"Why does he keep looking over at me?" I thought to myself as I dried myself with a hand towel
"Wait why do I keep glancing at him?"

I panicked a little at that thought. Did I have still have some old feelings for him? Some that my subconscious could only see? Well it's wasn't hard to miss him in the gym, he had removed his shirt in the process of his workout so this had piqued my interest. He had definitely kept in shape and he had becoming more defined since I last remember, I spotted the Chinese lettering tattoo on his back, I remember asking him the first time I had seen them what they meant and now for some reason I couldn't' remember what now. I couldn't help but glance at my wrist; I had always wore a plastic wristband to cover it since it always reminded me of him. I gently pulled the wristband up my wrist more to reveal small ornate "C" of all the tattoo's I had gotten over the years this one surprisingly was the most painful in two senses. The placement of it was right on the bone and myself and Colby had done what cheesy couple do, get matching tattoos. I didn't want to get it removed because deep down I loved it.

A good sprint always cleared my head and I had been down here for over 2 hours. We where supposed to meet at the arena at 10 so I had about an hour to eat breakfast and shower so I grabbed my stuff and made my way back to my room. On my way out, I passed Colby if I wanted to make this professional relationship work; I had to actually listen to what Colby had said last night. As stubborn as I was, I had to suck it up. I shot him a small smile as I passed him. This was a start.

Later

Myself, Jon, Joe and Colby where standing outside the ring while Triple H was leaning against the ring. Where we trying to decide on how to work me into The Shield's entrance.

"So how do you guys what this to go?" I asked as I stretched my arms behind my head
"Shall we keep it simple? Or go all out? Front rolls and flips and stuff?" I laughed
"See Irish, personally I do want you to just swing your legs over the barrier since that's just boring. We need a reaction from the crowd. I think I should throw you over my shoulder and carry you over?" Jon grinned
"Don't think that will work Jon, it wouldn't work with the love triangle storyline" Triple H gave his 2 cents
"But yourself and Lopez fighting to let her go over first would be good to introduce in a few days" he added
"How about I just front roll over instead of Colby which would allow for the fighting later on' I grinned
"We can try that" Joe grinned as he jumped over the barrier
"Oh Gemma, you'll need to speak with Sandra after this. She has your new ring gear ready and you'll need to wear it tonight" Triple H nodded at me

The four of us made our way to the top of stands, as we stood Triple H signaled for The Shield's entrance music to play.

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I tired to imagine thousand's of fans screaming and crowding me as the music hit. I walked out first and started to make my way down the steps trying to keep the pace the boys did. When we reached the barrier I swiftly rolled over the barrier landing on my feet. I glanced behind me to see the boys carry on with their usual routine. For the ring entrance I had decided to let the boys enter first and then I would slide in after. For my single entrance I would use the ropes and backflip into the ring.

"It works, it's simple. I like it" Triple H grinned
"Next things will be you two working on fighting between yourselves. Trying to out do each other to help or impressive Gemma during a match" Triple H said as he rubbed his hands together
"Gemma, you just to have to keep the crowd going, play to them, you know the usual"

I just smiled and nodded.

"If we'll all done here, you can go get ready for tonight's match and Lopez, Good and Gemma you three need to be ready to film your backstage promos in about an hour. We're pre-taping them tonight" Triple H beamed as he shook hands with us all and then left

"Well I need to go get camera ready" I grinned as I grabbed my hoodie,
"Irish, that will take more than an hour" Jon laughed, I punched him in the arm as I passed him
"Well if that's the case, you should have been gone like 30 minutes ago" I winked as I stuck my tongue at him

I skipped up the ram and headed backstage. Before even heading to hair and make up I needed to speak with WWE seamstress Sandra. As I walked over to her, I noticed Eva Marie was shouting at her while holding some clothes. It looked pretty heated but Sandra stood her ground and told Eva to shove it,
she walked off in a huff.
I gently placed my hand on Sandra's shoulder before I spoke.

"Hi Sandra, everything okay here?" I politely asked
"Oh honey, it's fine. Eva just needs to learn some manners and not demand everything" she grinned
"So what can I help you with my dear?"
"Paul said you had some new gear ready for me?" I warmly smiled
"Oh yes, Paul had put that order in last week" she said as she turned to grab some clothes from the table
"They should fit and if not let me know" she grinned
"Thank you Sandra, they look amazing" I said as I hugged her
"I'll see you later" I waved as I skipped away

On my way back to the locker, I held my new ring gear out infront of me to get a better look. It was similar to my current gear but only it was black. Black leather vest that matched the boys but still had a bit of feminine style to wear for my entrance. A simple black-strapped crop top with cut out's on the ribs and black faux leather trousers they gave to illusion of tight leather trousers but still gave me the availability to move. The ring boots I already wear to ring would match perfectly and accessorizing was all up to me. The one thing that I didn't like what wearing half nothing in the ring so this outfit only showed off my stomach but I felt I needed more that a crop top and trousers to wear in ring I would need to raid my suitcase when I got back to the locker room.

I quickly changed from my sweats into my ring gear and started to rummage in the case for some accessories, I decided to pair a pair skull scarf with the in gear and some fingerless gloves I had found. I zipped up my suitcase and locked it before storing it in a locker and headed over to hair and make-up. I kept my make-up simple, smokey eyes and a dark lip colour where my norm so I stayed with that and my hair was loose and slightly curled. The whole process was relaxing; I had always felt like this when getting my make-up done. When I was done I made my way over to the promo area, on my way I bumped into the Bella twins tonight I was facing Nikki to carry on from my treatment of her during the Wrestlemania match.

"Oh, someone's looking good" Nikki sang as she hugged me
"This? This is nothing," I laughed
"You ready for tonight" she grinned as she tossed her hair over her shoulder
"My Smackdown debut of course" I couldn't contain my grin
"And about Eva, don't worry about her. Her ego is bigger than her head, she's like that with all newbies" Nikki said as she patted my arm reassuringly
"I'm trying to forget about her. I have more important things to worry about" I flashed a smile
"That's spirit. I'll see you later" she chuckled before herself and Brie headed off in the other direction

I skipped through backstage as I tired to find the promo area. I spied Colby leaning against one of the set up road cases, but Jon hadn't arrived yet. Great, it would be just the two of us and I wasn't sure how this would go from our conversations the last two days.

"Hey" I smiled shyly as stood infront of him
"Hey"

I could already feel the awkward tension between us. We were never like this, even when we first met it was never this awkward.

"So this is the new ring gear Paul was talking about?" he asked, I seen him looking me up and down
"Yeah, guess it is. It's my style but I don't think it's Rogues" I could help but giggle
"Looks good on you"

I couldn't help but fiddle with my bracelets pulling the few on my right hand up and down.

"You still have the tattoo?" he asked, I didn't think he could see it but it seemed he had
"Yeah. It was painful enough to get I don't wanna imagine lasering it off" I half laughed
"The same reason why I still have mine" he said raising his left wrist and relieving the same ornate lettering style of mine but instead of a "C" it was a "G".
"Why did we do that again?" I laughed as I adjusted my bracelets
"Because we were drunk and nothing better to do"
"Sounds like something I'd suggest alright" I shyly smiled as I looked at my feet
"For a Irish woman could never handle few drinks" he chuckled
"Are you calling me a lightweight Lopez?" I laughed as I light pushed his arm
"Not as such"

This is what I missed about Colby, just talking with him and laughing. But I knew that were couldn't ignore the elephant in the room but for now I was happy to not acknowledge right now.

"You two aren't fighting? Well I didn't think this would happen today" Jon laughed announcing his arrival

"Jonathan Good, I was going to kill you. Or a least slap you"

"Yeah I guess that's what's happening now," Colby laughed as he rubbed the back of head

Not long after that the camera crew and creative team arrived and walked us through what they had planned for promos. It was just a simply that I would be warming up for my match and Colby and Jon would appearing around the corner and the two of them would basically check me out from afar. I had no lines as such I was there just to look pretty. It would start up the heated rivalry over me.

After we had cut the promo the boys headed off to get ready for their match and I did the same. Their match wasn't till later on tonight but mine was second on the card. I made my way to catering to grab a snack before I went to get ready. As I sat at one of the table with a bottle of water and sandwich Nattie and Brie joined me.

"Hey guys" I grinned as they sat down
"Are you busy tomorrow we were thinking of doing some shopping and then maybe getting lunch, wanna join us?" Brie smiled as she opened her bottle of water
"I haven't anything planned so I'd love to" I beamed
"Fantastic" Nattie clapped
"I need some retail therapy it's been a rough week" I sighed
"Gem, what's up?"

I didn't want to pour my heart out to them, the less people who knew of my past with Colby the better.

"The whole thing with Eva Marie is starting to get on my nerves and the creative changed the storyline with the shield, now it's a love triangle with me, Ambrose and Rollins" I sighed
"Yeah I seen what she wrote on twitter and she's become more annoying since you landed on the scene" Nattie said
"And don't worry about the storyline. A love storyline could be good for you, that's how I met Brian. Dean and Seth are good looking guys so you knew know" Brie grinned
"And plus you have a history with Dean, you said so yourself" she added
"I'm not looking for anything at moment Brie. I'm happy being single right now, too much bad relationship in the past" I sighed as I picked at my sandwich
"I wasn't either at the time but look what happened" she smiled as she shrugged her shoulders

I didn't want to think about men or relationships. I had been single for 5 years, ever since Colby. I felt like that I couldn't trust anyone and I still feel that. But over the years I had a few one-night stands here and there. But I couldn't ever see myself in a relationship with either Jon or Colby. Jon was like a brother to me and Colby. I just didn't know where my feelings for him were and I didn't want to start looking for them.

"Well let's make tomorrow total relaxing. Don't worry. But we should tell you the total divas film crew will be following us" Nattie said, her tone sounding sad at the end
"I don't mind that. Just as long as anything personal stays off camera"
"We'll make that happen"

I glanced at my phone; it was time to get ready for my match with Nikki.

"Sorry guys, I gotta run. Match is starting soon and I'm doing The Shield's entrance tonight solo" I grinned as I grabbed my water bottle and what was left with my sandwich
"Ohhh fancy. Good luck Hun" Nattie smiled

I threw my bottle and sandwich in the bin as I left catering and made my way towards the turnstiles where I was greeted by a security team, lucky enough the turnstiles where quite as the first match was underway and not much of the universe knew I was going out like this tonight. But when I reached the stands, fans spotted me and they went crazy but the security team kept me safe.

You can look but you can't touch …

Nikki's entrance music played throughout the arena and she made her way onto the top of the ram.

"The following divas match is set for one. Introducing first from Scottsdale Arizona, Nikki Bella" Lilian Garcia announced through the microphone

Nikki continued her entrance and she leaned against the ropes as she awaited my arrival.

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This was it, my first entrance through the sea of people

"And her opponent, from Dublin Ireland and The Shield member. Rogue!"

I made my way down the steps as the crowd cheered around me; security was ahead of me making sure the crowd didn't interrupt me as I headed down the steps. I took cues from the boys and high fived fans as I pasted. When I reached the barrier I front rolled over it and landed on my feet. I climbed onto the curtain and used the ropes to backflip into the ring. I pulled my scarf from my face and made my way over the corner of the ring to greet the crowd from the top rope.

After the match

1…2…3

"And here is your winner … Rogue" I rolled from the pin and quickly exited the ring and took my celebration on the ramp, I skipped up the ramp and taunted Nikki from the stage then I quickly ducked behind the gorilla. When I was back in the locker room, I carried out my post match stretch, as the locker room was empty the other divas where wandering backstage or watching the other matches. I touched up my make-up, and fixed my hair since I was due back on camera for the boys match later tonight. As I running a brush through my hair, there was a quite knock on the door. I turned and smiled as I seen Jon leaning against the doorframe.

"You know you might make it in the big leagues kid with talent like that" he laughed
"Hmm, not that's the first time I've heard that" I giggled

Jon closed the door behind him and took a seat on one of the benches.

"Irish, we need to talk" he said sternly
"I am in trouble or something? Cause I'm getting that feeling from you" I slightly panicked
"Not in that kinda trouble. But I still think your in trouble but it depends how you see it" he calmly said
"Hit me Ohio"
"I'm getting the feeling that Colby is still in love with you," he said as he sat up straight in his seat

I needed to get my head around this. Still in love with me? I thought somewhere maybe he had feelings for me but he couldn't still love me. It had been 5 years.

"What's making you think this Jon, it doesn't make sense. It's been 5 years and I had for feelings for him anymore, I presumed he felt the same" I questioned him
"Since you've come back into the picture he's don't nothing but talk about you, but not on how pissed he was when you left but how he's missed you and all that jazz" he explained
"Like today after the promo. I couldn't shut him up, and during your match was worse. His smile seemed to get bigger and bigger with every minute and he kept saying, "I taught her that" every time you pulled off a move that he taught you. I wasn't going to say anything but with this storyline we're all in it could get worse"
"Maybe he's just being friendly Jon, and like I'm a piece of his past maybe he can't help but think back to old days" I said quickly,
"I don't think so Gem, just watch yourself with him" he warned me
"Jon, we don't have to worry about that. I don't want him"
"You say that now. But things can change"
"Well I have some pre-match things to get to, so I'll see you out there in a bit" he smiled as he patted me on shoulder
"Just wanted to fill you in," he added as he rose from his seat
"Thanks Jon, but you have nothing to worry about" I smiled

As Jon left, I went back to fixing my hair. Could Jon be right? Could Colby still love me? I just hoped he was wrong.

I grabbed my phone and went to my playlist and threw on some music. I had decided on Have faith in me by A Day to Remember, as I got lost in the music I began to sing.

Colby

I seen Jon coming out of the divas locker room, he must have been talking to Gemma but he went off in the other direction to myself. Then I heard music coming from the room, I inched closer and I heard a voice singing, it was Gemma. She was singing along to a Day to Remember songs, I never knew she was a fan of them. I leaned against the wall as I listened to her sing; it was something I never heard her do in the 3 years we were together. Her voice was perfect, how she hid this from anyone was beyond me. I'd been thinking more and more about her of late, every since I seen her at Wrestlemania I couldn't get her out of my head. I needed her back in my life but I knew that was going to be a tough task. And that's when it hit me; I was still in love with her.

Another full day of writing yesterday just to get this out to you guys :) hopefully I can get more down in the evenings this week but with work getting more busy i'll see :/
But i'm starting to love writing this story, I have the end planned but I just had to figure out a plot to get there lol
Enjoy
GemGemxx