I woke up and began to brush my hair. It was a shame that I had to hide it because I worked so hard to grow it out. I really didn't know anything about the students, but I still didn't want to be known as the freaky tranny. I was terrified of people not accepting for who I am. That's why I was so glad that Zach knew my secret. I liked having someone that I could talk to. I didn't want to open up to two many people. Maybe I could tell one more person, but that person would have to be a girl.

I noticed Zack was sleeping shirtless. There was a part of me that just wanted to kiss him all over. I took out one of my pills and filled a cup with water and swallowed it. I thought back to the first time I knew I was a girl.

I was probably only a few years old. I was playing with my older sister Hadley. I loved my sister. I loved how she liked to dress me up when we were kids. She always talked about how I wished I was her little sister. Some might argue that I was the way I was because of her. I wasn't transgender because I wanted to be like my sister. I was transgender because that was who I was. She was the first person that I told, though.

At that time, got a call from Kettlepod University. I immediately answered it because I knew it was Hadley. I always wondered how I managed to get calls on the ship, but it turned out that the boat had its own cell tower.

"Hi Hadley." I answered. She was the only person that I could talk to without having to lower my voice.

"How's my favorite little sister?" She asked.

"I'm your only little sister." I pointed out. "I'm your only sibling."

"How's everything going? Did you get to go as a girl?" She asked me.

"No." I replied. "It's not as bad as you think, though. Due to some unfortunate timing, my roommate knows. He's actually really supportive of it."

"Are you serious?" She inquired. "Where is he from?"

"Boston." I replied.

"Are you crushing on him?" Hadley teased.

"Hadley, we agreed that it can't happen." I explained. "Just because he supports me doesn't mean that he wants to date me. Besides, the whole school thinks I'm a boy, so we couldn't really go anywhere with it even if we did."

"Well, have you gotten to spend any time as a girl?" She asked. "Any?"

"Yes, I have. We're in the Dominican Republic right now and I went out in a dress last night." I told her. "I also decided to stock up on hormones while I was here.

"You know I'm really jealous that you get to see all these places." She said. "Well I have to go now. I love you and make sure to send pictures."

At that point, I noticed Zack was waking up. He stretched out giving me a full view of his chest. I very much appreciated it. I then looked away.

"Hey." He greeted me.

"So, I think I should stay here this morning so you make it to class on time." I remarked.

"Bailey, it's Saturday." He replied. I couldn't help but blush. "Did you want to go to the pool?

"Are you kidding?" I asked him.

"Well you brought that bikini." He pointed out. "What's the point of having it if you don't go swimming or at least to the hot tub?"

"I've only worn a bikini once." I explained. "I really haven't even been swimming since I started my transition."

"Well you can't be afraid to go in the water." He stated.

"I just don't think that I'm ready to go right now." I replied.

"Well suit yourself." He responded. His choice of words were a little bit ironic. He went into the bathroom and came out wearing a pair of swim trunks. I had resist the urge to drool. Why did he have to be so hot? Why couldn't I have been with someone less attractive? Of course, someone less attractive might not have been as understanding.

After about thirty minutes of realizing that I had nothing to do, I began to think to myself. Could I really go out on the deck dressed as a girl? Yes, I probably was unrecognizable, but I wasn't even sure if I could do it. Going out in a bikini wouldn't even be a problem because my swimsuit of choice consisted of a black bikini top and matching swim trunks. I just felt like it was the safest choice, even though my nipples were more likely to get erect than anything else.

I went to the bathroom and put on my bikini top and looked at myself in the mirror. If I was like my mom, I would eventually grow big breasts. Of course, my sister's weren't quite as big, so I wasn't sure. I finished getting dressed and crept towards the door. I listened for any sounds because I didn't want to come across anyone as I left. Once I was able to confirm that no one was around, I walked out the door. I rushed to the lido deck and was once again reminded that I should be wearing shoes.

When I got to the lido deck, I noticed Zack and he also noticed me.

"Hey Ba…be I've never met before." He greeted me. Normally, I wouldn't like being called Babe, but I was glad that he was able to catch himself and not say my name in front of everyone, which included Cody and a few other students. He then walked over to me. "So, do you happen to your meal card with you?"

"No." I answered. "Why?'

"Because I kind of maxed mine out." He answered. How had he done that in so little time? Was he that bad with spending?

"Those are supposed to last the whole semester." I told him. "How did you spend it all?"

"Zack, why is my meal card maxed out?" Cody interrupted. I did notice that he didn't seem to recognize me. Had Zack taken Cody's card as well? It seemed like he definitely had a spending problem. I figured that I shouldn't be in the middle. I hoped that Zack had more respect for my things than he did his brother's. At the time, it seemed like he might've.

I decided to head over to the hot tub. It actually seemed like I wasn't the center of attention that I thought I would be. Of course, my body was still developing. I didn't know what I would look like in a few years. I hoped by then I would have everything that I wanted. I sat down next to a girl that I was pretty sure was another student. She was wearing a blue bikini.

"Hi." She greeted me. "I'm Addison. What's your name?"

"I'm…" I started before I realized I wasn't sure how to answer. The downside to having a unisex name that I wanted to keep was that it would make it harder to tell people my name. I then realized that I didn't have to say my first name. "…Nicole."

"So, where are you going, Nicole?" She asked.

"What?" I replied in confusion.

"Well I haven't seen you in class, so I figured you must be a passenger." She explained. I supposed it was a fair assumption and I was okay with it. I knew it wouldn't be one that I could keep up forever. It may not have even been something that I could keep up for more than a day. I then realized that I needed an answer to her question. I wasn't exactly sure where the ship was stopping next to be honest.

"I'm just along for the ride." I answered. I couldn't help but think of how pathetic it sounded.

"I like your bathing suit." She commented.

"Thanks." I said with a blush. "I don't think I'm really confident enough to wear a bikini."

At that time, I couldn't help but notice Zack and Cody were talking to Mr. Moseby.

"Well sometimes you just have to let go and not think about everyone looking at you." She stated. I smiled. I was glad that I was having a conversation with another girl other my sister. "But you don't have to if you don't want to."

"I think I'll just stick to this right now." I declared.

A few minutes later, I noticed Zack and Cody came back wearing uniforms. Zack went behind the smoothie bar and Cody started to pick up and give out towels. It looked like Zack got the better job. I was pretty sure that I wouldn't be able to have a have a job on the ship because I didn't think they would want me covering my head.

"So, I think I need to get going now, but it was nice meeting you." Addison said before she left.

I decided that I wanted to go over to the smoothie bar.

"Looks like you got a job." I remarked.

"You know I might actually make more working than I would have had for my meal plan." He replied.

"I guess that's one way to put it." I responded.

"At least I'm not the towel boy like Cody." He added. That was definitely true. "So, I was wondering something. How does it feel knowing that you're not like everyone else?"

I knew that he didn't mean to make it sound like I was freak, and it was true that I wasn't like everyone else. Only a small portion of the population was transgender.

"I've come to terms with it." I explained. "I know who I want to be, but I'd rather not talk about this kind of stuff in public.'

"Right, we can talk about it in the room." He agreed. "I'm going to be here for a while though."

"I guess we'll just have to wait then." I stated. "So, I think that I've been out long enough. I'm gonna go."

On Monday, I was in class. It had just ended actually and I noticed that Addison was walking towards me.

"Hey, Bailey." She greeted me.

"Yo, Addison." I responded.

"I was wondering if you wanted to study with me." She declared. I thought about it for a second. It would be nice to have some friends other than Zack. If I made friends, maybe I could eventually tell more people before eventually letting everyone know.

"Sure." I agreed.

"Great we can meet in the library tonight." She suggested. "Maybe we can get some dinner after we are done."

"I suppose." I replied.

Later, I was in my room with Zack.

"So, this Addison chick, is she hot?" He asked.

"Haven't you seen her in class?" I questioned.

"I was too busy sleeping to pay attention." He answered. I couldn't help but giggle a little. I would probably have to wake him up next time. It also might not have been a bad idea to study with him sometime.

"She's the girl that was with me at the hot tub the other day." I told him.

"Oh, the brunette in the bikini." He remarked. "She was hot. What did you talk about?"

"Not really anything other that you would care about." I replied. "It was girl stuff."

"Have you ever really talked about girl stuff with anyone?" He inquired.

"Just my sister." I replied as I put my hoodie on. "Now if you excuse me, I need to go."

I headed out to the library. It was mostly empty. Addison was actually the only one there. I assumed they figured they didn't need a librarian because no one could leave with the books. The two of us took a seat a table together. It felt a little weird being all alone in the library. It was kind of creepy.

"So, what did you want to study?" I asked.

"Maybe we could study each other." She suggested. Oh no. She had a crush on me. Before I could react, she pressed her lips against mine. I backed away and fell out of my chair. In the process, my hat and hood both fell down.

"Nicole?" Addison asked.

So I seem to be in the mood for resurrecting my old stories lately. Addison found out Bailey's secret. Also, I'm toying with this of Zack being discovering he's transgender as well but I would like to hear feedback about it. Please don't forget to review.