Part 6
"Slap Jon in the back of the head later" I said to myself as I folded my arms on my chest and rested my feet on the dashboard.
I could see from the corner of eye that Colby was juggling keeping an eye on the road and watching me. We'd been driving for well over an hour but I hadn't said a word. For the first 5 minutes he badgered me to speak to him but I wasn't haven't anything of it. But the silence now was painful. I thought back to the times in ROH when we travelled together, the fun times we had, and I had missed that. As much as I was going to regret it, I would have to break it. I noticed in the rear view mirror that Jon and Joe were 2 cars behind us so if anything would go bad they would be there if I called.
"You wanted to talk, then I'll talk" I spoke
"You breaking the silence, now that's a first" Colby chuckled
"I'm stubborn I know. It's in my Irish blood." I said, trying to hold back a smile
"So does this mean your going to let me explain? And you'll answer any questions I have?" he asked, as he shot me a warming smile
I took a deep breathe and closed my eyes before answering, this means if he asked why I left I would have to tell him the truth.
"Yes. I'll be 100% honest with you"
"Gem, you know I loved you with all my heart. I seen a future with us, hence why I was planning to propose but then I started to get cold feet the more and more I thought about how I would ask you. Leila was there for me, you remember how close the two of you where she was basically your best friend after Jon left" he explained
Leila was one of the newbie's that had signed to ROH after Jon left and Colby and myself had taken her under own wing and we all got close. And he was right she had become my best friend. I had confided in her about everything in my life and any relationship problems I was having with Colby but after I had found them in bed together I had realised that she had broken my trust and twisted the advice she had given me and used it in her favour to get Colby into bed well that's what I had told myself.
"She was helping me plan since she had some idea's of what you would like. We spend more and more time when you went to the gym or had other things to do. But one day …" he paused before speaking
I knew what was coming and I braced myself for what I was about to hear.
"She poured her heart out to me, she explained how she had feelings for me. Then he just kissed me, I don't know what I was thinking I didn't resist, I didn't pushed her away but when you walked in on us I regretted everything" I could hear the sadness in his voice
"But you disappearing broke me. I thought I couldn't go on without you. But once again Leila was there as much as I hated her for perusing me but at least she stayed. She had convinced me that you leaving was good for me and if you really loved that you would have stayed" he sighed
"I did love you Colby but that's why I had to leave" I spoke shyly
"That's not enough to just pack everything and just leave without a word"
I had to tell him, as much as this was going to hurt me.
"One thing that I want to know, you still spoke with Leila after I left did you stay friends?" I asked
"We were more than friends. Actually we started sleeping together and well we ended up dating" I could see him cringe
"Ah huh" was all I was muster to say
"Wait. No! I'm not going to hold this in. So your telling me, you stayed with the woman you cheated on me with? What was I to you Colby? Was I just someone you could fuck on the road?" I could feel me anger building
"No, of course not. I loved you" he gently spoke knowing that I could burst at any moment
"Loved me? Really you loved me enough to cheat on me?" I sneered
"It was an accident at the time. Trust me, I never wanted to hurt you"
"BUT YOU STAYED WITH HER!" I barked
"WHAT DID YOU EXPECT? YOU FUCKING LEFT ME! AND I STILL DON'T KNOW WHY?"
This talk had become heated argument and I had enough of arguments this week. I hunted in my bag for my purse, when I had found it pulled back one of the small compartments that revealed a small polaroid.
"You want to know why I left Colby. This is why" I said, holding back tears as I showed him the polaroid.
The traffic was heavy, so it gave him time to closely look at it.
"Y-y-y-you were pregnant?" he asked
I said nothing I simply nodded.
"We have a child a together," he asked, as a small smile started to spread across his lips
"No. We had a child" holding back my tears had failed and they started to stream down my face
I felt his hand grab mine; I hadn't thought about this for years, keeping the scan picture in my purse always kept a part of him with me.
"I had just found out that day, and I was going to tell you that night when I got home but I found you and Leila in bed. My first thought was to run, I had thought about getting rid of the baby but I knew I could never live with myself. So I went home" I sniffed as I tired to dry my eyes
"But I had called your mom she hadn't seen you?" he asked
"I told her to tell you that. I had decided that I would rise this baby by myself, I would leave wrestling behind and dedicate my life to his little human being"
"But you said we had a child" he choked
I took another deep breath.
"I had found out that it was a boy, I had a name picked out. Finn. But 3 weeks after that scan I had miscarried. I thought that I would have a little piece of you forever but karma must have decided that I couldn't have that"
"Why didn't you tell me?" he asked sternly
"I was going to tell you when I had him, but since I had lost Finn it didn't make sense. So I just fell off the face of the planet and once again I ran. So I went back home to Ireland, spent some time with my grandparents and my cousins. Travelled the country, something I had never done." I sighed
"You should have told anyway. I had a right to know" he frowned
"But you had hurt me so much, I couldn't trust you. I couldn't trust anyone and I still can't do that. Jon has always been there for me and he knew all of this, but I asked him to not tell a soul," I said as I stared at the scan picture
"Jon knew? He knew for years? I've worked with him for 4 years" I could feel that he was starting to get angry
"I knew, when Jon got signed with NXT and then again with WWE he told me. I've know he's been working with you for years, that what made all this more difficult to deal with" I spoke softly, hoping this would calm him
He ran his fingers through his hair; this was a sign that he was frustrated.
"No, don't you start to get angry about this" I sneered
"You stayed with Leila! Jon told me, you were supposedly depressed? And yet you stayed with her!" I said raising my voice
"WE HAD A SON! And I was never informed? What were you gonna do when he was older, would you have told him about me? Would he even known I existed?" he matched my tone
"OF COURSE! Why would have I denied my son that information. Well it's all ifs and buts, cause he's gone. I lost our son Colby, it's all my fault" I could feel the tears once again.
I quickly pulled my phone from my pocket and called Jon.
"Colby, pull over now" I sneered at I held my phone to my ear
"No, we're in the middle of nowhere" he argued
"I don't care and Jon is two cars behind us. SO PULL OVER NOW!" I said raising my voice
"Jon, you are a dead man. But you and Joe need to pull over now. I'm getting out of here, and I mean now" I almost barked down the phone
"Gem, not this again. Can't you stay for once please? If we're gonna work together we need to be able to spend time in the same room together" Colby said calmly as I hung up on the phone
"Don't you think I've thought of that, but I've had way too many arguments in the last 24 hours and I just want some time to think and calm down. So pull over now!" I spoke quickly
I needed to calm down; all this arguing with people and tension was starting to run me down. I just wanted to sleep and go for a run in the morning. Running was my escape, it let me think and mind could wandering.
I seen Colby nod his head slowly and finally give in to my demand of pulling over. Glancing in the side mirror I seen that Joe and Jon had done the same.
"Colby just give me some time okay. My mind is running 100 miles an hour, and we'll see how things will go. I don't think we'll ever get back to where they were, but don't smother me" I said trying to calm myself even more before opening the door to get out
Once again he just nodded slowly. I quickly grabbed my stuff from the back of the car and made my way over to meet Jon and Joe. I threw my stuff into the backseat before climbing in. Jon was sitting in the front seat and I had remembered the promise I had made myself. I quickly and sharply slapped Jon in the back of the head.
"What was that for" he half laughed as he rubbed the back of his head.
"You know!" I glared at him
"So do you want to explain why you needed to get out of there? And next time can you say please?" Jon smiled as he turned to face me
"I told him everything. And I mean EVERYTHING!" I said as I emphasized everything.
"You mean" he began as he quickly glanced at Joe
"You told him. And you're the one coming out angry after that" he laughed
"Well both our tempers rose, cause he told me about Leila. And I you knew!" I hissed about just thinking about her
"Yeahhh, about that. I wanted to but you where such an emotional wreck I thought it would be better not to mention it" he said I could hear the shame in his voice
"Well that doesn't matter now but when he told me it could under my skin" I huffed
"Leila? Didn't they break up a few weeks ago?" Joe chimed in
"WHAT?!" I couldn't help but shout
"Oh, guess he left that information out" Joe said as he cringed a little
"Ugh! I'm done with this. I've heard too much for one day" I sighed as I leaned back in the seat
"Don't worry Gem, they break up and get back together and then break up again on a regular basis" Jon smiled, which I knew he was trying to console me
"Oh brilliant, just what I wanted to hear" I sighed again
"Yeah, don't worry Gem. The last fight they had he threw her out and it seemed like this was it for good. So you won't be seeing her as much as I can tell you'd love to see her," Jon grinned
"Oh yeah. It would be fantastic" I sarcastically smiled at him
After than the conversation quieted down and we started to discuss on how I would be incorporated into The Shield's entrance since it was something Triple H asked us all to figure that out. The three of us decided on meeting tomorrow with Colby before taping and try out something's.
Finally we arrived at the hotel, when we gathered our things from the car we made our way to the hotel reception to check in. I spied Colby from afar and I guess that Jon noticed it too.
"Hey Gem, I'll get you all checked in. I think we are booked together now, so if room sharing happens I'll work it out" Jon gave me a warming smile
"Thanks Ohio" I replied also with a warming smile
I took a seat on one of the sofas in the lobby as Jon got things arranged. I pulled my phone from my pocket and started browsing social media. My twitter had blow up over my RAW debut and the universe was excited to see where this storyline was going. But I noticed some tweets that some of my followers seemed to be retweeting.
natalieevamarie It's all Red Everything #wweuniverse always remember that , so what is #hearmenow?...Nobody can hear you. Sorry #sorrynotsorry
Eva Marie. I wasn't gonna get sucked into what shit she was hoping starting with me. I was going to forget about her for now I had enough on my plate. So I took to tweet myself
WWEHearMeRogue #wweuniverse thank you, thank you, you are the reason I go out & preform every night. #letmehearyou
I continued to scroll through my feed and my profile. My follower number had definitely risen since my Wrestlemania debut, which was good; it meant that I was gaining new fans with every show. But of course I seen …
WWERollins
And he was following me on instagram.
I tired to not look into it more since I was just feeling drained and my brain and body were crying out for sleep. I placed my fingers on my temples and rubbing them slowly. Not long after Jon appeared with a room key swinging around his finger and I seen that Joe and Colby had left.
"Let's go roomie, look like you need sleep. Until you want me to carry you to the room?" he asked rising his eyebrows
"No I'll manage. And Ohio we really need to find you a hobby or at least a girlfriend" I laughed
"Hey! … why?" he asked confused
"Cause you have way too much time on your hands, well according to twitter you do!" I laughed
Jon being the gentleman he claimed to be, grabbed my bags for me and carried them up to my room. As soon as I unlocked the door I pulled myself to the bed not even bothering to take off my clothes.
Next Morning
The sound of my alarm brought me out of my sleep. My feet kissed the floor and stretched and grabbed my phone. Last night's sleep was sorely needed and now I just needed a good run or workout to really clear my head. I tipped toed over to my case trying not to wake Jon, but he was a heavy sleeper so I was fine. I quickly grabbed my workout gear and changed but once again I tired to be quiet. Before heading out the door I grabbed my iPod and headphones and made my way downstairs. When I got to the lobby I realized that the morning weather was dull and dizzily so I opted to work out in the hotels gym. It was 7am so the gym was almost empty with out a few souls around. I popped my iPod into my workout armband and hung my headphones around my neck.
Colby
My night was a sleepless one; I kept relaying the argument with Gemma over and over in my head. I kept asking myself what if I had tired harder to find her? If I had would she have taken me back, would she have told me sooner about our son?
They were all if's and but's but as she said it was in the past. But she was back in my life now, she was the present and I couldn't let things like that go. I felt that I needed to hit the gym to clear my head.
I walked into the gym to realize that it was almost empty, only a few people where wandering around. I noticed someone sprinting on the treadmills and I had a feeling it was Gemma. She never seemed to change, working out was her relaxing time but also she used it to clear her head, something we both shared. I was about to walk over towards her but I remember that she asked me not to smother her, so changed my mind and headed to another piece of equipment.
Here's a present for all you guys :) ... spent the entire evening writing to get this out for you guys. So it may seem rushed but hopefully i'll have more tomorrow :) And just finished watching WWE 24 Wrestlemania 31 :) frickin loved it 3
Enjoy
GemGemxx