yukimura wrung his hand, he was wearing Sanada's apron in Sanada's house and making a breakfast for Sanada.
"I'm sure he can but the way is wrong, Seiichi! You know that Tezuka is in his bad condition but you leave him alone moreover, you asked a stranger to pretend that he is you. Can you imagine how hurt he is if by chance he knew it?!"
Yukimura flinched by Sanada's yelling. He was in a bad mood constantly since he knew Yukimura asked his cousin to replace him. He asked Yukimura to leave the room everytime Yukimura talked to him, he didn't talk unless necessary, he even didn't look at Yukimura anymore.
Yukimura looked at the tall man in front of him. He looked so gorgeous in a white shirt and black trousers, the infamous hat was no where to be seen. He was the man he loved for years and he still is at this moment. He needed only his love but he did a mistake when accepted Tezuka's proposal. He regretted it and he hoped somone would solve his problem. Everything was too complicated now.
"I think it's the best for you to leave and be at Tezuka's side. We can't deceive him, we mustn't."
"Do you really want me to leave, Gen-chan?" Yukimura looked at Sanada's eyes, he balled his fists. His tears were starting to grow but he blinked it away.
"Yes. It's for the best. We should have done it from the start. I should had scolded you for to be right here with me instead of Tezuka."
"Yet you didn't do it... Why?"
"You said that... I thought you already told Tezuka about your coming here. I never thought that you would use your cousin to deceive him!"
"I don't deceive him. I just merely asked him to help me. Tezuka doesn't need to know anything. It's my problem, let me handle it by my own way."
"I don't care about how you handle it but you have to go now. I don't ask you to come here but I'll explain it to Tezuka about your act. Moreover, why did you come here when your boyfriend is injured? I don't want to come as a bad guy between you."
Yukimura chuckled bitterly, "You are surely the densest man I ever encountered."
"What are you talking about?"
"Don't you realize it after all these years? Me, waiting for you everytime you have your late night schedule. It's me who accompany you whenever you want it even if it was in ungodly hour! I always stand by your side even if everyone thought you weren't good enough. We encourage each other, we help each other, we support each other. I always cherish my time with you no matter how it make me feel miserable."
Yukimura then walked to Sanada until there was nothing separated them except their ragging breath. They looked at each other with different intention. Sanada looked at Yukimura with confusion and shocking stare while Yukimura looked at Sanada with determination. Yukimura could feel Sanada's fresh breath touched his face, he looked at Sanada's eyes and then moved to his lips little by little. Sanada also did the same, he looked at Yukimura's face and then he realized that the ex-captain didn't look at his eyes anymore, he looked at his lips instead. Sanada then focused his eyes to Yukimura's pink plumped lips. He thought how kissable these lips were and how he wondered that the lips, the body, the soul of Yukimura were his also.
Sanada didn't know who start it first, it could be Yukimura or even himself but when he realized it, they were kissing. It started with an innocent kiss, a little peck at the corner of their lips, a little pressure on the upper lip and everything went down uncontrollably when Yukimura gasped to catch some breath. Sanada scooped Yukimura's faced and dipped down his head, he use his tongue to caressed the soft inner wall of Yukimura's mouth. It was heaven. Yukimura moved his own tongue shyly at first and Sanada groaned when their tongues met while Yukimura let out a small whimper.
They slided down to the floor with Sanada's back to the sofa and Yukimura sat on him. They kept kissing and caressed each other. Sanada put his hand at Yukimura's waist and moved to his shirt to touch the silky skin under it. He often imagined it but he never knew that it was heavenly. He couldn't stop himself to move further and caressed the entire area freely. He found the bud he so curious about, he stroked it until it became hard pebble and Yukimura moaned in their kiss. Sanada's hand on his chest, the way he played with his nipple made him grunted and grounded his waist toward Sanada and it caused a friction between their arousal which made Sanada grunted while Yukimura moaned.
Yukimura moved his waist to get more frictions, more of Sanada. They had to separate from each other because of lacking some oxygen. Sanada then decided to attack the wide column of Yukimura's neck and gave little bites on it. Yukimura placed his hands on Sanada's shoulder and tilted his head to the right to give Sanada more room.
Yukimura gasped when he felt Sanada's biting. The friction on his lower body and Sanada's little bites were almost unbearable and he knew he almost at his limit. "Gen..Gen-chan..I.. I.. Oh.. I love you."
Suddenly Yukimura was thrown into the floor. He didn't realize it at the first, he was too dazed and too aroused to realize it. "Gen-chan?"
Sanada stood high and mighty in front of him and asked, "What do you say?"
Yukimura kneeled and wrapped his arms around his waist, "I love you. I love you, Gen-chan. I have for years now and I know I always will." He then looked down to the floor.
"Liar!"
"I don't! I even confessed to you years before but you didn't get it! I tried to drop hints to you but you didn't catch it!" He stood and looked at Sanada's straight to the eyes.
"No, you didn't! If you did then why do you go out with my cousin?"
"He asked me! I was tired of waiting! What do you want from me? Waiting for your love next to you? Hoping that someday you'll realize it and drop your love to me when you feel right?! What do you take me for? A wild dog which will always willing to run around you and do everything you ask for?!"
"Then why didn't you say it straightforwardly? Why didn't you wait?
"I did wait and I did say it to you! Damn you! I waited for years! Years! and yet you didn't know I was standing right next to you! I confessed yet you brushed it away as it was nothing! What do you expect me to do, then? Enlightens me!"
"How would I know? You are child of God! I'm sure you have many ways. Now, let me ask you! Are you using Tezuka to make me jealous? Are you happy now?"
"I don't! I don't! I love only you. Why can't you see it? Why can't you see me? At least Tezuka tried to be my friend, he tried to understand me!"
"Don't use that as execuse!"
"Barely. I just want to bang some rational thought into your head!"
"That's enough! I don't want to talk to you anymore. Get away! Get away to your boyfriend and leave me alone!" Sanada stood rigidly and his fac looked dim.
"You are always doing that, running away or stopping the talk whenever you lose the arguments."
Yukimura put off his apron and walked away to his bedroom. His mind was in chaos and his body moved in auto pilot. He grabbed his things and shoved into his duffel bag. His tears didn't stop flowing and he had to wipe it away several times, he even choke when he caught his breath. He went to the bathroom to collect his things, when he looked at the mirror he saw a pale man with puffy red eyes and face filled with tears. He needed a while to realize that he was looking at himself in the mirror.
When he finished, he went back to the bathroom to wash away his tears. He didn't want Sanada seeing him in this state. He tried to calm his breath and composed himself, when he held his breath his tears stopped flowing but when he tried to breath his tears started to flow again like a stream.
Go to hell with restraint. He just needed to walk away from this house and continued his life. As if it was that easy.
He walked quickly to the livingroom and looked at the door while wishing Sanada had gone but life had never been easy. The latter man sat on his sofa with his fists placed on his knees. Their gaze met each other when Yukimura walked out of his room. Sanada was trying to say something but Yukimura stopped him.
"Don't worry, I won't bother you again. You are right, I should appreciate Tezuka more. What I did these days and just now were just mistakes. I'm sorry for bothering you with my feeling." He straightened his bag's strap up on his shoulder and rushed to the door.
His feet felt so heavy and every step he made caused a big burden placed on his heart. His vision became blurred while the lamp looked dimmer every second passed. He leaned on the hallway's wall and tried to catch his breath but the harder he tried the harder for him to get oxygen. His bag dropped on the floor and he held one of his hand on his neck while another one on his heart. His breath came short and he had to gasped for some air.
Gen-chan.
"Seiichi!" Sanada's voice called him back from the darkness. "Seiichi! Are you okay?" Sanada squatted next to Yukimura and cradled Yukimura in his arms.
"Ge.. Gen-chan.. I.. I.."
"It's okay. Don't talk. I'll call the ambulance." He put Yukimura on his left arm and fished out his phone from his pocket and made a call using his right hand.
"N.. No.. Gen.. Gen-chan.. I.. Uh.." The shortness of his breath made his speak difficulty.
"Sshh.. Shh.. It's okay, Seiichi. It's okay now. Ah, hello? Send me an ambulance! Someone is collapsed. It's the house at the end of Willow road. Now! Send it quickly!"
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The first thing he saw was the bright lamp embedded in the ceiling, the antiseptic smell flew around him and a heavy yet warm object wrapped around his hand.
He looked at his hand, someone was holding his hand. He tilted his head and saw Sanada sleeping at the end of his view. Why Sanada was here? Didn't he tell Yukimura to go away? Didn't Yukimura already go back to Tezuka's?
Ah.
That's right, he ridiculously collapsed at Sanada's house.
"Ge.. Gen-chan." He called weakly, his throat refused to produce louder voice. Seeing no reaction from the taller man, Yukimura called once again and squeezed Sanada's hand.
The reaction was immediate, Sanada woke from his sleep and placed his hand on Yukimura's shoulder. "Hi, how are you?"
"I..I'm.." Yukimura coughed.
"I have water, here. Let me help you." Sanada put his arm around Yukimura for the second time that day and helped Yukimura to drink.
After drinking a huge amount of water Yukimura sighed, "Thank you."
"Mm.." Sanada sat back to his chair, he didn't let Yukimura's hand go though, the window behind him let the evening light came into the room and made the dark haired man looked so majestic. Yukimura couldn't help himself to sigh.
Sanada thought Yukimura's sigh was caused by his health, "Are you feeling bad somewhere?"
Yukimura wanted to say no but decided to against it. "Yes."
"Where is it? Do you want me to call the doctor?"
"No. It's here." Yukimura put his hand on his chest and grasped it tightly. "It's very hurt here."
"Seiichi.."
"Gen-chan.. I know I'm too selfish but I can't help it. I'm sorry. Forgive me." Yukimura sobbed, he closed his eyes to stop the tears yet his tears fell from the tip of his eyes.
"Seiichi. I apologize too. I'm sorry for saying those things to you." He wiped Yukimura's tears away.
"Gen-chan.."
"Seiichi. We need to talk."
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The room was quiet, well, it was a little after midnight so it was certainly quiet.
Tezuka didn't turn the lamp as usual so Fuji walked carefully in case he run on something and created ruckus. The man he was thinking about constantly for this week laid on the bed and slept soundly.
Fuji put his bag on the chair and doing his routine whenever he visited Tezuka at night. He made sure the man slept comfortably, refilled the water and changed the vase water. The flowers' arrangement which his fans sent were getting lower in quantity but higher in quality. He found some rare flowers among them, Sei-chan should be here, it must be a heaven for him. He rechecked the window for nth time before satisfied and then finally when he saw everything was in order he decided to go home.
He looked at the man's face and put his hand on his head, "I'm sorry." He then walked away.
For the next two days, Fuji made sure to visit Tezuka both early in the morning and late in the night in a day. He chose those times because he knew Tezuka would be asleep at those times. He accused Tezuka as a coward but he knew, the coward one was him. He couldn't find any courage to face the man. He said some ugly things to the man and now regretted it wholeheartedly.
Fuji hopped out of the bus and exhaled. The night wasn't really late yet he wished Tezuka had already asleep. He hadn't prepared his mentality to argue more. He stood in front of the hospital and stared at it. He sat on the hospital's bench and looked at the night's sky.
"Sei-chan. Where are you really?"
As if answering his question, his phone rang. Fuji looked at the caller ID and picked it up quickly. "Sei-chan!" He didn't bother to greet the older man anymore.
"Syuu-kun."
"Where are you? I thought you said you just need two days.. It was the longest two days I ever know. When are you going to come back and end all of these things?"
It had been a week and if Fuji hadn't become insane the day before, he was, when Yukimura called.
"I know it Syuu-kun." Yukimura sounded tired and worn out.
"So, when is it? When will you go back here?"
"I was on my way back this afternoon but my asthma attacked and this time is worse than before. The doctor said I am a little bit stressed, too. So.."
"So you can't go home yet." Fuji continued Yukimura's sentence. Fuji lost all of his anger toward his cousin and asked him instead, "Are you okay now? Have you taken your medicine? Sei-chan, please mind your own body, too." Fuji tsk-ed.
Yukimura chuckled from across the phone. "Hai, hai, Syuu-kun. I got it.."
"So.. I can't expect you to come home within this week, can I?" Fuji asked carefully.
"I'm afraid so, Syuu-kun. I have to stay here for three days. They are going to run some tests and stuff."
"That's too bad."
"How is it there?"
"I don't know, Sei-chan. He is just too complicated. I don't understand him."
Yukimura chuckled, "You don't have to fuss over him. Just give him some companies, he is a big boy and he can handle everything by himself."
"No, he doesn't. He can't. There is something dying inside of him, Sei-chan. He need someone to save him and keep him happy." He is suffering, Fuji added quietly.
"You shouldn't bring your feeling into this, Syuu-kun. You are just too kind that makes me—"
Fuji heard a muffled voice besides Yukimura's voice. "Sorry, Syuu-kun but they are going to give me a treatment now, I'll give you an information soon after they tell me."
"Okay, get well soon, Sei-chan."
"Bear a little longer for me ne, Syuu-kun."
"I have no choice, do I?" He chuckled and sighed.
"Good night." Fuji ended the call but he was still be able to hear the voice across his phone. "Gen-chan, please bring me my bag, please." and then the phone went dead.
Fuji furrowed his brows, Sanada-san? Why is Sanada-san with Sei-chan? Has he healed already? Why doesn't he come to visit Tezuka-san? They are family, aren't they?
Fuji shook his head slowly, life was just too mysterious and complicated.
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The moon was bright and its light passed the window. Tezuka forgot to close the curtain again apparently. It's not unusual, the man couldn't differentiate between the day and night given his condition.
Fuji had finished his night routine at Tezuka's room and now he sat on the chair. He was too hypnotized by the moonlight and decided to stay for a while.
"Tezuka.." He whispered '-san' quietly and gazed the sleeping man, "The moon is very pretty tonight, I wish you can see it too right now but I think your health doesn't support for sightseeing yet, ne.."
"I did so many bad things to you recently and I am sure you don't want to see me anymore. I hope.. I hope you get better soon and enjoy your live wholeheartedly." He stared at the moon once again.
"I'm sorry." He bowed his head and his body deeply, praying his apology was heard by the man.
He stood and looked at the man once again before turned away.
He didn't close the curtain but he had checked the lock first. "Good night." He whispered.
His hand was on the doorknob when suddenly a voice called him, "Wait. Don't go."
Tezuka was sitting on his bed and and Fuji didn't know how Tezuka knew the direction but he was faced to Fuji.
"We have unfinished things to sort out"
My goodness, what are Yukimura and Sanada doing? What would happen to Tezuka, then?
It's very hard to write Fuji's part when he was yelling at Tezuka. I couldn't write it right for days. Gosh. They are perfect pair and it was sooooo difficult for them to get mad at each other. I'm sorry if Tezuka was a bit OOC.
The story might be a little confusing but you'll get it after several chapters. I hope so. Lol.. Have a nice day! Thanks! Review?