Samuel had gone out to buy food. Shortly after Edna heard her daughter cry.
She slowly approached to the baby, lifting her from the cradle, realizing that she had dirtied her diapers.
With no hurry she attended her, cleaned, placed new diapers. Then she kissed her, repeatedly, seeing her laugh. And even she had not asked, she gave breastfeeding. She realized that her daughter even drank a lot of milk, despite not being hungry. Edna suspected that more than hunger for milk, she would hunger for her mother.
She spoke softly as she watched in her chest, she stroked her cheek, she took one of her small hands.
Now she was clean, and full, she decided to make her sleep.
She lay down on the throughout of the couch and placed the baby on her chest, comfortably. Softly she began to recite, very softly.
- Aad Guray Nameh… Jugaad Guray Nameh… Sat Guray Nameh... Siri Guru Dayvay Nameh...
It was the mantra of her mother. The original Kalisha. It was the mantra that had accompanied her for years, and now would be the mantra of her daughter. If the small Kaly even had something of her grandmother, it would be that.
And slowly both fell asleep.
A few minutes later Samuel entered in his house, and he had just reached the room, when his eyes turned red immediately. He put things aside and he approached, like a shadow, to the couch. He knelt nearby, covering his mouth, with a heavy tear across his face. His wife was sleeping with her daughter over her. For the first time since her birth.
Shakily he took his phone, to take a picture, which he will then send to his brother.
He stood still, disbelieving. Finally it is happening. He came to kiss the forehead of Edna, and the head of Kaly, feeling a light growing inside.
- ¿What's up…?- She murmured, barely awaking, is focusing her eyes on her husband- ¿Samy...? ¿You're crying…?
- Is nothing- He smiled, wiping his eyes- Calm. Just… I'm happy to see you like this.
- ¿Did not you want to Edna back?- She joked, a little tired- By the way, She is clean and full...
- Princess- He kissed her lips, gently- My Edy...
- Honey…- She took one of his hands- I know I've apologized before but I'll say it again... Forgive me…
- You are forgiven, you know that...- He kissed her hand- It was the post partum depression.
- No it was just that... It was also enough of my nonsense... Thanks for taking care of us, and bring me back to the shithole where I was- She covered her mouth quickly, lowering her voiceand looking at the baby asleep- Sorry Kaly, I mean... pit with fecal matter.
- Edy- He turned to kiss her hand.
- Also… I think my great drama to not being able to feel love for her... It was by depression. I mean, I hated myself... and was hard to me feel love for you, and that is a lot to say…
- I know.
- And... Today I felt it- She looked at his eyes.
- ¿What?
- When you left, I attended her. And there, as I finished putting clean diapers... Her laugh for me... I felt it… Love… I did not know that was so different to my love for you.
- Edy...- His eyes turned red.
- Samy...
Drake, with moist eyes, saw her rise, leaving her daughter in the crib, and return to recline as was previously.
- Come- She told him, gently, extending her arms- You also need Mommy Edna.
- God...- He groaned.
Samuel lay almost over her with his face in her chest, feeling her hold him by the head, surround him with a blanket of warm love.
- Is okay my love…- She squeezed him, hard- Cry... I'm not leaving here...
He sank his face, holding her by the waist, beginning to mourn, feeling her stroke his hair. From the moment Kalisha was born, he had accumulated anxieties, tensions, regrets, pains, feelings which he was placed in the back of his mind, trying to tend to remain stable, to keep his two beloved afloat.
All, from her fears for how to raise her daughter alone, the anguish of losing both, the pain of seeing his woman almost dead in the bathroom, his inability to get her out of depression, his feelings of failure. Everything was pouring in the soft, warm breast of his wife.
- ¡Do not leave me alone again!- He cried- ¡Please Edy! ¡I can not alone! ¡I need you!
- I will not go- She squeezed him a little more- I know I was a fool, but I learned from my mistake. I will never leave you alone. We are together in this, forever.
- Edy...
- Calm…- She caressing him.
For a while, he just stood there, crying, holding her, calming down very slowly.
And when he began to relax, Shaareim started singing, very softly, a very slow melody wich she cradled him tenderly, and she repeated several times, increasingly softly.
When her song was a whisper, she realized that Samuel was asleep. Edna smiled, closing her eyes, letting sleep well, feeling the warmth of her husband in her heart, inside and outside.
What Edna sings to Sam was May It Be by Enya