Quick authors note! Okay, so I apologise for this one in advance, it's kinda depressing and also kinda sorta very rushed. You don't have to read it but I would really enjoy some things that you guys (if anyone wants to read this) think I could brush up on. I really want to become a better author and stuff... enjoy the story! I also apologise for my horrible and stupid grammar mistakes, ADHD makes it difficult to write.
Virgil huddled in the corner of his room, fingers digging into his scalp as his breath got caught in his throat. All of the other traits were by Thomas's side, while Thomas clenched at his chest.
"S-someone needs to check on Anxiety. T-the voices… why would they say these things? I can't- I can't hear my own thought's." Thomas breathed, squeezing his eyes shut. Roman's eyes widened at the sound of his boyfriends name, and he quickly vanished, sprinting down Thomas's mind palace. He came to a stop outside of Virgil's door, wincing at the sound of breathless sobs and pained breathing. He shoved the door open and dropped to his knees at Virgil's side.
"Vi-Virgil, breathe, please breathe for me." Virgil shook his head, reaching his hands out to grab Roman.
"I-I can't they won't stop. I-I they won't I can't-" Roman held his sobbing trait to his chest, murmuring soft things and pressing his head into the soft locks of hair on Virgil's head.
"Don't listen to the voices. Listen to my voice. I'm here…" Roman froze, trying to think for a second. "L-let's play a game Virgil. I-I like this game, a-and I think you will too." Virgil nodded slowly as Roman sat him up, leaning his trait's back against the cool wall.
"I need for you to do something for me Virgil, f-for the game." He stuttered, not enjoying the sight of his broken Virgil. "I'm going to say a word, a-and I need you to say the first thing that comes to your mind when you hear the word, okay?" Virgil blinked at him once before shutting his eyes again.
"W-whatever you want Princey." he squeezed out. Roman went silent as he tried to think of an easy word.
"Love." He said, too many emotions swarming in his voice.
"You, me, I love you Princey." Virgil stated, a warm haze covering his cheeks.
"W-why do you love me?" Roman asked hesitantly, they had never said that they loved each other before now. Virgil choked out a laugh
"If I say why I love you, will you say why you love this mess that I am?" He asked, trying to even out his breathing as he once again glanced up at his prince.
"Of course." Roman answered, pressing a quick kiss to his Virgil's temple.
"I love how good you are, you're just so good, and I'm not good." He gasped in a quick breath, tightening his hold on his prince. "B-but you make me feel like I'm good, good enough for you, good enough to still exist." Roman ran his hands down Virgil's sides. "I love that you love me, even though I'm an asshole. I love that you're stupid. But you're not stupid. And I love you." He repeated the word you about three times before he focused on his breathing.
"I love you Virgil." Roman murmured, slipping his hands under Virgil's shirt as he massaged at his Virgil's sides. "Love you even though you don't smile around the others, because it makes it all the more special when you smile your beautiful smile for me. I love your smile so much. I love the way that you laugh, all of us have different laughs, and yours is my favorite. Your eyes are darker than everyone else's and they're amazing, always showing so many emotions that I didn't know you had. You're an amazing person, and you are always thinking. You're so smart." Roman mumbled, pressing kisses to Virgil's face and quickly shoved Virgil down so that he was laying on his back. He tugged
Virgil's shirt over his stomach and sent Virgil a sly smirk causing Virgil to raise an eyebrow in confusion. Roman grinned and pressed his lips down to Anxiety's abdomen, blowing on it causing a loud "Pffbtbpldbdb" sound to fill the air.
Virgil let out a loud and sharp laugh, before his cheeks flushed and he shoved at Roman, trying to get him to leave him away. Meanwhile, Thomas was enjoying the sudden feeling of joy and lightness that filled his chest. He let out a small chuckle, gaining the attention of Patton and Logan who glanced at each other.
"I wonder what Roman did to Virgil... Should we check on them?" Patton asked, feeling his own surge of happiness and turning to Logan who nodded abruptly.
"Let's go." Logan stated, quickly vanishing. Patton took a second to wave to Thomas and blow him a quick kiss before vanishing as well.
"Where are they?" Logan asked himself out loud, as Patton appeared behind him.
"Probably in Virgil's room." Patton chirped slipping past the logical trait with a smile and speeding towards Virgil's door. They both froze in the doorway when they heard Virgil's laughter, finding it adorable and grinning when they saw Roman above him, tickling Virgil's sides.
"They're not doing anything wrong…" Patton mumbled as Logan tried to get the sound of Virgil's laughter permanently installed in his mind.
"I've never heard Virgil laugh before." He ,muttered under his breath, allowing himself to be dragged away by a smiling Patton. Virgil's face was a bright shade of red that Roman found himself adoring as Virgil tried to collect his breath.
"I-I-I'm not u-used t-to laughing t-to" He squeezed out between laughs, "Laughing th-this damn much." Roman grinned and paused for a second.
"That's why I made it my job to get you to laugh more often. I love your laugh, and I love you." He nuzzled his face into the crook of his Virgil's neck and began to tickle him again.
"H-hey Princey." Virgil wheezed after a few minutes causing Roman to freeze and pull back so that they could lock eyes. "Do you want to watch Disney later?" He asked after a moment of hesitation. Roman nodded and sighed, leaning over Virgil's body so that their faces were closer and they could see each other more clearly.
"That's not what you were going to say… what were you going to say?" Vigil sighed and slid back, propping himself up his elbows.
"I'm Thomas's anxiety, and anxiety is a mental sickness, which means that there are ways to get rid of me. There are so many anxiety medications that numb anxiety. If Thomas took one of those, he would be better, he wouldn't have to worry about suffering through my attacks or having anxiety anymore." He said, his voice quiet.
"But, but wouldn't that get rid of you as well?" Virgil was know silent, not meeting Roman's eyes. "It would get rid of you, I can't-I can't." He cried out, his eyes brimming with tears as he fought back sobs. "You can't, Thomas can't." Virgil had to force himself away from Roman, clutching his head once again. "I-I can't lose you, I wouldn't, I can't. Please Virgil, please don't." Virgil shook his head,
"I already told Thomas, he ordered the pills yesterday, he can't know. He doesn't know what they'll do." Roman's chest tightened.
"Is-has he had them yet, has he tried them yet. Please tell me he hasn't." Roman pressed a hand to Virgil's chest with a small whimper.
"He took them right before the attack, I don't know why they didn't work." Vigil clenched his hand into a fist. "Why am I okay? Is Thomas okay too?" He asked, shooting a glance at the weeping male.
"Y-yes. Of course. B-because you're o-okay, s-so he'll be okay too." Roman stood stiffly and vanished out of Virgil's room, searching Thomas's house for wherever Thomas could possibly be. "Thomas!" He shrieked, his voice cracking as he sobbed. Thomas came sprinting when he heard the crack in Roman's voice, a look of concern on his face.
"R-Roman. You scared me, are you okay?" Roman's face quickly contorted into one of terrifying anger and he seized Thomas's collar and pulled him forward. "Since when can you touch-"
"Why the ever loving fuck would you buy those pills?" Thomas winced, and Virgil suddenly came barreling down the hallway, snatching Roman's form away and shooting Thomas a look.
"Don't hurt Thomas, it wasn't his fucking fault." Roman scrambled to luge at Thomas,
"Yes it fucking was, he bought them. He's fucking killing you, I won't be able to live if you're dead." Thomas paled,
"Wait, Virgil I-I'm, y-you're-" Virgil shushed him as Roman let out a hiss of frustration, angry tears streaming down his face.
"I hate you Virgil, I hate you." Roman cried, causing Virgil to recoil. Roman paled at the words that had left his lips, reaching for his boyfriend who flinched away from him.
"So do I." He mumbled, turning to Thomas. "You should keep taking the pills Thomas, they're going to help I swear no more anxiety attacks. No more Anxiety." He whispered as Roman stood behind him.
"Please Thomas no, Virgil's wrong, you can't thee pills they'll kill him, I can't if he's gone I can't I can't." Thomas stepped forward, and quickly found that if he focused, Virgil's form was paler than before. The pills had said that they worked quickly.
"I won't take them if they hurt anyone. I don't want to hurt anyone." Thomas muttered, stepping back and avoiding Roman's harsh stare. Logan and Patton stumbled over, a sad look on Logan's face.
"What was the commotion that we heard coming from over here." Virgil glanced at Patton.
"P-Patton, you're a cool guy. Shouldn't Thomas take the anxiety pills, they'll help him get better." He chirped, trying to sound peppy and avoiding Roman's wounded gaze.
"B-but wouldn't that kill you Virgil?" Logan asked quietly, shuddering away from Virgil's stare.
"If they help Thomas then I'm all for it." Patton said, having not heard what Logan had just said moments before. Virgil stood and turned to Thomas who was holding the oven open with one hand and holding the pills with his other. Virgil's eyes widened as Thomas froze.
"What do you think that you're doing?" He hissed, clenching his teeth.
"Not killing you that's for sure." Thomas answered before tossing the bottle inside. Virgil gave out a grunt as he collapsed to the ground, words swamping his thoughts, Thomas also letting out a hiss of pain. Roman dove for Vigil's side and hugged him to his chest.
"L-let's play a game Virgil." Roman squeezed out.
"I-I can't breathe." Virgil choked out, as he coughed, blood falling from his lips.
"What the hell?" Logan's voice rang out, sounding confused and scared.
"What's happening to him?" Patton asked, his voice at least an octave higher as he watched on nervously.
"I, I don't know." Logan muttered. Roman's breath hitched in his throat as Virgil lifted a hand to touch his face.
"Those pills sure do work quickly." He laughed without any humour.
"How many did you take!?" Logan shrieked at Thomas, who was slowly recovering as Virgil got worse.
"I-It said take three every hour!" Virgil coughed again, his body going numb, just like he had imagined that it would.
"I love you so much Princey." he mumbled, his voice quiet as he tried to keep his eyes open.
"I-I love you too Virgil, my Virgil my Virgil my Virgil." He repeated my Virgil over and over again, whimpering as he pressed his head to his boyfriend's neck. As Virgil began to fade, Roman did too, then they were both gone, gone forever and ever. Thomas was frozen in place.
"W-where did they both go?"
"I-I still, I don't-" Patton rested a hand on Logan's shoulder and smiled once again.
"Home." He said. Logan narrowed his eyes at the trait.
"Don't give me that bullshit, where the fuck did they go?" Patton ignored him and turned to the camera that we are watching this whole thing out of.
"You'll find out next time kiddos!"